Jiutian Liansheng

To wake up, or not to wake up?

To open, or not to open?

Is he awake, or is he still dreaming?Half asleep and half awake, but dare not open his eyes.

What are you afraid of?

I'm afraid, I'm afraid that when I open my eyes, I'll find that there's nothing around me, I'm afraid that after I open my eyes, I'll see a man leaving with a blank face, and I'm afraid that I won't be able to bear the pain again.

Why are you hugging me?

Zhang Yiping really wanted to ask this question, but he didn't dare to ask.

Lin Anzhi is only 16 years old. Although Lin Anzhi is very different from ordinary 16-year-old people, in Zhang Yiping's eyes, Lin Anzhi is only 16 years old. Perhaps Lin Anzhi at 16 years old does not know much, let alone the real world. Love, at this time, may be just a momentary restlessness.

What's more, it was only because of "seduce" the youthful and ignorant Lin Anzhi a few months ago.

Is this the answer?

Zhang Yiping opened his eyes. He can't live in a dream all his life. He always faces reality. After he opened his eyes and saw the sleeping young man hugging him beside him, Zhang Yiping already understood that no matter what Lin Anzhi It doesn't matter how you hug him...

Lin Anzhi slept on the side with his eyes closed, very quiet, as if he was not breathing at all, but he was too close, and Zhang Yiping could clearly feel Lin Anzhi's breathing, long and even, with a faint icy breath spraying Beside, lingering in the breath, fascinated people.

Zhang Yiping didn't dare to move, for fear of waking Lin Anzhi up. He quietly and intently looked at the young man hugging him. He was only 16 years old, but he was already so handsome. How charming would be the young man who hugged him at this time.

Just as Zhang Yiping stared at Lin Anzhi in a daze, after a while, Lin Anzhi suddenly opened his eyes. He didn't feel confused after opening his eyes like ordinary people. Lin Anzhi's eyes were unusually clear, or maybe this man was confused. The time is too short for others to discover.

Zhang Yiping was stunned for a moment, he didn't expect Lin Anzhi to wake up suddenly, he didn't expect it.

Are you leaving again?Zhang Yiping inevitably thought of their first time again. At that time, Lin Anzhi left without a sound after waking up, without saying a word, without turning around, so ruthless.

"What are you looking at?" Squinting his eyes, Lin Anzhi didn't look like a 16-year-old youth in any way. Looking at Zhang Yiping who was staring at him stupidly, Lin Anzhi reached out and rubbed the man hard. head.

"Master...Master, I'll make breakfast." His hair, which was already a little fluffy and messy, became even more messy under Lin Anzhi's ravages. Zhang Yiping said softly with a bitter face that he wanted to escape. His throat was a bit dry and hoarse, but Zhang Yiping found that compared with his dry and hoarse throat, his body was so weak. He just sat up from the bed and almost fell down.

He obviously wanted to hug the young man next to him for a while, but Baoshi wanted to run away and calm down because of his nervousness at this moment. Humans are such a contradiction.

"I'm not hungry, stay with me for a while." Pulling back Zhang Yiping who had already pulled off the quilt and sat up, Lin Anzhi stuffed the man into his arms, resting his legs on Zhang Yiping's waist, his eyes wide open. Closed and fell asleep again.

"En." Replied softly, Zhang Yiping, who was inexplicably exhausted, soon fell asleep in Lin Anzhi's arms.

When Zhang Yiping woke up again, it was already evening like last time, what's wrong?Zhang Yiping sat on the bed strangely, even if he was tired, he shouldn't have slept for so long?

The bed next to him was icy cold, Lin Anzhi should have been away for a while.

Zhang Yiping found that there was a note on the bedside. It turned out to be a message written by Lin Anzhi. Zhang Yiping quickly took the note and read it. There was not much written on it. I took the medicine placed next to my head, and I could only take one, and I couldn't take any more.

A delicate little bottle was indeed placed on the bedside. Zhang Yiping reached out and held it in the palm of his hand. An indescribable warmth filled his heart. This should be the time when Lin Anzhi cared more about him.

Opening the small bottle, a faint scent came over his face, Zhang Yiping poured out the pills in the bottle, a small red pill, I don't know what it is made of, and I don't know what it is for, exuding A faint charming sweetness.

Zhang Yiping took the pills according to Lin Anzhi's words, and suddenly felt a sudden strength in his body. The medicine Lin Anzhi gave him must be a good thing, otherwise how could it be so effective?Originally, he planned to go to the hospital to see if there was any problem with his body, but after taking the medicine, Zhang Yiping gave up the idea.

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After that day, Lin Anzhi didn't suddenly disappear and leave for a month like last time. Although he still slept in different rooms, Lin Anzhi often touched Zhang Yiping's room with the man at night.

Strange to say, since taking the little red pill once, Zhang Yiping didn't feel weak the next day after spending the night with Lin Anzhi, and he didn't sleep until night like before, so he gradually Yes, Zhang Yiping also left this matter behind.

The relationship after this often makes Zhang Yiping a little confused, is it a lover?It is obvious that Lin Anzhi has never said any words of love to Zhang Yiping, and the relationship between them is still distinct "Master and servant" on weekdays, and only at night, Zhang Yiping can directly call Lin Anzhi's name only.

They are not lovers, but they have been doing things between lovers.

Zhang Yiping knew very well in his heart that maybe Lin Anzhi touched him and hugged him just to solve some physical needs, that's all, nothing else.

Just like this, Zhang Yiping gradually moved into Lin Anzi's room. Even in this way, Zhang Yiping didn't really feel that there was any significant change in his relationship with Lin Anzhi.

One year passed, another year passed...

When Lin Anzhi was still alive, Lin Jiu and Mietian came back to celebrate Lin Anzhi's coming-of-age ceremony. In front of Lin Jiu and Mietian, Lin Anzhi behaved very normally. The so-called normal does not mean that anyone will notice There was a little ambiguous relationship between Lin Anzhi and Zhang Yiping.

Only after Lin Jiu and Mietian left, Lin Anzhi hugged Zhang Yiping passionately after patience.

Lin Anzhi and Zhang Yiping are 26 years old. During the two years they lived together, Zhang Yiping had a habit of taking a small red pill that Lin Anzhi once gave him every two months on average.

Two months after taking the small red pill for the first time, Zhang Yiping began to feel unwell, fatigue, dizziness, brain swelling, and chest tightness on the second day of love as before.

When I went to the hospital, the doctor said that he was in good health, but he was malnourished and overworked, so he should take a good rest.

Zhang Yiping was surprised, he was malnourished?Overworked?He didn't do anything particularly tiring on weekdays!

Then one day, he found the small medicine bottle that Lin Anzhi had given him in the bedside table. Zhang Yiping suddenly remembered that he had forgotten to return the medicine to Lin Anzhi, and Lin Anzhi seemed to have forgotten too.

With the mood of giving it a try, Zhang Yiping took another small red pill, but he didn't expect it to really work, but the effect of the small pill was limited, which led Zhang Yiping to take it every two months.

This continued until the third year, when Zhang Yiping gradually realized that the dosage once every two months was no longer enough, and his body seemed to be getting weaker and weaker. After so many years, Zhang Yiping could detect it even if he was a fool. Every time Lin An got into bed, his body would become a little weaker.

Or could it be said... a lost life?

Does Lin Anzhi know about such things?Zhang Yiping sometimes thinks about this question, if Lin Anzhi finds out, will he touch him again?What does it mean if you still hug him after knowing it?

Didn't Lin Anzhi notice the changes in himself?It's still that man who only cares about venting his desire...

Zhang Yiping quickly put these thoughts behind him, and there were only two paths in front of him, either to reject Lin Anzhi, or to serve a man who had never spoken a word of love and made no promises at the cost of his life. , is just a man who simply uses him to solve his physical needs.

What else can I do?Anyway, his relatives in this world have all left.

No friends, only one Lin Anzhi, this is Zhang Yiping's life, a promise made at the age of eight, to follow this man all his life until he was abandoned by Lin Anzhi.

It's just that Zhang Yiping didn't expect that his time would be so short. After only one year, something happened, which made the accident happen suddenly...