Chang'an ancient meaning

As soon as he entered Shangyang Palace, there was the sound of horseshoes behind him, Liang Wang Wu Sansi in brocade robes rode his horse to catch up, and said with a smile: "Shangguan Zande!" Shangguan Wan'er just nodded slightly inside the curtain: "The king is Shengchang." Wu Sansi smiled and said: "Zande left the palace?" Shangguan Wan'er still just said "yes", Wu Sansi said with a smile: "My aunt praised me the day before yesterday for my well-built Mingtang, and rewarded me with a house in Shangshanfang. It’s next to Princess Taiping’s mansion, I wonder if you can work for Zand to write some poems for me?”

Shangguan Wan'er looked at Wu Sansi's complacent face through the shadowy crystal beads, and sneered in her heart: Xue Shao is in prison, Wu Chengsi and Wu Sansi both regard Taiping as a rare commodity, and they are coming to fight for it .What do they think Princess Taiping is?A woman who can dress up, smear, have fun and have children?She said lightly: "Dare not to obey."

A few days later, all the ministers in the court learned that Xue Shaoyu, the son-in-law who received the cane, died in prison.In the Lianchang Palace a hundred miles away, Princess Taiping gave birth prematurely and gave birth to a girl who lost her father.

A few autumn rains rest for a while, and the world is slightly cool.A few clouds in the light blue sky, like a few white blemishes in jasper, make the sky clear and clean.The trees in the courtyard are bleak and rustling, like a harp played to a low place, turning lingeringly.Li Chengqi's eyes passed the bachelor who entered the Tao, and looked out of the door in a daze. The white silk coat on his body was as cool and slippery as water, reminding him that the dead are like husbands, and it has been more than three months since Xue Shao passed away. .

Li Chengqi hadn't seen Hua Nu for a long time. Because his aunt Princess Taiping was born prematurely and was weak, the Emperor of God sent many imperial doctors to Lianchang Palace. Princess Taiping had been recuperating for three months before returning to the capital of God.Hua Nu should have come back with his mother, but he still didn't come to school today, and Li Chengqi was more disappointed and worried than ever before facing the little desk that had been vacant for more than a hundred days in the morning.

He couldn't imagine how others would tell his aunt about the cruel fact that Xue Shao had passed away, and how his aunt would tell Hua Nu.Because of the distance of more than 100 miles, Li Chengqi couldn't walk into their sorrow, couldn't share it, and couldn't comfort him. He could only guess with his own imagination. Haunted back and forth in his mind, tortured him exhausted.

He was afraid that Hua Nu would come back, and also afraid that he would not come back.Because he had never personally witnessed Xue Shao's death, he would sometimes foolishly fantasize that maybe those terrible news were just a dream he had, and his uncle was still there.One day when he wakes up, he will see his uncle leading the bouncing flower slave to school, and the flower slave laughs and calls: "Cousin! Let's go horseback riding after class!" The bell on his feet rings crisply...

He has grown up so much that he still doesn't have a realistic understanding of the eternal separation between man and nature.The pain in his heart was hazy and intense. He stared at the courtyard in a daze. The sky was dotted with white clouds. Forever and ever, why did that gentle and jade-like person disappear?

Suddenly he was shaken by a few clear ringtones, the sound was faintly visible in the quiet autumn trees, he thought it was his own illusion - until that familiar figure flashed out, and the faint autumn sun spread his shadow obliquely On the ground, he was led in by an servant and hurried in, his footsteps were a little eager and a little procrastinated.He looked up and saw Li Chengqi, and suddenly stuck out his tongue and smiled at him, just like in the past when he was late, knowing that he had caused trouble, and deliberately pretending to be coquettish to deny it.

Li Chengqi was hurt by this smile, and something as hard as a stone hit his chest, trying to smash him to pieces.

Xue Chongjian took off his shoes outside the hall, ran to his seat, and sat down with his legs apart, still without elegance.The teenagers in the hall turned their heads in unison. They were also surprised and curious. The sad news of Xue Shao had spread all over the city. The bachelor who was going to lecture had never seen Xue Chongjian before. Taking it out of the stationery box, the expressions and movements are the unique cleverness and rebelliousness of an eight-year-old child.All the people in the hall were looking at Xue Chongjian. They had never felt so uneasy, as if they were holding a blister in their palms, and they were afraid that if they moved, it would shatter.

The gentleman was stunned for a moment before he realized something was wrong. He coughed lightly to cover up his embarrassment, then turned around and continued to recite with a solemn expression: "Only for the funeral of parents, walk when you see the stars, and give up when you see the stars. If you can't do it, then After the clothes are ready..." He suddenly realized that this sentence was so inappropriate, he quickly slipped it away, and then continued: "...After the country is over, cry, and stop mourning. The meaning of this sentence is The 'border' of the same border 'border'..."

Xue Chongjian listened for a moment with his face up, his rosy mouth half-opened, but as usual, he didn't seem to understand, and ignored the teacher in the hall who was shaking his head, and took out a stack of books from his stationery box .Xue Chongjian likes to listen to stories, especially the stories of the founding heroes of this dynasty who conquered from east to west. Princess Taiping ordered the painters in the mansion to paint for her son "Gaozu personally conquered Wang Shichong", "King Qin defeated Liu Wuzhou", "Xue Rengui's three arrows set Tianshan", "Wang Xuance single-handedly challenged Tianzhu" and other interesting stories are drawn into albums.Those painters were selected by the Queen Mother from the palace painting academy to reward Princess Taiping. It would be a pity to kill chickens with a sledgehammer to let them paint such children's albums, but they dare not disobey the princess and perfunctory, and paint the characters lifelike. The color is fragrant.Xue Chongjian brought these picture albums to the Chongfu Hall, and the eyes of the young men shone enviously.

Xue Chongjian was lying on the table, flipping through the pages with relish, and the gentleman who was giving the lecture was slightly relieved.

Li Chengqi didn't know what he heard in class for the first time. Fortunately, others were also absent-minded. The teacher didn't even explain the detailed meaning of each sentence. Speaking of "Shenyi No.30 Nine".A group of students couldn't figure it out, so they didn't dare to ask questions. They kept squinting at the hourglass in the corner of the hall, wondering why the sand fell so slowly today?

After class was over, the teacher kowtowed and was ushered out by the waiter. Li Chengqi stood up and wanted to go to Hua Nu, but he looked around blankly, unable to find a suitable expression or a suitable word.The teenagers who attended the reading also stayed in their seats and did not dare to move. The silence at that moment was really like a string stretched tightly, unable to hold it, and it was about to break.

But Xue Chongjian raised his head suddenly, and asked in surprise, "Is class over?" He threw the album on the box, got up and ran to Li Chengqi's side and smiled, "Cousin, I'm back! I miss you so much!" Li Chengqi didn't know what was going on with him. Putting together an ugly smile, he carefully stroked Xue Chongjian's head, fearing that touching him would hurt him, and said with difficulty: "...Cousin, I miss you too."

Xue Chongjian shook his sleeves and said, "Let's go horseback riding! I haven't ridden a horse for a long time, and my mother won't let me ride over there. I haven't seen Ayu for so long, will he not recognize me?" Li Chengqi was even a little dazed, Don't Hua Nu know?He was dragged out of the door by Xue Chongjian, and tried to search with his eyes. Outside the hall, the plantains were covered with dew, the clear water contained smoke, the new moss was green after the rain, and the leaves were yellow when the wind moved. He finally realized that his uncle would never appear under that ginkgo tree again.

Xue Chongjian tugged at his sleeve and said, "My mother and I played with water over there. The water from a spring is hot and gurgles. It's fun! Next time my cousin will go with me!"

"it is good."

"By the way, I have another little sister. She was born small and dark, like a little monkey, but she has become more beautiful now, with a red mouth. When I kiss her, she licks me. face! My nanny said I was just as ugly as her when I was born, so I don't believe it!"

Li Chengqi clenched his hand and said, "Huanu is the prettiest, she has always been pretty."

When they arrived at the polo field, the servant brought out the horses they used to ride, and arranged the colored balls.Xue Chong Jiance immediately stepped forward and swung the cue. Everyone's eyes followed the ball through a smooth curve, and saw the ball fly into the sky, far beyond the goal, and fly to the sidelines.Xue Chongjian likes to play ball. In addition to playing with Li Chengqi in the palace, he also has a court at home. After two years, his game skills have far surpassed Li Chengqi. He rarely misses in the past, and it is really rare to play like this.Li Chengqi felt pain in his heart, and was about to go up to play with him, but he saw Xue Chongjian suddenly dropped the club and kicked the horse's belly with his right foot.

Li Chengqi was stunned, thinking that he was going to pick up the ball, but Xue Chongjian ran to the boundary of the court, and still didn't stop, he went straight out of the court and headed towards Mingtang.With a rumble in his heart, Li Chengqi hurriedly rode his horse to chase him, shouting: "Hurry up, catch up to him!" Several servants couldn't see what was wrong, so they picked up the horse poles that were about ten feet long, and got on their horses one after another. to chase.The little white shadow in front of them jumped and flickered in front of them, they didn't expect that docile pony to have such decisive speed.

The soft autumn wind cut Li Chengqi's face, and he wanted to cry in pain.

Amidst the loud drum noise of the servants behind him, the surprised eyes of Liang Wang Wu Sansi and his servants under the Ming Hall, and Li Chengqi's almost broken heartache, Xue Chongjian's horse suddenly stopped in front of the towering Ming Hall.The little white horse was not quite used to such a violent braking, and with a high-pitched and sharp long neigh, the two front hooves stood up, and Xue Chongjian's body was almost thrown out by him, with his legs still firmly clamping the horse's belly , Tighten the rein with both hands.

The scorching sun of autumn hangs like a huge crown on the cornice of the Mingtang, and it is the first time that the sky and the earth are so perfectly connected.This person and horse are bathed in this golden veil-like light, they are still too young, they are still babies at all, and it will take several years to grow into shape.But the light and the background stunned the space, and the proud posture of the white horse kicking reminded the servants of some old legends: Emperor Taizong reined in Tianshan.

Li Chengqi shouted loudly: "Huanu!"

Several servants rushed up, even though the little white horse had stopped, they still wrapped the leather ring on the harness pole around the little white horse's neck with lingering fear, and the white horse stamped its hooves aggrievedly, making a low snort.Xue Chongjian turned over and jumped off the horse, turned around, and said to Li Chengqi with a smile on his face: "It's still fun to ride a horse!" Behind him is a magnificent and nearly completed Mingtang.

Xue Chongjian stayed in the East Palace that night, and Li Chengqi sent someone to report to Princess Taiping's mansion. Only two wet nurses came to the Princess' mansion, and brought some toys and clothes for Xue Chongjian to change tomorrow.The maids smoked the quilts, lit the incense balls, closed the screens, and lowered the curtains.The light outside dimmed in an instant, but there was still a bit of dim light. The curtains that had just been lowered shook slightly, and the bamboo shadows painted on the screen seemed to come alive.The world in the tent is also the same as outside, with the frosty moonlight looming behind the dark clouds, and the rustling bamboo shadows swaying in the wind.

The bells and drums in the city of Shendu have passed the second watch, and the iron horses outside the eaves are ringing cautiously with the sound of the wind, and the lotus flowers in the room are falling drop by drop, regardless of the passing away No one listened to its singing, and still sang persistently.Li Chengqi was used to hearing these voices, and he was completely unaware of their existence on weekdays, but now everything became clear with a bit of malice.

Li Chengqi's neck was pressed against the porcelain pillow, it was so cold that he put his whole head in ice water, he wanted to push it away, but he was afraid of disturbing the flower slave lying beside him.He could see Hua Nu's round face through the faint light of a lone star in the incense ball, and his long eyelashes blinked and blinked again.He knew that Hua Nu was not asleep either, and the endless words accumulated for more than 100 days filled Li Chengqi's chest and lingered around his mouth.He had to put his hands together and bite his lips with his teeth, trying to block them all.

Xue Chongjian counted the sounds of dripping water in his heart, 580 one, 580 two, tick, tick, that sound really sounded like someone had suffered a great grievance, but could not speak out, cut off the longing, only mourning, so unhurried Crying and crying, has been crying for many years.Because of this cry, many things were drilled into his little head. The heart-piercing cry of the mother when she gave birth, and the weak cry of the little sister, as if she was about to die at any time, made him tremble with fear. Silenced crying with the sisters around.It was strange for him. For the first time, he realized that there were so many people crying around him, including himself.

He turned over, but still couldn't sleep.There seemed to be something missing in his body, and there seemed to be something missing in his heart.He remembered that before he went to sleep on the bed of his father and his mother, sleeping between them, his father's hand patted his buttocks, and the fragrance of his mother's body was like a cloud, enveloping him little by little. body wrapped up.Although he knew that they would still hug him apart when he fell asleep, he still liked to fall asleep in the care of the two of them.

Xue Chongjian burrowed into Li Chengqi's quilt, and he called softly: "Cousin." He was only wearing a belly wrap, and his cool and soft skin stuck to Li Chengqi's body, which surprised Li Chengqi: "Huanu? What's wrong?" He hurriedly covered Xue Chongjian with his quilt.Xue Chongjian said: "Cousin, pat me."

What he said was extremely plain, just like they used to eat at the same table. He said, cousin, I want to eat partridge legs, and Li Chengqi tore a leg for him; they wrote together, he said, cousin give me a pen , Li Chengqi soaked his pen in ink; they were playing hot, he said, my cousin fanned me, Li Chengqi took a handful of instant noodles, and chased the flushed flower slave to fan him.Because you know you are loved, you can ask for it calmly.

At this moment, Li Chengqi's heart was stabbed lightly by an inexplicable sourness, he stretched out his arm out of the quilt, and patted Hua Nu gently.Xue Chongjian didn't move, and there was still a comparison in his heart. My cousin's hands were really small, and his strength was also weak. He only felt a little when he patted on his body through the quilt, but he took it as seriously as his father.It's not lazy at all, and the rhythm is neither fast nor slow, telling him that he can sleep in peace in this care and love, and the person who loves him is still guarding him by his side, and will never disappear.

He sighed with satisfaction, closed his eyes, and the sleepiness finally slowly enveloped him.When he was about to go to sleep, he suddenly remembered something again, and said, "Cousin, I will never leave home for so long again, hot springs are not fun at all." Xue Chongjian breathed on his face as he spoke, taking the child Unique warmth and humidity.Li Chengqi was stunned, not knowing how to answer, so he continued to pat him.

After a long time, Li Chengqi called softly: "Flower slave." Xue Chongjian held Li Chengqi's arm, and his body undulated slightly smoothly, so he had already fallen asleep.Li Chengqi didn't say any more, his arm slapped Hua Nu, feeling a little stable and sore, at last he was tired from singing, the wind died down, and the iron horse stopped making any noise, leaving only the clear and clear voice in the long silence. in the night.

Many years later, when Li Chengqi heard Genglou again and again, he would remember again and again, Hua Nu said to him that night, cousin, I will never leave home for so long again.Every night, he counted the days when Hua Nu left, ten days, one month, one year, two years, three years... It was only then that he realized that when they were children, they still didn't understand the length and cruelty of time. understanding.