Chang'an ancient meaning

Xue Chongjian was blamed today to appease the emperor, he knew that if he wore clothes, the suffering would be in vain.Out of the corner of his eyes, he glanced at the man in the hall, his face blushed, and he comforted himself in his heart: it was not the first time.Gather up the courage to untie the belt, take off the trousers, and then pull up the robe. The cool silk brushes over the naked skin on the buttocks, just like the gurgling water flowing on the body when I took a bath with Li Chengqi that day.There was an inexplicable strangeness in his heart, and he still had some anticipation in his fear and shame. No matter how much it hurts today, after the pain is over, will he be able to see him again?

Xue Chongjian took off his clothes so obediently, but the servants who were in charge of the execution were stunned. The two came up to press down his wrists and shoulders as usual, but Xue Chongjian held the torture bed tightly with both arms.The two of them tugged and did not pull away, so he had to let him hold his shoulders.

Seeing that the punishment had been properly suppressed, the two servants who were in charge of the punishment stood still on both sides of Xue Chongjian, raised their wooden sticks, and slammed down heavily on Xue Chongjian's buttocks.Xue Chongjian only heard a slap, and before he had time to think about anything, his body shook violently involuntarily following the sound.Fortunately, the servants on both sides had already been on guard, and they suddenly put more force on their hands and pushed his upper body back. From the eyes of others, his chest was just trembling.Only Xue Chongjian could feel how the strength of the heavy wooden stick, together with the strength of the arm of the person walking the stick, turned into a dull pain that penetrated directly into the flesh, and quickly transmitted a burst of paralysis to every inch of bone in his body.When the stick left, the pain gathered and became clearer, as if a piece of flesh had been peeled off.

Xue Chongjian gritted her teeth tightly, and from the corner of her eye, she saw the staff on the other side raised high, taking advantage of this precious little emptiness, she quickly took a deep breath.None of these pains were new to him, and knowing when it was hardest was a gift for him to take a break.It's just that every experience is still so intense that it goes straight to the heart. His fear and courage are entangled in this pain that makes people unable to persist and inescapable, rising and falling with the indifferent board.

Wu Linglan knelt on the ground, holding her mouth with trembling hands.She was under the light last night, and the boy's body, which was too late to see clearly because of the intoxication and pain, was now undisguised beside her.The narrow buttocks and slender thighs were as translucent as if they were piled with fresh buttermilk, which made the sound of the cane falling so painful to her heart.Because the whip marks have not yet swelled up after two boards were beaten, the two balls of warm jade are just stained with a peach blossom color, just like the Duanyang Festival, when the palace maid deliberately put a layer of rouge on the pastry.In a trance, Wu Linglan had the illusion that she could feel the scorching temperature of last night just by touching it with her hand.

She stared blankly at a man's body, and for the first time in her life, she didn't feel ashamed.This body is familiar but unfamiliar to her. She really knew him from the smile on the wall yesterday.But her body has already been taken by this person, his soft skin, her fingers, these most beautiful and fragile things in the world, were once so close to each other.

Xue Chongjian didn't know whether it was because of Wu Linglan's presence, or because he had grown up in the past two years. Now that he was beaten naked in front of others, he could no longer yell like he was when he was a child, but he instinctively gritted his teeth and endured it.His pain had no place to vent, it gathered in his body into a hurricane rushing around in all directions, making his heart sore and painful, so he had to try his best to listen to the number of sticks counted by the waiter beside him in a difficult voice.After seven or eight blows, he was sweating profusely in pain when he suddenly remembered that the emperor didn't give the stick this time.This desperation came with a heavy blow, and it had already landed on the swollen skin. The tip of the heart seemed to have been gouged out by a red-hot knife, and the eyes suddenly went black.He felt that the sting of sweat in his eyes was very uncomfortable, but he didn't dare to raise his hand to wipe it off. The only thing he can maintain his courage now is the body temperature that he imagined, that person left on this torture bed.

Wu Linglan was completely powerless being held in her mother's arms, only her eyes were free. She saw that fair skin gradually turned red and purple under repeated beatings. Although she couldn't hear Xue Chongjian's moan, she could only hear the heavy The clear and clear sound also knew what kind of torture he was suffering.Xue Chongjian frowned tightly, but it showed his handsome eyebrows even more. The sweat gradually seeping from his forehead hung on his ink-painted eyebrows. With the trembling of his body, he swayed, swayed again, and finally Suddenly fell to the ground.

There was a buzzing sound in Wu Linglan's head, and she swayed in dizziness, so that Princess Liang thought her daughter had been frightened and softened, so she hugged her head and neck towards her, not wanting her to look at it again.But it was too late, Wu Linglan knew that she had seen it, and the gorgeous oath contained in that drop of sweat swept away her soul and body like a majestic river.She knew the pain of that oath, just like what she experienced last night.The slender legs trembled nervously and relaxed with the ups and downs of the walking sticks on both sides, exactly the same as the excitement when he entered his body last night.

Gaotang Misty Rain last night was like a magnificent and ethereal dream, he was a person who fell from the sky, like a flying willow leaf flying over the wall and landed on her soft chest.She couldn't see his light clearly, and she couldn't catch him even though she loved him so much, so she felt faint fear and grievance in her heart.But now his eyes trembling with pain are more sincere than any seductive smile from last night. His pain, his struggle and persistence are right next to her, so real, and become the most equal token between them.

After twenty sticks or so, Xue Chongjian's buttocks began to be covered with bruised and swollen marks, and after one stick, a line of blood finally splashed out from the thin skin that had reached its limit.Xue Chongjian's whole body convulsed violently, his brain was numb from the blow from the stick, his trembling teeth could no longer be clenched together, his head and neck were raised violently, and an extremely suppressed moan escaped from the gap between his teeth.

Concubine Liang suddenly saw an extremely sad but satisfied expression on her daughter's face. Although she didn't know why this expression came from, she was instinctively afraid. Just as she was about to hug her daughter tightly, Wu Linglan pushed her mother away fiercely. Crying: "Auntie, kill him! I'm not alive anymore!" Wu Chongxun beside him exclaimed: "Little sister!" He stretched out his hand to grab it, and the fiery pomegranate red dress escaped from his palm. , slammed into the wall quickly.

When Xue Chongjian was in so much pain, when he heard a bang, he was frightened out of his wits for a moment, and cried out in pain: "Alan!" He wanted to jump up, but those servants who couldn't serve the emperor's order didn't dare to let go, and he was caught again. Just now, he had exhausted all his energy from the meal, and was just struggling feebly for a while.Princess Taiping, Wu Sansi, Concubine Liang, and Wu Chongxun all screamed and rushed over, the hall suddenly became a mess, and the servant with the walking stick didn't dare to beat him any more, and just stood there blankly with his board closed.

Wu Linglan slowly opened her eyes amidst her mother's cries. Although the dizziness caused by the collision just now almost dragged her into the darkness, she still clearly heard Xue Chongjian's voice calling her. This sound became the most sincere and lingering call she had ever heard in her life.The blood on her forehead flowed down, sticky and warm, she was not afraid, but felt that there was something lingering in the pain.The corners of her red lips pursed into a slightly proud and contemptuous smile, and she whispered to her mother, "I want to marry him, or I'll die again."

Concubine Liang couldn't bear it anymore, she hugged her daughter and cried loudly: "Zhaijia! Zhaijia is kind enough to fulfill them!" The emperor's chest rose and fell several times, she raised her hand, and said lightly: "Send her down, pass Medical officer." Wu Sansi looked at Xue Chongjian who was struggling and panting on the torture bed, and at his daughter who was bleeding all over her face, stomped her feet in resentment, picked up her daughter and ran out of the hall.Princess Taiping took a deep breath, walked slowly in front of the emperor and knelt down, looked at her mother and said softly: "Mother, Bao'er is the third brother's favorite, Chongxun married her, and King Liang and the third brother became family members." , the third brother will not treat Liang Wang badly. I like this child Alan, can you give her to me as a son-in-law?"

The emperor squinted at his daughter for a moment, then suddenly sneered and said, "He did such things without telling you, right? Parents in the world may not know what their children are thinking." Taiping's hands trembled slightly, but his gaze remained fixed. Wanluan was gentle, and said softly: "Yes, but parents all over the world love their children in the same way. Brother Sansi must be reluctant to force his own daughter to death."

Taiping smiled, with respectful cherry lips, this is the most suitable smile for a daughter and a courtier, and she has performed it perfectly for decades.The emperor wondered if this face was once in a certain shadow, and out of hatred, his white teeth bit his lower lip tightly, bleeding from the bite, and cursed in a voice he would never hear. The murderer of her husband.The queen smiled faintly, and her sons and daughters were still maintaining a respectful and docile, hypocritical face to deceive her. These grandchildren were no longer afraid to fight her with their lives.

Li Chengqi stayed in the Huixin courtyard for three days, but Zhang Yizhi just sent someone to feed him two mouthfuls of water every day to keep his life alive.He was not healed after receiving the rod, and soon became drowsy and had a fever. At first, he felt pain in the wound, hunger in his abdomen, and the stench around him was unbearable.After a day, all the pain seems to be gradually numb, and the mind is plunged into darkness.

In the calls, Li Chengqi gradually regained consciousness. The voice was familiar and eager, choked with sobs, and closely matched with his memory. Li Chengqi smiled sadly in his heart. Is he still having that dream again?In the dream, there are heart-breaking partings, and there are also pains like raindrops hitting the bone marrow, but knowing that after all the hardships, he will eventually be reunited with Hua Nu, so no matter what kind of pain, people are willing to endure it. Compared with the despair after waking up, There is always a little more kindness and hope.He shrank his body subconsciously, trying to help his sanity to sink into the dreamland, but he heard the shouting sound became clearer, like a bunch of morning sun jumping out of the mountain, gradually dispelling the smoke and water in the dream with dazzling light ablation.He felt his body shaking slightly, and the misty and noisy voice came from nowhere.

Li Chengqi opened his eyes dimly, and saw Xue Chongjian's anxious face in the dimness, which was closer and more real than any dream.With the faint light, he saw that he was crouching in an oil-walled car in which a woman was riding. The windows and doors were covered with curtains, and Xue Chongjian was kneeling beside him.His mind was awakened suddenly, and he finally believed that all this was not an illusion in his coma, and he struggled violently, as if he wanted to get up.Xue Chongjian gently held his shoulder, and pressed his forehead against Li Chengqi's hot forehead.His body that had been tense for the past few days suddenly relaxed, he almost collapsed when he let out a breath, choked up for a moment, and finally called out: "Cousin."

Because of Wu Linglan's astonishing act, the emperor pardoned Li Chengqi graciously, but Xue Chongjian insisted on refusing to go home to see his injury, so he took Li Chengqi out of Huixinyuan in his mother's car.Originally, there were tens of thousands of words on his lips. His grievances, anxiety, unwillingness, guilt, fear, and the pain all sank into the abyss the moment Li Chengqi opened his eyes.For holding hands at this moment, any price is worth it, and he is willing to bear all the sins.

After a while, Xue Chongjian heard Li Chengqi's hoarse panting, and saw his chapped lips trembling violently, suddenly remembered something, quickly picked up the water bottle beside him, poured a cup of warm water and brought it to Li Chengqi's lips.It was just clear water, but when Li Chengqi sniffed it, it exuded a sweet smell like Yang Zhiyu dew in the bottle of Avalokitesvara. He struggled to raise his head, and drank it in Xue Chongjian's hand.

When clear water flowed into his burning throat, a gut-wrenching cough broke out in his chest. Xue Chongjian hurriedly rubbed his back for him, and the long-lost tears finally oozed from the corners of Li Chengqi's eyes.He gasped for breath for a while, and said with difficulty: "Is there any more?" Xue Chongjian's heart ached unbearably, and he quickly poured another cup for Li Chengqi to drink slowly. After doing this three times, Li Chengqi's body sank again weakly.

Li Chengqi felt that Xue Chongjian's hand was still holding his own, so he gently pulled his hand out, and called out in a low voice: "Flower slave." Xue Chongjian said, "I'm here." A bitter smile appeared on the corner of Li Chengqi's mouth , said: "My body is too dirty." Xue Chongjian saw that his round-neck blue shirt was covered with mud and rotten straw, and knew that this kind of filth was the most unbearable thing for Li Chengqi, so he helped him take off his belt, and suddenly saw Li Chengqi's He moved his hand, understood his intention, removed the jade belt hook on the belt, and put it in his palm. Li Chengqi held his hand slowly and nodded.

Xue Chongjian took some effort to take off Li Chengqi's dirty coat. Seeing that the dried blood on his trousers had turned brown, and his eyes were sore again, he was helplessly stunned, so he took out his handkerchief and soaked it in water. , Wipe Li Chengqi's face, neck and hands.Li Chengqi broke free from the filthy shackles that had bound him for three days, before he let out a long breath, everything in the car was a little blurry, although Xue Chongjian was by his side, the distance between him was still unbearable, He only hoped that those hands could embrace him, and said softly, "Huanu, sit here."

Xue Chongjian was stunned, then smiled slightly, and said, "Okay." He slightly lifted Li Chengqi's shoulders, gritted his teeth and struggled to get up, the moment he sat down, his buttocks felt as if they were hit hard again, and it hurt so much There was a sudden darkness in front of him, cold sweat broke out all over his body, and he almost screamed.Li Chengqi was still a bit confused when he first came, and secondly, the light in the car was dim, Li Chengqi only felt Xue Chongjian's body tremble violently, and asked with a soft "Huh?"

Xue Chongjian didn't answer, he just tried to suppress his shortness of breath, and hugged Li Chengqi's body tightly into his arms.He bent down and put his face on the back of Li Chengqi's neck. He felt the pain wash over his body like a tidal wave. Every time the carriage jolted, he was worried that he would faint from the pain. But it is so peaceful and comfortable.Xue Chongjian thought, he is willing to turn his body into a bath bean and melt it on every inch of the skin of the person in his arms, then his body will be smashed to pieces, as long as this person can feel pure and happy.

Li Chengqi also stretched out his arms around Xue Chongjian's waist, and he sighed in satisfaction.He thought that he must have been spoiled by the day and night of the past six months. They were only separated for three days, and every movement of the sun, shadow and moon in Huixinyuan was worse than high fever, stick injury, hunger, and thirst. tortured his mind.He snuggled his face on Xue Chongjian's arm, and in his slow and dull mind, he suddenly thought of a line of poetry, going in and out of Jun's arms. What to say, I just feel that these five words are really lingering and infinite.It turns out that when you like someone, you will be so greedy and rogue about time and space, you want to be a fan in his sleeves in summer, a stove to warm your hands in winter, you want to stick to him, and never separate for a moment.

At this time, the bell announcing the end of the dynasty came from the Daming Palace. It was loud and melodious, solemn, grand and peaceful, announcing to the people all over the world that we lived in a world where the sea is clean and the rivers are clean, the rulers are bright and ministers are virtuous, and the world is full of treasures and treasures.All the officials rushed to the outside of the palace gate, looking for their slaves, horses, and vehicles. Because of hunger and anxiety, they pushed and shoved each other, and the palace gate supervisor couldn't stop them. hustle and bustle.Xue Chongjian's car was also caught in the heavy traffic, and he finally followed the officials out of the Royal Street, but the busy city was crowded with pedestrians and peddlers.The green ox pulling the cart was in vain and vigorous, so he could only slow down his pace, stop after three steps, sing and sigh three times, panting under the scorching sun.

The sounds of people, mules and horses outside were mixed together, but Xue Chongjian and Li Chengqi, in this dim carriage covered by curtains, temporarily stole a moment of quietness like the wind and rain.They are not suffering enough, they are not ignorant, they have committed the crime of greed, anger and lust. The current pain and wandering journey are the punishment of this crime.However, they are all willing, and only hope that the journey will be longer. If they can embrace each other like this in this life, even if the road they walk leads to the three-way hell, even if they are in the river of Styx where the flesh and bones can rot, they will feel peaceful and good.

Li Dan was sent into the palace by his mother this morning, even though he was very concerned about his son, he waited for the emperor to let him go before he dared to leave.As soon as he left the palace gate, he didn't care to show his face, he rode his horse and galloped back, and finally caught up with Xue Chongjian's car at the intersection of Longqingfang[1].The ox cart stopped in front of the Shouchun County Prince's Mansion and opened the curtain. Seeing his son's weakness, Li Dan's heart ached unbearably at first, and then he saw Xue Chongjian's face was extremely pale, and his lower lip was covered with deep tooth marks. He said in surprise: "Flower slave!" Xue Chongjian shook his head slightly at him, and carefully handed Li Chengqi over to the servants who got into the car. Li Chengqi still held hands with Xue Chongjian, and whispered, "Flower slave." Xue Chongjian forced a smile, He comforted him and said, "I'll be there soon." Seeing Li Chengqi being carried into the gate, he couldn't hold on any longer, and immediately fell down and knelt down, his arms propped up on the bottom of the carriage, just panting.

Li Dan had already heard about the fact that he was rode this morning in the palace, he was frightened for a moment, he didn't care to go in with Li Chengqi, he boarded the car himself, saw the blood on Xue Chongjian's buttocks had already stained the outside of the robe, his back His upper shirt was also torn by several whip wounds, and the top of his head was soaked in sweat, and the cold sweat still dripped down his ears.With pity and pain, Li Dan supported him and said in a low voice: "You are so injured, why don't you go to see a doctor?" Xue Chongjian shook his head and asked, "What should I do with grandma?" The lord of the city and county promised it to you, and hired a daughter of the Yuan family for him."

The Yuan family was the former royal family of the Northern Dynasty, and it has been an extremely prominent family for 60 years since it entered the Tang Dynasty. Even Xue Chongjian was a little surprised that the emperor would be so kind to Li Chengqi.He worked hard and did not hesitate to deceive that innocent girl. This is the result he wanted, but for some reason, he didn't feel the slightest joy in his heart. It rains like rain, and the sun rises brightly. The wind and rain are just a temporary thing for them. Dreaming about it, opening the curtain of the car, and the bright sun shining down, they still have to walk into these unwanted mortal worlds.Xue Chongjian smiled faintly at Li Dan, and said in a low voice: "Uncle, please ask someone to help me down, I really——have no strength."

The author has something to say: [1] Longqingfang is the predecessor of Xingqingfang. After Li Longji ascended the throne, in order to avoid the taboo, "Long" was changed to "Xing".