Chang'an ancient meaning

After the imperial doctor finished the medicine, Xue Chongjian's clothes were drenched with sweat again, the emperor lovingly wiped the sweat off his face, and said: "I have beaten Wulang severely, and when he can get up, I will come to you to make amends. "Xue Chongjian said indifferently: "Your Majesty said so, and killed the minister."

The emperor had never heard Xue Chongjian speak in such a tone, and he was a little dazed for a moment. He looked back at Li Chengqi helplessly, and motioned him to step forward to persuade him.Li Chengqi was ashamed, and said in a low voice with tears in his eyes: "Huanu, it was my cousin who blamed you yesterday. Take care of your body first, and my cousin will be punished by you." Hearing his prayer, Xue Chongjian felt even more disappointed for some reason. Even though he was answering Li Chengqi, his eyes were still on the emperor, and he said in a low voice: "As long as your highnesses are in harmony with each other, and your meager body, it's nothing to be hit by a few boards."

The emperor guessed that what made Xue Chongjian most resentful was Li Chengqi's beating him yesterday, so he sneered and joked: "Feng Nu found out the truth in the middle of the night yesterday, and broke down half of the gates of Chang'an City in order to find you. The censor impeached him a long time ago. If you refuse to spare him, uncle will send him to Zongzheng Temple to give him a cane to vent his anger on you."

Xue Chongjian smiled wryly in his heart. After taking the medicine, he lay on his stomach for a while, and felt the pain on his buttocks was slightly relieved. He struggled to get some strength, and tried to get out of bed. The emperor hurriedly held him down and said, "You want What, just tell uncle." Xue Chongjian ignored the emperor's supporting hands, slipped down the bed, knelt at the emperor's feet, and kowtowed: "I have been arrogant and rude since I was young, and I have to be punished yesterday. I beg your Majesty to cut off my title of county king and general Qianniuwei, and send me to Puzhou to serve my mother."

The emperor and Xue Chongjian were used to doing things casually, except for worshiping him with the crowd every day, he never let him kneel down to speak.At this time, he was kneeling beside him in plain clothes, and his tone was as respectful and humble as those courtiers. In a trance, he was shocked and pity, bent down and took Xue Chongjian's hand, and said softly: "You go to bed first, we Discuss slowly." Xue Chongjian didn't move, and kowtowed again: "I implore Your Majesty for your permission."

Li Dan had no choice but to sigh and said: "Huanu, are you sure you won't forgive uncle and your cousin?" Xue Chongjian fell on the ground and said: "Your Majesty said so, there is no place for me to die. I just miss my mother." , and I feel ashamed that my morals are deficient, and I am not qualified for an important position, so I just want to use my idle body to do my duty as a son of man." Li Dan stroked his head and said: "Before your mother leaves, ask me to take care of you. If you Going to Puzhou will make my uncle ashamed to see your mother. Uncle asks you for favors for himself, Fengnu, Sanlang, and Wulang, okay?" Xue Chongjian's eyes were sour, and he said: "Your Majesty misunderstood, I will never mention this to my mother."

Li Dan was very embarrassed by Xue Chongjian's nonsense words. He looked at Li Chengqi awkwardly, but saw Li Chengqi standing aside, looking like he was about to cry, and he felt a headache for this couple.He sighed: "When your mother left, I promised her that I would bring her back within three months. After you recover from your injuries and go to Puzhou, she should return to Chang'an again. Why bother?" Xue Chongjian pondered. Moji said: "Then please also cut off the title and official position of the minister." Li Dan smiled slightly and said: "Uncle knows that you don't care about these things. No matter whether you remove the prince or not, you go to bed first, and it is convenient for Uncle to talk to you."

Xue Chongjian couldn't be stubborn anymore, was lifted up by the emperor and Li Chengqi, and returned to the bed, but unexpectedly the emperor smiled at Li Chengqi: "I really can't help it, and you are also the chief culprit, so I ordered you to take care of the flowers here." Slave, take the credit for the crime." After saying that, he stood up, did not ask Li Chengqi to accompany him, and opened the door on his own.

Neither Xue Chongjian nor Li Chengqi expected that the emperor would suddenly walk away after leaving such a sentence.Suddenly there were only two people left in the room, but they were both speechless.Li Chengqi tentatively sat down on the edge of the bed, held Xue Chongjian's shoulders, and called in a low voice: "Huanu, is the pain severe?"

Xue Chongjian only thought it was so funny, yesterday he was hit by a board, choked up and prayed to his cousin, longing for his bosom and comfort.If he could ask such a question at that time, how happy he would be, no matter how much he was wronged, he could be calmed down in his arms.Today, he still suffers from the same pain, feels the same loneliness, and hopes to have a hug to hide in, but in a strange situation, he shattered that warm fantasy.It turned out that it was just a small mistake, but Li Chengqi just got out of the car and took a few extra steps, a chasm was split between them.He only felt his body became cold again, the blood seemed to be slowly draining from his body, and there was another wound on his body, which the imperial doctor could not find out, nor could it be filled with medicine.He felt a little scared, maybe if Li Chengqi sat here for a while, his blood would really run out.He closed his eyes and said: "I'm a little tired, I want to take a rest, please move your Highness."

"Flower slave!" Li Chengqi couldn't bear it any longer, he threw himself on the bedside, looked at Xue Chongjian's face blankly and said, "Have you disliked cousin so much?" He finally shed tears after holding back for a long time, and said softly: "Cousin shouldn't have beaten you yesterday, didn't you even give me a chance to redeem myself?"

No, not for this, I never resented the punishment you gave me.I'm just too timid. I'm always afraid of parting when I'm staying with you. I'm afraid that one day I won't even be able to get the punishment I pray for. I'm afraid that one day the music will fade away and I won't be able to support the flowers and throw away the old branches alone. the loneliness.We have talked so much about being together in the past, and we have promised so much for a long time. Only now do we realize that it was not up to us to decide.

Xue Chongjian opened his eyes, only seeing Li Chengqi's sad face, he thought, you must be the same as me, unable to see any hope and light.He smiled wryly and said: "I didn't blame Your Highness. Really, Your Highness used to say that I'm ignorant, but now I'm sensible." In the quiet room, those two unfamiliar names licked like tongues of fire, and Li Chengqi's eyes turned black. He couldn't understand the meaning of Xue Chongjian's words.He sat in a daze for a while, and suddenly remembered something, and without saying goodbye to Xue Chongjian, he got up and opened the door to go out.

Xue Chongjian didn't know why Li Chengqi suddenly became so decisive. He was too tired to think about anything else.Perhaps it was because of what the imperial doctor said, that he was confused due to trauma, wind-cold, and fever, so he pushed away so easily what he had been pursuing all his life.Is it because of greed?I thought that as long as I could look at him, it would be good for him to be safe and happy, but in the end I hurt him because I was afraid of losing.

Xue Chongjian listened to the drop by drop of the copper leak, his heart gradually became empty and confused, and he fell into a drowsy sleep.After an unknown amount of time, I heard someone calling him in a low voice, Hua Nu.He moaned slightly, and a hug gently hugged him. In his vague mind, he instinctively felt that this movement was extremely comfortable, and he also felt the joy that could not be obtained again in the dream, but he was afraid that the dream would suddenly disappear. anxious.He subconsciously grabbed something, like a corner of his clothes, and fell asleep peacefully again.

The medicine given by the imperial physician to Xue Chongjian was quite soothing. He slept in a daze all day, and it was already night when he woke up again. Only a small circle of very faint halo emitted from the lotus aromatherapy under the window made the room barely Can distinguish shadows.Xue Chongjian opened his eyes for a while, then closed them again and lay down quietly, after all, he regretted waking up too early.After a while, he knew that if he continued to be greedy, he would be unable to help himself, and everything would start all over again.He took a deep breath, opened his eyes, moved his body out of the man's arms, and shouted with a sullen face, "Why are you here again, Your Highness?"

Li Chengqi had been pressed by him for a long time, and his right leg had long been numb. Only when he moved away did he feel the pain like a needle prick.He smiled shyly, propped himself up with both arms, turned around and knelt under the bed.Xue Chongjian sighed and said, "Does Your Highness want me to come down and kneel too?" Li Chengqi held Xue Chongjian's hand, Xue Chongjian couldn't see his face clearly in the dark room, only felt that his eyes were full of soft light , just like lighting two candles faintly in the night.

Li Chengqi said: "There is something that I should ask you to do long ago." He took out something from the pillow and put it into Xue Chongjian's hand. Xue Chongjian's hand was cold, and he stared at it, only to distinguish that it was indeed the red sandalwood ring ruler .He opened his eyes wide, tried hard, but looked at the opposite person in disbelief.He saw Li Chengqi stand up with difficulty, his trembling hands slowly moved to his waist, and his slender fingers pressed on the falcon of the jade belt, with a snap and a soft sound, which made Xue Chongjian shudder.For a moment he seemed to be stung, and his eyes gradually turned cold. He watched this person's performance, as if he was watching a play that he knew would sing the wrong words, waiting for the last moment, when Yingling stood alone on the stage and made a fool of himself.How could he be like this, thinking that this clumsy performance could offset the despair that his nodding yesterday brought to himself?

Li Chengqi's hands also trembled a little. He pulled the straps of his robes one by one, and the round-necked robe fell silently to the ground. He stepped out of his clothes and knelt sideways beside the bed.As Xue Chongjian expected, his hand went to untie the belt under the jacket again, Xue Chongjian only felt that his chest was constricted and painful, as if being pinched on his chest by a broken brick.This is not what he wanted. What's the use of these perfunctory apologies and artificial compensations?What he really longed for was to close his eyes and fall asleep in his arms without worrying about waking up with only an empty shirt, but Li Chengqi never knew it.

The anxiety and shame in Xue Chongjian's heart mixed together, and he drank: "Enough! Your Highness wants to play, go play elsewhere, don't blame me."

Li Chengqi was stunned, he lowered his head a little ashamedly, and said in a low voice: "It's not what you think... Cousin didn't expect that he could use a few beatings to cover the damage to you... just now when you fell asleep , I have thought about it for a long time. It is because my cousin is too selfish. I want to be with you, but I can’t bear the reputation of being a loyal minister and filial son. Who can say goodbye to the painting. This is a matter between the two of us, and it should not be observed by you alone. If my cousin made an oath to you from today, would you still believe it?"

Xue Chongjian listened quietly, as if at a certain moment, he saw the cup of sweet wine that carried his happiness slowly drifting towards him, as if at a certain moment, when he reached out to catch it, the water suddenly turned and wiped away from his fingertips. pass.He smiled, and said: "What is your highness using to swear? Life? When that day comes, you will say that you would rather let yourself be punished by the heavens for taking the oath, than bear the burden of your majesty, the crown prince, and the common people. I don't want to curse you." He said infinitely Blinking his eyes wearily, he said: "Your Highness, I am really tired and want to rest." He pushed the ruler aside, closed his eyes and hugged the pillow.

Li Chengqi knelt on the ground in a daze, speechless, it turned out that Hua Nu knew him much better than himself.His weakness has been clearly seen long ago, as long as Hua Nu is willing, he has the ability to stab him fatally at the most painful place.

Li Chengqi's hand stretched out to his waist, like a mouthful of hot blood stuck in his throat, unable to get in or out, he asked nonsense in a daze: "You don't want your cousin to accompany you?"

Xue Chongjian said: "Your Highness is watching, I can't sleep."

Li Chengqi's body swayed slightly, but he didn't argue any more. He stood up on the edge of the bed in a daze, bent down to pick up the leftover clothes on the ground, and forgot to put them on, so he staggered outside in such disheveled clothes.Xue Chongjian heard the sound of the door being slowly opened, as if someone was crying in the night, and for a moment, a strong regret sprouted in his heart, and he wanted to keep Li Chengqi behind.He knew that he was completely unprepared. He wanted to give up his childhood dream. Without this person, he was not sure whether he could survive.He opened his mouth, but he couldn't make a sound. The overwhelmed back was so similar to the back that was facing him when he received the rod yesterday.

The door opened, and a thin piece of moonlight leaked in through the opened door, like a few pieces of silver foil pasted on the ground, reflecting a little cold light.For some reason, the figure in the moonlight suddenly turned back. Xue Chongjian was startled, and hurriedly closed his eyes, but then remembered that he was in the dark, so he should not be able to see.Xue Chongjian heard in a trance that a long time ago, when the two of them were still inseparable, Li Chengqi was chanting under the moonlight: "At this time, we look at each other but don't hear each other. May the moonlight shine on you."It turns out that this situation, the pain and reluctance in my heart can be described in just two or fourteen words in other people's pens.After an unknown amount of time, the door cried twice again, and he knew that Li Chengqi had already left.

Xu Shi slept too much during the day, turned morning and night sleep upside down, Xue Chongjian didn't fall asleep all night, and the injury on his body was inconvenient to toss and turn, all kinds of past events kept coming and going in his heart all night, and at dawn, his mind was already entangled and slightly dizzy, it was really miserable Word.It is said that if there is love, there must be dreams. Could it be that he is really ruthless to the point where he doesn't even have dreams.

After waiting for a while, an imperial physician ordered by the emperor to treat Xue Chongjian's wounds. While taking the medicine, Shi Chun came in and reported, "Mr. Lang, His Royal Highness King Song is here again." Xue Chongjian didn't know why he had to add the word "you" , I also felt that it was a little ridiculous, but a little sad, and said: "You tell him, I eat well and sleep well, take medicine and take medicine as His Majesty ordered, and don't bother him." Shi Chun Opened his mouth: "Say so?" Xue Chongjian nodded and said, "Say so."

Shi Chun went out with a troubled expression on his face, and came back after a while and said: "His Royal Highness Song said that he only wanted to present the Lord, and he would not say a single unnecessary word." Xue Chongjian sighed, he had seen the ruler yesterday, Is there anything else he can show today?For some unknown reason, he really wanted to see if there was anything more important in Li Chengqi's heart than that red sandalwood ruler.

As soon as the imperial physician and maidservants left, Li Chengqi came in. The weather was fine today, and the room was transparent. Xue Chongjian could clearly see Li Chengqi's swollen eyes.Li Chengqi came to the bed, did not speak, but gently lifted the quilt, and slowly took off Xue Chongjian's trousers.Xue Chongjian buzzed in his head, and subconsciously supported the bed with his hands, as if he wanted to turn over to avoid it, but for some reason, he couldn't exert any strength on his body.He wanted to talk, but he hadn't slept all night, and his mind was numb. When he thought of what to say, it was too late. A comfortable coolness passed over his hips and legs, and he heard Li Chengqi sigh with pity.

Xue Chongjian felt extremely strange, he should stop him, but he didn't feel any awkwardness.They were so stiff, but his cousin came in, undressed him, checked his injuries, everything was so natural, like the clouds in the sky, the flowers blooming and withering, he couldn't bear to intervene.After Li Chengqi covered Xue Chongjian again, in order to cover up his lack of focus just now, Xue Chongjian said indifferently: "Didn't your Highness say, show me something?"

Li Chengqi took out something from his sleeve and handed it to Xue Chongjian. Xue Chongjian took a look. It turned out to be a golden spherical aroma diffuser, with peony flowers hollowed out from the whole body, connected end to end, endlessly.He is familiar with the structure of the incense ball, without opening it, he knows that there are three interlocking layers inside. When the incense ball is rotated, the innermost layer will not tilt to ensure that the spices inside will not spill out.This kind of incense ball can be tied to a silver hook and hung inside or outside the curtain, and can also be placed in the quilt to burn incense to keep warm when it is cold.He has seen many of them since he was a child, and looked at them over and over for a while. Although the incense balls in front of him are exquisitely carved, there is nothing special about them. 【1】In addition to being disappointed, he also felt annoyed at being teased. He sneered and said, "It turns out that His Highness likes this. I'll send someone to pull a big cart for you."

Li Chengqi seemed to keep his promise, he really didn't say a word, just held Xue Chongjian's hand, and lifted the top half of the incense ball. Xue Chongjian vaguely saw that there seemed to be words engraved on the golden ring in the middle layer, he Bringing the incense ball closer, it is a bit difficult to recognize the small characters on the golden ring as thin as mosquito feet: whoever makes this body shake in the wind, self-decoction and self-care.

The unique size is not turned sideways,

A ray of heart fragrance is burned for you. 【2】

His mind began to buzz again, and he wanted to calm himself down and think carefully about whether he had read this poem.He didn't know how many times he recited those four sentences silently, and he was finally sure that this was written to him by Li Chengqi, and he no longer borrowed others' words, and no longer had any taboos to hide.Li Chengqi also wrote poems on weekdays, but he seldom wrote such heartfelt words for Xue Chongjian. He occasionally wrote a few sentences, but he burned them after reading them, fearing that they would spread out and provoke people's tongues.But today, he finally had the courage to engrave this confession on gold and stone, and cast it into an indelible oath.

Xue Chongjian slowly raised his head and stared at Li Chengqi, but Li Chengqi still didn't speak. Although his face was haggard, his expression was a little calmer than yesterday's.He once tried to flog himself with the hand of Hua slave, but today he finally insisted on beating himself, tortured himself painfully, and presented this bloody confession in front of Hua slave.His obedience to the world, his fear of etiquette, his self-sufficiency in tuition, his prison, the only obsession in his life that cannot be relaxed, and his painful begging for forgiveness, he gave them all without concealment.Just waiting for the person in charge of his soul to make the final judgment.

The author has something to say: [1] The internal structure of the incense ball is three layers, which are connected by a rotating shaft. The middle container can be kept upward by gravity, so it will not tip over and spill spices when the incense ball rotates.The principle is like a tumbler. [2] Li Chengqi Nima claims to have both quality and style, leaving two poems will die!There is wood! ! !Children who can't write poems and write poems for the ancients can't afford to be hurt! ! !