Chang'an ancient meaning

Li Longji raised the pearl curtain, and a gust of cool evening breeze floated faintly from the water pavilion in the courtyard, awakening Yuan Yuan who was taking a nap on the cool bed.She opened her eyes in a daze, her expression was still ignorant, and she looked at Li Longji with a pair of beautiful eyes.Li Longji smiled slightly, and sat down beside her sideways.Yuan Yuan just woke up, but he didn't get up to salute, he just lazily said: "I'm very thirsty, Your Highness give me a sip of water."

Li Longji saw that half of her cheek was imprinted with the lace pattern on the jade mat, and reached out to touch it. Yuan Yuan also rubbed his face against his hand very naturally. Usually, it seems that all my thoughts have been peeped by her, her heart hurts, she can't help but smile awkwardly, withdraw her hand and say: "I'll get you some water."

He took the water cup, helped Yuan Yuan to sit up, Yuan Yuan didn't raise his hand, leaned over to gently hold the cup in his hand, took a few sips, took advantage of the situation and buried his face in his arms again, closing his eyes Keep silent.Li Longji didn't know why, but his tenderness towards her today was just a little palpitating. He smiled and said, "Are you still tired after a day's sleep?" Dreaming with the mind is better than waking up and working hard."

Li Longji was startled, and gently lifted Yuan Yuan's shoulders, Yuan Yuan opened his eyes and looked at him.These eyes are as clear as water, and have never changed in the past few years. Whether it is the cold Forbidden Garden or the bustling East Palace, it seems that they can't control her sorrows and joys.His eyes were exactly imprinted in these eyes, tired, pitiful, guilty, and with a certain kind of coldness, clearer than the shadow in the mirror.He knew in his heart that she had always understood him, but he couldn't understand her.Thinking of this, Li Longji breathed a sigh of relief, like stabbing a dead person with a sword again, which can slightly alleviate the guilt.He gritted his teeth and said, "Today we are leaving court, and when I met my aunt, she asked me to accept you as a child."

Yuan Yuan still smiled lightly, calmly, and said: "Oh? What does your Highness say?" Li Longji said: "I said—when natural disasters continue, how dare a widow dare to be lustful to touch the wrath of heaven and earth, and cold the hearts of the subjects?" Teeth." Yuan Yuan suddenly smiled mischievously and said, "If it wasn't for a natural disaster, or that comet, would His Highness agree?"

Li Longji might as well ask her this question, and couldn't help but smile sadly. Ten days ago, before the comet from the west sky appeared in his heart, he was terrified.On the second day, the Qin Tianjian played the emperor: "According to the Xuanxiang, there is a disaster on the emperor's throne and the former star. The crown prince cooperates with the emperor, and if he disagrees, he will live in the East Palace." I made up my mind to deal with it, but when I heard this play, I still couldn't help but my mind went blank for a while.He was forced to the edge of the cliff and had no way to retreat, so he had to gallop into the palace and begged the emperor to abolish his crown prince.Unexpectedly, the emperor's words were astonishing, and he wanted to "spread virtue and avoid disaster" and prepared to give up the throne to him.Less than two years after the emperor ascended the throne, he has proposed twice to pass on the crown prince.The emperor was calm by nature, and he was exhausted physically and mentally between the prince and Princess Taiping, but his indecision made him unable to strengthen his wish. Under the persuasion of Princess Taiping's crying, the emperor had to take back his order again and "try hard" to maintain With the identity of the emperor, Li Longji once again fell into a situation where he was slandered by rumors.

Li Longji looked at Yuan Yuan calmly and said: "No, if you don't tell the widow about your family background, the widow will not be able to write your name on the jade document for a day." Yuan Yuan said with a sad smile: "Your Highness doesn't believe me, why? Want to keep me by your side for so many years?" Li Longji said: "The one who keeps you is the former king of Linzi, and the one who dares not marry you is today's prince." He suddenly smiled and said: "You know how many days ago When I rushed into the palace to resign the crown prince with His Majesty, what was in my mind?——I thought, if my father agrees, the first thing I will do when I come back is to marry you, and then I will have a good meal of crispy rice It doesn't matter if you have a stomachache, drink a few buckets of fine wine, and get drunk with your arms for three days."

Yuan Yuan chuckled, but sighed again, stretched out his hand to gently trace Li Longji's straight eyebrows, and said in a low voice: "Will there never be such a day?" Li Longji said: "Yes, wait for Jiuzhou Tongguan, The day when thousands of miles are the same wind." Yuan Yuan nodded and said: "Okay, I will wait for that day." Li Longji stroked her long hair that was as cool as water with one hand, and took out a piece of paper from his arms with the other hand. Bao, whispered in her ear: "This is what Zhang Shuojin brought in when he was giving lectures. It is divided into two parts, one for you and one for Yang.[1]"

Yuan Yuan slowly stretched out his hand to pick up the paper bag, but he couldn't restrain his hand and was trembling violently.She bit her lower lip hard and nodded, trying to maintain a smile, but she couldn't help breathing quickly, just like a drowning person who couldn't breathe at all, her chest was so stuffy that it was about to explode.The pain in her heart went straight into her abdomen, as if someone was gouging out her flesh and blood with a sword, making her forehead sweat from the pain.She clearly knew that the unformed young life in her womb would never feel anything, but she seemed to hear a heart-piercing baby crying lingering in her ears.

Seeing her like this, Li Longji couldn't help feeling pain in his heart, and sighed softly: "Except for this, what else do you want, I will try my best to give you." Yuan Yuan said: "I want us to live in Luoyang Forbidden Garden." Li Longji Dazed for a moment, she said: "Yuan Yuan." Yuan Yuan's eyes showed eagerness for the first time, she panted slightly and said, "I want that yard of green grass, a tree of weeping poplars, and I want us to see through the square-inch paper window." Look at the sky full of clouds, and see Xiaowu running and laughing while dragging the paper kite. I want you to teach me how to play chess and sit quietly for an afternoon. When I want you to read, I will sit by and mend your clothes." Her tears Only then did it flow down hot.

Li Longji hesitated for a moment, and said: "Yuan Yuan, people can only go forward in this life, and they can't turn back. Some places can't go back after leaving. No matter the joys and sorrows of the past, they can't be regained. That courtyard is demolished. Zhang Lin, who always scolded you, is dead, Xiao Wu will no longer run away dragging paper kites when he grows up, and the five of us brothers will no longer live in the same yard." He knew their family, and his father also Okay, big brother, little five, aunt and Hua slave, no one can go back.

Yuan Yuan slowly wiped away his tears, nodded and said: "Slaves understand." Li Longji sighed: "It's just that this time is not right, if I can survive this test, if you treat me sincerely, we will be together again in the future." Yes." Yuan Yuan closed his eyes and thought:Yuan Youzhi, Li Youlan, Mr. Si dare not speak out, but she never dared to speak out her heart.She took the medicine bag and said: "My servant, go to decoct the medicine." Li Longji held her down and said, "I'll go, you can sleep for a while."

Li Longji set up a medicine stove in Yuan Yuan's bedroom, and the bitter smell of medicine lingered in the room, making the room even hotter in summer.Li Longji sat on the ground with his knees hugged, looking through the hazy water mist, Yuan Yuan curled up as if he had fallen asleep again, his brows and expressions were calm and peaceful, but her hand was unconsciously placed on her belly.Li Longji tried his best to recall the days in the Forbidden Garden in Luoyang, but for some reason, the more than 1000 days and nights spent together, he could no longer draw a clear picture.The perception she gave him, from the weak silhouette in the shadow when he first saw her, to the face in the mist today, is as ethereal as being on the side of the water.He closed his eyes, the dream in his heart was the majestic and magnificent Daming Palace under the rising sun.

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When Xue Chongjian and Li Chengqi entered the hall, the emperor was writing at his desk. He looked up and saw them smiling slightly, put the pen on the pen mountain, and said to the waiter in the hall, "Go and fetch two basins of ice." Xue Chongjian knew that the emperor was not in good health. There is no need for ice in the palace, and people take ice to cool down because they are not heat-resistant, so they hurriedly said: "No need, uncle's room is deep, so I don't feel hot." The emperor just let it go, and waved to Xue Chongjian with a smile, Xue Chongjian When he came to the emperor and knelt down, the emperor took off the Futou for him, wiped the sweat on his forehead covered by the Futou with a towel, and said with a smile: "Then bring a piece of Sushan. Our family started from Emperor Taizong. Just like the cold and fear the heat, you followed your mother. When my uncle was your age, he also liked eating iced things the most, but now..."

Xue Chongjian hurriedly interrupted and laughed: "I also heard from my mother that when she was sick when she was young, Ah Weng didn't allow her to eat Sushan, but uncle secretly gave it to her." Li Dan sighed and said with a smile: "Yes, we only have her as a child. Sister, she has a small mouth, and we can't bear to disobey her. That time she had a stomachache for several days, and then she realized that being responsive to requests is not necessarily for her own good." Xue Chongjian heard the emperor's overtones, holding the crisp Shan's hand slowly dropped down.The emperor hurriedly laughed and said: "I was interrupted by Sushan. It's no big deal to call you here today. It will be Hua Nu's birthday in seven days. If you want anything, you can tell me earlier. Uncle is ready."

Only then did Xue Chongjian raise his head and smiled and said, "Do I really want my uncle to give me anything?" The emperor nodded and said with a smile, "Tell me, uncle knows you have a sense of proportion. If you dare to ask for it, uncle will give it to you." Xue Chongjian said with a smile: " Uncle is just an uncle, if you use this to bully me first, what else do I dare to want? I want—" He looked up and thought for a while, then smiled and said, "Uncle, let my cousin and I take a few days off! It's too hot to sleep at night. Well, I have to get up early to go to court in the morning, so I’m really sleepy. Isn’t it, cousin?” He turned his head and blinked at Li Chengqi, Li Chengqi’s heart skipped a beat, remembering Princess Taiping’s lesson, he smiled awkwardly and said, “You don’t want to worry about everything. Count me in."

The emperor smiled and said: "Okay." Xue Chongjian said pleasantly: "Uncle agreed? How many days?" The emperor smiled and said: "I can't let you alone, and I can't stop the court because of your birthday, you and Feng Nu Go to Mount Zhongnan to do an errand for me, it’s considered a holiday.” Xue Chongjian smiled and said, “What kind of errand?” The emperor laughed and said, “Taoist Sima Zhen lives on Mount Zhongnan now. I have benefited a lot from the principle of governing the country. It is a pity that the master of the world refused to stay in the prosperous place and went back to the mountain. I want you to invite him down the mountain for me."

Knowing about Sima Zhen's entry into the court, Xue Chongjian shook his head and said, "If this errand can't be done, even uncle and Shang Shu Zuo Cheng can't keep him, how can we invite him?" Come, there is still tomorrow, if you don't come tomorrow, there will be the day after tomorrow..." The emperor's usual gentle and calm smile was a little more joking, Xue Chongjian suddenly realized, and hurriedly laughed: "Long live, long live, uncle! The minister has received the decree!" The emperor scratched his nose with a smile, and said with a smile: "Don't bother him, let him escape back to Tiantai Mountain, and it will be difficult to find him again."

Xue Chongjian hurriedly smiled and said: "No, no, it's just - when will this job end?" The emperor smiled and said: "Until I miss you and Feng Nu." Xue Chongjian put his arms around the emperor's knee and smiled: "Uncle wants to Why don't you take my mother to see me, Zhongnan Mountain is much cooler than this Daming Palace." The emperor nodded and said with a smile: "Uncle also wants to go. In another month, the sweet-scented osmanthus on Zhongnan Mountain will bloom. Two or three miles away, you can smell the sweet fragrance of Qingfen falling from the sky. Guizi falls in the middle of the month, and the sky is fragrant and cloudy. Although Song Zhiwen wrote about Lingyin Temple in Hangzhou, it is exactly the same as Zhongnan Mountain in my heart. "Huanu, Uncle hasn't seen that scene for many years, so Uncle asks you one thing, if you promise, Uncle can still smell the fragrance and look at the bright moon in his lifetime."

When the emperor said this, tears welled up in his eyes, both Xue Chongjian and Li Chengqi were inexplicably astonished, the joy just now was swept away, although Xue Chongjian didn't know what the emperor was going to say, but the fear in his heart became more and more serious, Kneeling up, he said, "What orders does my uncle have? I will take my life for it." The emperor pressed him lightly and said, "This is my uncle begging you, not the emperor's edict to you. Uncle begs you, on your birthday , invite your mother to Zhongnan Mountain to stay for two days and one night." Xue Chongjian wondered: "Why?" The emperor said: "I want to pass on the throne to the crown prince. , the crown prince has to submit his resignation three times, and it will take two days and one night at the fastest."

At this time, Xue Chongjian really felt that the heat in the temple was unbearable. The heat did not penetrate from the skin, but burned from his heart. Both hands disgusted him.If he didn't still have a bit of rational restraint, he wanted to shake that one off and stride out of the palace.

Li Chengqi tremblingly said: "Father, you really want to..." The emperor nodded and said: "Father has been thinking about it for more than ten days, no, it's been thinking about it for two years, and he has already figured it out clearly. Sima Zhen explained to me the principles of self-cultivation and governance. Dao, saying, "The Taoist damages it again and again, so that he does nothing. The country is like the body. If you follow things naturally and have a selfless heart, then the world will be reasonable." He picked up the words written on the case and handed them to Li Chengqi. It is the eight characters of "follow things naturally, and have no selfish heart". The emperor said: "Feng Nu, do you think I am wrong when you look at these eight characters?" Li Chengqi lowered his head and said, "Daddy's opinion is naturally right It’s just that... this matter cannot be done by a flower slave.” The emperor said: “This matter can only be done by a flower slave.” Li Chengqi was anxious and painful, raised his head and said: “Dad, did you ever think that my aunt will eventually I learned that at that time, you let Huanu, let Huanu..." He had never dared to argue with his father in his life, so in the middle of speaking, his throat seemed to be choked by a piece of red-hot coals, but his face flushed, but Can't say another word.

Xue Chongjian looked up with a sneer on his face, and said: "I know why Uncle insisted that I do it. Uncle sent me a great service to protect the Crown Prince. Maybe one day in the future, I will be able to ask Your Majesty to recite the past. Thanks for saving me from death. Is that so? Uncle, you passed the stick to beat me, I will resist the decree. I have lied to my mother many times in my life, but I can’t do it this time.” The emperor sighed with tears in his eyes "I said, this is my begging, not a decree. Feng Nu, you kowtow to Hua Nu on behalf of your father, saying, this is my family begging you."

The mountain of crisp in the crystal cup was simmered by Xue Chongjian's hands for a long time, and gradually melted. The snow-white butternut crisp and bright red cherry pulp gathered together, and were diluted into a light pink, as if the rain was washing away the fresh blood. the wound.He only felt the pain in his hands, but he couldn't tell whether the pain came from the cold or the scorching heat, just like he couldn't tell whether what he held in his hands was the fine nectar bestowed by his relatives or the charcoal fire in the three-way hell.It turned out that the gentle uncle also had such fierce methods. He was called Hua Nu for too long, and he forgot that the hand that caressed him also held the lifeline of Datang Jiangshan.It turned out that the Sushan in his hand, the sweet-scented osmanthus from Zhongnanshan, and even the joy of his cousin walking with him all the way were all bait to lure him into the bait. He swallowed it, and they watched him struggle on the sharp iron hook.

He has never been able and has no intention to distinguish between their family members, what is right and what is wrong, what he wants is just these few relatives.However, the relatives are actually placed in a complicated and cruel stage. Some of them hold spears, some hold spears, killing each other and trapping themselves.Just now they lied to him by playing a play, and now they are forcing him to play a play to lie to his mother.

Xue Chongjian watched as Li Chengqi turned around with difficulty, knelt up a little bit, the pleading in his eyes was the pain that made him prefer to die rather than watch.All of a sudden, he just felt it was extremely funny. They clearly wanted the peace of the world, the well-being of the people, and the prosperity of the Tang Dynasty, but their life became more and more difficult.As my cousin said, this prosperous age has nothing to do with them.He suddenly began to suspect that the so-called prosperous age was just a lie passed down from generation to generation. From the nobles to the common people, they continued to dedicate hope and dignity to this lie.Those blood, tears and grievances buried under the prosperous times were finally overwhelmed by historians' understatement. Only he knew that his pain and resentment at this moment belonged only to his hardships, and no amount of prosperous times and hymns could be used to calm them down.

He murmured: "Uncle, you know that once he speaks, there is nothing I can do. Are you worried? Who are you worried about?" The emperor was silent for a while, stroked his bun and said, "Uncle, only you Uncle and these relatives are worried."

The author has something to say: [1] This is not my fault. When Li Longji was fighting his aunt most intensely, his concubine Yang was pregnant. He was afraid that people would attack him in the name of lust (his first son was a The prostitute who gave him a child), said that someone did not want me to have more children and wanted to kill the child.In the end, after three times of beating, the child was born, and later Tang Suzong.It is true that there is no enmity between father and son.

[2] I have always believed that organized disregard for human life is a more sinister thing than any means of murder.Tianchao, Gou Rixin, day by day, and day by day.