Chang'an ancient meaning

Li Chengqi was awakened by a gurgling sound. His eyes were dry and swollen, and it was difficult to see. He just felt that there was darkness around him.He listened in a trance, and there were bursts of unhurried ticks, occasionally mixed with the light metal impact, forming an undulating rhythm.

He couldn't remember where these gentle voices came from, whether it was A Luo pulling the golden bell in the garden, or he was playing the rotten Keyou himself, whether it was the sleepless Geng Le that urged the time away, or whether it was the rain hitting the fields. On the lotus leaf, it turns into pearls and rolls happily.This subtle sound of throwing pearls and rolling jade covered all the truths of the world, making him confused for a moment where he was, what day and what night.He vaguely felt that he was waiting for something, as if he was waiting for a long-lost person, walking slowly through the bead curtain woven by drizzle, blowing off the dust of disappointment, without needing to talk about each other's lovesickness, just gently Just clap his hand, and you can turn your life back to the beauty of the starting point of memory.

Suddenly, his body was jolted heavily, and the pain behind him hit his head like a giant dark wolf, beating him dizzily, swallowing up the sweet dream of the night rain, hearing the bell, cutting the candle and the west window. It was hard to say, and he let out a low moan.When he heard his own voice, he finally remembered everything. He remembered that he was stunned by a rod not long ago, and now he should be lying on the carriage. Apricot leaves.It is so difficult to weave a dream, but it only takes a moment to smash it. His life's hard work was smashed to pieces in the real sound of rain, and left behind the clattering horseshoes.

The golden bell in the Hibiscus Garden is gone, and the well-behaved and gentle girl is now in the cold and dilapidated Jiucheng Palace, facing the continuous rain, thinking of her old friend; Whether he sneered at his embarrassment, or occasionally recalled with gentle regret, the last time the three of them were on Zhongnan Mountain, the peaceful joy in the depths of the lotus.The gentle slaps in the more leaking sound were gone. At this moment, his pain and Hua Nu's pain were separated by the continuous mountains of Tongguan, and as the sound of horseshoes gradually drifted away, there was no way to share or comfort them.

He probably had a fever, and his body was shaking coldly, but his heart was boiling like fire.He licked his lips, the tip of his tongue touched the dry blood scab on his lips, and there was no trace of dry body fluid in his mouth.But he didn't want to ask for water, maybe he didn't know who to pray to, and whom to tell. For the first time in his life, he felt that the simple pain of the flesh can also be so lonely.

Li Chengqi silently closed his eyes again, the darkness grinned grinningly with the bumps of the carriage, tearing his body persistently, he was content with it.The sound of horseshoes, the sound of rain, and the sound of golden bells all gradually faded away in the darkness. This is his real world, where mountains and rivers are forever silent.

Li Chengqi didn't know how many times he fainted and woke up a few times, and finally a trickle of sweet spring flowed into his mouth, regathering his cracked and broken soul.He vaguely felt that the cold body was wrapped in a mass of warmth, and the pain of the bumps was relieved a lot, and it seemed that someone was still weeping softly.He was trembling with excitement for a moment, that dream finally came back, he cut and discarded it for a while, and he went back to Hua Nu's car, Hua Nu picked him up from Huixinyuan.In and out of Jun's sleeve, he murmured a sentence in his heart, moved his hand, eager to grab a piece of Hua Nu's sleeve, and moaned, "Hua Nu..."

A woman's voice choked up in his ear: "Huanu is at the Supreme Emperor's place." He was a little puzzled by the strangeness of the voice, and slowly opened his eyes. It was already dawn at this moment, and the faint light came in through the mica window. A woman's face with teardrops hanging on her face.It turns out that no one can turn back the time, if they can turn around, the world will be full of saints and reunions.

Concubine Yuan hugged Li Chengqi and cried for a long time, finally woke him up, but saw that he opened his eyes and only looked at her, the eager eyes slowly turned into disappointment, it seemed that the flame had burned out, leaving only a pile of cold ashes.She has never seen a more complete disappointment than this in her life. It is more terrifying than despair. It is the pain of having illusions about the world first, and then being stifled by life.It's like seeing flowers fall down by the rain and buried by the loess, and seeing a baby turn from a fresh life to an old and crooked one, and finally die.She was so frightened by this look that she shivered. She forgot to ask any doubts, and just murmured repeatedly: "Your Highness."

Li Chengqi was much more awake this time, his eyes wanted to look out of the window, but with a slight movement, his mind became dark again, so he had to close his eyes and ask weakly: "Where is this?" Concubine Yuan wiped her tears and said: " After entering Chang'an City, we will soon arrive at Xingqingfang. Your Highness has to be patient for a while, and has already ordered someone to call for the imperial physician." Li Chengqi realized that the emperor sent him back, and he felt a little relieved, even though his father was worried on Mount Li. , It's better than seeing yourself as immortal.Immediately, he thought of something, gasped for a while and said urgently: "No, you can't ask the imperial doctor, and you can't let people know."

Concubine Yuan was stunned for a moment, but suddenly understood: the emperor doesn't want people to know about his elder brother receiving the cane.She gasped, and said urgently: "But your Highness is so injured, how can we not delay the medical treatment?" Li Chengqi said: "Order someone to buy some sore medicine quietly, and you can apply it for me. I beg you, please." Don't let this matter out." When he said this, Concubine Yuan felt that the worry, pain, and fear blocked in her chest broke through her blood in an instant, turning into tears, and she fell on Li Chengqi's body and wept bitterly.Apologizing, Li Chengqi wanted to comfort her a few words, but his mind was numb and his body was exhausted. After gathering his strength for a long time, he had no choice but to pat the back of her hand.

Li Chengqi said firmly, Concubine Yuan did not dare to disobey him, she returned to the mansion and ordered someone to open the corner door quietly, and someone carried Li Chengqi in with a rattan bed.She was dimly in the car, and didn't know how serious the injury was. When she entered the brightly lit home, she saw Li Chengqi's trousers, from the waist down to the knees, had been stained brown with dried blood, like an iron suit and him. The flesh and blood grow in one place.

She was dizzy for a while, leaning on the couch and murmured: "How...how could this be?" Although Li Chengqi couldn't see it himself, he guessed that the wound must be in a mess. Presumably, Concubine Yuan has been pampered since she was a child, and she has never seen such filth. Concubine Yuan cried in a panic, "Your Highness, I'd better invite a doctor, I can't heal this injury..." Li Chengqi said softly: "It's okay, just take some medicine Enough."

Concubine Yuan finally trembled her hands and used warm water to moisten the dried bloody clothes. She saw Li Chengqi's body shaking violently, but she buried her face in her arms and said nothing.Concubine Yuan was busy clumsily, her hands were soaked in blood, she had to raise her arms to wipe away the tears on her face.She really wanted to beg him to cry out, not to endure it like this, but she knew that it was useless to say it, he would not cry out, and when he was with her, he was enduring all the time.She didn't know anything, she didn't know what kind of life he lived before marrying him, where he went these two days, and why he suffered such a severe stick injury.His past, his present, and even his future are all closed to her.

Li Chengqi's high fever persisted after returning to the mansion, and the imperial concubine Yuan was finally afraid, so she quietly invited a famous doctor from Chang'an for diagnosis and treatment.Li Chengqi was often drowsy every day, and he couldn't object. After five days, he gradually lost his fever and regained his consciousness. Then he sent the doctor out of the house, and gave him a large sum of money, ordering him to keep quiet.

In the early morning of that day, Concubine Yuan was administering medicine to Li Chengqi, when suddenly a maid hurriedly knocked on the door and said, "Lady, the Supreme Emperor is here!" The concubine hurriedly said: "Please sit in the main hall of the Supreme Emperor, and I will come right away." The maid hurriedly said: "The Supreme Emperor will not let anyone lead the way, so he came here by himself." Li Chengqi's heart was shocked, and he remembered that his father had been to his mansion. Get familiar with the path.He looked up and saw Concubine Yuan's bewildered and anxious face, so he could only comfort her softly: "Go wash your hands, put away the medicine, just say I have a cold." He gritted his teeth and pulled up his pants, pulled the quilt to cover himself, Knowing that it was inappropriate to lie down like this, he turned around with all his might.Unexpectedly, when the prescription of the injury touched the bed, the pain made me dizzy, my eyes were dazzled, and my forehead was covered with sweat. I was afraid that if I lay on my back, I would faint from the pain, so I had to try my best to support myself on my side.

They had just finished packing, and the Supreme Emperor had already rushed in. He came to the couch and asked urgently, "What happened to Feng Nu?" Li Chengqi smiled slightly and said, "It was raining on the road, and I was caught in the wind and cold. I couldn't get up and salute. My son deserves death." Seeing that although he forced a smile, his complexion was as pale as paper, with beads of sweat oozing from his forehead, the Supreme Emperor felt horrified, took his hand and wanted to check his pulse.Li Chengqi knew that his father had learned medical skills from alchemists all these years, so he couldn't help feeling anxious, he forcibly snatched back his wrist, and gasped, "Really, it's okay, the medicine is too heavy here, daddy should sit in the outer hall..."

The Supreme Emperor's expression froze, and he stretched out his hand to uncover the brocade quilt on Li Chengqi's body, but was held tightly by Li Chengqi again. The Supreme Emperor said anxiously, "What's wrong with you? Why don't you let Dad see it?" Li Chengqi shook his head slightly and said, "Daddy, please Believe in your son once, it’s wind and cold, it’s really wind and cold.” The Supreme Emperor faintly guessed in his heart, but he couldn’t believe it after all, he gritted his teeth and shouted in a low voice: “Let go!” Li Chengqi was still clutching the corner of the quilt tightly, and the Supreme Emperor was so anxious Concubine Yuan said: "What happened to him? I only ask you!"

Concubine Yuan had been holding back her tears for a long while, she couldn't hold back anymore, she fell to the ground and cried, "Daddy, please save our family!" Li Chengqi said angrily, "Shut up!" He snatched the quilt and opened it with a whoosh. Just as he was tossing and turning, the wound burst. In just a moment, bloodstains splattered on the white shirt again.The Supreme Emperor lifted a corner of his middle coat with trembling hands, looked in the direction, and a white mist came before his eyes, and he sat limply on the couch.

Li Chengqi was shocked and turned pale, he knelt up to help him, and Concubine Yuan quickly stepped forward to help him.Li Chengqi kowtowed and cried: "Dad, please take care, don't add any more sins to your son!" The Supreme Emperor leaned against the bed curtain and closed his eyes to rest for a while, then said in a hoarse voice, "Nizi." Li Chengqi whispered: "Yes. The law of the country is in place, and the son deserves what he deserves, and His Majesty has saved face for his son by disposing of it this way." The Supreme Emperor shook his head, a line of tears trickled down from the corners of his wrinkled eyes, he did not look at Li Chengqi, but murmured Said to himself: "I was wrong, Ah Yue, I was wrong..."

The emperor and the Taishanghuang drove back to the palace. The Taishanghuang was going to the Song Palace early in the morning. The emperor knew that he couldn't hide it, and he didn't ask anyone to stop him. He just thought of Taiji Palace and felt a little depressed. He ordered Luan to drive all the way east to live in Daming Palace.After entering the palace, the emperor changed his clothes and didn't need to eat. After reading the memorials accumulated for several days, there were soft footsteps behind him. The emperor pursed his lips and smiled, and continued to bow his head. superior.

The emperor smiled and said, "It's Yunyun."

Gao Lishi pouted at the side, disapproving from the bottom of his heart.He was puzzled at the beginning, given the emperor's temperament, why he fell in love with the girl from the Wu family, but when the emperor called Wu Lingyun "Yunyun" for the first time, the tone was slightly slippery, which made him mishear in a trance, shivered, and vaguely understood The emperor's mind.With a bit of disdain and pity, he watched the emperor pour out his useless tenderness on this incomprehensible girl.

Wu Lingyun put down her hands coquettishly, and said unhappily: "You won't coax me either." The emperor's gentle eyes rested on Wu Lingyun's buns, and he smiled and said, "You didn't come here, go back quickly." Wu Lingyun said: "I have no place to go." The emperor was surprised: "Didn't Lishi arrange a place for you?" Wu Lingyun shook her head and said, "I don't want to go there. It's so far away from you, and the people around you don't know each other."

The emperor felt a little sour in his heart, so he couldn't bear to drive her out again, but there was something he had to do in front of him. He said to Gao Lishi: "Ordering Zhang to speak grass, it is the story of the Gaozong Dynasty that the vassal king became a foreign official, and several princes in the country We are all married and starting a mansion, so it is not appropriate for them all to stay in the capital. This time, let eldest brother, Shouli, and Chengyi go out first, and let Yao Chong, Songjing and the others choose a place, the Pinghan of the country, not too far away from Chang'an."

Gao Lishi's heart was shocked, unexpectedly, the emperor suddenly decided to order several princes to stab him, and he didn't know what kind of trouble would happen if the emperor knew about it.Just as he was about to agree, the emperor smiled and said, "We have done another matter together. The eldest brother's title was given by Wei Shu at that time. It is too unlucky. We simply changed it this time." He pulled a piece of paper, pondered for a moment, and waved He wrote a word, handed it to Gao Lishi and said, "Let them draft an edict based on this word."

Gao Lishi saw that the ink was dripping on the paper, and there was only a big "Ning" character [1]. He understood the meaning of the emperor, bowed and said, "Here. Do you want to show this word to His Royal Highness King Ning as well?" The emperor smiled and said: "Brother is a smart man, there is no need to do anything unnecessary." Gao Lishi led the order and went.

After Gao Lishi left, Emperor Fang took Wu Lingyun's hand, let her sit on his lap, and said in a low voice: "If you are lonely in the palace, think about who you know, I will transfer here to serve you." Wu Lingyun shook her head Said: "The aunts of Tangquan Palace treated me badly, I don't want them—I don't know where the aunts who took me back then are now, whether they are in Shendu or Chang'an." She suddenly sighed softly She said in a low tone, "I'm afraid they won't remember me long ago." Although she was young, this sigh seemed to have gone through the vicissitudes of several generations of human affairs. The emperor stroked her bun with some pity, and said: Alright, nothing to worry about." As soon as the words came out, he was slightly startled again, staring at Wu Lingyun in a trance.Wu Lingyun smiled coquettishly: "I have cousin Sanlang!"

The emperor also responded with a smile. He heard that the important officials in the court were very opposed to him bringing Wu's daughter into the harem, but he was really reluctant to part with this woman.She walked through the bloody three dynasties, and her body was still spotless. He needed such a silly simplicity to help him forget the bloody smile.After all, he is still a human being, and he needs to find someone to take care of him, so he has no choice but to be this irrelevant person.He softly called out to the missing memories: "Yunyun, Yunyun."

The imperial decree ordered Ning Wang Li Chengqi to serve as the governor of Qizhou. When he arrived at the Song Palace on the second day, Li Chengqi was still unable to get up.She entered the dormitory with the imperial decree, and Li Chengqi had already heard the report. Seeing her, he smiled apologetically, and said in a low voice, "I'm the one who got you into trouble." Concubine Yuan finally rolled down her tears after holding back her tears for a long time, and cried, "Your injury How can we go on the road." Li Chengqi said indifferently: "It's just by car. Go back to your mother's house for a few days. If you leave, you may not be able to come back for a year or so." Concubine Yuan shook her head and said: "I won't go back, Your Highness I can't live without people here, and I can't leave if such a big family wants to move." Li Chengqi smiled shyly and said: "There is nothing else that can't be left behind. My health is much better, you go back, while your relatives are still around Beside, the reunion is a moment."

Concubine Yuan wept and shook her head, choked up her courage for a long time before saying in a trembling voice: "Your Highness, from now on you will be the only concubine." It's "Huan" in their Northern Dynasties ditty. His name is Li Chengqi, and his nickname is Feng Nu.He has so many titles, but she can only call him Your Highness.

Li Chengqi looked at the woman in front of him with apologetic pity, she was still wearing a blue tinsel hairpin dress, with a corolla full of pearls and jade on her high bun, she trembled under the extremely luxurious shackles.Reminds him of the day they got married, a timid woman wrapped in resplendent gold, because of too many decorations, he only knew she was beautiful, but couldn't see her face clearly, so that as long as his wife was not in front of him, he tried desperately to think about her. His face is still blurred as if separated by smoke and water.But this girl who doesn't know how to feel sad, because she unfortunately chose him as her husband, she has already suffered a lot, and she also has to bear the longing of leaving her mother and father far away from home. He wants to support her, but his body and soul are already broken I don't know how long I can last.

Li Chengqi tried to sit up, the pain under his body made him a little dizzy, taking advantage of this brief dizziness, he tried hard not to think about that name for a moment.He pulled his wife into his arms, closed his eyes, maybe this is his nondescript life, what he loves cannot be guarded, but what he guards is not loved.

Ten days later, Li Chengqi, king of Ning, was also the governor of Qizhou, Li Chengyi, king of Shen, was also the governor of Youzhou, and Li Shouli, king of You, was also the governor of Guozhou. The three kings paid their respects and left Beijing on the same day.Among the three kings, only Li Chengqi was facing west, while Li Shouli and Li Chengyi were both facing east. The three of them did not go the same way after leaving the palace, so they just said goodbye in front of the palace gate.Li Chengqi could barely walk, but he couldn't ride a horse, and he was still lying in the car when he left the palace.

After driving for half a day, we arrived at Baqiao. Because there were too many people at the bridgehead, the road was blocked. The head of the palace, Shi ordered the ceremonial guards to clear the road with a whip. Li Chengqi heard the movement in the car, and he lifted the curtain and scolded him gently: "It's all depressing and ecstasy to come here. People, let's not cause trouble, just wait." Chang Shi had no choice but to order the chariots and horses to stop.

Li Chengqi looked out of the car, the sky was gloomy, the sky and the earth seemed to be fainted by light ink, the willows on both sides of the Baqiao were foggy and dark, and occasionally a group of geese flew south in the sky, and the sound of chirping was even more thrilling.Many people who traveled far stood at the head of the bridge, held by their relatives and friends, sobbing and saying their reluctance. The willow branches were bent into circles symbolizing reunion, but they couldn't bear to give them away. It seemed that they were facing a dream and felt more realistic. Cool tolerance.

There was no noise, no anger, and no one paid attention to their majestic Prince's car, everyone was immersed in their own sadness.Up to here are all separated people, all sad people, all degraded people, the other side is uncertain, don’t care about thousands of names, if there is a difference, there will be resentment, and if there is resentment, there will be resentment.In the face of the desolate and helpless world, who is more noble than others.Li Chengqi slowly lay back in the car. It turned out that he was the only one who went west out of Yangguan, and there was no one to see him off or to see him off.He and Hua Nu went to their respective ends of the world, but their ends of the world were in opposite directions.

They couldn't see Chang'an anymore.

The author has something to say: [1] Li Chengqi changed his title in the eighth year of Kaiyuan. I couldn't write about that year, so I changed it for him earlier.