Annihilation

"Ah?!" Lu really felt that he had heard it wrong this time, so the expression on his face was doubt, not shock and surprise.

Seeing that Qin Zhan didn't understand the meaning of his words at all, with a look of simple doubts, he showed a soft smile, and moved his face closer to Lu. The height difference between the two was only half a head, allowing Qin Zhan to accurately capture Lu Kai. Lips pursed a little.

This is a very light kiss, so light it can be said that it is just the touch of two lips, this kiss does not contain any passion or desire, just like kissing flower petals lightly, admiring the beauty and expressing admiration.

Lu's eyes widened because Qin Zhan kissed himself.

"I love you." Laughing at Lü's stunned look, he leaned into Lü's ear and expressed his feelings word by word.

"Are you kidding me!" Lu was furious. He didn't believe Qin Zhan's words at all. He said that he loved him. Would he believe such a lie?Qin Zhan loves him?joke.

He stretched out his hand and pushed Qin Zhan, who was too close to him, away. Qin Zhan didn't resist the push, and took two steps back, and Lu himself also took two steps, and the distance between the two separated.

"Qin Zhan, you have to be proficient in lying." How could Lu, who deeply believed that Qin Zhan hated him and everything he did was just acting, believe that Qin Zhan would love him.Apart from being a priest, Ritsu considers himself a mortal. Having lived in human society for too long, Ritsu has taken many human concepts as common sense. For example, love should be between opposite sexes. The point of view is to follow the trend, not the rare ones. The former is the trend of love between men and women, and the latter is the exception of same-sex love.

"I won't make fun of my feelings for you. This is not a lie. I really love you. I, Qin Zhan, love you as a man." Qin Zhan, who restrained his expression, said to the law very seriously. He didn't want His confession was taken as a joke by the law.

Lu looked at Qin Zhan. From Qin Zhan's clear and firm eyes, Lu couldn't see the elements of lies, but he still didn't believe it.Regarding the mentality and thinking of the world, Lu thinks he can touch six or seven points, but only Qin Zhan can't touch three points of it. He can't see whether what Qin Zhan reveals is true or not. Human beings are already able to treat fakes as real ones.

Lu pursed his lips and did not respond to Qin Zhan.

"World awareness, Baberette and Grandma Song both know that I love you, they think I can give you happiness, so they gave me a chance to stand by your side, they want you to be happy, if, I With malice towards you, without sincerity, Lil, they won't give me this chance." Qin Zhan did not give up, he had to convince Lil to believe his feelings, and Barberet, who and Grandma Song were undoubtedly the ones in Lil's heart. Now, Lun trusts them more than herself. With the support of these three, Lun will believe in this matter.

Law's expression became complicated. Leaving aside the voyeurism of Barberet, he must have discovered a lot of things he overlooked. The perception of the human heart by the world consciousness is an instinct. After all, human beings were born in him. It is too easy for the world consciousness. Qin Zhan's lies cannot deceive the world consciousness.And grandma, he won't hurt himself.

But, how could Qin Zhan love himself?

"How do you love me? You almost killed me." Qin Zhan's reason is acceptable, but why would Qin Zhan, who said he loves himself, want to kill himself?It was because of that time that Lu concluded that Qin Zhan hated him and hated him.

"I passed that time because I was afraid." Qin Zhan's expression sank. For that behavior, it was a knot in Qin Zhan's heart that could not be untied. He could not forgive his behavior at that time, and he would live forever. bear this crime.

"Afraid?" Law didn't understand.

"I am a person with strong self-control, the only exception is when it comes to your affairs, Li, you don't even know how painful it is for me to love you," Qin Zhan said, feeling a little sad, " I love you, but you hate me. Every time we meet, you are fighting against each other. You cut my heart again and again, but even if you want to go crazy in pain, even if you know that this relationship is innocent, you can’t stop loving you. , as if possessed by a demon."

Hearing Qin Zhan's confession, Lu avoided his face uncomfortably.

"I hate you. When I love you, I also hate you. I hate you for being heartless. I hate you for making me fall in love. I hate you for making my emotions and desires completely sway with you. If you are happy, I will love you." I'm happy, but my heart hurts when you're sad." This is Qin Zhan's pain, "I thought I loved you to the extreme, but I didn't expect that the relationship could be deeper. Even your inadvertent performance can make my feelings for you deeper, not at all. The feeling of being in control, Lil, is horrible."

It is precisely because of the strong self-control that you will be more panicked because you lose control.Law understands that because he himself is also a person with strong control, otherwise he would not have been hiding in front of everyone for so many years, and no one would have discovered his sadness and pain after being a dandy, but he has never met someone like Qin Zhanyi who can let himself Out of control exists, but as long as he thinks about why he will lose the restraint and control of his emotions, Li shudders.

"The pain is too long, the pain is too uncomfortable, the feelings are too desperate, and I can't get redemption and rescue, so I think crazily, how good it would be if I didn't have you who made me lose control." Qin Zhan sneered, laughing at himself or herself Sorrow, why don't you laugh at the foolishness of the past, how can you not be sad and regret the mistakes you have made.

"When did it start?" After listening to Qin Zhan's story, Lu rubbed his hair and asked a little irritably. He never thought that Qin Zhan had such feelings for him, so what Qin Zhan made him feel wrong was that Because of this feeling.All of a sudden, the previous cognition was subverted, and Lu couldn't accept it.

"It's been a long time," Qin Zhan said with a bit of nostalgia, "Speaking of which, my first impression of you was actually very bad. If it wasn't for the time I saw your injury and knew what happened to you, I would have loved you a lot. The perception of him will not change." Who would have thought that he would fall in love with Li.

"Is there sympathy and pity?" People always have love because of sympathy and pity.Qin Zhan's feelings also come from this.

"No," Qin Zhan shook his head and denied, "The feelings that come from sympathy and pity are too shallow, and I am not someone who loves because of sympathy and pity." Qin Zhan was very confident about this, and showed his strength in front of the law On the grim side, he is not merciful.

"Because I know what happened to you, so pay attention, eyes began to chase you, pampering you became a habit, a little change happened unconsciously, when I found out, it was when I loved you. At that time I I was scared, how could I fall in love with you." Qin Zhan showed a nostalgic smile for his past performance, "Is it bad to fall in love with me?" Lu raised his eyebrows, Qin Zhan's tone of words, how could it be that falling in love with himself is a very difficult thing? The bad thing, although Lu didn't have any thoughts about Qin Zhan's feelings at this time, it was just about himself, so Lu had to express his opinion.

"Of course it's not good," Qin Zhan was not afraid of offending Lv, and looked at Lv and said it calmly. "I am astonished as a man with you. What's more, Li, you behave like a dude in front of us. I don't even understand how I fell in love with you. Your character is not gentle, willful and arrogant. You treat me I don't have a good impression of you, I can't get along with you in peace, I can't figure out why I fell in love with you."

Lu couldn't refute Qin Zhan's words at all, because what Qin Zhan said was all things, so he didn't understand how Qin Zhan could fall in love with himself who was still a dude.

"After I realized this, I ran away, skipped a grade to finish my studies, joined the army, and tried everything I could to get rid of my feelings for you." Qin Zhan shook his head, "It's a pity, it's all useless, I can't forget you , whenever I have free time, I will think of you, and even your cynicism will make me feel sweet when I think of it. I have been poisoned by you, and I will never recover. I admit it, and I will no longer avoid this feeling, but I dare not tell You, because I'm afraid you'll hate me. Hide this feeling, stand by your side just like before, silently loving and protecting you. "

Qin Zhan's confession is not over yet.

"Suppressed feelings did not let the feelings disappear, but settled deeper. Before I realized it, my love for you had reached the point of madness. You once asked me, which one should I choose between destroying the world and destroying human beings? The reason why I choose to destroy the world is because you are among the human beings, if the human beings perish and you are gone, why does the world still exist?" This is Qin Zhan's madness, the weight of the whole world is not as important as a law.

"You..." Qin Zhan's eyes were too hot, and what he said was too crazy, Lu felt that he couldn't accept it.

"When Baberet asked Grandma Song about which one I would choose between Dayi and you, I didn't hesitate." Qin Zhan didn't deny you at this point, "It's just Lu, I lost you once , the desolate heart is empty, the world is black and white, I can't feel anything, my feelings have already been controlled by you, without you, what else can I do."

"It's just that I still have doubts in my heart. Is it worth it? For you, is it worth it to abandon responsibility, relatives and friends?"

"Regret?" Law asked.

"No." Qin Zhan shook his head, "Just like you, once you make a choice, you won't regret it. It's just that you can't calm down. Afterwards, World Consciousness and Barberet let me know about you, and this grievance disappeared. It’s me who should be ashamed, you deserve my love, I don’t deserve to love you, but I can’t give up on you, I can’t let you go before, and I can’t let go after I know it.”

Qin Zhan took two steps forward, bent his knees and knelt down, took Lu's left hand with his right palm, and looked up into Lu's eyes, "Abandon human righteousness, abandon all relatives and friends, abandon past responsibilities, betray everything, just For you." She put her lips on the back of Ritsu's hand. "I am your knight, the knight who only protects you, the knight who destroys mankind for you."