Confess you in early winter

After nearly two weeks, Su Ci received another call from Yan Chu.

On the eighth day of the first lunar month, it was a rare sunny day. People in the small town were visiting relatives and friends, and there were not many pedestrians on the street. Yan Chu wore a thick winter coat, and dialed a series of familiar numbers at the public telephone booth on the street.

After a brief beep, the call was quickly connected.

The woman's gentle and gentle voice came out of the receiver, her tone was calm but alienated: "Hello, who is it?"

"Sister Su, it's me, Yan Chu." Yan Chu responded to the other party's words, but fixed her eyes on her toes.

The telephone booths are located on the side of the road, and when cars pass by, there is a lot of noise.

Su Ci was quiet for two seconds, and then spoke in a softer tone: "How are you doing? The winter vacation is almost over, right?"

"Well, it's okay." Yan Chu nodded, "School starts next Monday, so I should return to Fudu one day earlier."

"Yes, except for the two days during the Spring Festival, I have been doing my homework."

"Thank you, Sister Su, for Wu Jun's matter."

"..."

We chatted casually on undirected topics, and no one took the initiative to mention the purpose of this call.

It wasn't until Yan Chu heard that the other party intended to end the call that she stopped Su Ci: "Sister Su, I have something to ask you."

"Okay, tell me." The woman was still patient and gentle with her.

Yan Chu closed his eyes, took a deep breath of the freezing air, and asked, "Did my parents contact you before the winter camp? I mean the first week."

There was an instant silence on the other side of the receiver, and no one spoke for a while.

After a brief silence, Yan Chu heard a helpless sigh, wrapped in a soft nasal voice, and responded to her: "Yes."

Sure enough, that's why Su Ci's attitude towards her suddenly changed so drastically.

Her parents even monitored her call records, and she was not surprised to do such an unthinkable thing.

Even if Yan Tingyue and He Ping couldn't guess the real relationship between her and Su Ci, they would definitely prevent her from frequent contact with Su Ci on the grounds that they would not affect her study.

Yan Chu's chest hurt as if being pricked by a needle. She pursed her lips, held back the resentment in her heart, tried her best to be as calm as possible, and asked, "When did it happen? What did they tell you?"

"I didn't say anything." The woman's voice was gentle, but she didn't answer directly, "Don't think too much about it."

Su Ci's attitude was expected by Yan Chu, and he knew that this woman would not tell her the truth.

"If you don't want to tell me, I'll ask my mother." Yan Chu went straight to the point, "They even printed out my call records, so I can guess what they can do."

The little girl was too stubborn, and the woman had nothing to do with her, so she had no choice but to confess: "It's really nothing, just the day the camp opened, your mother called and asked who I was and how I met you."

"What else?" Yan Chu asked, "What did she tell you, so that you not only rejected my appointment, but also refused to answer the phone or text message?"

Facing the little girl's accusation, the woman was speechless, and rarely begged softly: "I'm sorry."

Yan Chu didn't buy her account, and spoke bluntly and sharply: "Don't say sorry to me, you have your own considerations, I don't blame you, I just want to know what she said to you that day."

Su Ci was silent for a while, Yan Chu was not in a hurry and waited patiently.

Jumping to the third green light at the crossroad ahead, the woman finally answered her: "Auntie said that you are short on time now, and you have a lot of schoolwork. There is nothing important, so try not to disturb you."

When Su Ci spoke, his voice was relatively low, and his speech speed was not fast. He seemed calm, but more of it was an indescribable helplessness.

Yan Chu bit his lip, and said with a bit of grievance in his tone, "Because of this reason, you ignored me?"

The woman didn't respond, but not speaking meant acquiescing.

She was in the wrong, and she couldn't stand on her own ground and explain to Yan Chu with her own considerations. No matter what she said, it was just a cunning sophistry of an adult who was afraid of taking responsibility.

After all, the little girl was wronged. From the beginning, it was her fault, and she shouldn't provoke her.

Yan Chu really felt sad.

Her eyes were sore for no reason, she sniffed, her voice choked up: "Sister Su, I want you to tell the truth."

"It's because you don't like me and hate my entanglement, so you don't want to talk to me." When Yan Chu said these words, there was a little crying in his tone, "You rejected me because I was young and my personality was bad. yes, isn't it?"

As long as Su Ci clearly gave her an affirmative answer, she would never stalk her again in the future.

The girl's personality is straightforward and innocent, and she can't think about such long-term things, and she can't take into account many complicated factors in the secular and adult society. In her eyes, it's either black or white. There is only one reason why two people can't get together. Just don't like it, don't love it enough.

Only if Su Ci doesn't like her, and it is impossible to like her, can she extinguish her enthusiasm and cut off her thoughts.

The woman didn't give her an answer for a long time.

Reason and impulse are repeatedly entangled, and she clearly knows what to say and how to do it, which can completely end the tussle between them.

As long as she said "yes", the children would not come to her again in the future, and she could breathe a sigh of relief, putting an end to the hesitation and suffering of the past few months.

However, when the words came to her lips, she couldn't help asking herself, is this really the case?

If she affirms Yan Chu's angry words, not only is she ignoring the facts and being irresponsible, but she is also avoiding key issues and hurting Yan Chu for her own selfishness.

Undoubtedly, no matter how she answers, it may cause harm to Yan Chu, either it will be a clean break right now, or it will be an unpredictable disaster in the future.

As for herself, she is also in a dilemma, remorse and shame are secondary, if Yan Chu hates her for depriving her of more choices that she should have had because of the bad influence she brought to Yan Chu, how will she bear it?

The woman's silence was too long, Yan Chuqing couldn't help but clenched the microphone tightly.

"...Xiao Chu." Su Ci sighed, trying to persuade Yan Chu with more gentle words.

But before that, the little girl interrupted her paranoidly: "Yes, or no, Sister Su, if not, then you give me a convincing reason."

This conversation is too difficult for a woman, every word needs to be carefully thought out, and after thinking too much, it is difficult to speak in the end.

After an unknown amount of time, Yan Chu waited until his hands and feet were numb from the cold, and finally heard the woman say to her, "Xiao Chu, you are still young, and you are not yet responsible for your own life and the choices you make right now."

The decisions we made when we were young cannot be counted, no matter how decisive and beautiful they are. This cannot be compared to the fact that adults will lie, because young people’s vision for the future is mostly sincere. They are optimistic, sincere, and think too much about life. Simple, too ideal, thinking that I can be indomitable and unyielding.

It is precisely because they are too sincere that the promises made by betting on everything in the future will become their shackles. When they violate their original intentions and cannot keep their promises, they will feel more hesitant and more painful.

Su Ci hoped that Yan Chu would not be in a hurry, she would have enough time to think about it.

Both liking and love can be just a momentary impulse, but life and the future are not.

Two people can't be together as long as they love each other, and they will encounter many difficulties in the future. If they don't really think clearly and don't have enough confidence to face the unpredictable wind and rain, then the so-called determination will also be vulnerable.

This is the experience summed up by Su Ci as an elder, who has 11 years more experience than Yan Chu.

She is not a saint, she can't sit back and enjoy the girl's bright and fiery enthusiasm without disturbing her heart, it's not that she doesn't believe in Yan Chu's sincerity, but she doesn't believe that she is worth Yan Chu's all-or-nothing for her.

Compared to Yan Chu who only thinks about her, she hopes that Yan Chu will think more about herself. There are many things that are important to a person. For students, the most important thing is their studies, followed by their families.

After Su Ci finished speaking, Yan Chu fell silent. She seemed to be thinking carefully, but her mood was too complicated to sort out.

The green light turned into a red light again, the traffic on the road stopped and went, there was a low wall across the street, and the leaves of the ivy were sparse, blown by the wind, and almost all of them had fallen off.

At some point, the sun hid in the dense clouds, and the streets of the small town seemed to be shrouded in a hazy shadow.

Yan Chu looked at the sky in the distance, and one or two spring swallows flashed in his field of vision. After a long time, he asked in a low voice: "Sister Su, can you be responsible for your own future? The decision you made on the spur of the moment when you were young Do you regret it?"

Su Ci didn't answer.

The girl said again: "If everything and every decision must be thoughtful and take into account the overall situation, how can you be sure that the choice you are about to make has included all possible conditions and factors?"

"If life can use the greatest probability to optimize choices, then why do so many people regret that they didn't take a brave step?"

"Because I'm still young, I can be self-willed and disregard the consequences, because I still have a chance to become who I want to be." Yan Chu's heart was beating wildly, but the wind was blowing his head soberly, "Sister Su, I like you, not on a whim, nor by chance."

"You can reject me clearly, no matter what the reason is, but I still like you."

"It's just that I hope that you reject me because you can't like me or appreciate me. It's because I haven't met your expectations and met your mate selection requirements, not because of all external factors that have nothing to do with me, including me. parents."

"My thoughts are very straightforward and naive. What you have to consider must be something that I can't personally understand at present. I only know that if I don't fight for it and work hard, I deserve to regret it. I don't want to regret it, so I will Handle things in your own way and try to be as close to you as possible."

A gust of wind blew in the distance, and the clouds in the sky were thinned, and the sun came out from the gaps in the clouds. The hazy shadows in the foggy town faded away, and the vision was bright and clear.

Yan Chu held the microphone and took a deep breath.

The moist breath formed a white mist in front of her eyes. She said too much in one breath, and now her mouth is dry and the air in her lungs has become thin.

"Sister Su, there is no absolutely correct path in life, just like what parents call 'for your own good' may not be what we really want." corner of the eye.

Sincerely, sincerely say the last word.

"If you don't hate me, don't kill the chance that I might be liked by you, okay?"

The author has something to say: Xiao Chu, excellent.

"So many people regret that they didn't take a brave step."

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