Gu Xian

What a terrible man Philip was?Shen Qiao only knew that before meeting the real Philip, he had never seen the appearance of hell.

Shen Qiao was injected with methamphetamine that day.

Shen Qiao can hardly remember what happened that day, but the pleasure brought by methamphetamine and sex. ).

After he woke up, he saw Philip asking him with a smile: "How do you feel?"

Philip was still the same, wearing a fancy floral shirt, baggy slacks, and exaggerated blond curls.He still looked harmless, like the common pleasure seeker that pops up in every nightclub.Even the voice was as gentle as before with a smile, but Shen Qiao no longer dared to connect the person in front of him with the previous Philip.

One is an unlucky business man who can't do anything and can only look for entertainers in entertainment venues, and the other is a devil who can laugh and inject people with drugs.

Shen Qiao tremblingly asked: "Why did you treat me like this? I'm not sorry for you at all."

Philip sighed softly: "Shen, you shouldn't be afraid of me, we are the same kind of people, how could I harm you?"

Shen Qiao was so excited by these words that he almost jumped up, and he shouted: "You and I are not the same kind of people!"

Philip's face sank instantly, and when he sank, Shen Qiao's heart was trembling—horrible, too scary.With such dark eyes, Shen Qiao felt that he was a dead person—or, in Philip's eyes, he was a dead person.

Shen Qiao was startled by this thought.This action seemed to please Philip, the gloom on his face disappeared, and a gentle smile returned: "Shen, we are one kind of people, we all deserve to live in hell, how can we yearn for sunshine?"

Philip leaned down, and gently stroked the corners of Shen Qiao's eyes with his fingers, which made Shen Qiao feel that Philip might be able to gouge out his eyes in the next moment.

Philip said softly, "Shen, if you are misbehaving next time, it won't be such a gentle punishment this time."

Shen Qiao instantly felt cold all over.

I see……

He doesn't go clubbing anymore, he doesn't have sex anymore, he doesn't do nothing anymore, so Philip is not happy.He wants to write songs, he wants to return to the light zone, so Philip wants to punish him.

Whether it is gang rape or injection of more addictive drugs, it is a punishment.

Shen Qiao kept grinding his teeth nervously, and he worked hard for a long time before he could say a word intermittently: "Why are you doing this to me?"

The corner of Philip's mouth was smiling, as if he was answering a cute question from a cute kid: "I've said it all, of course because we should all live in hell."

Shen Qiao wanted to kill someone.

Philip seemed to feel Shen Qiao's anger, and he asked, "Shen, do you want to kill me now?"

Looking at Shen Qiao's instantly stiff body, Philip didn't get angry at all: "Shen, although I can't let you kill me, I can let you kill others to vent your anger."

Shen Qiao was in doubt.

Philip clapped his hands, the door was opened, and a few strong white men came in carrying a few people covered in blood.

Shen Qiao looked over, but in the next moment his eyebrows turned cold: Those people covered in blood were the ones who raped him last night.

Shen Qiao looked at Philip, and Philip smiled and said, "Shen, did you see that group of bastards who spoiled you, do you want to kill them?"

As he spoke, Philip handed Shen Qiao a knife, a sharp knife that shone coldly under the reflection of the light.

Shen Qiao didn't dare to answer, he asked: "What do you mean?"

Philip shook the knife in his hand: "Of course it's to make you vent your anger."

Shen Qiao lowered his eyes and asked, "What if I don't do it?"

Philip shrugged and said in a relaxed voice, "I don't know either. But... there must be blood in this house."

Shen Qiao looked at Philip in disbelief, Philip still had a relaxed and joking expression, as if he just made a funny prank and said a funny joke.

But what he did could not be summed up as a prank, and what he said was not a joke.

He is serious.

Today, this house must bleed, either from those people, scumbags, or from Shen Qiao.

Shen Qiao didn't want to die, he wanted to live.

Trembling, Shen Qiao picked up the knife and slowly walked towards those people.

hate them?of course.Facing the scumbag who gang raped him, who wouldn't hate him?But to kill them with your own hands?Normally, Shen Qiao would not be able to do it.

No matter what happened to Shen Qiao, he grew up in a peaceful and prosperous age.Guns are banned in China, and public security is well-known internationally. Shen Qiao has never encountered any robbery since he was a child.He hasn't even gotten into a fight yet, and is a good, law-abiding citizen in his 20s - except for drugs, which are not a crime under US law.

He never thought of killing people, holding a knife with a gloomy luster, to end a fresh life.

He was afraid, but he was even more afraid that the person who died would be himself.

Shen Qiao clearly remembered that he plunged a knife into a man's chest, and blood sprayed all over his face.He didn't even remember how the man reacted after being stabbed with a knife, he just remembered that he stabbed himself and killed one person after another.

In the end, Shen Qiao's whole body became numb, and he repeated the movements mechanically until Philip pulled him up.He stared at Philip blankly, without focus in his eyes.

Philip wiped the blood on his face tenderly, but it only got messier and more horrific.

Philip said in a gentle voice: "Shen, you have done a good job. From today on, no one can bully you. You can punish all those who are sorry for you. You remember, so those who are sorry for you Everyone can be punished."

For a long time, this sentence always echoed in Shen Qiao's ears: so anyone who is sorry for you can be punished.

He can't even remember how many people he punished.

The male singer who robbed him of resources, he broke his voice; the boyfriend who didn’t want to marry him, he chopped off his life; Vague.

As Philip said, "So anyone who is sorry for you can be punished."

He punished too many people, and he began to get used to and even enjoy the feeling of controlling other people's lives—too happy, this is so happy.Standing in front of those people, he is God.

Perhaps because his performance is becoming less and less like a normal person, Philip took him to meet the "Teacher".

The so-called "teacher" is a man who is very handsome.He is obviously a 1.9-meter tall and burly Caucasian man, but he insists on wearing a floral skirt, a wig, and even makeup on his face.

Where does this neuropathy come from?But Shen Qiao didn't dare to show it.He bowed his head, pretending to be respectful.

"Teacher" said in a tone that Shen Qiao couldn't accept: "Dear Shen, welcome to Angela, you will be a new member of our big family."

It was such a person who didn't seem to have a bright mind, but Philip bowed his head respectfully in front of him - the person who can make a lunatic bow his head can only be a crazier lunatic.

"Teacher" told him: "Dear Shen, I hope you can communicate happily with your little friends, because you are a family."

Shen Qiao wanted to laugh.Wasn't Philip the one who brought him to smoke weed?Wasn't Philip the one who injected him with meth?Obviously these people brought him into the vortex of taking drugs, but in the end they told him that we are a family, the biggest joke in the world.

But he didn't dare to say it, he could only bow his head respectfully like Philip, as if he was facing his lifelong belief: "Okay, Teacher."

Then Shen Qiao went through a painful period, communicating with a bunch of lunatics every day and making expressions of admiration... He felt that it must be a miracle from heaven that he wasn't crazy.

During this period, Shen Qiao also knew something about this organization.

For example, the founder of Angela is a woman who was abandoned by her husband, but she was not overwhelmed by the painful life. Instead, she founded Angela to help more people who suffered.

For example, "Teacher" was born with gender cognitive impairment, and his father even sent him to a mental hospital after discovering it. "Teacher" came out by fooling the doctor, but was discovered after a certain women's dress, his father beat him half to death, and then kicked him out of the house without paying him a penny that year, and his mother didn't say In a word—or, as early as when he was in the psychiatric hospital, his mother had already regarded him as a child.

For example, Philip, he was addicted to drugs from the womb.His mother was an AIDS-affected woman in a red-light district who took drugs. Although Philip gave birth to AIDS, she did not escape drug addiction. He never took drugs actively, but he could not do without them all his life. At the mercy of drugs.

Shen Qiao even overheard his own identity - an illegitimate child without a father, a poor wretch who was dumped by his boyfriend.

Shen Qiao had nothing to refute.

Indeed, no matter how normal the relationship between his mother and father sounds, he is theoretically an illegitimate child. He left without a word of retention - to some extent, he was really a "poor guy who was dumped by his boyfriend".

There are children abandoned by their parents, adopted daughters raped by their stepfathers, wives abused by their husbands, poor people dragged down by poverty...

Everyone has everyone's misfortune, so they take their own misfortune as a gold medal to avoid death, and tell their misfortune to everyone, as if they are the most pitiful people in the world.

When they hear that others are more pitiful than themselves, they will gloat, and then hypocritically comfort "everything will be fine", in fact, they wish that you would struggle in the quagmire for the rest of your life and never get up again.

If you make them feel jealous and uncomfortable, then they're going to drag you down with them, watch you struggle, and say "we're all the same, we're all the same, we're all family" ".

In the final analysis, it's just a group of neurotics who don't want to see other people's well-being get together and say "I hope you are well", such lies that they don't even believe, maintaining a false enjoyment.

However, Shen Qiao thought helplessly, I will also become one of them, and I will also become a neurotic.

When Philip told him that he wanted to return to China and reconnect with Zhou Gu, he was really happy, because he was thinking that he would see his sunshine, and his sunshine would bring him back to the world.

But his sunshine shined on others, and at that moment, jealousy ate him madly.When Zhou Gu chose the wrong tune without hesitation, Shen Qiao knew that he was crazy.

He finally became the kind of person he used to think was ridiculous: if he had a bad life, he would see others suffer even more.