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Are you afraid of losing?Maybe.

Shang Zhiyu stood quietly in the darkroom. This place was the most familiar and reassuring to him. The darker it was, the easier it was for people to fall into contemplation. It seemed that he had returned to that extremely dark and desperate night in a trance. He made up his mind to give up. Also from then on.

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"Tell me about Shang Zhiyu again?" Zhuang Xifeng continued to entertain Wu Haoran. Shang Zhiyu couldn't drink too much and had to go back to work, so Zhuang Xifeng used the excuse to keep Wu Haoran. Anyway, he has two rooms here. There are two beds, but Shang Zhiyu only has one, and he converted the other into a darkroom.

Who can refuse Qiwu?Wu Haoran was a little surprised that Shang Zhiyu was so defenseless towards Qiwu, he didn't seem to mind being known by the big star in front of him about those things just now.

"He's the same as me, he can't refuse you..." Wu Haoran is a muscle, he has already spoken when he thinks about something, not to mention that he already feels a little dizzy after drinking a few glasses of red wine up.

Zhuang Xifeng rested his cheek in one hand, and couldn't help laughing at himself when he heard this sentence, and murmured, "He always rejects me, I think he is the only one in this world who can not be influenced by me."

"How is it possible... I've watched many of your movies, and I'm also your fan..." Wu Haoran didn't believe it, he looked at Zhuang Xifeng seriously and said, "Shang Zhiyu seems to treat everyone very well. Look, but after that incident, he will definitely not open his heart to others so easily, I think he treats you differently, I don’t know if it’s because you are Qiwu..."

"That matter...does it refer to his father's matter?"

"You know?" Wu Haoran was slightly surprised, then smiled again, squinting his eyes and said, "Look, let me tell you, he is obviously different to you..."

He doesn't know the details. He doesn't know how long Zhuang Xifeng worked hard to achieve this "differentness". This hard work includes both Shang Zhiyu and himself, but he Too lazy to explain, he poured wine for Wu Haoran again, and said, "You also know that Shang Zhiyu is very taciturn, and always briefly mentions his own affairs. I think he doesn't want to recall, what do you think?"

Hmph, he didn't believe that with his ability of persuading people to drink, he couldn't get Shang Zhiyu's past out of his mouth!In fact, he was really brooding about the "suicide" just now, which made him worried and unable to let go.

"Yes, sometimes I don't dare to think about it." Wu Haoran took another sip of wine and said.

"Where's Gu Yunlan? Does she know as much as you do?"

"Well, she's a good girl." Wu Haoran said with a smile when he mentioned Gu Yunlan.

"How to say?" Zhuang Xifeng continued to ask.

"Well, you also know that the incident happened to Shang Zhiyu's father, and their family's status has plummeted since then. He was held in the hands of everyone at school, but then the situation suddenly reversed. Once Shang Zhiyu changed Becoming the son of a corrupt official, everyone felt that he was a victim. During that period, he had a very difficult life. People who were jealous of him before or who had not been treated fairly because of his father banded together and tried their best to torture him. Hurt him, there is no peace for a day, he finally got into college and left home, those people still refused to let him go, once they arrested Gu Yunlan and threatened him to self-mutilate, Shang Zhiyu almost died because of Gu Yunlan It's all gone, and later, he proposed to break up with Gu Yunlan, but Gu Yunlan disagreed, she said that she was not afraid of being implicated, and wanted to follow Shang Zhiyu, but Shang Zhiyu was determined to separate from her. His mother had an accident again, so he dropped out of school and went back to take care of his mother. After his mother passed away, he left his hometown. As far as I know, he never went back, and Gu Yunlan has been looking for him. She hasn't seen her for ten years. Change your mind."

Even though Wu Haoran has already saved a lot of process, Zhuang Xifeng is still more frightened the more he listens, and the more he feels heartbroken for Shang Zhiyu in the past. Shang Zhiyu's always calm surface has experienced such a terrible experience He turned out to be such a person who walked through it step by step with difficulty, no wonder he could see everything so indifferently and bear everything silently.

"Just now when you said you were always worried about him, you meant that time..." Zhuang Xifeng said silently.

"Well, Shang Zhiyu has good ability, good sports, and good grades. I belong to the most inconspicuous category in the class. I only admire him. But later, some of his friends left him, and some betrayed him. He, some hurt him. Once I saw him standing alone on the rooftop, I thought he was going to jump off, so I started to follow him. At that time, he actually didn’t pay much attention to me. He became I have to trust no one, always walk alone, expressionless, I am afraid to talk to him, it is really useless." Wu Haoran said with an embarrassed smile.

"How could it be? If you were really afraid, you wouldn't have followed him then, wouldn't you?" The little man was actually not ordinary, maybe he was the one who made Shang Zhiyu regain his trust in others.

"That's why I said that Gu Yunlan is a good girl. She is the one who will never leave Shang Zhiyu. I hope they can be together happily in the future." Wu Haoran took another sip of wine and lowered his eyes.

Zhuang Xifeng stared at him for a while, then asked suddenly, "Do you like Gu Yunlan?"

"Huh, huh?" Wu Haoran was startled when he heard the words, he stared at Zhuang Xifeng and asked, "Yes, is it so obvious?" Shang Zhiyu also knew that the number of times he was frightened today is not ordinary many.

"Your emotions are written on your face, anyone can see it." Zhuang Xifeng said.

"No way..." Wu Haoran touched his face, frowned and said worriedly, "What should I do now, will Gu Yunlan have noticed it long ago?"

"It's okay to see, it's normal for girls to like more." Zhuang Xifeng said disapprovingly.

After hearing this, Wu Haoran felt relieved and said, "That's true...and she probably doesn't know that I'm still in touch with Shang Zhiyu, it's all right."

"Nice to meet you today." With a smile in his eyes, Zhuang Xifeng raised his wine glass and touched him.He has a good impression of Wu Haoran because the little man has a deep affection for Shang Zhi, and he loves Wu Haoran.

"Where, it's me. I didn't expect you and Shang Zhiyu to be friends." Wu Haoran still finds it unbelievable until now, and can't help asking, "How did you know each other?"

"He's a newspaper reporter, and I'm an actor. It's easy for us to get acquainted." Zhuang Xifeng said with a sloppy eye.

"That's right." Wu Haoran simply believed in this relationship, and because he really didn't know the breakdown of Shang Zhiyu and Xiwu's work, it was impossible to find the flaw in Xiwu's words.

After they chatted for a while, Wu Haoran stayed at Zhuang Xifeng's house. Zhuang Xifeng couldn't fall asleep because of Wu Haoran's words over and over again. He picked up a bottle of red wine and opened Shang Zhiyu's house by accident. The spare key is easier to use than the one at home.

He entered on tiptoe, the living room was pitch black, he touched the bedroom, Shang Zhiyu was not there, Zhuang Xifeng retreated, went outside the dark room, and knocked lightly on the door.

"Zhuang Xifeng?" Shang Zhiyu's deep voice came from inside, Zhuang Xifeng was the only one who had the key to his house, who else would enter his house in the middle of the night besides him?

Hearing his voice, Zhuang Xifeng couldn't help but relax his nerves. After a while, he leaned against the door and whispered, "Sorry, I don't know anything..."

Shang Zhiyu was silent for a long time before he reacted to this sentence, "...the matter is over."

The phrase "the past" was said lightly by him, but behind the "past", Zhuang Xifeng heard a kind of unprecedented pain. Sure enough, this person still feels pain to this day, and there are some past events that can only be let go with the wind. In the past, but the pain will always exist, just like a scar pulled out by a knife on the body, it will scab and fall off, but it will also leave a mark, which will never disappear.

Zhuang Xifeng slid down to the ground weakly, the words on his lips lingered for a long time, but he couldn't say it, he really wanted to say to Shang Zhiyu, do you know that I wish I could meet you sooner, so that I can protect you? You, protect you from harm... But he knows that it is useless to say such words, what he has experienced cannot be turned back, and he does not want Shang Zhiyu to recall such an experience at all.

But if that's the case, he can take it for granted that he will become a part of his life, instead of being like an outsider like now, he is really not reconciled, whether it is Gu Yunlan or Wu Haoran, They all accompanied him in the most difficult moments of his life, but he himself did nothing, could not leave anything behind, even if he wanted to say a word of comfort, he seemed helpless.

He drank wine silently, sitting outside the door of the darkroom, the moonlight shone in from the window, sprinkled on his body and hands, he looked down at his arm, the burn on it was no longer a problem, thanks to Shang Zhiyu every day Change his dressing, and help him not to touch the water. He lives next door to Shang Zhiyu these few days. In addition, he will always pay attention to his other needs. Zhuang Xifeng knows that Shang Zhiyu didn't do these things deliberately, but because of his consistent carefulness and gentleness, and it's not just for him, so he couldn't figure it out. A good person, he cherishes those who are too late, how can anyone be willing to hurt him and torture him.

Now, what's the use of not being reconciled? No one can change the arrangement of fate, and no one can refuse. He only met Shang Zhiyu today, and Shang Zhiyu's heart was as early as more than ten years ago. has been given to others.

Why is this so?

Zhuang Xifeng looked up from the window, the night was vast and boundless, the moon was constantly covered by thick clouds, the darkness spread inch by inch, and inch by inch, but the door of the darkroom was never opened, Zhuang Xifeng guarded the door, and he was reluctant to leave at all.

After an unknown period of time, until the sky was already pale, Shang Zhiyu finally opened the door of the darkroom.

Outside the door, Zhuang Xifeng was lying on his side on the ground, holding a bottle of red wine that he had already drank in his hand. He was slightly curled up. It was obvious that the floor was cold, and the coldness continued to invade him. He frowned slightly, probably because he had thought of something unpleasant before falling asleep. However, this dissatisfaction probably stemmed from his past that was suddenly brought up again.

"It's really..." Shang Zhiyu looked at the person in front of him, and couldn't help feeling helpless.

Zhuang Qifeng, you are such a fool, you always devote yourself wholeheartedly, and you always stand by his side unconditionally when he needs company most...

Shang Zhiyu tiptoed into the room to fetch a blanket, knelt down and gently covered Zhuang Xifeng with it.

In fact, how lucky he is, Shang Zhiyu, in such a bad environment, there are Gu Yunlan and Wu Haoran who will never leave him, and now, there is such a stupid person who is sad for him and doesn't say anything Silently guarding by his side.