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Zhuang Qiyun appeared at the door of the ward not long after Zhou Yanyu left. Shang Zhiyu asked him curiously, "Where did you go just now?"

"I found out that I forgot to change the money when I got to the door." Zhuang Qiyun touched the back of his head in embarrassment, then walked in and asked, "When did Ah Yu leave? What did he tell you?"

"It's nothing special, this time it's really troublesome for him." Shang Zhiyu replied.

"Well, I haven't had time to thank him yet." Zhuang Qiyun said.

"When I'm discharged from the hospital, you can invite him to our house as a guest." Shang Zhi said gloomily.

"En." Although Zhuang Qiyun agreed, he didn't know why he didn't seem very interested, so he asked Shang Zhiyu, "How do you feel now?"

"The porridge is delicious, thank you for your hard work." Shang Zhiyu said with a smile.

His smile was always filled with an extremely warm taste, which left Zhuang Qiyun in a daze for a moment before he said uncomfortably, "Sometimes I wish I could do something for you, but I'm really bad, I don't know anything Do it, I don’t know if it’s too late to start learning now?”

Shang Zhiyu was startled by his words and asked, "What do you want to learn?"

"Cook, cook."

Suddenly remembering the consequences of his kitchen being blown up, Shang Zhiyu panicked for no reason, but asked him, "Are you serious?"

Zhuang Qiyun nodded, "Yes" and said, "I want to cook something delicious for you."

A heart suddenly became unbearably warm, Shang Zhiyu's smile deepened, and suddenly he remembered Zhou Yanyu's words...

——In the final analysis, he is still Zhuang Xifeng...

Sure enough, that's the case...why didn't he find out earlier...

So, without thinking about it, Shang Zhiyu agreed to him, "Okay, I'll teach you how to do it when I'm discharged from the hospital."

Zhuang Qiyun couldn't help showing a smile, and for a moment, it seemed that a ray of light filled the entire ward, making it extremely warm and bright.

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Zhuang Qiyun stayed by Shang Zhiyu's side until the day he was discharged from the hospital, but on the day Shang Zhiyu was discharged from the hospital, the person who came to pick him up was Zhou Yanyu.

"Did he not tell you anything?" Zhou Yanyu frowned, and when he received the call, Zhuang Qiyun simply said, "Tomorrow is the day Ayu is discharged from the hospital, my car is not in the hospital, so I can trouble you to come Pick us up?"

Zhou Yanyu had no reason to refuse, but he didn't expect that the agreed time had passed and Zhuang Qiyun hadn't appeared yet. Logically speaking, no matter how he thought about Shang Zhiyu's discharge from the hospital, Zhuang Qiyun would definitely do it himself, how could he never show up?

The uneasiness in Shang Zhiyu's heart gradually expanded, but it didn't show on his face, he just told Zhou Yan, "Let's go back first, there is no point in waiting any longer."

Zhou Yanyu glanced at him, nodded, picked up the luggage he had already packed, and left the hospital with Shang Zhiyu.

Driving Shang Zhiyu home, Zhou Yanyu accompanied him to the door. Shang Zhiyu saw an envelope on the empty dining table in the living room at a glance. With a few flamboyant characters:

Shangzhi Yushou

When Zhou Yanyu saw the handwriting on the envelope, he showed a slightly surprised expression at first, and then suddenly realized.

On the side of the envelope are two air ticket orders that have already been rebooked. Shang Zhiyu was stunned again after seeing it, because these two orders belonged to him alone, and Zhuang Xifeng's name was not there in the first place. .

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Father Zhuang stood in front of Zhuang Qiyun's grave with a bouquet of lilies, silent for a long time, then slowly squatted down, put down the lilies gently, stretched out his hand to caress the photo on it, and waited for a while before getting up to leave .

When he turned around, a man in a black suit was standing not far from a row of tombstones. He also held a bouquet of lilies in his hand, but because he saw someone in front of the tombstone, he kept waiting there and did not come forward.

His face profile is a complete replica of the person in the photo, the only difference is that one is young and the other is mature.

The wind gently blows the white petals, bringing a lonely and distressing taste.

"How long are you going to hide it?" Zhuang Qiyun was the one who spoke first. His expression was very calm, and he could hardly see the deep pain hidden inside, but when he asked these words, he paused every word. Difficult as if each word weighs a thousand catties.

Father Zhuang stared at him intently, and said after a long while, "I have never been a competent father. You must hate me for leaving you in the hospital, right?"

Zhuang Qiyun twitched the corners of his lips. Although the curve was perfect, it carried an indescribable bitterness, "You must hope that the one who died was me, right?"

Father Zhuang looked at him, facing the exact same face, he was also speechless.

"You don't want to tell the truth because you never want to admit Xiaofeng...he is dead." The words of affirmation slowly came out from Zhuang Qiyun's mouth, revealing the secret that had never been revealed.

Seeing Zhuang Qiyun's expression of resignation as if he had accepted everything as calm as water, Father Zhuang finally sighed and said, "I'm sorry, Xiaoyun."

Zhuang Qiyun looked at him quietly, and said quietly, "Up to now, I have understood everything, but in fact, since that day, everything about Zhuang Qiyun has disappeared, right?" He turned his gaze to the tombstone, Zhuang Qiyun His death certificate had already been issued at that time, and he will always be Zhuang Qifeng.

Father Zhuang's final response was only silence, because he really had nothing to say.

After Zhuang's father left, Zhuang Qiyun walked slowly to the tombstone with his name written on it. He bent down and offered lilies, and said in a low voice, "Xiaofeng, I'm sorry, I'm late." It was a full ten years late, To come here to see you, forgive me.

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On the plane, Shang Zhiyu put on the earphones, turned on the music, closed his eyes, and as the melodious melody played slowly, his thoughts also drifted to nowhere.

Since Zhuang Qiyun left a letter that day, after half a month, there was still no news. Shang Zhiyu knew that he was indeed as written in the letter, and he might not see him again for the time being.

After opening the letter that day and reading it, Shang Zhiyu understood everything, but he didn't expect that he was deceived by Qiwu's acting skills again, and for so long.

This reminded him of the time when he first met, that young man named Shen Yifan, he also appeared in his life like this for a short week, and then left.

That time he felt angry because he was tricked, but this time, Shang Zhiyu only had the word "convinced" in his heart.

Zhuang Xifeng... Oh, no, he should be called Zhuang Qiyun now, I really didn't expect it... But like Zhou Yanyu said, the person he knew, whether it was Zhuang Xifeng or Zhuang Qiyun, was not someone who escaped from reality People, he will always live out his own appearance and find himself again, and he can't stand still, the road under his feet must be walked out by himself, and then... maybe, they can be together Let's go side by side...

Shang Zhiyu:

See letter...

You just got out of the hospital, so don't be mad at yourself.

I think, when you read this letter, you should be angry with me again, so I want to make a preview first.

It is my willfulness to choose to leave such a letter on the day you are discharged from the hospital. If you can, please indulge me again.

There is one thing I must confess to you, I am Zhuang Qiyun, not Zhuang Xifeng.

Ten years ago, I pretended to be Xiaofeng, and I met Joanna in the study. Xiaofeng was the only person in the world who loved me, so I didn’t allow other people to fall in love with him and get close to him. At that time, I only had one thought in my mind, who was it? I couldn't take away my Xiaofeng, so I threatened Anna with a knife. Later, I only remembered that Anna provoked me, made me completely lose my mind, and stabbed her with a knife. Unexpectedly, the one who stabbed was pushing the door and entering Xiaofeng, who was protecting Anna, at that time, I was desperate, so I planned to commit suicide. It was Xiaofeng who tried his best to stop me, and it was me who caused the tragedy. In the end, it killed the person I cared about the most.

But, fortunately, we are twins, looking at my face, it was like seeing him, so I subconsciously regarded myself as him, and didn't want to remember what happened at that time, and lived in the name of Zhuang Xifeng all the time, I think Live like him, confident, strong, proud, nothing can beat him, nothing can beat him.

So, when Shen Xi asked me to act, I bet everything, hoping to do it well.

Later, I met you. At that time, I had nothing but acting skills, but your appearance, your care, your help, your tolerance, it was like Xiaofeng returned to me Just like being beside you, let me fall into it irresistibly, mistakenly thinking that I am in love with you.

I do love you, just like I love Xiaofeng. The more I get in touch with you, the more I want to cherish and love you. I don't want to be that Zhuang Qiyun who needs protection and care. I want to be like Xiaofeng Be strong, be someone who can tolerate the mistakes of others just like you.

However, I didn't expect that I am still not strong enough now. I knew that my friend would fail, and I had foreseen such a result long ago. I should be prepared to bear it, but I also fell into the past uncontrollably, and woke up this time. It was the real self, the self who had been asleep for ten years, and woke up under such circumstances, but still thought that Xiaofeng was alive.

Seeing this, you may have to ask me, when did I remember everything.

In fact, it was the day of drowning.

Before Xiaofeng and I, my mother had a child, just like in all the clichéd stories, because of the family relationship, the grandfather did not accept the child, so during the pregnancy, he forced the mother to have an abortion, and gave The father of the child gave a sum of money to let him go away and never come back, and the mother collapsed because of this, which is why he became like that.

So from that day on, I remembered everything, including meeting you later, forcing you to go to Yinchuan for filming, and wanting to be friends with you... Also, I lied to you again because of Gu Yunlan... When After I remembered everything because of drowning, I found you by my side.

You can imagine how much I don't want to give up that kind of life. It turns out that as Zhuang Qiyun, I can feel your warmth again, just like what Xiaofeng gave me a long time ago.

I also thought about changing back to Zhuang Xifeng, but maybe it was my weakness, as soon as I thought about becoming Zhuang Xifeng, I would have to face the wrong thing I did. I forced Gu Yunlan, who you have been waiting for for ten years, to At that point, I feel sorry for you. If it weren't for me, things wouldn't have become so outrageous.

But in the end, everything is illusory. I know that I will face it one day, but I just keep procrastinating over and over again, so now I am still not strong enough.

But you are sick. Because of me, I heard the conversation between you and Ah Yu that day. In fact, the doctor also mentioned it to me. I think it's about time.

Only by letting go of you can I truly be myself. If I am by your side, I will change back to Zhuang Qifeng sooner or later, but I don’t want that to happen. Xiaofeng wants to let me survive even if he risked his life. I think he also hopes I can live myself.

I hope that when I can truly be myself, I will get to know you again.

This is my last request.

Zhuang Qiyun

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—Then what frightens you?

——I think it should be separation... right?

——If I live for a long time and we get to know each other gradually, will you be afraid of being separated from me in the future?

Shang Zhiyu opened his eyes, looking at the cloudless blue sky, the familiar conversation seemed to be heard again.

Zhuang Qiyun, look forward to the day we meet again.

I can expect that...

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Gu Yunlan took a deep breath and took that step.

The sunlight outside the cement wall suddenly became very lovely, illuminating a heart that had been silent for a long time.

Shang Zhiyu, who was waiting by the car, stepped forward to meet her, smiled at her, and said, "Where are you going, I'll see you off."

I haven't seen each other for three years, and there is no stranger between the two. The only change is that Gu Yunlan's hair has become shorter. She has changed from a skirt to a trousers, and she is a little more capable, even with her own temperament. It has changed somewhat, it seems to be more cheerful and lively than before.

"Go to the train station, I want to go home first." Gu Yunlan said, looked at Shang Zhiyu carefully and said, "You seem to be tanned, how are you doing recently? I heard from Haoran that you went again A trip to Egypt?"

"En." Shang Zhiyu responded, "I came back last week, let's go." He took Gu Yunlan's luggage and opened the car door.

After getting in the car, Gu Yunlan didn't speak for a while, and Shang Zhiyu didn't speak, but drove the car steadily onto the road. After a while, Gu Yunlan said, "He... seems to have another New film."

Knowing who she was talking about, Shang Zhiyu nodded and said, "It's called "The Crime of God", and it will be released this week, and now he only accepts one movie a year."

"So that's the case." Gu Yunlan's voice was a little more hesitant, as if she was worried, and she paused for a moment before saying, "Actually, I have always wanted to say sorry to him in person."

Shang Zhiyu looked back at her for a while, knowing that in the past few years, the person who made Gu Yunlan feel most sorry was that person. After thinking about it, he said, "There will be a chance."

Hearing this, Gu Yunlan turned to look at Shang Zhiyu's side face, and asked, "You guys, haven't met?"

"Yeah." Shang Zhiyu didn't say much, and Gu Yunlan couldn't help but fell silent. The car quickly drove out of the highway and entered the city, and sure enough, you could see posters of "Sin of God" everywhere. After "Hero" was released that year, The response was extremely high, and the role of the hero created by Xiwu pushed his acting career to the peak again. The high-level film created by this brand new team has been highly praised by many fans, and it has almost become a milestone film for Xiwu Since then, the mode of Xiwu's film production has completely changed. He decides the script, selects the director, and finally he takes a cut of the box office revenue. The three films since "Hero" have all been great successes. The same is true for "Sin of God" today. The fact that Qi Wu can always successfully turn not-so-commercial movies into commercial blockbusters is enough to make people in the film and television industry flock to him and almost regard him as a god.

But from a simple point of view, Qiwu is just good at film selection and acting, that's all.

Arriving at the train station, Shang Zhiyu bought a ticket for Gu Yunlan. Before entering the station, he said to Gu Yunlan, "You don't need to pay too much attention to my affairs with him, you should pay more attention to your body, you know?"

Gu Yunlan nodded, before leaving, she couldn't help but hugged Shang Zhiyu, and said, "Thank you, Zhiyu, knowing you is the luckiest thing in my life."

"Me too." Shang Zhiyu's warm voice rang in Gu Yunlan's ears, before leaving, Gu Yunlan kissed Shang Zhiyu's cheek, stopped lingering, turned and entered the station.

Shang Zhiyu watched her disappear into the crowd before slowly leaving the platform.

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"Wow! What a beautiful place!" Exclamations echoed among a group of children, who were obviously shocked by the beauty they saw.

"It's beautiful, isn't it? This is a photo taken by my friend!" Surrounded by them, Zhuang Qiyun smiled and said to them.

What he was holding in his hand was a thick hardcover photo album, all of which contained beautiful scenery at the end of the world. Most people can't see such scenery at all, but some people are willing to go to the mountains and rivers just to capture the beautiful scenery. Treasure in the lens.

"Great! Big brother's friend is amazing!" The children's eyes were filled with admiration, and some couldn't help but say, "I want to go there when I grow up."

"Then you have to listen to the doctor carefully, take the medicine obediently, and wait until your body recovers, then you can go, you know?"

"As long as the big brother comes to see us often, we will be obedient." The children all like Qi Wu, Zhuang Qiyun laughed at these unrestrained words from the heart, stretched out his hand to touch their heads and said, "Of course, I I will visit you often."

"Okay, it's time to take the medicine. Big brother is very busy at work. Since you all said you should be good, you should show big brother!" The nurse saw that the time was almost up, and came over clapping her hands to remind the troublesome little ghosts. Hearing the reluctant sighs of the little ghost heads, he couldn't help but say to Zhuang Qifeng, "They are very happy when they know you're coming. They got up early and waited. It's really thanks to Mr. Zhuang who comes here a few times a month." This time, these children have become much more cheerful."

Zhuang Qiyun stood up, looked down at the children who were still surrounding him and refused to leave, smiled very gently, and said to the nurse, "That's good, if you need anything, you can contact me at any time."

The nurse nodded, and Zhuang Qiyun handed back the photo album in her hand, then bent down and said to the children, "Big brother is leaving first, do you know that you have to listen to the nurse's auntie? Then, big brother will come to see you soon. "

"Well, we will be obedient and wait for the big brother to come." Although the children were reluctant, they still nodded obediently and answered honestly.

Zhuang Qiyun left the hospital under the eyes of the children, but his smile dimmed when he turned around, and his heart was filled with bitterness one after another. There is no other reason for the silence, but because those children are almost terminally ill, and Yu Xiaolan also knows the purpose of Qiwu's doing this. He probably wants to leave as many good memories as possible for those children before they pass away. Go there and accompany them when you have time.

Yu Xiaolan came to pick him up, and brought him the new script by the way.Since "Heroes" was finished, Qi Wu has been busy with his time. Although he only takes on one film a year, he now sets his sights very far and spends all his time besides filming on When doing meaningful things, he will also appear in various charitable activities, and occasionally participate in press conferences, award ceremonies, etc. He no longer pats his ass and leaves after filming as before. This change was only gradually understood by Yu Xiaolan , it is probably related to what happened to him when he was a child, and it is also related to his encounter with Shang Zhiyu. He always wants to use his own strength to help more people, especially those who were declared terminally ill or abused at birth Child, he spends money on this career, but his requirements for himself are becoming stricter and stricter. He will learn to do housework and cook at home by himself. He will not buy anything. In the past three years, Qiwu has changed from a wayward actor to a mature and responsible social person. Every day he lives is fulfilling and meaningful, and he will no longer be like In the past, he never considered the consequences and only cared about his own mood.

Yu Xiaolan sent Zhuang Qiyun back to the community. This is an apartment that Xiwu bought three years ago. It is located in the city center, convenient for travel, and very close to the company. The vegetable market is next to it. Downstairs, he opened the mailbox, and there was the latest issue of "Earth" magazine lying in it. He carried vegetables, magazines and newspapers and went upstairs.

Back home, Zhuang Qiyun turned on the phone and listened to the messages while cooking the rice. The messages were basically related to work, and there were specific times for some activities. There were changes and reconfirmations. In my heart, I started washing and chopping vegetables, because I lived alone all the time, and the dishes I cooked were relatively simple. Basically, they were simple stir-fries. After the vegetables were fried and the rice was cooked, Zhuang Qiyun returned to the living room and opened the TV, turn the channel to World Geography.

Two years ago, this program cooperated with "Earth" magazine to create several series, which were very popular among readers, so it has been serialized. Recently, the content they are producing is related to African animals. Zhuang Qiyun is eating while watching the lion in the camera. The hunting scene.

It wasn't until the show was over that Zhuang Qiyun got up to wash the dishes. After tidying up the kitchen, Zhuang Qiyun wiped his hands and came out to reply to the messages one by one. Then he went to the bathroom to take a bath. Zhuang Qiyun's habit of taking a bath has never changed. Drinking red wine while taking a bath, it was almost ten o'clock when he put on his bathrobe and entered the bedroom.

Zhuang Qiyun didn't bother to dry his hair, so he glanced at the magazines and newspapers that he brought into the room from the living room just now, and planned to read them first.

Unexpectedly, when he pulled out the newspaper, an envelope fell out of it, and the name of the airline was written on the envelope.

Zhuang Qiyun was taken aback, bent down to pick up the envelope, and after tearing it open, he saw that it was an itinerary to Nairobi.

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"Actually, I should have realized it when I saw the ticket." Shang Zhiyu was sitting at the boarding gate, and said to Lin You on the other end of the phone.

"You need your ID card and name to buy a plane ticket. His ID card has never been with him, so he couldn't buy his own plane ticket." Lin You said.

"So in fact, after he came back from Kyoto, he already knew who he was, and also knew that there was another name on the ID card, so he never asked about it, and deliberately pretended to forget the ID card." Shang Zhiyu's tone was a little regretful, but also relieved.

"Is he still here?" Lin You asked.

Shang Zhiyu looked around and replied, "Well, not yet, but it doesn't matter, if he thinks he can come, he will definitely come."

"You are still the same, you still like to pamper him." Lin You couldn't help saying.

"Maybe, okay, I won't tell you anymore, I'm going to board the plane." When Shang Zhiyu heard the announcement, the words on the screen at the boarding gate also changed.

"Well, pay attention to your body." Lin You hung up the phone after speaking.

Shang Zhiyu put away his mobile phone, took a boarding pass, looked back again, and strode into the boarding cabin.

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"Zhiyu, Zhiyu..." When the black teenager strode towards him in English with an accent, Shang Zhiyu, who was wiping the camera, raised his head, and immediately froze.

"Zhiyu, There'samansaysheknowsyou, isheanactorBecausehe'sfacelookssofamiliar..." (Brother Zhiyu, this man said he knew you, is he an actor, that face looks so familiar...)

The perfect face that can be seen everywhere is shining extremely dazzlingly under the sunlight, and the person who always comes to mind from time to time after he is far away from home is walking towards him step by step.

In an instant, my heart was filled with a kind of emotion, and my heartbeat seemed to be much faster. Shang Zhiyu knew that it was because of the excitement after a long separation, and also because of the joy of reunion.

He answered the black boy reflexively, without realizing that what he blurted out was actually in Chinese, "Ah, yes, he is Qiwu..."

"Yes, Iam." The other party answered the black boy first, and then bent down to look into Shang Zhiyu's eyes, which were shining with a dark and moving light, as beautiful as the night sky.

"Sorry, I'm late."

He said so to him.

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——Then what do you most want to shoot?

——Let’s go far away, away from the crowds, places that people can’t easily reach, I want to take pictures of magnificent scenery for people who can’t go to those places to see, and let myself see.

——If you go, can you take me with you?Because, I also want to see the scenery you recorded with the lens.

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The author has something to say: "The Crowd" is over here, but I haven't written enough about these two, because they are not sweet enough, so I made a special hole instead of just writing special episodes, The new pit is called "Unknown Place in the Deep of Clouds", and it is estimated that it will be locked in the same way as my previous lovesickness episode, so I posted this pit directly on cp, you can go there to watch it.