I have a deep love for Zhenjun

42.

I don't know anything about the past.Clan blood relatives, neither do I.The entire Immortal Court is so vast, but I only know Fu Qing.

I have said this to Fu Qing, but I think he probably doesn't believe it.

...But I am ashamed to say that I have said so many sweet words to him, but this is the only one that is completely sincere and without any falsehood.

I opened my eyes for the first time ten years ago, and before I could turn my head around, I saw the man in green shirt sitting in front of the case swiping a pen and giving me a name, and then he didn’t lift his eyes , Sighing three times in a row, it's a pity, and sent someone to take me out.

I racked my brains at that time, and the only thing I could think of was that my real body was a branch of the sacred tree.

Other than that, nothing else.

In this way, I became a fairy in a daze, met Fu Qing in a daze, and became a medicine in a daze.It can be said that my life as a fairy in the past ten years has been muddled like this.

Of course, if you have been in a daze for a long time, there will be a moment when you want to wake up.

Occasionally, I heard that someone from the lower realms had ascended to Taoism, so I would always go to Linlang Tianque to join in the fun.After watching too much, I found that although their ways of crossing the catastrophe are more or less different, without exception, they are all in a state of embarrassment.

Recalling that when I first entered the Immortal Court, my clothes were neat and tidy, except for my dizzy head, my body felt no discomfort at all, and I couldn't even find a scar.

I found it strange, so I borrowed Fu Qing's badge to look through the books in the bookstore, but no matter how I searched, there was no record of such rare things.Over time, I also lost interest and completely forgot about this matter.

One day is a day, one year is a year, and ten years is a day. Why do I have to live clearly?

It's just that recently, for unknown reasons, my tinnitus has become more and more serious.At night, I often can't sleep at night, toss and turn, or sit up all night, crying for no reason.

Now I meet Ah Sheng's inquisitive eyes and hear her asking me over and over again: "Is it just good-looking?", while I want to be sure, I feel a little guilty for no reason.

After feeling guilty, there was another burst of inexplicable boredom.

I pretended to be calm, and replied vaguely: "That's all."

A Sheng raised his face, and when he heard my affirmation, his eye sockets became redder immediately, and after blinking and closing, several strings of water droplets fell down again.

I thought I said something wrong, which made her sad, and I was at a loss for a while.But looking carefully, although she was crying, she was smiling, and said firmly to me: "Brother, you don't like him at all!"

I widened my eyes, and when I realized it, I couldn't help but feel a little angry, I just felt that she easily denied all my previous actions.

This anger was so fierce that even the tone of my speech became cold: "Why do you say that I don't like him?"

"In order to stay by his side, I was willing to be a drug guide for ten years. Every time I saw blood flow from my heart, I was actually scared to death."

"Do you know what I'm afraid of? I'm afraid that the cultivation base on my body is not enough to support his cousin's sick and torn body. I'm even more afraid that after my cultivation base is exhausted, his cousin will die like this— -"

At this point, my voice suddenly stopped, as if enlightened, I thought through everything that I hadn't thought through before.

That's right, Xi Xin can't die.

If she died, Fu Qing would be sad.

On weekdays, I would not even be willing to say harsh words to him, wishing to hold him on the tip of my heart, how could I bear to let him be sad?

I don't want to.

It turned out that I was reluctant.

43.

It was probably because I had convinced myself that the anger that had accumulated just now dissipated completely, and I could even smile: "I can die for him, why do you say I don't like him?"

Ah Sheng said, "No."

"You keep saying that you like him, but brother, when I asked you just now, you couldn't even tell when you were moved by him."

Of course I was moved by Linlang Tianque's glance, why wasn't I moved? !

As if eager to prove something, I said quickly, "I fell in love with Fu Qing at first sight."

"... Who is the person you fell in love with at first sight?"

A Sheng asked a very soft question, as if he was asking back, but also as if he was sighing.

She took a few steps forward suddenly, and put her hand on my heart unexpectedly, her blue pupils shone slightly: "When I say his name, will my brother's heart beat hard?"

She questioned me again and again today, but I couldn't argue with it, and I retreated steadily.

I finally became angry from embarrassment, restrained my strength and took her hand off my chest, and frowned at her.

A Sheng maintained that movement, and it took a long time before he said a word, and he didn't know whether he was speaking to me or muttering to himself: "My brother's heartbeat is so slow, but that person's heart... is beating so fast. "

I sullenly said, "What exactly are you trying to say?"

She didn't respond to my words, but asked: "No matter what I say, does brother still insist on his own opinion?"

"Yes."

I saw her clenched her fists tightly, with her nails deeply embedded in her palms. She didn't seem to recover until she carved several clearly visible lines, and hurriedly hid her hands in her sleeves.

"Master asked me to silence, but I still want to say something to you. Brother, don't go, please don't go. If you go, you will regret it later."

I saw her pleading with a mournful expression, but I couldn't bear it for a moment, and I wanted to ask her why she couldn't go?Why do you regret it?

These questions have not yet been uttered, but I have pressed them all back to the bottom of my heart.

I hardened my heart: "If I don't go, I will regret it."

After another long time, there was a voice: "Okay."

A Sheng waved his sleeves lightly, and handed over a piece of cyan jade carving in the shape of a flower cup to my hand.Holding the jade in his hand, he couldn't help but feel cold, covered with a layer of gorgeous streamer, and the inside is full of spiritual power, which keeps turning and growing.

"This is Yanbing. It is easy to enter and difficult to exit from the fire environment. If you crush it in a crisis, you can save your brother's life."

I pushed the thing back without thinking: "You and I just met by chance. This thing is too precious, I can't accept it."

But Ah Sheng refused to pick it up no matter what.

"Just return it to its original owner."

Hearing the affirmation in her tone, I couldn't help but look at her a few more times, trying to find some traces of her existence from the empty spiritual consciousness, but it was in vain.

I sighed: "You may have admitted the wrong person."

A Sheng smiled noncommittally—she said she was smiling, but in fact she just twitched the corners of her lips very lightly, and the smile didn't enter her eyes at all.

"Farewell, brother."