I have a deep love for Zhenjun

110.

There was a low gasp in his ear, intertwined with the thick night.

I am like a boat ups and downs, bumping with the waves, my eyes are scattered.In the boundless night, there is actually a bright and clear frost, which is fluttering slightly with the ups and downs, like a butterfly flying.

Holding my breath, I reached out to touch it, but when I touched it, I saw it shattered into countless phosphorescent lights, slipping away between my fingers.

But I can see clearly that the memories carried in those spots of light are all my unstoppable yesterdays.

——Everyone bullied me and insulted me, and I let it go. Every time I lay on my back, looking at the sky, I felt that what fell was not the warm sun, but the cold snowflakes.

One day, someone came with fallen flowers, the cyan jade pendant shook softly, with a smile on his face, he wiped away the tears from the corners of my eyes and said, "Don't cry."

——Cultivation stagnation, repeated setbacks, thinking that this life may never be able to get rid of this lowly fate, so I was alone, hiding in a dark corner when I collapsed and cried...

It was also that person who held my hand, pulled me out of the boundless purgatory, and taught me to write down the ten words "I am born to stand up to the Lingyun Festival, and I am still holding on to myself".

——Afterwards, I was youthful, fresh-clothed and furious, thinking that everything in the world could be accomplished, and I could get whatever I wanted. With full of affection, I gave my heart to that person, wishful thinking that I could get a piece of my life in return. absolute sincerity……

But not.

I have gained nothing, left nothing behind, and looking at myself, my obsession is too deep, and there is no way back.

Those who love me will die because of me.Whatever he planned, he lost everything.

Knowing that he was in a slump, he didn't want to struggle any more, he stood still and looked around, only to see mountains of corpses and seas of blood and wreckage everywhere.

At this time, a high-pitched voice came.It is the sound of compassion in the ears, and the sight is full of golden light and awe-inspiring immortality.

"Fate is determined by heaven. You were born as an ant, and you are doomed to have no hope of immortality. Why do you always don't know how to repent and go to compete with the bright moon?"

"Now I'll ask you again, have you accepted your fate?"

If that inch of golden light had any substance, it weighed over a thousand catties on my back.

No matter how stubbornly he resisted, he could only crawl on the ground in humiliation, fell into the dust, and was beaten back to his original shape.As he said, he became a humble ant and was trampled upon by others.

After a long time, I choked with sobs, and said softly: "What a destiny. Well, I accept my fate."

——I resigned to my fate.

As soon as these four words came out, the mountain of corpses and sea of ​​blood shook violently, turning into an afterimage, firmly engraved in my eyes, urging me to focus my distracted eyes again.

Finally, when I came back to my mind, I found that tears were streaming down my face.

The dream I had earlier on the moon chariot turned out not to be a nightmare.

That's clearly...all true.

It's all true.

And who is this person in me?

I let my body heave up and down, but I didn't care. I reached out tremblingly, and pushed the man's long hair hanging in front of me, trying to see his face clearly.

Under the strands of hair, those phoenix eyes are no longer blue, only scarlet is left, as if they also have a panoramic view of the sea of ​​blood just now, but they are full of tears, with a hazy watery light, making everyone feel his lingering love Intoxicated with affection.

How can there be any affection?How can there be tenderness?

That was just his usual trick, an illusion used to lure his prey.I've already been wrong once, how can I do it again?

"It was you."

I stared blankly at him for a moment, and finally flinched belatedly. Knowing that it was futile, I kept shrinking back.

It's a pity that this weak resistance couldn't catch his eyes. He made a little effort, and he had already clasped my waist, pressing me firmly under him, and it was difficult to move even a little bit.

I gritted my teeth, swallowed the groan, and after a long while, I could endure it and say, "You, why are you still refusing to let me go?"

"Wrong." He lowered his head and gently kissed away my tears. His voice was gentle and rainy, which didn't match his movements. "It's not that I won't let you go, but you won't let me go."

I scratched countless creases on the quilt under my body, and felt that his remarks were really ridiculous, and I wanted to refute, but because his actions were too rough, I was almost speechless, and even my eyes were almost lax .

"I... ah, I let you go, let you go. That, that day... As I said, the pearl was broken, and we will... ha ah... from now on."

"It's not broken." Panting slightly, he said stubbornly, "I searched for a long time, and found all the pieces, and then spent a hundred years to restore it completely."

I laughed out loud: "Recovered, so what? I've told someone—"

Accompanied by a violent push with a punitive meaning, the second half of my sentence was lost between my lips and teeth before I could say it.Instead, there was a low moan.

The breath around him was very chaotic, obviously hostile, but also wrapped in deliberate gentleness, silently buried his head in my neck, gnawed and sucked, leaving behind countless ambiguous redness, before he raised his face, He smiled at me, but his tone was icy cold: "There is no one else, only me."

"This time, I'll give you whatever you want. OK?"

The world was spinning before my eyes, and when I came back to my senses, I was hugged and sat on his lap, posing in a shameful posture.But he didn't think it was enough, he took my hand again, put it on my swollen abdomen, and spun it back and forth on it, letting me feel the shape carefully.

Then, he bit my earlobe and said in a low voice, "Including this."

I was humiliated by this, and the corners of my eyes were red with anger. I almost wanted to scold him, but found that my lips seemed to be tightly stuck by an external force, and I couldn't make a sound no matter what.

When I was stunned, I suddenly lowered my head and couldn't help but meet his eyes.Suddenly, another burst of calm blue light silently shone into my eyes.

"You can call me selfish or hypocritical."

"I'm really... moved."

He said nothing, and my mind returned to chaos, no matter how difficult it is to extricate myself.

No more struggling, no more thinking.

With my eyes wide open, I once again became a shadow man who wanted anything and everything, followed his orders, obediently wrapped my hands around his shoulders, and went to bliss and sinking with him.

111.

I was woken up by a knock on the door.

The door was slammed loudly by the visitor, which was really annoying.

I wanted to support myself to get up, but my hands and feet were heavy and heavy like lead. I couldn't lift it up, so I took the next best thing. I opened my eyelids and said in a hoarse voice, "Who is it?"

"It's Ah Sheng."

The voice of response came from my ear, clear and pleasant.

I said "Oh" and wanted to continue to sleep. I just closed my eyes when I suddenly realized that the voice was very familiar, as if it came from Yun Mo's mouth.

I shivered suddenly, the drowsiness dissipated completely, I opened my eyes suddenly, and I really saw Yun Min's delicate and clear face, the phoenix eyes were slightly raised, and they were as blue as green.

He has thin lips and red lips, a lazy face, a loose jade crown on his hair, and his clothes are hanging diagonally on his shoulders, and he is still in the middle of it.

When I didn't speak, Yun Man didn't speak either. He just looked at me with his head upright, his fingertips slightly curled up, and he fiddled with my drooping hair, seemingly in a good mood. Satisfied with a smile.

I saw his youthful complexion, and hesitated for a long time before saying: "You...how come we are in the same room?"

Before I could ask carefully, the person outside the door spoke first.

"Brother Yunman, I'm Asheng, are you awake now? I met Sister Shaoyu just now, and she said that she saw Brother Shaohe here last night... Is he in your room now?"

It really was Ah Sheng's voice.

I stood up suddenly, the quilt lost its strength and slipped off my body lightly.

Looking down, I was actually naked, and there were many mottled red marks on my body, as if I was imprisoned under my body all night and demanded endlessly, leaving this tragic mark on my body.

I faintly felt that I couldn't let Ah Sheng see this scene, so I forced my weak body to get out of bed, picked up the scattered clothes on the ground one by one, and dressed neatly.

Looking at Yun Min again, he was still half lying on the bed, with a very relaxed expression, not moving at all, looking at me with a slight smile.

I couldn't help frowning, and lowered my voice, "Why don't you get up?"

Yun Mo said softly, "I want to see you for a while."

I think he is a little unreasonable today, so I responded indiscriminately: "You get up first, we will have plenty of time later, you can watch as long as you want."

I don't know which word pleased Yun Mo, he stopped embarrassing me, and stretched out his hand to me, with a slight pick at the end, as if coquettish: "Then you pull me up."

I sighed, took Yun Man's hand, and wanted to pull him up, but forgot that my hands were also weak, so I was pulled down on Yun Man's body instead, and he lifted his chin and kissed him Dear, just took me to get up together, and put on clothes slowly.

At this moment, I didn't care about Yun Man's outrageous behavior, I went to the makeup mirror and started to tidy my appearance, tied up my hair, and carefully covered those red marks under my collar.

After finally taking care of everything, I turned to him and asked, "Is there anything inappropriate?"

Yun Mo straightened the jade crown, lowered her eyes to look at me carefully, and smiled inexplicably: "There is one more."

I looked puzzled.

Yun Min leaned over, wrapped me in his arms, buried his head on the side of my neck, slipped the tip of his tongue over the last smooth spot, and then deeply embedded his sharp teeth into my flesh.

What is this doing?

I frowned, and stretched out my hand to push him, but he couldn't move. Instead, I was struggling and accidentally knocked the porcelain on the table to the ground, making a very crisp sound.

The knocking on the door stopped instantly.

Before I could catch my breath, Ah Sheng had already broken in. When he saw the entanglement between Yun Man and me, he exclaimed, and quickly covered his eyes, his face flushed red, and said in a low voice, "You...you..."

Immediately, my whole body stiffened, and I urged repeatedly: "A Sheng is here, you, you let me go first."

Yun Min let out a low laugh, then let go of me, straightened my collar for me, and said slowly: "A Sheng, you can open your eyes now."

Hearing this, Ah Sheng parted his fingers a little to make sure there was no problem, then he moved his hand down with a blushing face, and explained in a low voice: "I just heard a sound and thought something happened, so I opened the door and came in."

"If I knew..." She paused for a moment, looked straight at me, and said in a high-pitched tone with dissatisfaction, "If I knew that you are here at ease, I wouldn't have waited for you all night in the house. Trembling to think that something happened to you."

Waited for me all night?I was surprised and said: "Didn't you leave yesterday because you were angry with me? Later, I saw that it was raining heavily, and I was afraid that you would get caught in the rain, so I went out to look for you with an umbrella. At that time, I heard you said that you would come here to join in the fun , I will follow, and later, and later..."

And then... what happened again?

I shook my head, my mind went blank, no matter how I recalled it, a corner of my memory was always missing.

Why can't I remember?

I looked at Yun Min blankly, but he didn't meet my eyes. There was a smile on his lips, and his fingertips kept circling on the back of my hand: "Later, you gave me a wooden carving. The rainy road is difficult, and I left You stay overnight."

After a pause, Yun Jie said softly, "I like that wood carving very much."

Hearing his words, I vaguely remembered that I did put the wood carving in my arms at that time, touched the sleeves casually, but there was nothing there, nodded, and didn't question anything else.

"So that's how it is." A Sheng lowered his head, fiddled with the two braids on his chest, and hesitated for a while: "Brother Shaohe, in fact, yesterday... I was wrong yesterday. I shouldn't get angry at you. You, also want to apologize to you. You... don't take it to heart. "

After all, it is a child, the anger comes and goes quickly.

"It's nothing." I found that the atmosphere was very heavy at the moment, and it was rare for me to make a joke, so I told them a joke, "I don't even have a heart, do you expect me to keep these things in mind?"

Too bad the joke doesn't seem too funny.Because the words fell, the expressions of both of them changed immediately, and they were more ugly than the other.

Yun Man remained silent, while A Sheng forced a smile and said angrily, "What are you talking about, brother?"

I felt bored, and missed the flowers and plants in the house, thinking that I hadn't had time to water and fertilize today, so I muttered that I had to go back to the house.

Yun Mo naturally depends on me, and A Sheng has always been with me.

After leaving the mansion, probably due to the heavy rain last night, there were countless puddles on the ground, making it somewhat difficult to walk.When I passed the corner of the flower path, I seemed to feel something, my eyes fell involuntarily, and I found an umbrella with sharp eyes.

——It fell on the ground alone, the umbrella cover was completely broken.

Isn't this...my umbrella?

How did it land here?

I wanted to pick it up, but Yun Mo stopped me.He shook his head slightly at me and said, "Since it's broken, I'll give you another one."

As he said that, a flame lit up his fingertips and fell to the ground.

The umbrella was originally an ordinary product of the world, but under the fire, it immediately turned to ashes, leaving only a thin layer of embers.

I was dragged forward by Yun Min, halfway there, but I turned my head back unconsciously, and took a last look at the pile of embers.

strangeness.

It's just a broken umbrella, why am I so sad to see it destroyed?