I have a deep love for Zhenjun

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"Although I don't know why you didn't want to believe me before..."

I took Fu Qing's hand and put it on my heart - there was a lot of noise there, like thousands of drums, ten thousand drums beating.

If he is willing to listen carefully, he will understand.After meeting him, this heart has carried too much affection, and it is almost unable to bear it.

"Maybe I was too frivolous and casual at that time, which made you so uneasy. So today I will say it again."

I looked into Fu Qing's eyes, and said in a very serious tone: "Linlang Tianque, I fell in love with Lord Zhenjun at first sight."

The same sentence, ten years apart, and then spoken from my mouth, the tone and meaning have become completely different.

Fu Qing's complexion changed slightly: "You..."

"I didn't lie to you." I stopped him and smiled slightly, "Love at first sight is true, and love at first sight is true..."

His eyes dimmed, his breathing was a little short, but he closed his eyes patiently, and said in a suppressed tone: "You are bewitching me again."

Not bewitching, not coaxing.

As early as entering this room, from the moment he asked me to stay, I had already recognized my heart.

It turned out that I really wanted, wanted, wanted to stay with him.

Seeing him being so stubborn right now, I didn't feel a little bit impatient. Instead, I said softly: "I don't know what you think in your heart when you see me. But every time I see you, my heart beats." Quickly."

"I will want to watch you all the time, and be with you all the time. You are sad, and I feel it. You are hurt, and I want to replace it."

"It's a pity that you never smile at me, but I understand that if you are willing to smile at me, even if you ask me to dig out my heart and give it to you, I will not hesitate at all."

"Even so, do you think I'm lying to you?"

I have spoken to this point, but Fu Qing still closed his eyes, refusing to open them, and said hesitantly, "You like me...why?"

"Ok?"

"If you didn't have these eyes, would you still treat me..."

Maybe it was because he was not sure, or maybe it was because he was afraid of humiliating himself, he didn't finish what he said, but ended it sloppily.

But I immediately understood.

That day, I blamed him for all my faults, and wanted to force myself to stop thinking about him, so I said a lot of unpleasant things.

He had kept it all in his heart.

So I sat alone in the middle of the night and couldn't sleep;

I didn't answer him exactly.

Even I can't really determine the answer, but... no matter what the reason for the love at first sight is, in the past ten years, I have only had him in my eyes and in my heart.

For me, the cause of this relationship may not be pure, but it is definitely not something that can be easily mentioned with the words "hypocrisy".

"That day... I'm sorry."

The fingertips lightly brushed Fu Qing's eyelashes, and it was closed as soon as it touched.

"You didn't do anything wrong, and I shouldn't be angry at you, and I said so many hurtful things. You are you, and Yun Mo is Yun Mo. I never confuse you, and I don't think you are inferior to him." .”

"I'm too cautious, and I have too many things to worry about. I always think that I can't owe this, and I don't want to live up to that. In the end, it always backfires. I won't do this again in the future."

I get it.

The reason why Xi Xin felt pain was because she thought that taking the punishment of poison and fire was for the good of the Qing.But for thousands of years, Fu Qing has always been depressed, bound in the net, unable to sleep well at night.

And Asheng... Since she gave me Yanbing, she must have believed from the bottom of her heart that she did it for my own good.If she is still alive, seeing that I am now full of regrets and doing many stupid things, she must be as painful as Yu Xin.

As for Yun Min, he already has his own destination. In the future, he will have a wife who loves him, children who are happy under his knees...and a supreme status.

He will be fine.

There may not be only one way to repay what I owe Yun Mo.Although I still can't think of how to do it, there must be a way for the car to reach the mountain-there will always be an ending with the best of both worlds.

In the past ten years, everyone is moving forward, and I shouldn't stay where I am anymore.The harm caused in the past has become an established fact, and it is useless to leave regrets in vain.

At least for now, I shouldn't continue to leave any regrets, and I shouldn't hurt Fu Qing anymore.

So, I've figured it out.I think--

"I think... I will use the old ways to take pity on the person in front of me. I just don't know, will Zhenjun give me this chance?"

Fu Qing pursed his lips tightly for a long time before asking: "Are you making a promise to me?"

"This can be a promise, as long as you are willing to believe it. After that, no matter the hundred years or the thousand years, I will be by your side and never leave."

"..."

After waiting for a while, seeing that he didn't express his opinion, I finally couldn't bear it any longer. I moved closer and urged softly: "Zhenjun, why don't you speak? Open your eyes and look at me?"

Fu Qing's eyelashes trembled and trembled before he hesitated to open her eyes.

The previous cold pool that was unstoppable has long since turned into a pool of spring water, and it is clearly shaken, but the tone is still cold: "If you can't do the word promise, don't say it lightly, I—— "

I don't want to listen anymore, and I know it's useless to say more at this time, so I exerted some force, and he was caught off guard by me and pushed him down on the bed.Then I leaned forward and sealed all his unfinished words between my lips.

Fu Qing's face was full of astonishment, and he pursed his lips tightly.I'm not good at things, so I can only poke out the tip of my tongue devoutly, and draw the line of his lips little by little, but I still can't get in.

When the two of us breathed messily and intertwined together, he suddenly came back to his senses, stretched out his hand and pushed me away, his chest heaved unceasingly, his hair like splashed ink was spread messily on the bed, his eyes were a little out of focus, just Even the lips that had been extremely pale before were smudged with a light red color, which was moist and lustrous.

Seeing that I was staring at him fixedly, Fu Qing blushed slightly, frowned in shame and indignation, and said bitterly, "What are you doing?"

I knew very well that he would want to reprimand me for being unruly, but his voice was hoarse, and it sounded a bit seductive, so it was not convincing at all.

I was not afraid at all, instead I asked him, "Don't Zhenjun know what I do?"

Fu Qinghan said in a low voice: "You have never acted in a random manner, how would I know?"

I smiled, and leaned into his ear and blew: "I'm kissing you, Zhenjun. If possible, I want to kiss like this for the rest of my life."

Fu Qing's tone was blunt: "If you say one more word, I will believe it."

"It doesn't matter if you don't believe it." I sighed softly, "Life is long, you can test me slowly. I know that I don't have any advantages, but at least I am sincere."

Seeing that he was still silent, I pecked his lips again and looked at him tenderly: "If you don't like it, just push me away."

Fu Qing's eyelids drooped slightly, suppressing the emotions in them, his white jade-like face was clear and refined, and it was impossible to tell whether it was happiness or anger.

I used to think he was indifferent and reticent, very unapproachable.After listening to Xi Xin's words, when I went to see him again, I felt that he was just a poor lonely person.

While raising my eyes to glance at him, I tentatively covered his lips, only to hear him hum softly, then he clenched his hands into fists and pressed against my chest weakly, as if he wanted to refuse, but he didn't exert any force.

Compared with Cai just now, Fu Qing's attitude is much more relaxed, and it is very easy for me to pry my tongue open and take what I want.

After a deep kiss, I licked all the silver threads, and then put a thick kiss on his face, slowly moving down his neck, until it reached the hem of his clothes.

I raised my head and reached out to tear it apart, but was stopped by Fu Qing.

He held my hand, his phoenix eyes were full of water, the tails of his eyes were red, his consciousness was already blurred, but he still insisted on the last bottom line: "Don't look."

I didn't understand why Fu Qing was so persistent, so I asked him aloud, "Why?"

"...Too ugly." Fu Qing held my hand tightly, his face showing a bit of embarrassment.

"How could it be ugly? It's not ugly at all." I couldn't hear his tone, so I pressed my face against his and rubbed his hand, "Zhenjun is the most beautiful in the world."

I praised him like this, but Fu Qing's expression didn't turn for the better, but became darker: "What about Yun Mo?"

"...Do you still remember what I said?" I was stunned, and when I figured out why he made such a gesture, I felt remorse.

"It happened for a reason at that time, not my sincere words. Although I said that at the time, what I thought was that the two of you were evenly divided, and you couldn't tell the difference. It's just——since I have decided to be with you, you are in my eyes Here, it is the most beautiful place in the world.”

After I said that, I was afraid that Fu Qing would still have a grudge because of what happened that day, and continued: "As for Di Ji, I never liked her, and I never had a marriage contract. She lied to you. She told you If so, don't believe it."

"And that wooden carving... I don't know that you will keep it properly until now. I thought that such a crude thing would be impossible to take out. Even though you accepted it, it must be a novelty for a while, and you would throw it away after playing for a few days. Understand."

"If you really care about it, after that, I will carve a new one for you. Before... I did send more than one person, but the meaning of the wood carving is not what you think. As for after that, I will only give it to you, and will not give it to anyone else."

Fu Qing listened carefully, and repeated in a low voice: "You will only give it to me again?"

I decided: "Only you."

He didn't make any further statements, but gradually loosened his grip, silently acquiescing to all my actions.

Without the confinement, I untied Fu Qing's skirt, and lightly placed my hand on his mottled and intertwined scars, tracing each trace gently and meticulously.

Fu Qing tensed her body, her tone was restrained and low: "Don't touch like this."

I pretended not to hear, and wandered back and forth with my fingertips to the newly cracked wound, picked up a drop of blood, applied it on my lips, stuck out the tip of my tongue, and licked all the blood, then asked in a low voice : "Zhenjun, does it hurt?"

"A little bit." Fu Qing blushed a little.

There was a teasing smile in my eyes, and I pointed out: "Do you also feel pain in your dreams?"

Fu Qing looked at me with bewildered eyes, as if he didn't understand what I meant, I didn't want to expose it, so I picked up a lock of his long hair to play with, and asked casually, "How did these injuries come about?"

"You'd better not know."

"Why?" I shook my head, very disapproving of what he said, "I said, I want to know more about you, don't keep everything in your heart."

Fu Qing's voice was light: "I don't want to restrain you."

I didn't take it seriously: "How can these injuries restrain me? Could it be that they are related to me?"

I just mentioned this sentence casually, and didn't take it seriously.

Fu Qing fell silent suddenly.

The smile on my face gradually became unbearable, and an extremely absurd idea vaguely floated in my heart.

"Don't tell me that every time I take blood from my heart, you will also cut yourself out."

Fu Qing lowered his eyes slightly, but did not respond.

I murmured: "Why... do you want to do this?"

"I'm sorry about Xin'er." Fu Qing paused slightly, "I planned to get the blood of Cang Tian as soon as possible, and after Xin'er recovers from illness, I will let you handle it."

"But I also understand that once the damage has been done, it will be difficult to make up for it. Since you are crying for pain, I have nothing to do but bear it with you."

I want to tell him that it doesn't hurt.

I didn't understand the pain before, so I deliberately put on an air in front of him, just to make him feel indebted to me, but unexpectedly he took it seriously, and still had a heart for it.

In addition to this sentence, I also want to say that there is no need to say sorry to me, and there is no need to feel guilty.

I bleed him voluntarily.

In emotional matters, who is right and who is wrong, how can you tell clearly?

Why do we have to make a clear distinction?

But when he finally spoke, he just smiled tremblingly: "It turns out that Zhenjun likes me so much."

Fu Qing was silent for a long time, then nodded very lightly.

Seeing how well-behaved he is, I couldn't help but push forward and kiss those scars one by one. Fang raised his head with a satisfied expression, pointed at the cinnabar mole and asked him, "What about this mole?"

I don't know why, but I really care about this mole.

As soon as I got close to it, the ends of my eyes became very hot, and even my ears lingered with human voices, as if they were whispering non-stop, which could not go away for a long time.

Fu Qing half-closed his eyes, and said in a tired tone, "I was born with it."

"For some reason, when I saw this mole, I felt very familiar."

"is it?"

Fu Qing's voice became softer and softer.

I refused to let him go, and said to myself: "Since it's a mole on your heart, then you must have had a particularly good lover in your previous life."

"..."

"I also have a mole, but it's at the end of my eye. It's too eye-catching, I don't like it very much."

"..."

After a long time without his response, I looked up, only to find that Fu Qing had fallen asleep with his eyes closed, and his brows were slightly frowned habitually.

I smoothed his frowning eyebrows to both sides, thinking that he will have a good dream today.