The price of rebirth

Leaning on the car, Liang Kui looked up at the hospital gate, with cigarette butts all over his feet.He looked at his watch. After waiting for half an hour, the family should come out.

There were a few more people at the hospital gate, and it really was Mr. Su's family.Liang Kui couldn't even squeeze out a fake smile, he went straight over and said, "Uncle, are you feeling better?"

The corner of Mr. Su's mouth twitched, he shrugged his shoulders and walked forward slowly, without responding to Liang Kui.The stepmother sighed, helped her husband carry the luggage and threw it into the car, then turned her head and said to Liang Kui, who had a bad face, "Old Su hasn't been very willing to talk since he woke up, and we didn't lie to you, don't pester him to ask Su Yan about it." Whereabouts, he really doesn't know."

Liang Kui didn't quite believe it, but he had to believe it.It's not surprising that Su Yan and his father are in a stalemate, regardless of whether the old man lives or dies.But he was in a hurry to go to the doctor, and he really didn't know where to find it.He was looking for Su Yan, the school was also urging Su Yan, and Shu Jiye was also looking for Su Yan.

It has been ten days and there is absolutely no news of Su Yan.

Liang Kui watched Mr. Su's family's car gradually go away, and ruthlessly stomped out the cigarette butt.Turn around and drive to the next place.

After running around all day, she returned home at around nine o'clock at night. The strange thing was that his mother was sitting on the sofa blankly. Seeing him coming back, Liang's mother stood up stiffly, looking at her son hesitantly.

"Mom, do you have something to say?" Liang Kui asked directly.

Mother Liang nodded and looked at him strangely: "What have you been up to recently? Why are you so haggard."

"It's all right. What is Mom going to say?"

Mother Liang coughed lightly, and said coyly, "Your father...worked overtime today and didn't go home."

"..." Liang Kui's eyes widened. What the hell does this mean?Dad doesn't come home... Do you suspect that his dad is having an affair?Liang Kui suddenly became one head and two adults. His father shouldn't be having an affair, right?Liang Kui couldn't imagine his father's wretched appearance holding the young Xiaomi.

"Mom, don't think wildly, it's probably a misunderstanding." Liang Kui held back for a long time before choking out these words.

Mother Liang shook her head quickly, and whispered, "I saw it with my own eyes, so there's nothing wrong with it."

Liang Kui's heart sank, did dad really have an affair?No, if his mother saw it with her own eyes, how could she be so calm.

"Mom, what are you talking about? Aunt Hong, do you still have supper? Get me something to eat, my stomach hurts from hunger." Liang Kui nestled on the sofa exhausted.

Mother Liang picked up her son and said nervously, "Your dad...he watched that movie..."

"Pornography?" Liang Kui said straight to the point.

Mama Liang slapped her and said, "What nonsense are you talking about? Your dad was watching "Brokeback Mountain" in his study yesterday! It's the gay movie that was very popular recently! What do you think about your dad? I don’t watch any romantic movies, why did I suddenly watch "Brokeback Mountain", and there are more than that, I found a lot of books related to homosexuality in his study today, all brand new, there are dozens of them."

Liang's mother was short of breath, obviously upset.

"But this incident stumped me, I couldn't open my mouth to question him, come out one, two, three, tell me about your father, an old man who is already five years old, is it possible that someone at this age suddenly likes another one? He has been strict with himself for so many years and never made me worry about it, now..."

Mother Liang sighed distraughtly: "You mean your father has been hiding it from me...using me as a cover? I have seen many people who like Yue Yue, and many of them are sneaking outside without telling the truth to my family and wife. Come on, lie to your wife and lover. But how can I believe that your father is also that kind of wimp?"

Liang Kui was speechless after hearing his mother's cannonball words.If his dad had an affair or something, he could still fart.But what his mother said has already made him freeze into a popsicle.Many, many thoughts suddenly flooded into his mind, and he was a little dizzy for a moment.

"Son, what do you think I should ask your father?"

Liang Kui stood up, exhaled and said, "I'll go to Dad's study."

"That's right, go and have a look, Mom really didn't lie to you." Liang's mother followed her son to her husband's study room. There was a wall of books in the tidy study room. Liang's mother pointed to one of the books and said, "Look at these" Homosexuality in China", "Gay Subculture", "Their World", "Nie Zi" and so on, look at these! Is your dad confused?"

Liang Kui pulled out Bai Xianyong's "Nie Zi" with trembling hands. These two words were too conspicuous and contained too many emotions, as if seeing a father pointing at his gay son and cursing: "Nie Zi!"Evil son!

Liang Kui admitted that he was gay, but he had no access to books on this subject, so he went directly to a psychiatrist when he was in a hurry.But he didn't expect... one day his serious father would put so many marginal reading materials in the bookcase for him.He touched these books tremblingly, feeling so clearly that these books existed because of him.These are not the books his dad wants to read, not the feelings his dad wants to understand.

All the books in this cabinet belonged to his father... There was nothing he could do.

He seemed to see his father sitting alone in the quiet study room, smoking silently, hesitantly but resolutely turning the pages of the book, page by page, night after night...

Did his hard and iron-blooded heart tremble for the world he knew, felt sad, angry, and finally all emotions turned into a lonely and long sigh in the quiet night.

Evil son!

Is it really a villain?

Is he a villain?

Did his father call him a wicked son in his heart?

"Evil Son" - Bai Xianyong

Write to the group of children wandering alone in the streets in the deepest and deepest night, with nowhere to turn.

Liang Kui's pupils were dilated, and his breathing almost stopped.

Three months and ten days ago, on an unusually sunny afternoon, my father kicked me out of the house...

Snapped.

"Niezi" slipped from his hands, and Liang Kui's silent tears fell with it.

"son……"

Mother Liang's shout was trembling and cautiously questioning.

What does she want to ask?

Son, why are you reacting like this?

why are you crying

She didn't ask, she didn't dare to ask.

Others say she is a strong woman, but she is not strong at all.

The strength built with banknotes is not strength.

She came home and was just a woman, an ordinary woman, a soldier's wife, and the mother of a child.

She is also vulnerable and frightened.

"Mom..." Liang Kui hissed at her.

Mama Liang trembled all over.

"Mom, I'm..."

"Shut up!"

Mother Liang interrupted her son sharply, slammed the door and left the study.

Liang Kui was left alone in the quiet study room.

He stared blankly at the "Nie Zi" on the ground for a long time, and finally reached out and picked it up again.

That night, Liang Kui slept very restlessly.He had dreams all night and all night, dreams that repeated themselves over and over again.

In the dream, he kisses Su Yan's forehead, raises his hand, and puts on Su Yan the jade Guanyin that has followed him for 18 years.

"I leave all the blessings of the rest of my life to you..."

Leaning on Su Yan's shoulder, he uttered the cruel words of parting, his heart was full, but there were thousands of reluctance.

Those farewells that slipped from his lips emptied all the affection in his heart.

The pain in the chest made it impossible to breathe.

He even lost the courage to look up at Su Yan for the last time.

In the end, he left without looking back.

How come, so cruel?While half asleep and half awake, he questioned himself over and over again.

"Doctor, is there anything wrong with my son?"

"Madam Liang, don't worry, Mr. Ling's high fever has subsided, and he should wake up soon. You prepare some light porridge, stay in the hospital for observation for a day, and it doesn't matter if you leave the hospital directly. It stands to reason that you will be fine after the fever subsides."

"Thank you doctor."

When Liang Kui opened his eyes, he felt like his eyes had been roasted by a stove, hot and sticky and heavy, his head was even more dizzy, and his body was limp, like a ball of thick cotton.

"……mom?"

"You're awake! You're finally awake. Brat has a high fever of 42 degrees in the middle of the night, and his head is burning. If Mom hadn't visited you in the middle of the night, I wouldn't know now..." Liang's mother touched her tears and said that her fever was over 42 degrees. , If you don't pay attention, you might go there.My son is so old, he already has an independent space, and the door has to be locked when he sleeps at night.Yesterday she was so full of thoughts that she couldn't sleep. She got up at three o'clock in the middle of the night and sat in a daze.Later, he stood in a daze in front of the door of his son's room, hesitantly twisted the lock of his son's door, but it was not locked, and he opened it very easily.She thought maybe it was God's will. At that time, she had a strong desire to see her son, and she had a lot to tell him. She finally mustered up the courage to step in, but what she saw was her son's extremely abnormal face.Stretching out her hand to touch it, she was so hot that she was terrified, and she and the nanny sent her son to the hospital in her pajamas.

Liang Kui rubbed his forehead and muttered: "Why do I have a fever..."

"You didn't take care of yourself... Mom just found out that Su Yan has been missing for more than ten days, right?" Liang's mother asked him in a low voice with red eyes, without any harshness.

Liang Kui's heart tightened, and when he thought that Su Yan was still there, and he was sick at this time, he felt anxious and uncomfortable.He was always in good health, never sick in the morning and never in the evening, but he was sick at this time.

"...I can't find him..." Liang Kui whispered weakly.

"He deliberately avoided me..."

"Otherwise why didn't you let me find it?"

"Su Yan, he..." Liang Kui fell silent, his eyes stared blankly at the infusion tube, the crystal clear liquid was ticking like a countdown.

Mama Liang felt calm after the dust settled, but soon she became more doubtful and worried.She knew that the boy Liang Kui liked must be Su Yan. She used to think that the two of them had a good relationship, but now that she thinks about it, she can find some clues.She knew her son had many buddies and friends, but her son would not be unreserved about those people, and sometimes he would talk about his friends when talking to his parents.Whoever is cunning, whoever likes to brag, but when Liang Kui mentioned Su Yan in front of them, they all praised him and never said anything bad.Whether Su Yan does this or that, she used to think that it was because Su Yan saved his life.

Su Yan, a child she likes very much.Neither arrogant nor impetuous, polite and sensible, with a certain amount of advance and retreat, much more stable than his son.

Now she should hate him, but thinking about the little things since her contact with Su Yan, she couldn't hate him anymore.

To put it bluntly, that was also a poor child.It was much more difficult than his son, who was neither loved by his father nor loved by his mother, was a guest at their house, and his excessive politeness proved his cautiousness.She could scold him and teach him a lesson, and force him to stay away from her son. After scolding and teaching him a lesson, what can Su Yan do?Does he dare to stay in City A?If he wanted to live a good life, he had to get out of City A far away.Su Yan is nothing, nothing.So what if he was scolded and bullied, he didn't have a father to support him, and a mother who protected the calf to help him stand up.

Su Yan did not have the good fortune of his son.

The door of the ward was pushed open, and Liang Xingguo, dressed in military uniform, came in.

"Why is the fever so severe? Has the fever subsided?" Liang Xingguo took off his hat, and he still couldn't hide his worry in his calm voice.

Liang Kui opened his eyes wide, staring fixedly at Liang Xingguo.

"It has subsided a little, and now the fever has reached 38 degrees, and I still need to take injections and medicines. The doctor said that if the fever subsides, it will be fine." Liang's mother explained quickly.

Liang Xingguo breathed a sigh of relief, frowned and said, "The last time you were hospitalized with a fever was when you were three years old, but you have been fine since then. Did you catch a cold yesterday? Spring is the easiest time to catch a cold, so be careful in the future."

Liang Kui couldn't speak, so he could only turn his head and turn his back, refusing to watch like a child avoiding awkwardness.

"..." Liang Xingguo was stunned for a moment, speechless for a while.

Mother Liang opened her mouth to speak several times. She wanted to ask her husband many things, but seeing that her son was not recovering, she thought it would be better not to ask her in the ward.Lest the father and son quarrel and get angry again.

The doctor came in just in time and broke the awkward silence.

The doctor talked to Liang Xingguo flatteringly. Liang Xingguo waved to his wife and went out, asking the doctor, "Have you got pneumonia or something? 42 degrees is not a trivial matter. I can see that he is still mentally ill. I really can't bear it." .”

The doctor hastily explained: "Don't worry, Commander Liang, your son definitely didn't have fever and pneumonia, and he's not fully recovered yet, so he's a bit unmotivated. Let's go tomorrow. If there are no accidents, he should be almost recovered tomorrow."

Hearing her husband's voice fade away, Liang's mother lay on the bed, clutching Liang Kui's hand and choked up, saying, "Your father is only your son, so he will definitely not understand your feelings. You... make your own decision, no matter you No matter how you choose, mom won't force you, mom doesn't want to see you or Su Yan become like Yue Yue... Mom doesn't want to become like your aunt either."

Liang Kui clenched Mama Liang's hand tightly, with her head buried low.

"Your father...he is not an unreasonable person. He is more competent than mom, so he must have discovered your situation long ago, otherwise he would not have studied those books. He cares more about you than mom...he didn't directly embarrass you Instead, he chooses to understand from the side, which proves that his heart is soft." Liang's mother sniffed, and continued with a slow breath: "As much as he likes you, he worries about you. Your father is not your uncle, he will not Giving up on you won't give birth to a younger brother, he has his principles, but it's impossible for him to fully understand you."

Mother Liang smiled wryly and sighed, and patted Liang Kui's arm, "You'd better not touch his nilin, since he won't say anything, don't open your mouth either. He can't think about it now, but I'm thinking hard about it. One day, he will Maybe I will take the initiative to tell you."

What Liang's mother meant was that the father and son pretended to be stupid together.The knot that cannot be untied for the time being can only be left alone and cannot be touched easily.The more you struggle with it, the more your emotions will be messed up, and the more you will have no solution.

After Liang Kui recovered, he began to look for Su Yan's trace again. After discussing with Liang's mother, he finally called the police. He didn't dare to call the police before, because he was afraid that the reason why Su Yan and his father quarreled would be hidden from the police. Sometimes there might be riots all over the city.Once it spreads, white people are said to be black, there must be more than one person who thinks like Tang You, the rumor of rich second generation supporting high-level students, he would never want Su Yan to hear it, that is a great insult.But it was different when Liang's mother intervened. She said that her godson had disappeared.

Liang Kui followed the police to Su's house, and told Mr. Su's family in advance that they must, work hard, work hard, and hide the real reason for the quarrel from me!

Mr. Su is at ease, unless Mr. Su is a fool, he will tell outsiders that his son is gay.

But the stepmother and cheap sister are not necessarily the same.

Liang Kui followed them just to keep an eye on them.

"I asked him to study abroad, but he refused. I was so angry that I beat him, and then there was a quarrel." Mr. Su said to the police with no expression on his face.

"Yes, yes, that child is stubborn, and I don't know where to hide." The stepmother agreed.

When the police came to ask for clues, they just put on a show and left Su's house soon.

Liang Kui also left.

The three members of the Su family were silent for a while after they left.

Tang You kicked the table irritably, and roared angrily: "I'm so bored! Is there an end to it? It has nothing to do with me whether he disappears or not. How long has it been? I ask every day, and he's not my brother!"

"Yuyou!" The stepmother glared at her.

Tang You glanced at the distraught stepdad in annoyance, and said aggrievedly to his mother: "Mom, why should we pay for his scandal?"

The stepmother sighed secretly, but said on the face: "We can't afford to offend the Liang family."

"It's great to be rich and have the right to take care of a man?" Tang You snorted disdainfully.

"Damn girl, don't talk nonsense, who told you to keep her!" The stepmother scolded her.

Tang You said innocently: "He has a car and an apartment, and he said it's not a guarantee, who would believe it..." As he spoke, he glanced at his stepdad: "Or did your uncle secretly buy that car for him?"

The stepmother's eyes jumped, she could see clearly that day, Liang Kui's car key was only a Peugeot 10,000 worth 307+, but Su Yan's car key was an Audi worth hundreds of thousands. But buying an Audi for a lover is simply unreasonable!Then it is very possible that Liang Kui did not buy the Audi for Su Yan, and it is impossible for Su Yan to buy it himself. There is only one possibility, that Su Yan's father secretly bought it for him, and bought the car for his son without telling their mother and daughter.

The more the stepmother thought about it, the angrier she became. Hundreds of thousands was not a small amount, so the husband just gave it away to the sick and perverted son.When her daughter was admitted to college, she proposed to give her daughter a cute car, but he said what kind of car the girl was driving and got blocked.

"Old Su, don't say anything, did you buy your son's car for him?"

Mr. Su suddenly laughed, he didn't pay attention to what kind of car his son had, he didn't know what kind of car or horse it was, but the mother and daughter pulled it out and questioned him.

Seeing that he didn't speak, Tang You immediately complained: "You acquiesced, didn't you? Mom, you still said that he was good to me! What's so good? He obviously wanted everything for his son, and he bought a car worth hundreds of thousands of dollars. When I bought a bag worth tens of thousands of yuan, he blew my beard and stared at me and said that I wasted money. Mom, he is simply using our family to benefit him, and spend the money he earns for his son, white-eyed wolf!"

"Enough!" Mr. Su roared angrily.

Tang You shrank, and then became more and more angry: "You are enough, don't use our family's money to please your perverted son who sells ass!"

Mr. Su was so angry that he said a few good words repeatedly, gritted his teeth and pointed at Tang You's mother and daughter, then laughed again, and said very freely: "Okay, let's get a divorce. We will go our own way in the future, little white-eyed wolf, and let your mother I will buy you one hundred thousand bags with your salary, as many as you want."