The price of rebirth

There is an old Chinese saying that raise children to guard against old age.

In the 80s, China began to implement family planning to curb population growth.

Su Chuanzhi successfully married the girl he loved at that time. Although he was an intellectual and ate the state's public food, he still had the traditional concept in his bones and hoped that his wife could give him a man in one fell swoop.

If it was a daughter, of course he wouldn't hate it, but in the end he would still be disappointed.

They catch up with this era, and in order to keep their jobs, it is impossible for them to go beyond birth.

You can only have one child in your life, so it's better to raise a child.

His wife was pregnant for ten months, and she really gave birth to a son, named Su Yan, and hoped that his mind would be as strong as a rock in the future and would not be easily shaken.Men, only with a strong and unyielding heart can gain a firm foothold in the troubled world.

Su Chuanzhi hugged the child, his complexion glowed, and he felt that the day was getting brighter.

The couple have to go to work to earn wages, so the child's grandmother came to help take care of the child, but every day after get off work, the couple would hug and tease the child lovingly. Su Chuanzhi liked this son very much because his facial features resembled his.

Su Yan started to learn to walk unsteadily when he was just over one year old, and Su Chuanzhi would patiently guide and teach him every vacation.Su Yan doesn't like to cry, he is much better than other children, Su Chuanzhi is very proud.

After Su Yan was three years old, he started to be mischievous like other boys.The house was messed up every day, and Su Chuanzhi often felt upset. When he was out of breath, he would beat his buttocks, making the kid cry.

Both the couple couldn't stand the child's fuss, so they had to send him to kindergarten.

On the first day, Su Chuanzhi was called to school by the teacher after he didn't even enjoy the rest of the day. The child probably didn't adapt well, and there was a cold wind in the morning, and he had a fever in the kindergarten.

Su Chuanzhi had no choice but to ask for leave to take his son back to see a doctor.

On the third day, Su Yan recovered.

The couple sent their son to kindergarten again.

The little ghost grabbed his mother's hand and put it on his forehead, and said aggrievedly, "I also have a fever today."

The couple were amused, and hardened their hearts to give the kid who refused to go to kindergarten to the teacher.

From far away, I heard the little ghost crying to the teacher and saying: "Touch it, I'm really sick here... oh wow... Mom..."

The teacher is not surprised. The children who are new to kindergarten are in different poses and with different expressions.Everyone has an adaptation period, and children are especially funny.

In the end, Mother Su was still worried, fearing that her son would not be able to eat well or play well.During the lunch break at noon, I took time to visit the kindergarten from the factory. The iron gate of the kindergarten was locked, and dozens of children were locked inside. The twittering was like a flock of sparrows, which could be heard from far away.

Mother Su heard the loudest cry inside was her son, and hurried over to look, only to see that her son was holding on to the gate of the iron courtyard with both hands, shaking it vigorously, crying as he exerted his strength, "Wow...wow... Let me out...let me out..." She cried until her voice became hoarse, and her eyes were swollen like walnuts, which aroused pity.This scene is like a pet trapped in a cage, irritable and frantic, longing for freedom outside.

Su's mother was very distressed immediately, and rushed over: "Yanyan! Ouch, why are you crying so hard."

Seeing his mother falling from the sky, Su Yan immediately sat down on the ground and rolled desperately, crying deafeningly.

Mother Su laughed, and the teacher explained helplessly: "This child admits he is born, and refuses to talk to the children. He has been making trouble all morning, and it is useless to coax him. Now he refuses to eat, he insists on going home, and wants his mother."

Su's mother had a headache and picked up her son, patted the dust on his body, wiped away her son's tears and laughed: "Okay, okay, isn't mom here? Don't cry, mom bought you a small cake, if you still cry , just feed it to other children?"

Su Yan, who couldn't stop crying, immediately snatched the cake angrily, crying and staring at his mother with injustice and anger, mother Su laughed happily, kissed her son hard, opened the cake and fed him bit by bit.

The little ghost ate and drank enough at noon, and soon fell asleep.Mother Su breathed a sigh of relief and hurried to work.She could foresee that when the little ghost woke up, he would cry again if he couldn't see the acquaintance.

When I went back in the evening, Mother Su told Su Chuanzhi interesting stories about her son. After hearing this, Su Chuanzhi laughed, touched the head of his son who was trying to eat with a spoon, and said, "How can a big boy be so noisy, haha, learn to adapt."

Three days later, Su Yan really got used to it. He knew that he had to get dressed in the morning, go to kindergarten, and play with many good friends.He will remind his mother not to forget his little schoolbag.

In this way, Su Yan, like many children, studied all the way and grew up slowly.

His grades are very good, he often gets full marks in mathematics, he gets a certificate every year, and Su Chuanzhi will buy him a gift every time he comes first in the exam.Bicycles, famous books, CDs of Slam Dunk, cartoon electronic watches, sports shoes, etc., the gift category is very rich.Su Chuanzhi is not the kind of father who insists on his son to study, nor does he want his son to be the first every time.He has no objection to children reading extracurricular books, including comics and animation.

The son grows up year by year, and he gets 'old' every year.

In middle age, he can't be satisfied with a rigid and boring job with a constant salary.When a man lives to this age, if he doesn't act, it will be too late in his life.

Su Chuanzhi's action ability has always been excellent, he did what he said, resigned decisively, and invested decisively in the market.

Relying on his own ability, relying on so many years of smooth communication, he soon tasted the taste of success for the first time.The ambition instantly magnified in his heart, and his courage became more and more full.

Maybe it's just being so busy running business across the country, ignoring the family and ignoring the wife.

Men are often outside, and wives who are unwilling to be lonely are the easiest to cheat.No matter how good the supplies are given to her, it can no longer restore her running heart.Women are greedy, they want not only money, but also the care and love of men.

Once she feels that you don't love her anymore, she will be cranky.

Thinking that Su Chuanzhi was running outside all day, did he actually have an affair?Maybe I can raise a family outside, and have a wife and son in addition.This kind of drama is not one or two around.

So doubting, guessing.She had an affair, and when she reached middle age, her youth was gone, but she was romantically pursued by another man, and she suddenly seemed to be a teenager, returning to her girlhood.Su Chuanzhi could no longer give her that wonderful mood.

Although she felt sorry for her son, but she had a strong desire for a second spring, so she made up her mind.Anyway, my son is already in his teens, so there is nothing to worry about.

During his years in business, Su Chuanzhi met a widow in City A. Her husband had just died of illness, and the woman had no choice but to take care of the mess left by her husband's company.Su Chuanzhi is in the timber business. He is very talkative, never looks down on others, and can say warm words to anyone he sees.He didn't look down on this widow who was obviously not good at doing business in the slightest. He talked about business with her very kindly, neither deceiving her nor cheating her, and taught her a lot of common sense and experience that needed to be paid attention to.It wasn't once or twice that this woman had been cheated, she was bothered a long time ago, but she was unwilling to let go of the business, although the business declined, but she still had a lot of income every year, which finally made her life easier.

Su Chuanzhi is not an honest person, nor does he like her.He just wanted to have a good relationship with her. She didn't have much business skills, but she and her natal family had some status, which was better than when he first came to City A and didn't know anyone.

After going back and forth, this woman took a fancy to him.

How could Su Chuanzhi not see her thoughts.

It's just that Su Chuanzhi didn't think about that at first, and he didn't feel bored until his wife's incident happened, so he simply divorced and parted ways, just to save trouble.

As for the son, the son is so old, there is nothing to worry about.

It is enough for him to worry about food and clothing for the money.

Divorced and left City C.

Su Chuanzhi didn't have the slightest reluctance or guilt, he didn't think of these emotions at all.

After going to city A, life after remarriage is not as good as imagined.The wife's natal family has a large population and has a lot of shit. The three aunts and six wives like to give orders, and like to treat him as a "foreigner" and "son-in-law".He couldn't accept this kind of discrimination. He didn't like those relatives, let alone his cheap daughter.

The little girl is straightforward, and she still doesn't know what it means to "keep some words in your heart, don't say them out".

Say what you want, call him a bastard, and it is not uncommon to go too far.

If he shrinks back because of this, the purpose of coming to City A will be in vain.

He didn't care about this little setback at all.

He restarted the building materials company that his wife's ex-husband left behind, which was almost on the verge of bankruptcy, all thanks to his ability.

After his career stabilized, he also mentioned that he would bring his sons to stay for a while and get to know them.But a woman can turn her face faster than she can turn a book, and as soon as such words come out of her mouth, she immediately repels them with vitriol.He didn't like that look at all.Why can he accept a cheap daughter, but this woman refuses to accept his son?Not to mention just staying for a few days.

But the company has just started on the right track, and he doesn't want to quarrel with his wife over trivial matters.

It's just a woman's narrow-mindedness, and a man can never guess how far it can go.

He was busy at the company during the day and came home at night. Occasionally, he suddenly remembered to call his son, but his wife was like a ghost, and said with a cold face: "I miss your precious son again? Is it because I am too old? I can't give you a son? You miss your son so much, so you just moved back to live with him. You father and son live together, and we mother and daughter live together. To put it bluntly, Yoyo is not your own, so you don't care about our mother and daughter superior."

He was tempted to say of course it was, it wasn't nonsense.Don't say that this cheap daughter is so annoying to death, even if she is cute and cute, she can't compare to his own son.

But in the face of a woman's unreasonable troubles, you can't quarrel with her. Once you quarrel, it will be endless.

Although he didn't like this family very much, he never thought of getting divorced for the second time so soon!What's more, his divorce at this time is basically equivalent to leaving the house, which is not cost-effective.

Three years passed quickly.

When he heard that his son was going to take the college entrance examination, he was still surprised, and he was already so old before he knew it.

I wanted to go back and have a look, but my cheap daughter Tang You also had to take the college entrance examination.The husband and wife went to accompany them together, and the matter of going to accompany their son was over.

On the night of the college entrance examination, he called his son, but no one answered.He thought it was probably to celebrate the end of the college entrance examination, and went crazy with his classmates. Thinking of this, he smiled and was still busy with work the next day.

After that, before the results came out, he received an unexpected letter.

The letter was very concise. It was placed in the mailbox in front of his house, and it was received by his wife.When he came home from get off work, he saw his wife's gloating smile, and he was quite puzzled.When he finished reading the letter, he really felt that someone was pranking him and playing a big joke on him.

Homosexuality, such a strange word is so close to him.

He called back several times, but no one answered each time.It wasn't until the summer was almost over that I received an automatic call from my son.

At this time, he was not so excited.At least you can calmly ask him: Are you gay?

After hearing the silent answer, he knew what was going on.

At that moment, he never knew that the phone call he hung up was equivalent to what he hung up.

How miraculous, obviously he was delighted with the arrival of his son, and was proud of him.But time is a terrible thing, and heresy is even more terrible.

Just like a stock, he once invested it with his heart and made a profit.But as the situation changes, it is necessary to keep a stock that is falling and falling all the time?Maybe one day it will go up, but not everyone is willing to invest for the long term.When there is a better choice, you can give it up without any memory.

What does it mean to be gay?It means that even if he is a man, he will have no descendants.

Su Chuanzhi has always had a clear goal in doing things, and he does what he says.

The eldest son is useless, so it is important to have another one as soon as possible while the sword is still young.

He thought so, and so did his wife.

But men and women are different. It is not difficult for men over forty to have children, but it is difficult for women over forty.For the future of herself and her daughter, she would rather take the risk to give birth to a child for her husband, and give birth to a younger brother and sister for her daughter. No matter how they are related by blood, the daughter will have an easier time in the future.

The couple seriously talked about planning this matter, and often went to and from the hospital.

Both of them are old, and it is not so easy to have a child. They finally conceived and aborted, and finally tried IVF, but it was still difficult to succeed.

One year, two years... time flies like an arrow.

Time waits for no one, the couple are anxious, take more medicine than food, exhausted physically and mentally.

Su Chuanzhi secretly kept his thoughts long ago. He felt that he must be fine. The problem is his wife. Women are weak in body, and it is too difficult to get pregnant when they are old.After years of tossing, hope is even slimmer.Su Chuanzhi put his mind on the young women outside. There are no such candidates. Although he is old, he is rich, handsome and has the unique charm of a mature man.Among the women who showed love to him, there was one who had just divorced at the age of 30. She was plump, beautiful, with fair skin, and looked very comfortable.Women want money, he wants children.Moreover, a woman of this age is not like a little girl who is twittering and unreasonable.This woman knows how to advance and retreat, and knows what a man needs and what he doesn't need.She never mentioned the matter of points, and was willing to have a child for him, and the reward was a house in city A. He was very satisfied with this kind of transaction.

His wife is still in medical treatment, and he has quietly built a new home outside. Young women are different. She conceived after working hard for more than half a year, and her belly grew slowly. Every time she went to the hospital for examination results, she was very healthy. Su Chuanzhi was very satisfied. When expecting the first child, look forward to the arrival of this child even more.

He is always on guard.I am afraid that my wife will make trouble if she finds out.However, there were still omissions in how to prevent it. Seeing that the due date of delivery was approaching, the pregnant woman was rubbed by the car, bled on the spot, and was sent to the hospital for caesarean section.

The child had to be born prematurely. After Su Chuanzhi waited anxiously and expectantly for a long time, he got a dead baby, a boy.This child is only one step away from being able to come into this world in good health.It's a pity that his life was not good, and he died in his mother's stomach in the end, and his mother was taken away with him.The car seemed to pass by, but it killed two people!

Su Chuanzhi hadn't been so depressed for many years. After a great loss, he almost had the desire to cry.He stood blankly in the hospital corridor, without moving for a long time.From the glass window, he saw the undisguised wrinkles on his face, the weather and frost rendered by the years, and he really felt that he was old.No matter how much money he makes and how hard he works, he can only go with the flow, drifting to fifty in a few years, and sixty...seventy in a few years...

He began to feel fear.And the fear came with it.

A call from a stranger, a mechanical greeting.

The policeman seemed to tell him in a very regretful tone: "Mr. Su, we found the body suspected to be your son Su Yan in such and such a place... Please come and confirm as soon as possible..."

What is worse, nothing more than this.

The eldest son who was almost abandoned by him on purpose, and he didn't want to think about it, unexpectedly reappeared in his mind with this attitude.It was like a big iron hammer hitting the temple so hard that his head exploded.

When he woke up again, he was in a daze and didn't know the year and month. His wife said coldly by the bedside: "Brain congestion."

He couldn't even hear clearly, but he understood what was going on in his body. He was uncomfortable, dizzy, hurt, tinnitus, dizzy, and had no strength at all. He could only lie down and find it difficult to speak.

He didn't think too much, because he fell asleep quickly and weakly.

Later, he sometimes fell into a coma and sometimes woke up, always seeing the doctor in front of him.When I recovered a little that day and could speak and move, half a month had passed in the fall of that year.

He struggled to get up, and dryly said to his wife: "I can't move now, you go to the Public Security Bureau of Ping'an District, D City, and help me..." He could hardly continue, thinking that it would be best to go by himself, but he What face would he use for this body?He thought that he hadn't contacted his son for many years, and hadn't said a word. How would he face his dead son now?

But the wife said, "Is it about collecting the body of your eldest son? The police called your mobile phone when you were unconscious, and I answered it. I couldn't make up my mind if you were unconscious. I called the money and asked the police to help cremate him first." , buy the best urn and put it in the funeral home first. I wanted to wait for you to get better, and you can deal with it. But it seems that it is not necessary. I have inquired about it. His mother came back from abroad and bought a good cemetery to bury him. .You better go and have a look. This child is suffering too, he just passed away at such a young age...The police are useless, everyone has been buried and the murderer has not been found, the world is getting worse."

Yes, died young.Both his sons are dead, but he is still alive.He had this kind of disease that could kill him at any time, but he just didn't die.

I don't know whether it is God remembering him or punishing him.

Not only did he live, he lived a long time, until he was sixty, seventy...

Live until the hair is gray and the face is full of vicissitudes.

The older a person is, the easier it is to be lonely.Like children, the elderly are afraid of being alone, afraid that no one will love them, fear that no one will care about them, fear that no one will please them, and fear that their loved ones will not want them.

Orphans in the world, helpless, lonely in childhood.

Alone and old in the world, helpless and miserable in old age.

There is no filial son in front of the bed for a long time. He lived a long life, but he often visits the hospital. He can no longer expect to have a filial son to serve him before his illness.Not to mention the cheap daughter who has no blood relationship, and the wife who only cares about the nephew every day.

Their mother and daughter also often come to the hospital, but not to see him.

The cheap daughter will bring her son-in-law and son, and they will always talk about company shares.

My wife often came alone, and told him kindly that we are all old, and now we are all young people. You see, you worry about the company all day long, and you are exhausted and sick.It's better to let the children toss, and you and I can enjoy the happiness.

He invited a lawyer, and the family surrounded the ward excitedly.The cheapest daughter called him dad for the first time, and said sweetly: Dad, don't worry, Jinghui and I will take good care of you in the future.

Who can believe such words?Anyway, he has lived all his life, seen them all his life, and spent half his life with this family. He knows their virtues better than anyone else.Probably her so-called old-age care is to prevent you from starving or dying on the side of the road. When you die, you will find a cemetery and a place to live.

But the pension that the elderly need is not only that, nothing is more important than the company of relatives.He is too old to eat and drink spicy food, and he doesn't need any good clothes when lying on the hospital bed. Those things are not important anymore.

He has been ill so many times for a long time. When was he hospitalized, this cheap daughter bought him half an apple?Feed him a glass of water?As for this son-in-law, it was more like seeing him for the first time.

The lawyer's voice echoed in the ward, sending away the beaming family, Su Chuanzhi lay alone waiting for a good show.After they go back, they will find that the so-called 80.00% of the company's shares are only a few pockets, and even the house in front of him has already changed owners.Don't even think about it, this family has never handled half of the company's business for many years, they don't understand, and they don't want to understand, they don't like to waste their brains, they like to reach out for it.Probably because he felt that his son-in-law had that talent, so he encouraged him to take over the post.Silly woman, if there is a rich company left for her son-in-law, her daughter still wants to settle down?

It didn't take long for his ward to become lively again.

The wife pointed at him and cried angrily: "Su Chuanzhi! You will die! You are ungrateful! Why did you transfer the property of my Tang family? Why donate it? You are going to die and you are going to bully us. Mother and daughter, how can I be sorry for you! If you want to treat me so cruelly, you will not let me feel better!"

Su Chuanzhi was lying down, he didn't have the energy to scold her, so he didn't speak at all.

The cheap daughter was even more furious, "I knew you were not a good person! I really don't know how my mother married you when she was blind. People like you have no conscience. You deserve your son to die early! You deserve no one to see you to death!"

Su Chuanzhi finally spoke, and said in a hoarse voice: "I deserve it...you deserve it too...the world is watching, no one can escape..."

"Immortal! I think you've done such a great job, who will collect your body when you die! The **** will buy you a cemetery!"

? "I have my own arrangements... I don't need you to worry about it...Young man, you don't die... You don't die... It's too early..." He smiled weakly, and recalled many times that his son had nothing but homosexuality. Apart from being good, everything else is actually good. He looks good, has an obedient personality, and is smart. He knows how to study hard even if he is not told. Indifferent to him after he was sick.These advantages seem to be very common.But nowadays, some young people have long lost these ordinary advantages.If the son of his family is trained well, he will not be afraid to fail in the future.

"I'll save you worry... the company will sell it to you... sooner or later... you... can't do it." Su Chuanzhi smiled caringly.

He did a great job and severed the relationship with this family.

Since then, the family has never been here again.On the contrary, several friends came to visit politely. Su Chuanzhi asked one of them to buy a piece of land for burial after his death. He had already prepared the money.

Death comes out of control.

People who are about to die love to talk nonsense.Anything can come out of the sky.

The nurse guarding him occasionally heard him say in a daze, 'I am the Supreme Lord in the sky', 'I have a lot of money' and many other ridiculous words.

But what I heard the most was him screaming, "You have no conscience", "You don't come to see me", "Not filial", "Yanyan, how many points did you get in the test?" ''Yanyan, you beg for a fight, why didn't you go to school? ''The living expenses are gone again?Save some money. ''You did well in the exam, I'll buy you a basketball'.

"Yanyan, when is the holiday? Come to the hospital to talk to Dad..."

After Su Chuanzhi finished his last sentence in his life, he passed away with the nurse's sigh.

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"Old Su! You're awake! Nurse, doctor, my husband is awake, come and see."

"Can uncle hear me? Does your head hurt?"

Su Chuanzhi opened his eyes and raised his head trying to see the faces surrounded by the hospital bed. He was just like a dream but not a dream, and he didn't know whether he was dead or alive for a moment.

"Dad, lie still and don't move."

this sound...

Su Chuanzhi smiled in relief.

Just old dreams.