Emperor order

Cheng Hu didn't know how he returned to his bedroom, he only knew that when he fell on the bed, he had no strength at all.

So be it!Cheng Hu said to himself.Don't be delusional, just treat yourself as a dream, a nightmare.When you wake up from the dream, everything will be over.

The southern tour is still going on, but Cheng Hu's heart has plunged into the abyss of despair.He was silent every day, and sometimes he couldn't even say a few words a day.His unusual silence naturally attracted the attention of some people, and Kangxi was one of them.

However, Cheng Hu did not explain to him why Kangxi became like this despite allowing Kangxi to force him to be soft.Chenghu's tough temper made Kangxi feel depressed for a while, and after a long time, Kangxi stopped caring about him, and even alienated Chenghu.Therefore, the saying that the elder brother fell out of favor with the emperor spread like wildfire.

On November 23, the 28rd year of Kangxi, the southern tour ended, and the group of them finally returned to the capital.After returning to Beijing, Cheng Hu hurriedly greeted Xiao Zhuang and Tong Jia, and then closed the door.Except for the daily greetings and studies, he was no longer seen in other places in the palace.

Cining Palace.

When Tong Jiashi came to pay his respects to him, Xiao Zhuang took her to ask about Chenghu: "What's wrong with Chenghu recently? Every time I see him, he always has a forced face and a smile. Moreover, it is said that he and the emperor The relationship with him is not as close as before. Because of this, it is now rumored in the palace that he has fallen out of favor. Could it be that he had a conflict with the emperor during the southern tour?"

Tong Jiashi was also at a loss: "My ancestor, my daughter-in-law doesn't know too well either. Every time Chenghu greeted me, he just chatted with me casually about Yinzhen, and ignored everything else. As for the emperor, On the other hand, I can't figure it out even more."

"How's the emperor feeling recently?" Xiao Zhuang continued to ask.

Tong Jiashi said with a little worry: "It's not very good."

Xiaozhuang sighed lightly: "Is it because of Chenghu?"

Xiaozhuang's heart has always been like a mirror, that is, the affairs of the country and Chenghu can make Kangxi really take it to heart.Although from a certain point of view, Cheng Hu's matter is also considered a national event.But Xiaozhuang knows Kangxi's heart for Chenghu better than anyone else.Kangxi is different from other elder brothers to Chenghu. Chenghu is just a simple child to Kangxi most of the time.Therefore, Kangxi really worried a lot about this child he cared about.However, now this child is inexplicably separated from him, how can Kangxi not worry about this!

"Well. According to my daughter-in-law, if Chenghu does not return to his previous attitude, the emperor will not be able to sleep peacefully for a day. But for Chenghu, I have said all I need to say. Every time he listens seriously Yes, but, I never followed my persuasion, and still went my own way. As for the emperor, I can't talk too much. So, the situation is still so rigid." Tong Jia was also anxious.

The mood of the emperor can influence the fate of many people. Now any servant in the palace is not worried all the time, for fear of offending Longwei if he is careless.Even their concubines are in a hurry.The most at ease in this palace now is probably Cheng Hu, the chief culprit.

"The father and son are really enemies and don't get together. Forget it, we don't want to intervene in the affairs between them. You, if you have time, turn around more, I can't do it with my old bones!" At this time Xiaozhuang is already in his 70s.When people get old, they get sick more and more.Therefore, she really has no extra energy to take care of the trivial matters of the younger generation.

"Daughter-in-law knows." Tong Jia naturally didn't want Xiao Zhuang to worry about these things any more.The Empress Dowager Xiaozhuang has spent her entire life worrying about the Qing Dynasty. Now, it's time for her to rest.

Xiao Zhuang half-closed his eyes, and asked about other things: "Are the other elder brothers all right? I heard that Concubine Yi is back?"

Tong Jiashi said with a slight smile: "They are all fine, and now even the seventh elder brother goes to school with them. The teachers who teach them all say that these children are talented and will have great promise in the future. As for Yi Concubine, after being diagnosed by the imperial physician, she is indeed pregnant. Before long, you will have a little great-grandson or little great-granddaughter."

Hearing that the Aixinjueluo family would have a newcomer, Xiaozhuang couldn't help laughing very happily: "I'm so happy to see more and more children! Concubine Tong, although none of these children are your own, but they will always be born to you." Call you my mother. So, now you are the master of the harem, you have to treat them well."

When Tong Jiashi heard Xiaozhuang's words, she couldn't help thinking of the child who had no fate with her.However, in front of Xiaozhuang, she did not dare to show any sadness.The elderly are old, it is best to see happiness without worrying.

"Well, my wife knows." Tong Jia replied obediently.

The Compassionate Ning Palace is talking about family matters, and somewhere in the palace, there is also an unusual conversation going on.

"You must tell me clearly today, what's going on with you recently!" Gao Lang rudely grabbed Cheng Hu's collar and asked.

Cheng Hu replied with a wry smile: "Brother Lang, let me go first, and then we can talk properly?"

Gao Lang's hands didn't loosen in the slightest: "Talk well? As soon as I let go, you'll slip away. It's okay to be fooled once, I don't want to be tricked by you every time. This time, no matter what, I have to ask clearly." .Say it!"

Ever since he returned from his southern tour with Kangxi, Gao Lang was worried about Chenghu's condition.He always thought that Cheng Hu was the kind of heartless person who could look at everything optimistically.However, now his mind has changed.The current Cheng Hu, in his opinion, is a walking dead, without any vitality.As a good brother, he can't let Cheng Hu live in such a numb life.

Cheng Hu didn't want to tell anyone about falling in love with Kangxi.Not only because it was a taboo, but also because he was afraid that he would not be able to bear the consequences after telling the secret.In modern times, if he said that he fell in love with his father, he would definitely be locked up in a mental hospital.But in ancient times, the ending would be even more tragic. He might be directly sent to the execution ground after being charged with incest and disobedience!

Gao Lang saw that Cheng Hu still didn't want to say anything, so he had to use strong medicine. "Chenghu, if you continue to squeak, I will expose the fact that neither of us is original. Anyway, according to your current state, it will happen sooner or later. You will die sooner or later, and I don't want to die again." Spending so much time with you!" Gao Lang threatened Chenghu with the biggest secret between them.

"Do you really want to listen? Don't you regret it? I'm afraid you'll think I'm disgusting after hearing this. Then we won't even be able to be brothers." Cheng Hu started talking.

If this matter had to be told, apart from Kangxi, Gao Lang was the only audience Cheng Hu wanted most.I want to tell Kangxi because he is the person involved, and I want to tell Gao Lang because he is my closest person.

Gao Lang let go of him slightly: "Tell me! No matter how scary it is, I can laugh it off."

Cheng Hu cleared his throat: "Then I'll say it. I, I fell in love with someone, someone I can't fall in love with."

Gao Lang immediately asked a very technical question: "Male and female?"

Cheng Hu lowered his head and replied in a voice as big as a mosquito flying: "Male."

"It's Kangxi!" Gao Lang said surprisingly.

Cheng Hu raised his head abruptly: "How do you know?"

Gao Lang still had a paralyzed face: "Your attitude already speaks for itself. In fact, I'm not surprised that you fell in love with him."

Cheng Hu was a little dazed: "Why?" He always thought that he was covering up very well, but he didn't expect that he had already been full of flaws.

"You care too much about Kangxi, especially when you grow up. Rome wasn't built in a day, and the relationship wasn't achieved overnight. Kangxi treated you so well, and over time, it's only reasonable that you would be tempted." Gao Lang expressed his analysis .

"However, his kindness to me is the same as his kindness to his son, without any other emotions. But why can't I simply love him as I did to my father? And I have such an unspeakable feeling?" Cheng Hu was always at a loss.

When is the error?Was it at the first meeting, or when he was on the verge of death for the first time, or at the time of the draft?Cheng Hu has no solution.He only knows that when he wakes up, he can't turn back and can only make mistakes again and again.

"After all, you are not pure father and son." Gao Lang pointed out Cheng Hu's blind spot, "No matter how hard we try to integrate into this world, we can't hide the fact that we are from another time and space. We are fundamentally different from them, so , everything cannot be judged by common sense. Think about it in another way, what would happen if you were in our original world with him. You are not father and son, he is not the emperor, and you are not the prince. Although you are both men , but homosexuality is not a big deal. In other aspects, such as age, he is only 15 years older than you. This gap is not much stronger than those old couples and young wives who are more than 40 years apart. However, in this world, your obstacles A bit bigger. However, it is not as scary as you imagined."

Cheng Hu quietly listened to Gao Lang's statement, and finally pointed out a fatal question: "He doesn't love me, or his love for me is not what I want. In his eyes, no matter how important I am , that is only because I am his son, his eldest son, and his favorite successor. What's the use of that? If I am no longer his son, I will have nothing."

"Are you afraid of having nothing?" Gao Lang asked sharply.

Cheng Hu answered frankly: "I'm afraid. If I still want to live in this world well, I can't give up this identity. Only those who have never owned it will say that it doesn't matter if they have nothing. I can't do it, Because I already have too much."

What Cheng Hu holds in his hands is indeed the envy of the world.Even the throne, as long as he said a word, Kangxi would give it to him without hesitation.From this point of view, he is indeed the luckiest person.It's a pity, but now he is extravagantly begging for something that may not exist in this world, and that is the love of an eternal emperor.In particular, his current identity is still the emperor's son.Therefore, Cheng Hu could only fall into a dilemma.There is no way forward or backward, and he can only sink deep in the mire.

"So, what are you going to do?" Gao Lang knew that emotional matters can only be decided by the person involved, and no one else can intervene, nor can they intervene.

Cheng Hu said bluntly: "Giving up is a wise move, but I can't do it. So, I can only wait for the judgment of time."

It is the most appropriate but also the most cowardly way to leave everything to time.Cheng Hu has always considered himself not a coward, but he is just an ordinary person after all.He doesn't have Kangxi's courage, nor Gao Lang's determination, so he can only choose to wait.In the end, waiting for time to fade away everything, or the deepening love for nothing drove him crazy.No matter what, there will always be an ending.

Gao Lang held onto his shoulders tightly: "Chenghu, I don't want anything to happen to you. Do you know? You can't see the slightest light in your eyes now. You will die of exhaustion sooner or later."

Heart disease is the only disease in this world that has no cure.Gao Lang would rather see Cheng Hu get into trouble every day off line than see him end his life in despair.

Cheng Hu held Gao Lang's hand tightly: "Gao Lang, don't worry, I still have a lot to do. Therefore, I will not end this life so soon. Even if I fail emotionally, in other respects, I can be a A winner." He said that because he has too much, there are also many things he is reluctant to part with.For those reluctance, he will not let go so early.

Gao Lang looked at him in disbelief: "Your state recently is not like this."

"There should be a buffer period for everything!" Cheng Hu patted his chest vigorously, "Believe me, I won't be defeated so easily."

Gao Lang didn't relax: "I hope so."

Cheng Hu chuckled: "Yes."