【Summer Five】Iron City Wall

Xia You had a dream.

He was tied to a prison bed by a straitjacket, and in front of him was Wutiao holding an injection.The clean hall is very bright, and there are lights everywhere, shining on Wutiao like a hazy cassock, separating him from the world.

"Let's do it." Xia You said, even though he didn't make a sound.

After walking this road for ten years, are you tired?

Xia You can say categorically that I will go on forever.Even though he was burned by karma, he could still find a ray of light from the high-hanging sword, and turned to the darkness without hesitation.

The left shoulder was very painful, the penetrating wound tore the flesh and blood, and the blood continued to ooze.He remembered the unexpected encounter at the sentry post, Wutiao just stood there under the moonlight, his military uniform was neat and stern, and his appearance was so beautiful that he was astonishingly heavenly.Xia You saw herself in a state of embarrassment in those blue eyes, and grinned.

He didn't know why he was laughing, maybe it was Ji Mourning the ten years ahead, the youth that was gone forever with young people.

Maybe the mask has been worn for a long time, and I really can't even take it off myself.

Xia You suddenly couldn't tell her feelings for Wutiao.

Those memories are like a river, extending horizontally from the other end of the soul, flowing slowly regardless of years.Even if it is far away in the sky, the extremely pure pebbles deposited in it will never wear out, and retain the most original appearance intact and stubbornly.

He bent down to scoop up a handful of water, looked carefully, and suddenly realized.

I love you.Xia You said silently, reading it over and over again.

Struggles flashed in Wutiao's eyes, breaking the ancient ice and snow in an extremely discordant manner, as if a piece of flesh had been plucked out alive.Xia You was a little untimely happy, happy to see his freshness under his indifference.

"Then let me be free." He said ruthlessly, putting these words in his eyes, and threw them at Wutiao through intertwined eyes.

He was sure that Satoru would understand.

When the injection is injected into the blood vessel, Xia You no longer feels the burning flame in his heart.

He stared at the five pieces with great care, and saw a man on the verge of tears in the sea and sky.By now, he couldn't tell whether it was Wutiao or himself, he just stretched out his arms to hug him, and whispered words in his ear.

I love you, he said, but I don't regret it, and I don't feel sorry.

The effect of the medicine took effect, and the toes were faintly numb.Xia You closed her eyes and let herself fall into the darkness, wandering and sinking in the dark and dirty vortex until the glimmer of light came into view.

He walked towards the light, and saw a fleeting silver-white hair tip at the end of the tunnel.

The sea breeze is blowing, the sunset glows in the sky, and the harbor shows a peaceful and comfortable atmosphere.

Xia You stepped over the fence and walked to the depths of the pier with ease, facing the setting sun sinking to the horizon.The sun wheel is decorated with deep and old fire, slowly falling from the shimmering place, and the last few inches of light penetrate the twilight, and climb unsteadily to the feet.

Canoes floated on the canal, fishing boats returned to port, and the river was rarely calm.He sat down and rested his chin to watch a grand sunset, the depths of his eyes were warm, as if he also had a fire.

Until the moon was bright and the stars were thinning, the sky turned upside down like the bottom of a pot.The temperature brought by the wind gradually cools down, the sunset takes its last breath, and the world returns to ice-cold.

Xia You was frightened for no reason, and stood up abruptly, feeling extremely panicked.He seemed to have missed something, a treasure that was heavier than life and yet as light as a feather, as long as he couldn't see it, there would be a black mass of panic rushing towards him.

Then he heard a movement, very soft, like coming from some lifeboat moored at the dock.

"—!"

Xia You held her breath, turned around carefully, her fingers were shaking.But it was not because of fear, but because of extreme ecstasy and panic; as if if he made a wrong step, the thing would shatter like precious porcelain and disappear without a trace.

He stepped forward, nearly tripping himself.

The dustproof cloth of the lifeboat was slowly removed, and Xia You saw a hand with a pale complexion and clear veins.

Memories fell, and a hot name came to the tip of my tongue, wrapped in the hustle and bustle of the past 15 years and the turbulent tide of every midsummer, and I was about to blurt out——

Xia You opened her eyes and found herself lying in a mass grave.

There are layers of corpses under him, with a hideous death appearance, but most of the limbs are intact.He was still wearing the prison uniform in the clean room, but the straitjacket was gone, and he didn't feel numbness or convulsions in his body.

"I still..." He raised his hand and moved his fingers one by one, "Alive?"

Someone answered his words with a tired and hoarse tone.

Xia You followed the prestige and saw a familiar thin old man leaning against the pile of corpses. His bright orange funeral overalls made him even shorter.It was the long-lost Wang Er Er - Xia You recognized it at a glance, and was surprised by it.

Seeing him waking up, his face was full of confusion as if he had been in another world, Wang Laoer sighed deeply, his back bent.

"You shouldn't just die like this. This is the consensus of everyone." The old man took off his hat and stroked his bald head. It was changed, people were smuggled out, and by the way, I took advantage of the vacancy of the transport van to transfer someone who looked like you to fill up the number."

This is obviously not an easy way, because Wang Laoer's body and face are covered with thick gray clouds, and his whole body is so shriveled that only an empty shell remains.

"I didn't expect the resistance army to struggle for ten years, and it really infected many people. All the low-value people who work in the high-end area basically lean towards you. It's really hard to find such a willing person in the clean hall. The Arabian Nights. In this protracted struggle, anyone can die, except you."

The mass burial mound was originally a garbage dump where the iron city wall was used to pile up and dispose of corpses.Xia You helped several corpses to get up, and his messy brain finally started to work, so slow that you could almost hear the sound of gears snapping together.

"Why?" he simply asked.

I am guilty, I am bloody, I have sacrificed all innocents, and I deserve death.

Standing among the dead, Wang Lao Er sighed and shook his head, "Just because you understand everything, you are willing to move forward."

"Jonny is a good boy, Jay. But good boys don't live long. Iron walls are destined to crush their naive expectations, and drag newborn flames into the hammer bottom, never to start a prairie fire again. But you are different, you are too sober."

"You know what you are burdened with, and what you will face. We watch from the sidelines and see too much. Instead, we can't bear to see a genius like you flash in the pan, and spend a few lifetimes in hopelessness."

Away from thousands of unsettled corpses, the old man showed a brief smile, bitter and sympathetic.

"Let yourself go, this is our expectation." He put on his hat, turned and left, "You have traveled far enough on this road, it's time to stop and rest."

"Someone will help you go down."

The wind howled and blew by, and no one was seen.

Xia You stood where she was, with severe pain in her left shoulder, and blood began to ooze out again.

He stared blankly at the back of Wang Lao Er's disappearance, his lips were murmured, but he couldn't say a word.

The stench of the mass graves reached the tip of his nose at this moment, Xia You turned around and walked a few steps in the opposite direction, then suddenly stopped and squatted down slowly.He clutched the festering wound and clenched his teeth, but he couldn't resist the heat from his eye sockets after all.

Those tears were hot, hot and sour as they rolled across their cheeks, they fell in the blink of an eye, and disappeared into the dirty soil just like that.Xia You covered her face tightly, her chest heaved violently, but every time she breathed, there was a shuddering sound.

What he deserves, what he abandons, what he is hopeless; life beckons to him, with a new attitude that is caught off guard.

Should I go on?Xia You asked herself.

Use this hard-won last chance to walk the road I didn't finish, and fulfill my unfinished karma?

The dead compatriots screamed silently, and the resentful spirits entrenched in the mass grave, staring at him with all eyes, forcing him to give a definite answer.Subaru Lawrence once walked through gunpowder smoke and blood, fearless, without tears, and without heart; he was not afraid of accusations and scolding, and all he saw in his eyes was a ray of dawn at the sea level, even if the sun was shining, he never caught his eyes.

But Xia Youjie is different.Xia You is a real person, he is always confused, shaken, and afraid, he will be distracted by the most noble person in the world, and he will stretch his brows because of a soft and sweet kiss.

Everything about him, given and given to others, is too vivid.

The mass grave is very large, and the footsteps are deep and shallow, always approaching the edge.Xia You dragged his tired steps forward in the sea of ​​corpses and blood, time and space began to be distorted and blurred, the smell covered his mouth and nose, and the sky was dark.

But he never stopped, and he continued to move forward stubbornly, as if he wanted to step on the past and the burden under his feet.

There is always a way out, and it doesn't even take much effort.From the phone call to Andre ten years ago, Xia You arranged all the activities related to the Revolutionary Army under the name of Subaru Lawrence, and by the way used camouflage technology to disguise an ordinary face for himself.After graduating with infinitely close to full marks in the undergraduate course, "Xiayou" was promoted to Versace Research Institute to study advanced applications, while Subaru planned gatherings and raised supplies in the local area, maximizing the influence at hand.

Now that Subaru had been executed, "Xia Youjie", who was clean from beginning to end, returned naturally.

He even has a perfect resume that cannot be faulted. Even if he applies to the Second District Research Institute, he can be hired first, so he doesn't have to worry about his future livelihood.

The rugged horizon gradually slowed down, Xia You thought about it, and suddenly laughed.

The corners of his eyes were still red, and he pulled the corners of his mouth, a bitter arc opened and disappeared quickly.

"From now on..." Xia You thought blankly, "I never thought I would have such a thing."

He walked forward with his head down, the soles of his feet were worn out, and the blood was mixed with the old blood on the soles of his feet, making it impossible to distinguish each other.

The mass burial site is located at the junction of District [-] and District [-]. The exit is facing the abandoned factory. Half of the rickety barbed wire fence is broken, leaving only the broken teeth and claws in the air.Xia You crossed the dividing line and climbed up the barbed wire lightly.The barb pierced the flesh sharply, and he climbed up unconsciously until he climbed over the top and came to the side of Zhuang Su's empty factory.

The soles of the feet suddenly hurt, Xia You didn't hold on tightly, and fell straight to the ground. There was a muffled "clang clang", it didn't hurt very much, but the chest was tight, as if a heavy boulder was pressing on the lungs, blocking the trachea, causing tiny blood foam to flow into the throat cavity, gradually staining the corners of the lips.

Xia You closed his eyes for a while, his whole body was in pain and itching, and the high fever rushed to his brain one after another.

When he opened his eyes again, he crashed into the sky unexpectedly.

The sky is clear and cloudless, high and wide and far away, like a calm sea.

Xia You suddenly remembered the ring that she kept in her home in the second district.After many years, he never wore it again, but he always remembered the touch of the iron ring wrapped around his fingers - like five soft silver hairs, and those clear and dazzling blue eyes.

"Forget it," he covered his eyes and murmured, "Forget it."

After walking this road for ten years, are you tired?

I'm tired, and I've paid it off with death.Can... stop?

Birds flit across the clear sky, their brown and yellow feathers slowly fall, picking off a delicate cloud.The wind will pick up, and tomorrow will be a good day again.