Adoption relationship

One is that the mood has been spread out.I made it clear and did something to break through the relationship, so I thought that I needed to consolidate the "emotion", so I pressed every step of the way, or maybe I was still nervous, so I became more nervous.

One is that I wanted to escape, I wanted to escape, but my heart softened or I couldn't let it go. I haven't really escaped in the past few years, and I even began to suspect that I might never be able to escape. After all, this person is the most important person in my life. An important person, faced with this person's more and more wanton and explicit behavior, distressed, worried, confused, cut and messed up, and even more want to escape.

Xiang Weiding, who puts Zhang Jianan at the top of his heart, observes the people around him at all times, realizing that he may be pushing too hard, but... he can't hold back, it's been so many years.I am forced to suppress myself every day, how can I get my feelings back once I release them?I can't slow down, I want to get closer, to be intimate, to be recognized, to be justified, to hug that person with peace of mind, instead of leaning up to him carefully every time like now, and then letting go immediately when the person frowns. open.

In this way, too tired!

Xiang Weiding approached Zhang Jianan gently and forcefully, hoping to make Zhang Jianan get used to him getting close in another way through actions, but at the same time, he was also thinking about how to prevent Zhang Jianan from running away, or to find a way to make Zhang Jianan get used to him in another way. Zhang Jianan couldn't avoid it.

For example, recently he has been seriously thinking about Zhang Jianan opening a bookstore, because Xiang Weiding knows that once this bookstore opens, at least Zhang Jianan will never be able to live without him. As long as he is by his side, the others will be far behind. ?

One is pressing, the other is avoiding, one is thinking about at least holding someone down, and the other is thinking about how to take a step back.

"An, I saw a shop on Shunye Road, which is very suitable for you to open a bookstore. We can go and have a look in these two days." Xiang Weiding brewed two cups of tea and brought them to Zhang Jianan's room.

Zhang Jian'an picked up the teacup, blew on it gently, but didn't drink it.Looking at the tea leaves in the cup, he said without raising his head, "Let's talk about it!" He had completely forgotten about the bookstore in the past few days.

"What's the matter? Didn't you read some preparation materials for opening the store a while ago?" Xiang Weiding asked.

"Well, I'm considering opening a bookstore, but I'm not in a hurry." Zhang Jianan took a sip and put down his teacup.

"Why?" Xiang Weiding asked persistently. He hoped that Zhang Jian'an could settle down. The main reason was that he didn't get Zhang Jian'an's acknowledgment. The people in Jian'an settled down.

Zhang Jianan glanced at Weiding, smiled helplessly, and then joked: "Weiding, it's not a hundred thousand why, it's just that I'm not in the mood to open a store recently! But you, why do you have to ask this why?"

"Uh, it's nothing. I'm just afraid that you'll be bored at home most of the time. If you don't want to open a store now, then don't worry!" Xiang Weiding replied, but he was always a little uneasy. He didn't know what Zhang Jianan would think the next moment. What.do what.

"Hehe, didn't you always persuade me to rest at home before? Why have you been so active in finding work for me recently?" Thinking of "supporting you" that he had said to Weiding several times before, Zhang Jianan sighed in his heart, everything has changed now Now, thinking about it, I still miss the past, I simply thought it was the son who wanted to raise his father!Zhang Jianan was moved.

Holding the teacup in his left hand, Xiang Weiding tapped the side of the cup with his right finger. He was silent for a long time before looking deeply into Zhang Jianan's eyes. With a smile, he said: "If it is possible, I really hope that you can rest at home all the time, let you do what you want, and I want to take care of you."

"Weiding, do you think I need to be taken care of?" Zhang Jianan leaned on the back of the chair as leisurely as possible.

"Ann, it's not a question of whether you need it or not. I just thought, always wanted to do this." Xiang Weiding smiled in a low voice, with a little self-deprecating, a little sad, and said: "I know you don't need my care, maybe ...Now you disdain my taking care of you, but taking care of you is my goal, even my ideal and pursuit." After a pause, he sighed and said, "I still remember when I was 15 years old. Did Jiaojiao come here for the first time? I used to be young, and I only wanted to treat you well in the future, that year, I swore from the bottom of my heart that I would take care of you in the future, and give you the best with my own efforts."

Of course Zhang Jian'an remembers that year, the tears of the slender boy Xiang Weiding, the red-eyed boy who said "don't want me" and "I can take care of you" and other silly words over and over again, remembering 15 The 22-year-old Xiang Weiding, looking at the almost [-]-year-old Xiang Weiding in front of him, sighed again how quickly time passed.

"Ann, you are the first person who is kind to me, the only person who is kind to me, and the one who has always been kind to me. I have been afraid of being thrown away by you since I was a child, and I am always afraid that you will suddenly not want me..." Xiang Weiding's expression was a little erratic, as if he was caught in the memory, and he came back to his senses after a while, and said slowly: "I am always afraid of being lost by you, always afraid of returning to a person's life, so I have been holding on tightly You, I follow you firmly, I only see you in my eyes. There is only you in my life, there has been no one else, and there will be no one else in the future, An, I can't want anyone else." The last sentence was said by looking at Zhang Jian'an intently of.

Xiang Weiding's words, Xiang Weiding's expression, and Xiang Weiding's gaze all moved Zhang Jianan's face. The information Xiang Weiding revealed seemed to be his everything, and his heartbeat changed suddenly.

In fact, everyone wants to be needed. I lived alone for too long in my previous life.When I dreamed back in the middle of the night, when I felt lonely, I naturally hoped to have someone by my side, needed others, and hoped to be needed by others.And in this life, Xiang Weiding has been with him all the time. The two people's lives have been warm and fulfilling for so long. Zhang Jian'an was reluctant to let go, so he left without hesitation.

At this time, facing Xiang Weiding's firm, persistent, affectionate and strong feelings, Zhang Jianan almost nodded, thinking that there is nothing wrong with obeying Xiang Weiding. Really, it feels wonderful to be deeply loved, but... ...Zhang Jianan couldn't let go of age, gender, and family. In the past ten years, he had never considered that he would have a relationship with Xiang Weiding other than relatives. He was used to getting along with family members and relatives. relation.

"Weiding, do you still remember the first time we met?" Zhang Jian'an's eyes also became far away, and he compared his height with his hands, saying: "At that time, you were only this tall, and you were thin and thin. When I saw you, I thought you were only a few years old. Hehe, although I found out that you were 11 years old at that time, and although you grew up day by day, in my heart, you are always like the thin child who stood at the door of the ward and needed my care , a child who needs my love.”

"An..." Xiang Weiding suddenly grabbed Zhang Jianan's hand.

"Weiding, you have always been that child, okay? You need my care and love, and I will take care of and love you for the rest of my life, okay?" Zhang Jianan stroked Xiang Weiding's face with his right hand, smiled warmly, no shadows.

"Ann. Look at me. I've grown up. I'm not a child anymore. I can take care of you, and I will take care of you and love you for the rest of my life. But... can you give me a chance? Please!" Xiang Weiding took Zhang Jianan's hand and buried his face in his palm, his voice dry.

Zhang Jianan received Xiang Weiding's pain and despair, felt Xiang Weiding's inner sadness, opened his mouth, wanted to say something, but finally closed his mouth, facing such Xiang Weiding, he still couldn't say anything .

In the end, neither of them convinced the other, Xiang Weiding still surrounded Zhang Jianan, Zhang Jianan still wanted to escape, but couldn't bear to do so.

After a few days, Zhang Jianan, who had been bored for a long time, decided to travel again. This time he chose Huashan, which is far away. .

Zhang Jianan packs his clothes. This time he needs to bring more things than the last time he went out to play. Although he has never been there before, he knows that the top of the mountain is cold. Now that he has gone, he is naturally going to watch the sunrise. He must pack thick clothes.

I remember reading a sentence somewhere before, "climbing mountains when you are proud, looking at water when you are frustrated", er... It seems that he is neither frustrated nor proud, but relatively speaking, Zhang Jianan prefers mountains. Anyway, mountains must be surrounded by water, and mountain streams There will always be some, but if you only look at the water, there are no mountains to climb by the sea.

"One week?" Xiang Weiding also packed things for Zhang Jianan.

"Hmm." Zhang Jianan answered Xiang Weiding's question for the nth time in two days.

"Take your phone and charger with you. Don't turn it off. I'll call you every day, okay?" Xiang Weiding only asked for this.

Zhang Jianan tidied up all the things he needed to bring, zipped up his backpack, smiled at Xiang Weiding, and said: "Yes, if you don't call me every night, I will call you back, so you can rest assured Come on!"

"...Don't worry, I just hope you don't leave." Xiang Weiding whispered.

"Weiding, I'm only going out for a while, and I'll be back soon." Zhang Jianan sighed helplessly.

Seven days are very long, and the days without Zhang Jian'an at home are always very long. Xiang Weiding was reluctant, but he couldn't. He was silent for a few seconds, and tentatively said, "We will open a bookstore when you come back, okay?"

Is this talking about conditions?Zhang Jianan frowned, then looked at Weiding with a gloomy expression, his brows stretched, and he said softly: "Well, when I come back, I will go to open a bookstore."

After getting this answer, Xiang Weiding felt a little better. He thought that when Zhang Jianan came back this time, he would never leave him again. I can stay with Zhang Jianan now.

When going out, Zhang Jianan was in front, Xiang Weiding was behind, and was about to open the door, when Xiang Weiding suddenly hugged Zhang Jianan from behind, and said with great reluctance: "Go early and come back early, pay attention to safety." Tighten tight Arm, and said: "I miss you very much." Before the person left, he began to miss you.

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