Adoption relationship

Zhang Jian'an really didn't know that Xiang Weiding, who was left out in the cold, would be so frightened. He is so distressed now, and he really regrets his initial decision. He kept patting the child's back and tried to comfort him: "I don't want you, really. I don't want you, who else can I want if I don't want you? I said, Zhang Jiao is just a guest, she belongs to Bai Yu, and you are my son, do you understand?"

"Don't want me...I will always listen to you..."

Xiang Weiding was still muttering, he had already fallen into a deep panic, his mind was full of Zhang Jianan ignoring him and not wanting him, even with Zhang Jianan's comfort and assurance, he was still afraid, and had always been Deeply afraid.

No matter how cold and arrogant Xiang Weiding behaved in front of others, he was always the same child a few years ago. His biological mother didn't want him, his biological father didn't want him, his relatives didn't want him, and he couldn't get good treatment even when he was adopted. Always to be left behind, everything made the young Xiang Weiding numb. Living in such an environment and experience since childhood made him think that the world is like this and life is like this. He never I knew there were others until I met Zhang Jianan.

Zhang Jian'an made him feel warm, Zhang Jian'an's soft voice, Zhang Jian'an's close touch all made Xiang Weiding's heart slightly warm and swollen, as if something was growing in the bottom of his heart, slowly seeping into the blood, flowing All over the body, this feeling is so obsessed with him, makes him persistent, makes him greedy, makes him discover what else in the world can make him care so much that he wants to own it alone, occupy it and never let go...

Xiang Weiding knows that he is not good enough, so others don't want him. After having Zhang Jianan, he tries his best to do his best to make Zhang Jianan satisfied. He is willing to do everything he likes or dislikes. As long as Zhang Jianan always treats him that well...

When he came out of the hospital that time, Zhang Jianan said that when he grew up and would eventually be separated from him, Xiang Weiding was always afraid. Suffocation, he always felt that if there was no Zhang Jianan, then he would only be left with himself in the world, alone, as if his body was in mid-air, unable to touch the sky, unable to touch the ground, and his heart followed his body Hanging, empty, lonely, there is nothing around, no voice, no color, no air, no light...

Xiang Weiding had to admit that he was timid, because he was afraid of such a situation, and he was so afraid that he would wake up in his dreams.

Facing Zhang Jian'an, Xiang Weiding was always uneasy. He was always worried about when he would be abandoned in his heart. This kind of anxiety was also unfamiliar to him. He never had this kind of anxiety when he was adopted. At first, he just Yearning for a better life, he didn't want to leave. After knowing that it was all the same, he didn't even care whether he was in the orphanage or was adopted, but... Zhang Jian'an made him uneasy. The more he cared, the more he feared. This fear has always been faint Wandering in the bottom of my heart, I can't get rid of it.

The life of the two has always given Xiang Weiding the illusion of being dependent on each other, which made him feel relieved, but why did Zhang Jiao show up?Why did someone more qualified than him to be loved by Zhang Jianan appear?Why would a person who is more qualified to occupy Zhang Jianan's concerns appear?

Xiang Weiding's uncontrollable fear, uncontrollable fear, he also heard Zhang Jianan say that the little girl is only staying for a while, but—the little girl is different from Jiang Weitao, Jiang Weitao has nothing to do with Zhang Jianan, but the little girl is People who can naturally occupy the attention of Zhang Jian's security department like that, he can't help but not be afraid.

What if Zhang Jian'an liked his own daughter so much that he finally decided to raise her himself?Then what should I do?Will Zhang Jianan treat him as well as before?Xiang Weiding had too many complicated imaginations in his mind, and every imagination made him deeply afraid.

At this moment, Xiang Weiding in front of Zhang Jianan is like a lost child, with a bewildered expression, deep panic in his dull eyes, the tears have not disappeared from his face, and he is about to cry. Seemingly helpless makes people feel pity.

"Son, I'm sorry, I will never neglect you like today." Zhang Jianan apologized, and he hugged the child in his arms even harder, comforting softly: "Don't do this, son, I won't want you , won't ignore you, won't stop talking to you, for me, no one is more important than you now..."

Xiang Weiding rested his head on Zhang Jianan's neck, and when he heard Zhang Jianan's words, he shed tears again. The tears dripped on Zhang Jianan's skin, and with a strong nasal voice, he repeated: "Don't ignore me anymore, I really Scared, I listen to you, I apologize to her tomorrow, I treat her well, I let her, as long as you stop ignoring me like you did at the beginning... so uncomfortable, I'm so cold..."

Looking at Xiang Weiding who was still uneasy, Zhang Jianan sighed and regretted, and circled the child's cold body, which was really cold, and comforted him over and over again...

The next day was Sunday, Xiang Weiding woke up early, opened his eyes and saw Zhang Jianan's face, and then found that his hands and feet were all wrapped around Zhang Jianan's body, probably this would make Zhang Jianan uncomfortable, so even if he fell asleep Zhang Jianan also frowned slightly, and there was a circle of blue under his eye sockets. Xiang Weiding recalled the scene last night. Zhang Jianan was tossed by his embarrassing crying until very late. He probably subconsciously clung to Zhang Jianan while sleeping, which also made him sleep. Zhang Jian'an didn't rest even more!

The two were so close that they could feel each other's breathing. Xiang Weiding kept his waking posture motionless, staring at Zhang Jianan's sleeping face in a daze, thinking about what he said with tears last night, Xiang Weiding Ding blushed with embarrassment, but thinking of the few hours of being ignored by Zhang Jianan last night, Xiang Weiding still had some lingering fears, and subconsciously hugged Zhang Jianan even tighter, he would never be treated by Zhang Jianan again. Jian An hates it, he will never make Zhang Jianan angry again, that's too scary...

"Well," Zhang Jian'an felt a little difficult to breathe, moved his body, but his mind was still drowsy and sleepy, and he didn't want to wake up.

Hearing Zhang Jian'an's voice, Xiang Weiding let go of his hand quickly, watched Zhang Jian'an find a more comfortable position, and fell asleep again.Except for the few days when he first came to Bingqing City, this was the second time he slept with Zhang Jianan. Xiang Weiding always liked Zhang Jianan's body temperature, neither hot nor cold, which made him nostalgic.

"Dad, Daddy."

Before Zhang Jianan woke her up in the morning, the little girl had had enough sleep, got dressed and got out of bed to find her father.

In order to prevent Zhang Jianan from being woken up, Xiang Weiding reluctantly got up. When the little girl just opened the door and wanted to rush in, he blocked the door and said in a calm tone: "He still needs to sleep for a while. , don’t quarrel with him, tell me what’s going on.”