born unlucky star

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"God bless!" With a pain in his heart, Liang Pei hurriedly called out his name.However, Ji Tianyou just stared at himself firmly with desolate eyes, and big drops of tears just kept pouring out of his eyes.

Liang Pei hurried forward, wanting to hold him in his arms like before.But Ji Tianyou was only stunned for a second, and then he seemed to see his intention, and ran back suddenly.

"God bless! Don't run! Stop! Listen to me!!" Liang Pei immediately ran after him without thinking.The two walked through the company in such an imageless way, ignoring the astonished eyes of the people around them.

Ji Tianyou ran down the stairwell of the emergency passage, Liang Pei chased after him, keeping a short distance from him, but he couldn't get any closer.When he reached a corner, Liang Pei suddenly stopped in his tracks.

Hearing the echo of footsteps on the ground, Liang Pei looked around hastily, but he never saw Ji Tianyou.He could only shout loudly: "God bless! God bless where are you? Come out! Come out!! Don't hide from me!!"

He lost his usual calmness, took out his mobile phone in a hurry, and dialed Ji Tianyou's number, but what he heard was the news that the phone was turned off.For a long time, only Liang Pei's gradually steady breathing could be heard in the empty stairwell.Ji Tianyou seemed to just disappear out of thin air, without a trace.

Liang Pei sighed a long time, went upstairs with his brows furrowed, and took the elevator again to his office.

"Yang Xiuyu, why don't you leave? What do you still want to do here?" Liang Pei was worried and depressed, but in the end all turned into anger, and asked Yang Xiuyu who was still in the office coldly.

Yang Xiuyu just lowered his head, and said after a while: "I'm sorry, I seem to have misunderstood you...How is Tianyou?"

Liang Pei frowned, and the worry between his brows was undisguised: "I didn't find it. But I will explain it clearly to him."

After finishing speaking, he glanced at Yang Xiuyu with sharp eyes, and said: "Also, I think I need to reiterate that I did love Aren in the past, but the person I love now is Tianyou, not as Aren's substitute. So please don't doubt my feelings for him. I will also deal with the news of these two days, so you don't have to worry about it. "

Yang Xiuyu nodded, his eyes dimmed, but the corners of his mouth slightly curled up, showing a wry smile: "That's good. I'm sorry, I rushed to find you today, Mr. Liang, and said some strange things. I'm just too worried about God, he is very simple... "

"He's very simple, so I won't hurt him." Liang Pei said immediately, "You can go."

Yang Xiuyu raised his head and stared at the always cold and indifferent man in front of him. After a long while, he let out a deep breath and said, "A Pei, I...I actually loved you once."

Liang Pei was slightly taken aback, and there was a complicated look in his eyes.However, in the next second, Yang Xiuyu spoke again: "But I finally came out. I am also very glad that I can come out."

After speaking, he just turned around and left the general manager's office.

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Ji Tianyou hid in the extremely narrow hiding place in the stairwell, trying to suppress his breathing.

This is a small compartment where the cleaners put sundries. It is hidden behind the door of the stairwell. If you don't pay attention, it is impossible to find this place.

He knew very well that Liang Pei was outside.Hearing Liang Pei's shout, he could even imagine his anxious expression, but he remained motionless, his whole body pressed against the wooden door icily.

What is the reason for his rush and pursuit?Is it because he really loves and cares about him, or because... because he is Liang Ren's double, Liang Pei is reluctant?

Everything has become uncertain, the truth seems to be shrouded in layers of fog, but the lighthouse that guides the direction has been damaged, and he can only drift alone on the lonely sea, isolated and helpless.

Time passed by, and he was relieved when he confirmed that Liang Pei had left, and all the muscles in his body relaxed immediately.

However, as soon as he relaxed, he suddenly slid down against the wooden door, until he sat on the ground, and finally felt the pain that had been ignored because of his nervousness.

It was a pain in his heart, and it was so tight that he could hardly breathe.He could only hold on to his left lapel tightly, but the words he just heard kept churning in his mind:

"My feelings for Ah Ren are not as simple as brotherly love..."

"I also admit that I regard Ji Tianyou as Ah Ren's substitute..."

More than brotherhood?What is that... is it love? "Stand-in"... Could it be that he has been playing the role of a stand-in for so long, loving Liang Pei self-righteously?

But why did Liang Pei treat him so well, so nice that he couldn't believe that Liang Pei was ruthless.He has made promises to himself time and time again, and whispered love words in his ear countless times, saying that he loves him.His name has always been "God Bless", never Ah Ren...

Every time he stares at Liang Pei's long and deep black eyes, he believes that no one in the world will be happier than him, because he has the love of the most perfect person in the world.How could the pampering and love in his eyes be fake?

no, I can not.He should ask clearly, how could he just run away like this?He should bravely question him, no matter what the result is, he should get an answer!As a man, he should bear everything that he should bear, not escape!

Ji Tianyou stood up and was about to continue walking back, but stopped hesitantly.

A fragment flashed through his mind.It was a photo he'd found once, in a locked nightstand, when he was cleaning their home.

Some kind of premonition told him that there seemed to be something hidden there.He suddenly lost the courage to go up to question Liang Pei, but just lowered his head and hurried back to the apartment again with a panicked expression.

The third shelf of the bedside table was locked as he remembered it.Ji Tianyou took the tool tremblingly, and slowly but firmly pried the lock on it.

Soon, the wooden drawers began to loosen.Ji Tianyou threw away the tool, knelt on the floor, pressed the drawer with slightly trembling hands, suddenly gritted his teeth, and pulled it out in one breath!

"Crash..."

Immediately, all the snowflake-like photos flew up, like elves dancing in the air, each one was gracefully falling down.

Ji Tianyou stared at all these in dumbfounded, stretched out his hand to catch one of them, and another.

All the photos are of one person, Liang Ren.There are those where he and his friends are standing shoulder to shoulder at the entrance of the fast food restaurant, there are those who are happily blowing out candles, there are those who jump up and shoot basketballs without realizing it, and there are even those who are still cute with their teeth and claws in their sleep. Yan...

The time and place are carefully marked on the back of each sheet. The handwriting changes from immature to mature, and each sheet changes with time.

However, the only thing that remains the same is the word "Aren", which is always written one stroke at a time, with extremely serious handwriting, as if full of the writer's affection and nostalgia.

Ji Tianyou swept all those photos aside, squatted on the ground in a daze, his eyes wandered, but he saw a few notebooks with black covers in the innermost part of the fallen drawer.

He knelt and crawled to the drawer, took several deep breaths, and finally reached out again, took the top notebook, and opened it.

"October 2010, 4 is cloudy

Things at work are still annoying.I got home very late, and when I came back, I found that poor boy sitting at the door last time.He said that he left his driver's license here, and I had to let him in to find it.He seems to be very slow, unexpectedly just found out who I am, and boldly recommended himself.But I have no interest in him, and the piano is really not satisfactory.Only one thing is, when he squatted down to look for his driver's license, his back looked like yours.

Ren, I miss you very much. "

"Sunny on August 2010, 4

Ah Ren, I hate myself for being useless, I hate that I am not by your side, I can't save you..."

"April 2010, 4 rain

I must be crazy to bring that kid named Ji Tianyou home.But you know what, he always reminds me of you.I even let him live in it.

But I know this is wrong, he is not you after all.So I came home late and left early, trying to keep my distance from him.

Ah Ren, are you back? "

"Sunny on August 2010, 7

Ah Ren, I actually went to the training camp to find him today.He really looks like you when he smiles, innocent and cheerful, I can't help but approach him and treat him well.I seem to regard him as your substitute..."

Seeing the word "substitute", Ji Tianyou's trembling hands could no longer hold the notebook.It slipped from Ji Tianyou's hand and hit the floor with a dull sound.

There seemed to be a voice in his head constantly clamoring, he was laughing crazily, pointing at himself and saying that he was fake, fake!Everything is fake!

To Liang Pei, he was just a stand-in, a stand-in for a dead person, he was nothing at all!

No wonder he was so kind to himself at the beginning, no wonder he would answer vaguely when I asked him what he liked about him.No wonder……

Those sweet words and those affectionate eyes were not for him, but for another person.He thought that he was his only one, but he didn't expect that he was wrong, completely wrong, very wrong!

He once said that it is his lucky star who will protect him and will not give up on him.They have had so many pasts, and he still clearly remembers that person's gentle smile, the caresses given by his kind big hands, their ensemble under the moonlight, their deep kiss on the top of the mountain... Liang Pei gave so much, he All can not be forgotten.But the more beautiful it is, the more ironic and sad it is when I think about it now.

But the saddest thing is not these.

The saddest thing is that even though he discovered the cruel truth, he still can only blame himself in pain, unable to question and be angry.

He couldn't hate at all.

Because he loves Liang Pei, shamefully greedy for the warmth and protection he gives.

Because he loves that person...

In the large room, countless photos were scattered on the floor in a disorderly manner, like a flurry of snow.

And the thin young man knelt and sat alone in the snow, trembling all over, buried his face in the palm of his hand, sobbing and crying bitterly.

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