Looking at the Stars in the Grassland Chasing Love

Tuoba Zhen gradually calmed down, thinking about what the teacher said.

Back then, he left with Qin Ziye and did not go back to see Yan Zixing and Helena.Just because he suddenly remembered his identity at that time, the anger caused by being deceived by Yan Zixing, and the great insult to his dignity made him unable to turn around and face it calmly.

On the way back to the tribe, he recalled how he got along with him during that year, thinking that Yan Zixing lied to him when he first woke up from a coma that the two were Qi brothers, and that he was the wife, so it was easy for him to understand Yan Zixing The psychology of revenge at the time.

It's just to humiliate yourself and want to see yourself make a fool of yourself.Even the birth of Helena, in his opinion at the time, was a deception.

So not only did he resent Yan Zixing, but he couldn't face Helena who was born after a hard pregnancy in October.

Abandoning his daughter didn't seem to be a difficult thing for him at the time.Just thinking about the behavior of his daughter's other father made him unacceptable.

This is a kind of anger.

When he returned to the tribe and slowly calmed down, he gradually felt a kind of unspeakable anxiety and annoyance.And when Yan Zixing appeared in front of him holding his infant daughter, he chose to refuse again.

Although the situation at the time made it impossible for him to recognize each other, and he had just returned to the tribe, facing the eyes of his father Khan and his two brothers, he could not openly admit the existence of his daughter.But in reality these are all excuses.

Tuoba really knew that he just didn't want to recall what happened that year, and even hoped that those things had never happened.He chose to forget it deliberately, even erasing the existence of his daughter.

This is a cowardly evasion.

With the passage of time, those memories not only did not disappear, but became clearer, always appearing in front of my eyes from time to time.Especially the deep-rooted longing for his daughter made him toss and turn at night, and he seemed to be able to hear his daughter crying even in his sleep.

As for the instigator, Yan Zixing, Tuobazhen's emotions are even more complicated.

At first he thought he hated him.But the strange thing is, leaving aside Yan Zixing's deceit, every bit of what happened in the Urim Basin seems to be happy memories.

Their friendship and love for each other on the grassland, as well as their singing and galloping, and even those boring daily chores and fights, seem to have been tempered by time and memory to create a touch of brilliance.

Tuoba really covered his cheeks with his hands.

Now he is able to recall that year objectively and calmly.

In fact, in all fairness, Yan Zixing didn't owe him anything.

Their positions are hostile to each other, and even if they form an alliance due to temporary circumstances, it is only temporary.King Beitang sent Yan Zixing to the court to rescue him out of the consideration of the alliance and because he believed in Yan Zixing's ability, but it was definitely not to put his own brother in danger.

Tuoba really knew that he had tricked Yan Zixing to go all the way to the west, but instead of listening to Yan Zixing's words, he went south to meet up with the people from the Ming Kingdom, which was a betrayal of the covenant between the two parties.Although Yan Zixing was smart, he was young and inexperienced, so he didn't notice his bad intentions.

At that time, although Yan Zixing called himself Yan Xing, and his appearance was very different, but the getting along with him on the way to escape, and the casual chatter made Tuoba really recognize his identity——Yan Zixing, the younger brother of King Beitang.

Although the old King Beitang did not disclose Yan Zixing's identity during his reign, after Si Yaohui ascended the throne and Beitang Yaori came to power, there is no need to deliberately conceal this point. It is not difficult to know if someone is interested.With Tuobazhen's city mansion, he dared to sneak into the Beitang palace in Yaojing and kidnap Dongfang Haoye, so how could there be no spies in the capital?

Not only did Yan Zixing and Tuoba Zhen have a mutual hatred for hunting each other back then, but he also shot dead his childhood sweetheart and his most trusted general Xianhan outside Yancheng, which had already made him hate it to the bone.

The two were chased and killed by the troops sent by the eldest prince and the fourth prince all the way, and the masters brought by Yan Zixing were almost lost. This was exactly one of Tuobazhen's goals.

He wanted to consume Yan Zixing's troops, lure him into the sphere of influence he secretly cultivated in the western grassland, and then trap him as a hostage.In this way, not only can avenge the great revenge of the year, but also worry about the Ming country not sending troops to contribute.

It's just that although he had planned well, he didn't expect that the eldest prince would send Akagi Hei, who had the deepest grievance with him.In the situation where Akagi Kuro threw his wife and children dead and fought with his life, although he killed Akagi Kuro, he was also seriously injured.

But the most dangerous thing was the big storm that almost killed them.

No matter how cunning and scheming Tuoba Zhen is, he can't be regarded as God's will.

That unexpected storm put him and Yan Zixing almost in a desperate situation.

Tuoba really had to admit that, given the circumstances at the time, Yan Zixing could have left the seriously injured himself and escaped alone.Because in a big storm, one person, one horse, and rations are limited, and one more injured person is not strength, but a burden.And he believed that with Yan Zixing's intelligence, he must have been faintly aware of his plot at that time.

Tuoba really had no doubts, if the situation of the two had been reversed, he would have thrown that person down and escaped alone.Because in his heart, no matter how important the agreement with the other party is, it is more important not to guarantee that he can survive—this is the way of survival of the prairie wolf.

What's more, there will be no proof of death at that time, Yan Zixing has a lot of reasons to explain it, and I believe that King Beitang will also support his younger brother and make saving his life the top priority.

But Yan Zixing didn't do that.

Is it the so-called benevolence and righteousness of the Central Plains people, or some other reason, Tuoba really doesn't know.All he knew was that Yan Zixing didn't abandon him at that time.He led himself through the blizzard until he met Uji and was rescued into the Urim Basin.

Tuoba really remembered the time when he first woke up, he was haggard and weak, not to mention working, he even wobbled when standing.But Yan Zixing never showed an expression of impatience or boredom, instead he took care of himself patiently and carefully.Whether it is food or clothing, the best is reserved for himself who is sick, and in order to see a doctor and take medicine for himself, he has been working hard for the tribe of Nari Lake.

Tuoba could really feel that Yan Zixing was taking care of himself sincerely at that time, and he didn't think about the issue of identity and position at all.It was precisely because of this that when he lied to himself that the two of them were Qi brothers, he believed and accepted it so easily without remembering the past.

Ha ha……

Tuoba really covered his eyes and smiled.

In his life, although his biological mother was not of high status, she was the prince of Xijue, and she was always surrounded by rich clothes and fine food and servants.

Although those people served him and took care of him, it was because he was their master and held the power over their life and death.

Even his first wife, Na Muchun, is loved and respected because he is the second prince of Xijue, Botatuhong on the grassland, who is worthy of her.When she heard that he was deprived of military power by King Khan and was imprisoned in the royal court, her first reaction was to bring her son Tuoba Chun back to her mother clan, instead of sending Tuoba Chun away and staying with him ?

Although Namuchun's decision was not wrong, Tuobazhen also ordered so in secret.But in fact, deep down in his heart, he still hoped that his wife could stay and share troubles with him.With Namuchun's identity and the mother clan behind her, the old Khan and his brothers would not make things difficult for her.If she had stayed openly, perhaps she would not have lost her life.

However, Namuchun did not stick to him.The one who really did this was precisely his former opponent and the object of his calculations——Yan Zixing.

Is this a deal for a deal?

In fact, it can be regarded as self-inflicted.If Yan Zixing hadn't been calculated at that time, but had followed his arrangement all the way south to meet up with the troops sent by King Beitang and Qin Ziye, the following things would not have happened.

So Yan Zixing didn't actually owe him anything.Although he lied to him, he also saved his life.If it weren't for the birth of Helena, the two would have been evened out.

Tuoba is really not a woman. Although she was deceived by Yan Zixing and fell in love with him, she didn't feel ashamed of "losing her virginity". It was just that the man's dignity and face were humiliated.What's more, the women on the prairie don't have the moral concept of "one-to-one" in the Central Plains, and they don't value chastity so much. If they commit themselves to others because of captivity or other reasons, they will not seek death and life, and regard them as enemies. .

Tuoba would really not be annoyed by things that even women don't value.But the birth of his daughter was the ironclad proof that he fell in love with Yan Zixing!

Being deceived, it doesn't matter, the female is under him, he can also be bitten by a dog.But being deluded by the illusion, he actually fell in love with the person who lied to him foolishly, which is what Tuoba Zhen can't forgive himself the most.

Teacher A Suya revealed the truth with one word, and his own thoughts were confessed to the front, so he became angry from embarrassment.

Everything would be so much easier without Helena.He framed Yan Zixing, and Yan Zixing humiliated him.The entanglement between the two is difficult to resolve, there is no winner or loser, and the fight will continue in the future, that's all.

But no one expected the birth of a daughter.Not only Tuobazhen, but also Yan Zixing was caught off guard.

Tuoba really remembered that when his daughter was just born, she was a soft ball that could be hugged with one hand, so cute.At that time, he and Yan Zixing really held their daughter in their arms for fear of breaking it, and held it in their mouths for fear of melting.

The first time I breastfeed my daughter, the villain's eyes have not yet opened.Uji taught him how to hold the baby and feed goat milk with a small spoon. He was careful, and the hand holding the spoon was shaking nervously. looking at.

Changing his daughter's diaper for the first time, he and Yan Zixing were in a hurry, and they couldn't wrap it tightly, for fear of strangling the baby.As soon as he got anxious, he threw the diaper he had changed into Yan Zixing's face.

When bathing his daughter for the first time, he held his daughter's small body and gently put it into the wooden basin. Yan Zixing held the child's head, but neither of them dared to let go. Finally, Yan Zixing said anxiously, "You should give her wash."

And the first time my daughter laughed, turned over for the first time, and the first time...

Those memories are so clear, as if her daughter's small body is still in front of her eyes, looking at herself with a pair of bright eyes smiling crookedly, and there are Yan Zixing in these memories.

Tuoba really twitched in pain, and took a deep breath.

He also had children before, and he loved them very much, but it was different after all.

Helena was conceived in October by him, and he was born after going through all kinds of hardships, especially the hardships during childbirth, which almost killed him. Don't know what will happen.

Yan Zixing broke his leg and disfigured because of this.Although Uji helped him to fix the broken bone, but there was still some root cause of the disease, and he seemed to be a little limping when he walked fast.

Tuoba really remembered that when he left three years ago, Yan Zixing's legs hadn't fully healed, and when he came to find him with the child in his arms, his legs and feet were not very sharp.I don't know if it has been cured in the past few years?

Today, Yan Zixing walked around in a hurry, one time he was standing outside the tent, and the other time he was sitting on horseback, and he couldn't tell what his legs were like.Because of the disguise on the face, the scars can't be seen.

Tuoba really reacted, and found that he had started thinking about Yan Zixing again, so he quickly put it out of his mind and started thinking about his daughter.

Although there were various scruples in the past, as long as he gained the hegemony of the grassland and became the real wolf king, it would not be impossible to bring his daughter back.

Although there were only a few words today, Yan Zixing's love for his daughter could be heard, and it was obviously impossible for him to let go.

But Tuoba was really provoked by A Suya, and he would never give up easily.

The big deal is to sneak into Yaojing again and snatch her daughter back!

Yan Zixing returned to the market with the caravan, handed over the matter to his subordinates, and left with them first.

Last night when he sneaked into the king's tent, he heard Tuoba Zhen muttering to himself in his dream, his heart was shocked.

The almost inaudible "A Xing" made him understand that Tuobazhen had recovered his memory, and what's more, maybe he never forgot the past.

But when he saw Tuobazhen in the sunlight during the day, Yan Zixing suddenly realized that he didn't seem to be the person he fell in love with at all.

Yes.What he fell in love with was Ah Zhen, who had lost his memory and shared joys and sorrows with him in the Urim Basin, not this arrogant and indifferent Prince Xijue.

Yan Zixing's fiery heart cooled down a bit.

He decided to calm down first, think carefully, and then decide what to do next.

This time he came to the grassland, his main purpose was to find out the identity of the princess on the other side, take a sneak peek at the person he had missed for a long time, and learn about the situation in the grassland by the way.

Overall, this trip to the prairie was not in vain.Moreover, he accidentally met Tuobazhen twice during the day, and made some probing remarks. It can be seen that Tuobazhen still has affection for his daughter Helena.

That's right.After all, his daughter was born in ten months of his pregnancy, how could he give up so easily?

In the past three years, Yan Zixing has always recalled his life in that year, thinking that fate is so ridiculous and lamentable.

Originally, the two irreconcilable rivals, whether it was the standpoint of the nation, the country, or private grievances, were forced to temporarily form an alliance due to the situation.During the time when he rescued Tuobazhen from the royal court and fled on the grassland, the experience of defending against the enemy together gave him the idea of ​​sympathy for each other.But later facts proved that at that time Tuobazhen was still plotting against him all the time.

Later in the blizzard, he was rescued by Uji with the comatose Tuobazhen and brought into the Urim Basin. Out of anger and revenge, he told Nari Lake and Uji that he and Tuobazhen were brothers , and emphasized that he is his wife.In the end, God made a big joke on him. After waking up, Tuoba Zhen lost his memory and believed his words.

It's almost as if someone wants to doze off and someone will hand you a pillow.

Originally, he lied just to vent his anger. He wanted to humiliate Tuobazhen after he woke up and see how his face changed, but he didn't expect that God would help him.

Yan Zixing took advantage of the situation and continued the lie.At the beginning, he didn't feel guilty at all, but looked at Tuobazhen's appearance with complacency.But as the relationship between the two gradually deepened, they also fell into it unknowingly.

What is it called?Is it self-inflicted?

In the past few years, Yan Zixing occasionally felt that he had done stupid things back then, but he never regretted it.As long as he saw his daughter's cute little face, he felt satisfied.Even if time goes back and he is asked to choose again, he will still do the same thing without hesitation.

It's just to do it all over again, but he doesn't know whether it's good for Tuoba to really restore his memory.

For hundreds of years, the grasslands and the Central Plains have been at constant war.

The people in the border towns were plundered and killed every year, the scorched earth was blazing, and the bones were crying.When people in the Central Plains mentioned the grassland, it was as if all the monsters living there were devouring monsters and wolves without humanity.

But these years he has been walking on the grasslands, watching people living on the grasslands, chasing aquatic plants and living in them. In the dry and cold winter, the wind and snow collapsed the tents, and they have nothing but cattle and sheep.It is a matter of life and death for them to trade with the Central Plains in exchange for the necessities of life.Moreover, for hundreds of years, the army of the Central Plains has slaughtered the grassland people many times, and it is hard to say who has less blood on the hands of both sides.

In recent years, the Ming Dynasty was stable and the people were prosperous.When his father was in power, he persuaded Emperor Ming to open a grassland mutual market, turning congestion into sparseness, and trading business for war.Although their ambitions cannot be extinguished, their relationship has eased somewhat.It wasn't until a few years ago that Tuoba Zhen unified the West and provoked a war between the two countries again.

Yan Zixing likes the forthrightness of the grassland Jue people and appreciates their hospitality.But equally loathed their ambition, hated their penchant for plunder.

If he does it all over again, he will still fall in love with Tuobazhen who represents the good side.However, he didn't know if he could accept the second prince Xijue who had both ambition and pride after his nature was restored.

Yan Zixing returned to the market, and brought his people back to Huyang the next day.

Although he was not sure, he felt that Tuoba really recognized him, and if he stayed in the grassland, he was afraid that he would make trouble for him.

Yan Zixing never pretends to be affectionate, nor is he a naive young master.

Ever since Tuoba really drew his sword at him, he knew that this person was still hostile to him.Now that the memory has been restored, I'm afraid I hate myself even more.

Since they hated each other deeply, and the two of them had slept together for more than a year, their understanding of each other...had reached a point where it couldn't be any deeper, so it wasn't surprising that they recognized themselves.What's more, he didn't deliberately hide his identity later on.

Yan Zixing would not be so stupid as to stay and let him make trouble for him.And if he leaves by himself, he can no longer embarrass the caravan.Although Tuoba really called out his name in his sleep that night, for a man, there can be two people on the bed and under the bed.

Yan Zixing's heart is like a bright mirror.In fact, if he left one day later, he might be captured by the people sent by Tuoba Zhen.

When Yan Zixing returned to Huyang City, he still had some things to do, but he received an urgent letter from Yaojing telling him to go back quickly.

He didn't dare to delay, so he traveled all the way lightly, and after only ten days, he returned to Yaojing.

He returned to the mansion in the evening.Beitang Yaori is still in the palace, and his daughter Helena also lives in the palace, and has not been picked up yet.

Mr. Beitang came to pay his respects.

Yan Zixing looked at him and said with a smile: "Qing'er has grown taller these days, and looks even more upright. Fourth Uncle came back in a hurry this time, and didn't bring you any good things. Some small things have already been given away by them." I went to your yard, go back and have a look later, don't think fourth uncle is stingy."

Beitang Junqing said: "What did the fourth uncle say? Every time the fourth uncle brings back good things, my nephew likes it very much. You didn't let someone come back in advance to inform you that Helena is still in the palace. I should take her back, Fourth Uncle must miss her."

Yan Zixing said: "It doesn't matter. Helena lives in the palace, I am very relieved. I will go all the way fast, let them deliver the letter, maybe it will be faster than me. Have you eaten dinner yet?"

Beitang Junqing said: "I heard that the fourth uncle came back, so my nephew came to say hello first. I haven't eaten yet, and I am going to beg for a meal with the fourth uncle."

Yan Zixing laughed, and said: "I haven't seen you for a few days, your tongue is getting better and better. Brother always says you are cold-tempered, but I think you are very good. What's the point of being cold to outsiders? Just be close to your own people. "

Mr. Beitang smiled lightly, but said nothing.

He is only eight years old, but he has an extraordinary bearing.Although he has a cold personality, few words, and doesn't pretend to talk to outsiders, he is not an idiot who doesn't understand the world, and has a very clear mind.

Yan Zixing and Beitang Junqing's uncle and nephew had dinner, and just after the servants cleared the table, Beitang came back on Sunday.

Mr. Beitang asked his father how he was, and went back first.

Beitang Yaori brought Yan Zixing to the study, Yan Zixing asked: "Brother is in a hurry to call me back, but what's the matter?"

Beitang Yaori was not in a hurry, and said, "Sit down and have a cup of tea. This is the new Bijian from Mount Mang, the water from the ice spring of Longshan Temple. You can't drink this good stuff on the grassland."

Yan Zixing said with a smile, "Brother asked me to come back, maybe it's just to drink tea."

Beitang Yaori glanced at him, and said indifferently: "This time, you can see him?"

Yan Zixing coughed and said, "You can't hide anything from Big Brother."

Beitang Yaori said: "Do you have any ideas?"

Yan Zixing drank his tea with his head down and remained silent.

Seeing this, Beitang Yaori stopped asking questions, took a letter from the desk, and handed it over: "Look for yourself."

Yan Zixing took it, looked it over quickly, and his face changed slightly.

"Brother, is this news true?"

"It's true!"

Yan Zixing clenched his fists and said, "The mother of King Sijian of Beiyu is Tuobawei's younger sister. It's not surprising that he went to King Khan after he escaped from Lingzhou. But why did he vote for the fourth prince? We haven't found out all these years. His whereabouts, but I don’t know that he has been on the grassland.”

Beitang Yaori said: "Old King Khan originally had seven sons, but now there are only four left. Except for the third son, it is the three of them who are fighting for the throne. Si Jian is not stupid. At the beginning, he and Tuoba really failed in their conspiracy. Fleeing in a big defeat may have had some quarrel with Tuoba Zhen.

"But the boss is still the fourth. He hasn't seen the situation clearly yet, so he must carefully hide his tracks. If you hadn't set up a hunting camp in the past few years, we would have spread more spies on the grassland, and maybe we still couldn't find it. What about him?"

Yan Zixing said: "He took refuge in Tuobayu, could it be that he sees that Tuobayu is expected to succeed Khan?"

Beitang Yaori smiled softly: "I'm afraid it's not that simple. Si Jian is a traitor to our court and must be brought back."

Yan Zixing said, "Brother has ordered me to do this, so I will do it naturally."

"It's not just this matter." Beitang Yaori looked at him fixedly, and said, "We don't know how he took refuge in the fourth prince. I suspect that he has a connection with Tuobazhen in secret. At that time, we will have to turn against Tuoba Zhen."

Yan Zixing was slightly taken aback, and said: "Brother, don't worry, I won't delay the important matter. Besides, Tuoba is really a smart man, and he won't turn his face against the Ming Kingdom because of a defected king of Beiyu."

Beitang Yaori nodded: "It's good that you know what's in your heart. You can also look at this one."

Yan Zixing took another secret document, and couldn't help frowning: "The Dongjue people want to surrender to me? Are they going to send envoys?"

Beitang Yaori said: "They must have something to ask for. It is likely that they hope that we will not intervene in the struggle for the throne of the Xijue people, and they even want us to help them fight for the grasslands that were taken by the Xijue people."

Yan Zixing knew that his elder brother's guess was almost inseparable, so he couldn't help asking, "What does the second brother think?"

Beitang Yaori smiled slightly: "Which emperor doesn't want Siyi to come to court and open up territories? He is naturally happy that the Dongjue people surrendered."

Yan Zixing frowned, "Is that to promise them?"

Beitang Yaori said: "Conditions are naturally to be discussed. We are dignified and dignified, even if we want to be majestic, we can't ask for anything. What do you think?"

Yan Zixing thought of Tuobazhen, so he naturally didn't want Ming to help Dongjue people.Regardless of whether Dongjue supports the eldest prince Tuobawu, the power of Dongjue and Xijue is equal now, if they help them rob land, it will break this balance.

It's just that he didn't dare to interfere with his elder brother's decision. After all, he had selfish intentions, but his elder brother thought from the perspective of the entire Ming country.

Beitang Yaori looked at him, and said indifferently: "Why don't you speak?"

"I will obey my brother's orders."

"Since this is the case, prepare for the next few days. When the Dongjue people come, you will be in charge of receiving them."

Yan Zixing smiled wryly, "I'm not from the Ministry of Rites."

Beitang Yaori smiled slightly: "The imperial decree will come down tomorrow, the second-rank minister of rites, the emperor has already prepared it for you." He patted Yan Zixing on the shoulder and said, "You have been here all these years. You know the things on the grassland best. Keep an eye on them, this is the biggest event in the court in the past few years."

Yan Zixing nodded: "Don't worry, brother, I will do well."

The next day the emperor really issued an order to seal him as the second-rank minister of the Ministry of Rites.

Yan Zixing came out of the palace, went to the Ministry of Rites to report to the Ministry of Rites, greeted his colleagues, and learned about the rules and regulations. When he returned to the palace, the application time had passed.

Helena picked her up from the palace, and the nanny brought her to pay her respects.

"Daddy!"

Helena is three and a half years old, and she can remember things.Although I haven't seen my father for a while, I still recognized him at this time and ran over happily.

"Helena, Daddy's sweet little flower!" Yan Zixing picked up his daughter and kissed her twice vigorously.

"Bearded. Daddy is bad..." Helena giggled, wrapping her arms around her father's neck while hiding.

"Daddy's sweet little flower is getting more and more beautiful. Ouch, Daddy really loves it."

Helena stretched out her little hand to touch her father's face, and said, "Daddy is beautiful too. Helena loves her father so much."

Yan Zixing laughed.

In the evening, the father and daughter had dinner in their yard.Yan Zixing said in Xijue: "Helena, say a few words of Xijue to Dad."

Helena turned her hands behind her back when she heard the words, and after a long while, she replied awkwardly in Xijue language: "A lot...it won't happen. I forgot..."

Yan Zixing patted her head, and said back in Chinese: "Forget it, I will teach you when I have time."

Helena said: "Daddy, why do I have to learn Xijue language? My brothers don't even learn it."

"Understood, Dad can take you to the grassland to play."

When Helena heard that he was going to play, her eyes lit up, she took his hand and said, "Daddy take me." After thinking for a while, she said, "Take my brothers too."

Yan Zixing hugged her and sat on his lap, then asked her if she was happy living in the palace, if anyone bullied her and so on.

Helena chirped for a while, then yawned.

Seeing that she was sleepy, Yan Zixing asked the nanny to take her back to sleep.

He pushed open the window, looked at the shining stars in the sky, and thought of the people on the grassland, wondering if they would be in a hostile position again this time.