Critically ill 'love' letter

Recently, both Li Shichang and Lu Chen found that Cheng Ming's mood was unstable. The specific manifestations were that his mood changed too quickly, his behavior, speaking style, and even thinking logic were changeable. Cheng Ming was not a fickle person before.

Lu Chen discussed it with Li Shichang in private, and what Lu Chen meant was: I can see that my current thinking is that the side effects of chemotherapy can cause you to leave him.

Li Shichang couldn't deny it, he understood what Lu Chen meant, and Cheng Ming didn't trust him, he knew it all along.Cheng Ming was worried that he would be disgusted if he was too embarrassing in front of him...

Li Shichang has always had a bad premonition, and Lu Chen is also not very sure.

The day before the sixth chemotherapy, Cheng Ming lay on the bed and did not speak.Since last week, Cheng Ming felt as if the apocalypse was about to come. It was no exaggeration to say that he was worried every day. He felt that every day that passed was a day closer to chemotherapy.Cheng Ming didn't talk much yesterday, and today Cheng Ming didn't even get out of bed.

In desperation, Li Shichang forcibly hugged Cheng Ming, let Cheng Ming lean against him, and fed Cheng Ming porridge.Cheng Ming was not interested in porridge at all, he still didn't want to talk, pushed away Li Shichang's hand holding the bowl, and tilted his head to look at Li Shichang silently.

Li Shichang was not angry, but instead coaxed him, softly persuading him: "I have to eat."

Cheng Ming's heart was very complicated, he couldn't even figure out what he was thinking, looked at Li Shichang's face, sat up regardless, turned around and raised his arms to hook Li Shichang's neck, raised his head and kissed Li Shichang.

When Cheng Ming got up, he bumped into Li Shichang's hand holding the bowl, and half of the porridge in the bowl spilled out. Li Shichang hurriedly put the bowl on the bedside table, protecting Cheng Ming from falling off the bed.Cheng Ming kissed Li Shichang almost intoxicated, and pushed Li Shichang down on the bed. He lay on Li Shichang, Li Shichang lay down slowly along Cheng Ming, and responded with his heart.

Not long after, Li Shichang reacted. After Cheng Ming's operation, the two of them haven't done it again. Li Shichang knew that Cheng Ming couldn't help tossing, and Cheng Ming didn't take the initiative to mention it.

Li Shichang could hardly restrain his hand, lifted Cheng Ming's pajamas and stroked his waist.The current Cheng Ming doesn't realize what this means, so he can do whatever he wants.

Fortunately, Li Shichang came to his senses, and gradually reduced his strength, turning into a light kiss.It was no longer as intense as before, and Cheng Ming seemed to enjoy this kind of kiss too.

Li Shichang retreated to avoid Cheng Ming, Cheng Ming was not very satisfied and moved forward, but Li Shichang held his waist, and the strength of his whole body was not as strong as that of his waist to restrain him.Li Shichang hugged Cheng Ming again, this time Li Shichang leaned on the head of the bed, letting Cheng Ming sit on his lap facing him.Li Shichang picked up the bowl that had just been put aside, raised his head and took a mouthful of porridge.

Cheng Ming's eyes followed Li Shichang's hand back and forth, and finally stayed on Li Shichang's mouth.

Li Shichang put the porridge back again, hooked his arms around Cheng Ming's waist, and asked Cheng Ming to stick to him. Cheng Ming put his arms on Li Shichang's shoulders, sensing that Li Shichang no longer resisted, and continued to kiss him again.

After a lot of work, Cheng Ming ate a lot, and the porridge in the bowl was eaten up, but without the spilled porridge, it was not enough to eat only this.

"Ming, wait a minute, wait for me to serve some porridge." Li Shichang's lips pressed against Cheng Ming's, and Cheng Ming remained unwilling to leave, and kissed Li Shichang slightly.

Li Shichang had no choice but to sit up straight, forcing Cheng Ming to lean back.Li Shichang lifted Cheng Ming's leg to one side, put one hand through the bend of Cheng Ming's leg, and put the other hand on Cheng Ming's back, knelt on the bed, hugged Cheng Ming horizontally, then got off the bed, opened the door and walked to the living room.

Cheng Ming pestered Li Shichang relentlessly, as if he was having trouble with Li Shichang.Li Shichang couldn't concentrate on kissing him, he was more worried about throwing Cheng Ming down.

Stumbling past the living room to the kitchen, the porridge was still in the pot, Li Shichang couldn't move his hand to fill the porridge in this posture, so he put Cheng Ming down.Just now he forgot to put on slippers for Cheng Ming, the kitchen floor was cold, Li Shichang naturally wouldn't let Lu Chen stand directly on the ground, he kicked off the slippers and put them on for Cheng Ming.

Cheng Ming didn't want to let Li Shichang go, so he put it on absent-mindedly, hooked Li Shichang's neck, stuck to Li Shichang's body, and touched Li Shichang with his toes.

Li Shichang quickly filled another bowl, and fed it to Cheng Ming as before.This time Cheng Ming was in a low position and was choked.Li Shichang quickly swallowed the rest and asked, "Is there anything wrong?"

Cheng Ming shook his head.

Cheng Ming seemed a little tired, but Li Shichang couldn't help it, so he carried Cheng Ming back to the bedroom.Cheng Ming didn't continue to pester Li Shichang anymore, and lay down quietly with the quilt covered.

Li Shichang thought about letting Cheng Ming eat some later, went outside the bedroom to get paper towels and rags, and cleaned up the spilled porridge.Fortunately, Li Shichang was just sitting by the bed, and the porridge was spilled on the floor, not on the quilt.

Cheng Ming watched Li Shichang clean up the mess, wrapped his head in the quilt, leaving only his face exposed.He kept looking at Li Shizhang until Li Shizhang finished packing, went out to deliver things, washed his hands, came back again, sat next to Cheng Ming and touched Cheng Ming through the quilt.

Cheng Ming put his arms around Li Shichang's waist and whispered, "I'm sorry."

"why."

Why do you apologize?

Cheng Ming knew what Li Shichang meant.

"No, I... I'm not in a good mood."

"If you have anything, you can tell me."

"Well... I don't really want to go to the hospital anymore." Cheng Ming knew it was impossible.

Thinking with Li Shichang, "It will be over soon, we can't give up, Cheng Ming, I will always be with you." He knew exactly what Cheng Ming was worried about, and he would still say it even if it was useless to repeat it many times.

Cheng Ming rubbed his head against Li Shichang, a little sleepy, closed his eyes and wanted to go back to sleep.

Li Shichang didn't speak anymore, just sat here and didn't leave.

Not long after, Lu Chen came.Lu Chen didn't see anyone when he entered the room, so he walked in when he saw the bedroom door was open.Cheng Ming was already asleep, and Li Shichang was dark and dignified.

Lu Chen felt that the atmosphere was not right, and looked at Li Shichang in confusion without making a sound.

Li Shichang shook his head, removed Cheng Ming's hand, got up and left the bedroom.

"What's the matter?" Lu Chen asked in a deep voice.

Li Shichang pinched his brows, his voice was a little hoarse, "I don't know, Cheng Ming... something is wrong."

The psychotropic drugs that Cheng Ming needed were stopped before Cheng Ming's surgery, and he hadn't taken them for five months. At first, Cheng Ming's mood was relatively stable and he didn't have any problems, but recently...

Lu Chen frowned and thought for a long time, "Recently... Try not to go to the company, if you go, take Cheng Ming and me with you, anyway, don't leave Cheng Ming for too long."

Even if Lu Chen doesn't say anything, Li Shichang will stay at home, even if Lu Chen and Cheng Ming refuse to let him, he will insist.

One thing neither Lu Chen nor Li Shichang told Cheng Ming. What the doctor meant was that Cheng Ming only needed the fifth course of chemotherapy, which was 1-2 courses less than other gastric cancer patients.Lu Chen didn't think it was too early to tell Cheng Ming that if the sixth chemotherapy was needed, Cheng Ming would definitely have a psychological gap, and Li Shichang also agreed with this statement.

But judging from the current situation, speaking out now will only cause Cheng Ming's psychological gap to be even greater.Lu Chen regretted not explaining clearly to Cheng Ming.

"...Do you want to tell him?" Lu Chen was very confused.

Li Shichang was silent for a moment, "You have read the test results. Do you think it is necessary to do the next chemotherapy after the fifth chemotherapy?"

Lu Chen shook his head, "I'm not sure, I asked other colleagues, and they said it's unnecessary."

"...you can tell him." Li Shichang said.

"Can he believe it?" Lu Chen sighed.

Li Shichang: "Try to explain everything clearly."

Lu Chen: "Then I'll go and talk to him."

Li Shichang hummed.

Cheng Ming slept until almost noon, and he didn't see Li Shichang when he opened his eyes. He lifted the quilt and sat up to look outside.

"Hey, can't you see me?" Lu Chen's voice came from the side.

Lu Chen watched Cheng Ming wake up, and was about to get out of bed after groping around. He knew what was going on with Cheng Ming without using his brain.

"Ah, I didn't see it." Cheng Ming regained consciousness.

"Tch, your poet chief was still guarding you in the house half an hour ago, and he only went out when his brother came." Lu Chen raised his chin towards the door.

"Brother Bin is here?"

He Xingbin, Li Yuqing's...Mr.

A man is not as good as his name, and the word Bin is not close to him.

Lu Chen rolled his eyes at Cheng Ming and said, "Of course I'm here."

Cheng Ming had an expression of 'I knew it', "Then I'll go out later, do you know what they are here for?"

Lu Chen looked down at his phone, chatting with Qin Shuo.

Cheng Ming: "Tsk."

"Ah?" Lu Chen heard it now.

Cheng Ming leaned over, "What are you talking about?"

Lu Chen showed Cheng Ming his mobile phone, and explained: "He said he has reserved a restaurant for tonight."

"Oh," Cheng Ming flicked on the phone screen twice, "Do you know what Brother Bin is here for?"

"Where do I know where to go? You can ask Li Shichang when he comes back later."

"Ah."

"Ming, let me tell you something."

Cheng Ming leaned back on the bed, "If you have something to say, just say it."

Lu Chen simply told Cheng Ming that there was a high probability that the sixth chemotherapy would not be needed after the fifth chemotherapy.

Cheng Ming was dumbfounded and his heart was very complicated. After a while, he frowned and asked, "Why didn't you tell me about this kind of thing in advance?"

Lu Chen then told Cheng Ming his thoughts.

Although Cheng Ming was speechless, he could understand Lu Chen, "Well, thank you all very much, sometimes I do not have a normal mind."

"Uh... It stands to reason that people with mental problems will not know that they have problems."

Cheng Ming glanced at Lu Chen, and said lightly: "The problem is that I am not you."

Lu Chen knew that what Cheng Ming said was reasonable, but felt that he was ignorant, "What you said is not right, a bit like those online who say they have depression."

Cheng Ming also realized that what he said was a bit unreasonable, "I hope my feeling is wrong," Cheng Ming thought for a while, "what's your rationale? I don't think it's right at all. Some people should be able to felt."

"Nonsense, people who are drunk don't admit that they are drunk." Lu Chen was indeed talking nonsense, saving Cheng Ming from thinking wildly, but later he overturned this idea, just like Cheng Ming said "The problem is that I am not You", there are some things that only Cheng Ming himself knows, and he, only Cheng Ming can tell.

Cheng Ming: "..."

"How did you become the attending physician? You can talk nonsense about everything."

Lu Chen didn't understand Cheng Ming's logic: "It has nothing to do with whether I am the attending physician or not."

"A qualified doctor cannot randomly analyze any condition of any patient."

Lu Chen sighed, and said, "Okay, I'm not rigorous, I made mistakes, and I will correct them."

Cheng Ming pouted, "It's as if I'm forcing you to admit your mistake."

"No, really." Lu Chen said seriously.

"Oh." Cheng Ming believed it.

Lu Chen was very sad, his throat was so sore that he couldn't breathe, he lowered his head to prevent Cheng Ming from seeing his face, his eyes widened and he didn't want tears to flow out.In the past, Cheng Ming never got into a dead end. In the past, Cheng Ming would only laugh and blame, "You use dim sum, that is, if I understand, I won't believe it. What should you do if you let those who don't understand believe it?"

Cheng Ming doesn't care much about his own gains and losses, but always cares about others. When he saw an empty water bottle being pushed back and forth on the road, he wondered who the hell was so unqualified, and felt that the water bottle was pitiful. He would give it to him when there was no car. pick it up.

Any object has a mind. When I was young, everyone felt that my doll would be cold and lonely. Before I learned how to cover myself with a tight quilt, I knew to cover the doll.But that was only when I was a child, Cheng Ming obviously went too far.

He didn't even know how to describe Cheng Ming.

"what……"

Lu Chen exhaled tremblingly, startled in his heart, worried that Cheng Ming would find out, he glanced at it, but Cheng Ming didn't seem to notice.At this moment, Lu Chen couldn't help it anymore, tears welled up in his eyes, Lu Chen quickly turned around and wiped away the tears.

His luck was instantly overshadowed by heartache.Because in the past, Cheng Ming would definitely notice it.

Just as Lu Chen was thinking again whether his abnormal behavior would be noticed by Cheng Ming, Cheng Ming's cell phone rang.

Just now Cheng Ming was lying on the bed in a daze, the phone rang for a while before Cheng Ming answered it, and Lu Chen came back to his senses only after Cheng Ming answered the phone.

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