Dear you

Shen Qiu came out of the bathroom and received a message from Su Wan.

"I am home."

Shen Qiu sat on the side of the bed, and replied: OK

On the bedside table were the gifts he received tonight, from basketball shoes to rings, and within a short period of time, he received two gifts with a lot of thought and price. Shen Qiu thought about what he should give back to Su Wan.

There should be a coming and going in a relationship.There can't always be one person who pays blindly.

Shen Qiu leaned back, leaning against the head of the bed, legs bent casually, having nothing to do, his eyes cast on the bedside table, and took that small box again.

He opened it, and for the first time since receiving it, he reached out and took out the simple ring and squeezed it in his hand.Gently turning his fingertips and placing it under the light, he saw a small crown engraved on the inside of the ring.Touch it up with your fingertips, it's uneven.

He took a picture with his mobile phone, sent it to Su Wan, and asked: What is this?

Su Wan had just arrived home, and was too excited tonight, worried that he would not be able to sleep, so he took out a bottle of iced drink from the refrigerator and poured it on his head, trying to suppress his restless heart.

He looked at the picture sent by Shen Qiu, for this little crown, he spent two extra hours in the mall.

At first, he didn't decide what to buy. After shopping around the mall for a few times, he couldn't find the right one.

Something too common doesn't make sense.

Shen Qiu probably wouldn't like to wear the necklace.

After much deliberation, he decided to look at a watch.But by mistake, he took a fancy to this ring.

It is meaningful, and it will not cause Shen Qiu a psychological burden under the situation that they have not yet reunited.

It's just an ornament.

Su Wan was very satisfied. Before handing it to the shopping guide, she had a flash of inspiration and asked if she could engrave something for him.

The shopping guide smiled softly and asked: Is it a letter?

Su Wan shook her head, all she could think about was the note name Shen Qiu gave him, and said, "It's a small crown."

When Shen Qiu asked him what it was, he was actually asking the meaning of engraving this little crown.

What Su Wan wanted to express was very simple, the excitement that had not been completely suppressed was revived, he took a deep breath, resisted his shyness, and said: "I promise you, you can hold me firmly forever.I will never voluntarily leave again.

Shen Qiu had a good night's sleep.

Su Wan returned to work after her vacation.

He has been in frequent contact with Shen Qiu in the past few days, and he has a strong desire to share, and even the little things in life can be described wonderfully.Although they haven't returned to the past, and don't live under the same roof, they always meet each other and have dinner together every day.

The matter of Su Wan taking the key has already been revealed by Shen Qiu. The reason is that one day Shen Qiu worked overtime for a while and arrived home nearly an hour later than usual. Su Wan made an appointment with him for dinner. Stand at the door of the apartment and wait.

As soon as Shen Qiu came out of the elevator, he changed from standing to squatting. When Shen Qiu walked in front of him, because his legs were numb, Shen Qiu kindly helped him up.

Su Wan stood up with his hands in her hands, just about to joke and complain, when Shen Qiu opened the door and asked him naturally: "Don't you have the key? Why don't you know how to open the door and go in?"

Su Wan froze for a second.

He carried that key with him, but he didn't dare to use it lightly.When I took it that day, I was afraid that I would not be able to get in when I drove back to Shen Qiu's apartment from the hot pot restaurant. Later, I went to the shopping mall on a whim. Seeing that Shen Qiu was about to get home from work, I didn't decide to use the key to open the door, lest Shen Qiu bump into it and recall it. Before, I thought he could do whatever he wanted, which was too casual.

It's not that he never thought about putting the key back in the storage basket, but every time he stayed with Shen Qiu, there was no chance, and he couldn't put it back in front of Shen Qiu.

He began to regret taking it a little bit, he carried it on his body like a dick, maybe he would be discovered and captured by Shen Qiu anytime soon.How embarrassing that is.

But he didn't expect that Shen Qiu knew early on...

wrong.

Su Wan harbored hope, thinking, maybe Shen Qiu always thought that he didn't leave the key when he moved away?

After all, it's normal for him to throw it in the storage basket and not be noticed.

In the next second, Shen Qiu shattered his luck, and said in doubt: "I can't open the door if I take it... Then why are you using it?"

Su Wan: ...

Shen Qiu didn't let him go, and teased him: "Holding it looks good? Or should I express my mood to a key at night?"

Tell what kind of mood to a key.

Simply being exposed, Su Wan smashed the jar and admitted: "Yes, I took it. Anyway, it was mine before, and it will be mine in the future. Can't I take it?"

He was eloquent, and at the end of the sentence, he asked back. Shen Qiu was taken aback, and was provoked by him to laugh: "No one said you can't take it."

To be sure, since this time, even before Shen Qiu got home, Su Wan has already put the key in her hand and opened the door to go in and out at will.

When Shen Qiu came back from get off work, he regretted for a moment that he didn't see that thin figure at the door.

On the first day of work after Su Wan's long vacation, she blatantly fished.

I heard from my colleagues that during his vacation these days, the newly opened barbecue restaurant nearby officially opened. They tried it, and the taste and environment were good. However, it was overcrowded in the past few days after it opened, and meals need to be reserved in advance.

Su Wan sent Shen Qiu a message, asking him if he was going, and it happened that he still owed him a meal, so he took this opportunity to invite him.

Shen Qiu wasn't very interested, but he knew that Su Wan liked to eat this kind of food, so he didn't vote against it, so he agreed and said yes.

Su Wan set a time with him again, Shen Qiu had to work overtime for the past two days and was not free, so she finally set the time for the day after tomorrow night.

Su Wan defined this as a date between them and prepared carefully.

However, unexpectedly, before that, he went to another appointment first.

Shen Qiu worked overtime for two consecutive days, Su Wan didn't meet him for these two days, and he didn't even set foot in Shen Qiu's apartment.

Until the day when they agreed to meet, Shen Qiu sent him a message in advance, saying that the last bit of work would be finished, and it might be an hour late, and asked him whether he should go to the barbecue restaurant by himself first or wait for him to come with him.

It took Su Wan a while to reply, saying that he happened to have something to do, so let's wait later.

Shen Qiu casually asked: What's wrong?

Su Wan said it was nothing, but his father suddenly attacked and summoned him in the coffee shop downstairs of the company.

Shen Qiu didn't know much about his family, he only knew that Su Wan's mother passed away very early, and his relationship with his father was not considered close.Shen Qiu didn't ask much, and said: "Then you go see uncle first."

Su Wan said: Then remember to pick me up after get off work later

He thought that the two of them would have dinner together tonight, so he deliberately didn't drive before leaving the house in the morning, and took a taxi to work.

Shen Qiu said yes.

After Su Wan replied to the message, she pushed open the door of the coffee shop.

Su Hongyuan sat by the window alone.

Su Wan saw it at a glance, stood at the door, and watched from a distance for a while.

Aunt Juan said that he didn't look like his deceased mother, but more like his father when he was young.

Su Wan's impression of his mother has faded a lot with the passage of time, but there is a photo album at home, which still keeps a group photo of the three of them.Su Wan was really very young at that time, being held in Su Hongyuan's arms, the family stood together, very happy.

Su Hongyuan was very handsome when he was young. Su Wan heard that he and his mother were classmates, they fell in love, married and had children all the way, which was enviable.Aunt Juan also said that Su Hongyuan had a lot of suitors at that time, and even after marriage, he was still pursued, but Su Hongyuan never did anything to be sorry to his mother.

It's a pity that this kind of love didn't last long.

Aunt Juan once explained to Su Wan, saying that after Su Wan's mother passed away, Su Hongyuan also had a hard time.

Fortunately, Ruan Lan appeared later.

Su Wan approached and sat opposite Su Hongyuan.

He only asked the waiter for a glass of ice water, then turned around and asked Su Hongyuan, "Why are you here?"

Su Hongyuan raised his eyes, looked at Su Wan, and first reprimanded him: "Drink less ice." Then he looked at him carefully.It may be because she just came out of the company, Su Wan seemed to have lost her childishness, making Su Hongyuan in a trance for a moment.

As if yesterday Su Wan was still the little boy who would obediently say goodbye to him before entering school with a small schoolbag, would be held in his arms, and would softly call him daddy.

In just the blink of an eye, Su Wan has grown so big.

The little boy back then was taller than him now.

Su Hongyuan said: "I didn't see you coming home, so I took the initiative to come and see you."

Su Wan:  …

He recalled: "Didn't I just go back half a month ago?"

Su Hongyuan didn't bother to discuss with him whether it would be a long time to go home once every half a month in the same city with a 10-minute drive.

He still has a dinner in the evening, and today he just passed by here, so there is still some time, Su Wan is getting off work again, and he wants to meet up.

But there is really nothing in common between the two of them, and the way they usually get along most often is to criticize each other.

Su Hongyuan was aware of this problem. When facing his own son, the person who was surrounded by others had to rack his brains to figure out how to chat calmly.Just like a normal father and son.

He thought for a moment and said, "Do you still remember the uncle who was a guest at home last time? Didn't you add his daughter's WeChat account? What's his daughter's name?"

"Song Qing." Su Wan replied, recalling the scene last time, with a defensive face, "Let me explain in advance, everything else is easy to talk about, don't force this."

Su Hongyuan forcibly blocked what he had not said yet, wondering: "What did I force?"

Su Wan will have dinner with her ex and future partner later, Shen Qiu will not mention the future, and he does not intend to break up again, he feels that there are some things that need to be explained in advance to avoid embarrassment when we meet in the future.

"A few years ago, I told you about my sexual orientation, haven't you forgotten?" Su Wan said, "I was serious at the time, not joking."

Su Hongyuan's expression turned serious.

Su Wan looked at him without fear.

Su Wan confessed: "I have a boyfriend..." He ignored that they were actively getting back together, and also rounded up the time, "We have been together for almost two years."

"In the future, I also decided to keep going."

Su Wan spoke bluntly with firm eyes.

It's like a toy that I liked very much when I was a child. He holds it in his arms like a baby, and he refuses to let go of anyone who asks for it.

In the past few years, Su Wan chose school majors and looked for jobs by herself, her attitude was too casual and self-willed, Su Hongyuan almost forgot, when was the last time I saw Su Wan face what he wanted.

He has never interfered with Su Wan's emotional affairs, it's not that he doesn't worry, but he has never forgotten what Su Wan said to him.But only Ruan Lan knew that after Su Wan confessed his sexual orientation to him that year, he hid on the balcony at night and smoked for a long time.

Su Hongyuan has really introspected himself. He has a successful career, but he is not a good father and neglects Su Wan too much.

But when he wanted to make up for it, he was already at a loss.

Time drew a horizontal gap between them, and Su Hongyuan clearly realized that he could never cross it again.

As a father, he was worried about two things.

One: They could not be recognized by the public before

Two: They can't conceive a child together, and there can be no fetters without a child. In this situation, they can break up at any time.

To this, Su Wan answered him: "The opinions of the public are not that important, not to mention that the society's acceptance is already very high. There are many people like me. It's nothing."

"As for the latter point." Su Wan pursed her lips, and asked Su Hongyuan, "Now that you have formed a new family with Aunt Lan, why don't you give birth to a child between you? He will become your bond before."

Su Hongyuan said: "Our situation is different from yours."

Su Wan said, "Why is it different? Even if it's different, I don't want to have this kind of bondage. If it really reaches a certain level and the determination is broken up, then the bondage will become a burden instead."

Su Hongyuan had a headache, thinking that he was making unreasonable words.

In public, Su Wan didn't want to make the atmosphere too serious, so she joked, "Would you like to have another child while you and Aunt Lan are still young? I definitely don't want to be jealous. Maybe you will have another child, which will be better than mine. A lot of peace of mind."

A consensus was reached on this issue long before Su Hongyuan and Ruan Lan got together.To Su Wan, he owed him something.There is no guarantee that having another child will educate him well.What's more, if he gave birth to a child, it would be unfair to Su Wan who had endured loneliness when she was young.

But Su Hongyuan couldn't say these words to Su Wan calmly, he just sighed: "Farewell, you are enough for me to worry about for the rest of my life. I'm getting old, and I can't spare the energy to educate another child."

When Shen Qiu came, Su Wan had just sent Su Hongyuan away.

He stood on the side of the street with his head bowed, his hair fluttering slightly in the breeze.

Shen Qiu parked the car in front of him, Su Wan raised her head, looked at his face through the lowered car window, and grinned for a moment.

Shen Qiu always felt that something was wrong with Su Wan today.It's very contradictory, like a little joy, but also a little worry.

Shen Qiu didn't ask at first, until after eating, Su Wan commented on the service of this barbecue restaurant, including the taste. After listening silently, Shen Qiu asked, "What's wrong with you today?"

Su Wan paused and sat up straight.

"So obvious?" he said.

Shen Qiu nodded, unable to guess what could cause two completely different emotions on Su Wan's face.

Su Wan glanced at him and thought about it, he and Shen Qiu are now completely connected, there is neither misunderstanding nor hindrance, he said unhurriedly: "I confessed to my dad today, I mentioned my sexual orientation to him a few years ago, and he may not have taken it easy. I told him today that I have a boyfriend."

Shen Qiu was taken aback.

He suddenly discovered that Su Wan was very good at hiding things, so he kept holding back and didn't mention it all the way.

Su Wan thought he was worried, and said: "My dad is quite calm on the surface, maybe because I have given him a vaccination before, so it is more acceptable."

Shen Qiu didn't focus on this, he asked: "You said you have a boyfriend, where is your boyfriend? Where is it?"

Su Wan:  …

He reasonably suspected that Shen Qiu did it on purpose.

But even so, under the light, he couldn't help blushing.

Su Wan pretended to be calm: "I don't know, whoever sits across from me will be."

Shen Qiu snorted and asked, "Then what are you worried about?"

The topic jumped too fast, Su Wan was stunned for a moment, and said honestly: "I don't know, I can't tell. Although my father can't accept it, it may be because he can't interfere with me, so he has to accept it, and I don't know what's going on in his heart. What kind of thought. For a moment, I felt that the distance between me and him was quite far."

When Su Wan said this, she was at a loss and also frustrated. Shen Qiu didn't understand the depth of their relationship, or even the way they got along, so she couldn't comfort her.Fortunately, Su Wan can adjust his emotions by himself. He took a deep breath and said, "But it's okay. At worst, I'll hang out in front of him more often in the future to get closer."

He glanced at Shen Qiu, then retracted quickly, and said in a low voice, "You can still take my boyfriend to hang out with you."

Shen Qiu glanced at him, hooked the corners of his mouth, and said nothing.

Su Wan is full of confidence, thinking that he has turned this relationship from the stage of seeking peace to the stage of ambiguity.It's a big step forward.

The days progressed in an orderly manner.

The next door to Su Wan's house has recently changed neighbors, moved in and out, and is preparing for renovation again.This incident had little effect on Su Wan. He was not at home for work during the day, and when he returned at night, the other party had already entered the rest time.But the next two days are weekends, and sleeping late will definitely be disturbed.

So on Friday night, he didn't go home directly, and stayed in Shen Qiu's apartment.

During this period of time, with the steady development of their relationship, they would occasionally stay together with Shen Qiu to finish their meals, chat and watch movies, and when it was late, Su Wan would rest at Shen Qiu's place.

But this weekend, he is destined to not have a good rest.

The night before, Shen Qiu told him that he was going out the next morning, and he probably wouldn't be at home for lunch, so Su Wan could handle it on her own.

Su Wan lowered her head to play with her mobile phone, and said "Mmmm" twice without raising her head. It was only after she was done that she realized what the other party said, and asked wonderingly, "Where are you going?"

He had originally planned to ask if he wanted to drive to the suburbs tomorrow.

Shen Qiu said: "Visit the teacher. I mentioned it to you before, do you remember?"

Su Wan thought about it, and brought this matter out of the depths of her memory.At that time they were resolving the misunderstanding, so he still remembered what Shen Qiu had said.

It was logical to remember the one who wanted to visit the teacher with Shen Qiu.

He wanted to ask, but he wondered if it would appear that he was too petty and caring, which would cause a new round of misunderstanding.

He was confused, Shen Qiu sat next to him, not worried at all.

Su Wan couldn't hold back, and pretended to ask casually, "Are your classmates together?"

"Part of it."

"Oh." Su Wan asked sideways, "Is there anyone working in other places?"

Unexpectedly, the direction of these words was too obvious, Shen Qiu glanced at him, understood, and didn't want to see him guessing, so he simply replied: "Yes, Xie Zhe is back."

After getting the answer, Su Wan said calmly, "Oh, that's it."

In fact, that night, he had trouble falling asleep.

Now he will no longer doubt Shen Qiu.But I still can't help but think that when my ex meets and visits the teacher with his classmates, the content of the chat will definitely involve past memories, how they will react and get along with each other.

Finally fell asleep, but did not sleep well.Sensing the lightness of the mattress beside him, he opened his eyes in a daze, and Shen Qiu was taking clothes from the closet.

"Why did you wake up?" Shen Qiu turned around and caught his gaze.

Su Wan didn't answer, just said: "I need to sleep for a while."

Shen Qiu thought he was disturbed, so she nodded: "Then you sleep for a while. It's nine o'clock now, we have an appointment at ten o'clock, and I'll be leaving later."

Su Wan's head was not clear, and she almost asked, did she make an appointment with Xie Zhe?Before I asked, I realized that I should have made an appointment with all the classmates who went to visit the teacher together.

Shen Qiu explained: "There is bread and milk in the refrigerator, you can eat something to fill your stomach when you get up later, but don't deal with it casually for lunch."

Su Wan nodded: "I know how to order takeaway."

After Shen Qiu left, he couldn't fall asleep.

It was probably due to having a good chat with a classmate whom she had not seen for a long time, until noon, Su Wan did not receive any message from Shen Qiu.

Shen Qiu only said last night that he would not come back for lunch, but Su Wan wasn't sure about the exact time they would finish, so it was hard to ask.

He stayed alone in Shen Qiu's apartment, bored, and searched through the software on his phone.

It wasn't until five o'clock in the afternoon that a new message finally popped up in the notification bar.

Shen Qiu said that they just came out from the teacher's house, and the students organized a party and booked a private room at the KTV, and they couldn't shirk it, so they probably had to come back a little later, trying to be before eight o'clock.

Su Wan browsed through this message, but didn't reply.

Shen Qiu guessed that he was having fun, so he didn't send any more messages.

Su Wan had already started to feel a little depressed from now on. At eight o'clock in the evening, before seeing Shen Qiu's shadow, he realized that Shen Qiu had made a slip of the tongue, and he was heaving a sigh of relief.

After 10 minutes, he took the keys, changed his shoes and went downstairs.

He learned a lesson and told himself that he must be good at communicating, and he should not walk away when he is unhappy or willful.He stood guarding under the apartment building to see what time Shen Qiu would come back.

Shen Qiu didn't get out until nine o'clock in the evening, and was scolded by his old classmates for being meaningless before leaving.

He went to the parking lot to pick up the car, took out his phone and looked at it. Su Wan never replied to the message in the afternoon.

After thinking for a moment, he called Su Wan.

Su Wan didn't answer the call until she was about to hang up automatically before being connected.

Shen Qiu asked: "What are you doing?"

Su Wan on the other end replied: "No reason."

Shen Qiu unlocked the car door and said, "I'll be right back, have you eaten yet?"

Su Wan: "Eat."

Through the microphone, Shen Qiu sensed that he was not in a good mood, and just about to continue asking, Su Wan first asked on the other end of the phone: "How long will it take to get home?"

Shen Qiu estimated: "About 10 minutes."

Just after finishing speaking, Su Wan hung up the phone.

Shen Qiu didn't know why, but he also thought of other things, and started the car without further delay.

The car drove into the community and arrived near the unit building. Shen Qiu was looking for a parking space, and inadvertently caught a glimpse of a person standing under the streetlight.

He quickly parked the car and walked over.

Su Wan was dressed in oversized house clothes, and stood there pursing her lips.Shen Qiu walked over, Su Wan glanced at him blankly, without saying a word, pushed the door and walked to the elevator.

Shen Qiu stepped forward quickly and caught up with him.

"Why stand downstairs?"

Su Wan kept walking without making a sound.

Shen Qiu held his wrist, feeling a little cold.

He guessed in an instant: "Stand here waiting for me? How long have you been waiting?"

Su Wan finally opened her mouth and said angrily, "From the eight o'clock you agreed to until now."

He put a lot of emphasis on the words "you agreed."

No more calculations, more than an hour.

Shen Qiu apologized and explained.

Su Wan became silent again.

When I got home, there was cold fried rice on the tea table.

Shen Qiu walked over to take a look, and the takeaway information said that the time was one o'clock in the afternoon.

"Did you not have dinner?"

Su Wan ignored him and walked to the bedroom.

He and Shen Qiu hadn't formally reunited, and he had no control over the other party's schedule, but he just felt aggrieved.

Footsteps sounded behind him.

Su Wan walked to the end of the bed, stopped, turned her head and said to Shen Qiu who followed: "I have been waiting for you all day today. I know you have no obligation to tell me anything now, but you told me yesterday that you would not come back for lunch, so I will Thought you would come back in the afternoon. But when I waited until [-]pm, you told me that there were other activities and came back at [-]. So I waited from [-] to [-].”

"Except for a brief moment in the afternoon, you may not have thought of me."

"According to my previous temper, I would have left long ago."

"If I had known that today would be like this, I might as well treat myself. Listening to the sound of decoration is better than counting the time."

Su Wan is still willing to stand here, and she has changed a lot. Listening to him venting, Shen Qiu could hear the sadness in Su Wan's tone.

He responded: "I had dinner and chat at the teacher's house today. I talked about my major and work. I didn't contact you. It's my fault. But it's not what you said, I have no obligation to explain anything to you."

Shen Qiu knew that teasing him could no longer be regarded as a one-sided interest. Su Wan didn't know what he meant, and wasn't as comfortable as he was. Su Wan was still uneasy about this relationship, so Shen Qiu simply used this to make it clear: "In the In the KTV, I was the first one to leave. They were all blocked. I told them that my boyfriend was at home. I was late and refused to open the door for me to escape. I was scolded for being worthless, meaningless and serious Light friend."

"With you, you think we haven't gotten back together; with me, I never promised to break up."

"So, if I am obliged to explain anything to anyone, including the itinerary, it will only be with you."

Su Wan was stunned, and the phrase "Here with me, I never promised to break up" was played repeatedly in her mind.

He asked blankly, "So during this time, did you do it on purpose?"

"It doesn't count. It's just that you didn't understand it, so I didn't tell you." Shen Qiu confessed to him, and told him by the way, "I always felt that you were a little different in front of me and in front of other people, and your personality was restrained. But during this time, you can also harvest other aspects of you that you have not shown in front of me before. There was no one inferior to others before us, so don't hide your true self from the other side."

"If you really want to say who is tempted first, you have to lower your posture and be careful. That should be me." Shen Qiu said, "As early as the first time I saw you in the bar, and then I saw you as a protector in the restaurant. poses."

"You are dazzling yourself, and you have become an exception to me."

"Su Wan, I never thought about breaking up with you. It was from the beginning to the end."

The author has something to say: This story ended at 2021:4 am on April 9, [-]

At first it was born, but a small fragment flashed in my mind

When deciding to write it, there was no outline, nor any plot imagination

As of today, I am very happy to finish it in just tens of thousands of words

Even if it's not good, it might even be immature

Just take it as a record of some thoughts during this period.

Thanks for all

Good night:)