Evening Primrose's Lonely Confession

"I don't really want to eat it." I threw away my chopsticks and said boldly.

Song Xitang was silent for a while, and called the person nearby who had been watching us secretly, "Waiter, I want a bowl of vegetable porridge."

"I don't have an appetite." I leaned on my chin and stared at the baking tray in a daze, but this barbecue is obviously my favorite. I have wanted to eat this for a long time. If I hadn't seen me crying, Song Xitang would never have brought me here .

No, I picked up the chopsticks resolutely, picked up the meat, dipped some seasonings, and put it in my mouth.

The subtle fishy smell was unfamiliar to me, so I quickly swallowed it and took a sip of porridge to recover.

"I...I won't eat." I said.

Song Xitang packed the things back to prevent me from being hungry again at night.

When Song Xitang was driving home, he looked at me as if he suddenly remembered, "Shall we go to the hospital?"

"It's okay, it's just that I may have eaten too much at noon." I didn't believe this myself, no matter how bad I was, I was a big man, how could I not be hungry all afternoon.

"Ah."

Song Xitang drove me to the private hospital, "Get out of the car."

"No." I grabbed my seat belt and suddenly felt a little nervous.

"My friend's house opened it." Song Xitang looked very serious, "You have to watch it to know what's going on."

"Song Xitang, it's a problem if I can't eat?!" I yelled.

"Get out of the car and go home after watching."

"Speechless." I opened the door and went down.

After blood test, Song Xitang fulfilled his promise and took me home.

My arm was so sore, I pressed it too tightly when the blood was drawn, and some blood was congested.

After Song Xitang parked the car, I got out of the car and lay down all the way into the bedroom. It's not that I'm hypocritical, it really hurts too much.

Song Xitang made me some porridge and red bean paste buns at night, and I started to feel sick after a few bites.

We went to the hospital in the afternoon, and the examination results came out urgently in the early morning. Song Xitang went to pick them up, and I played games at home.

As soon as he entered the bedroom, his expression was wrong, with the report in his hand, and the corners of his eyes were slightly red.

"What's the matter." I put down the phone and watched Song Xitang walk up to me, and then sat down beside my lap.

"You might be pregnant." Song Xitang hugged me excitedly with a smile on his face.

We went to the hospital overnight for a color Doppler ultrasound. The doctor pointed to a small dot that I couldn't even see clearly, and said with certainty that I was pregnant.

"You are considered an older woman." The doctor looked at Song Xitang and me seriously, "The child is only two weeks old, so don't have intercourse recently."

What and what, how could I be pregnant as a big man, just as I was about to ask, Song Xitang asked about other physiological knowledge, leaving me no chance to interrupt.

On the way back, Song Xitang struggled for a while before opening his mouth, "In three days, you can consider whether or not to keep the child."

I touched my stomach, and couldn't believe that the child of Song Xitang and I was conceived inside. This incident really had a big impact on me.

Although Song Xitang asked for my opinion, I know he definitely wants this child very much. The child his ex-wife accidentally lost last time made him sad for a long time.

"Then I... think about it."

Song Xitang looked serious, but nodded in agreement.

To be honest, I feel a little depressed. First, I think it’s absurd for a big man to give birth to a child. Second, giving birth to a child seems painful. I’m not sure I can bear the pain.

Song Xitang is also in a bad mood. Although the specific reason is unknown, it is probably because of the child.

I was caught in a dilemma for a while, if I wanted this child, I guess I would suffer a lot, but if I didn't... Song Xitang's line was completely broken.

I was looking at the raindrops on the glass in front of the bay window. The weather has been bad for the past two days, which is enough to make people upset.

"Zeze, we don't want this child anymore." Song Xitang's eyes were obviously bruised. He didn't sleep well in the past two days, and I secretly knew.

"I'm sorry, Song Xitang, I'm really... a little scared."

Song Xitang looked at me and smiled naturally, probably he didn't want to force me, an idiot who was so painful to draw blood.

When I think of this, I feel very sad. In fact, Song Xitang did nothing wrong, and he has compensated me enough. Whether it is material or emotional, he even let me decide whether the child will stay or not. That's great.

Song Xitang packed up my things and drove me to the hospital. The hospital is not far from the Song family's old house, and it's only a 15-minute walk away. It's just that it's raining outside, and I'm afraid I'll catch a cold when I walk there.

When Song Xitang hugged me into the car, and turned around to go back to the house to pick up things, I felt a little delusional, as if Song Xitang was also responsible for packing up the two of us during our trip.

In fact, at the beginning, Song Xitang knew nothing, his life was taken care of by someone specially assigned to him, the only thing he could tidy up and the only thing he needed to tidy up was his own briefcase.

Even cooking, he didn't know how to cook before, even if he did, it was very salty. I don't know when he cooks the light taste that I like, less oil and less salt.

It was raining all the way while driving, and I wanted to remind Song Xitang countless times whether to have an abortion operation another day, but after all, I didn't have the courage to speak up.

While waiting for the red light, I received a call from Mother Song. She asked me how I was doing and if I would like to bring me something next time.

"If Song Xitang bullies you, remember to call me."

"No...he is very nice to me." I smiled awkwardly when my phone was connected to the car's Bluetooth.

"Hey, Song Xitang, that stinky brat, is very evil. If he bullies you, I'll be the first one to beat him up for you when I return home."

"Thank you, Mom." I was silent for a while, looking at the long queue of cars in front of me, and we will arrive at the hospital after about one more light, "Mom, Song Xitang and I... have a baby."

After I finished speaking, I looked up at Song Xitang, "Xitang, let's go home."

Mother Song and Father Song were more surprised than they were worried that Song Xitang could not take good care of me, but I still trusted him, so they didn't have to put down what they were doing and go back home in a hurry.

When we went home that day, Song Xitang hugged me around the living room twice, he was really happy, and I was also very happy, happy that we are going to have a baby soon.

Song Xitang also repeatedly asked several times when she was sleeping, whether she would regret it, whether she would be afraid, and so on.

Maybe, but we are not happy now.

"Song Xitang, but our two-person world is completely gone." I gave Song Xitang a shot.

Song Xitang just smiled, "When the time comes, send the child abroad for my parents to take care of?"

"Impossible, how can my precious son not be with me?" I suddenly got angry and pushed him away, Song Xitang was cold-blooded, and my son didn't even care.

Song Xitang hugged me, "Okay, okay, just kidding."

"Why don't I feel like it?"

Song Xitang turned off the bedside light, "You just feel it yourself, sleep."

The days passed quickly, and Song Xitang and I stayed at home for several weeks. We usually went out for a walk to buy groceries, and played checkers when we were bored, but it was not a computer game anymore. Song Xitang now limits my daily use of electronic products.

Ever since I was pregnant, I have really gained a lot of weight, and my face was swollen and itchy in the morning, and I dare not open my eyes every time the pregnancy test weighed me, but Song Xitang can still hug me, which is considered capable.

When I was three months old, I started to have some adverse pregnancy reactions, and I couldn’t take medicine, so I could only endure it. I couldn’t even watch a little bit of meat, but fortunately, Song Xitang could make some light millet porridge, so I wouldn’t Go to bed hungry.

In fact, Song Xitang applied skin care oil to me before I had any lines, and applied it all over my body. Although I seriously suspected that he was rubbing oil on me, I was quite comfortable, so why expose him? Stomach lines and the like can really make people anxious.

When I was a month old, Mother Song and Father Song also returned to China to take care of me, and Song Xitang was in charge of cooking and washing my clothes.

It's good to be pregnant. I have too much free time. I have practiced embroidery skills. Mother Song also taught me to embroider new patterns.

At night, I was uncomfortable when I was sleeping, and I was afraid of falling off the bed. Song Xitang was lying with his arms around me, and there was a protective fence beside the bed.

"Song Xitang, how about I just become a girl and have an artist's long hair, would it be better?"

Song Xitang is not purely gay, he was married before, I thought he should be able to agree.

"Don't worry about it, I don't like what you are like." Song Xitang said while grabbing my swollen hand and pinching it.

"You can't trust a man's love words in bed."

Song Xitang reached out and pinched my face, "I don't sleep, I think wildly every day, so the child born like this is probably not good."

"I'll go...then...then I won't have a baby." I got angry and turned my head away.

"Turn around." Song Xitang's words were always flat and intimidating, I turned my head suddenly, raised my hand and patted his face lightly, "You...don't attack me."

Song Xitang smiled, grabbed my hand and put it on his heart, "Are you afraid?" This is what he asked me many times since he was pregnant.