purple double bed

After walking out of the operation building, for some reason, Yan Jing always saw the image of his father's right foot trembling during the operation. He always felt that the trembling was unnatural, like the Parkinson's disease patients he had seen abroad.

Yan Jing frowned tightly, thinking whether to hire a private detective to check whether his father had a record of seeing a doctor secretly, but at this moment the phone rang suddenly, and the name on the caller ID was Yan Ru.

Yan Jing was a little puzzled, picked up the phone and asked, "Sister? Is there something wrong?"

Yan Ru's tone was flat, "Do you have time now? Stop by my company. I have something to tell you."

Yan Jing looked down at his watch, and it was already 05:30, so he nodded and said, "Okay."

Walking across the street from the hospital is Yan Ru's company. Yan Jing took the elevator to the tenth floor and saw her sister was explaining something to someone. After seeing him, she nodded and turned back to the young girl and said, "Remember to arrive tomorrow afternoon." The printing factory is going to get a new batch of brochures. I have to go away first." The girl obediently agreed: "Okay, I see, Manager Yan, go get busy!"

It is still the style of a strong woman.

Yan Jing stood on the spot smiling and watching her act resolutely. After a while, she finished explaining her work, walked up to Yan Jing, smiled and said, "Come with me."

Yan Jing followed her sister to the office at the end of the corridor.

Her office is very clean, and the folders in the bookcase are very neatly arranged, just like the exhibition shelves of the library.Yan Jing thought of the office of Zhu Sha, the teacher of the school's Academic Affairs Office, who also had this cold and rigorous style. It really is the habit of a strong woman, and she is always so meticulous about her work.

A 40-year-old woman still looks young, has a great figure, elegant and calm temperament, and holds the high position of the general manager. She is a model of a career-oriented woman.

But, she never married again.

Ever since Rong Yucheng died in a car accident, she devoted all her energy to her work.

Seeing her like this now, Yan Jing felt uncomfortable.Yan Jing was very clear about how hard her sister was hit back then. She had always been a strong woman, and she was used to supporting everything independently since she was a child. After Rong Yucheng died, she never even cried in front of others.

It's just that many times in the middle of the night, when Yan Jing went to the bathroom in the middle of the night, she would occasionally hear her suppressed crying from the bedroom.Distressed, he sneaked in to see her, only to find that she had fallen asleep.For a strong person like her, perhaps she would only shed tears in her dreams.

"Sit down." Yan Ru pointed to the sofa next to her, "There is coffee on the table."

Yan Jing walked over to sit down, took a few sips of coffee, and asked, "What do you want from me?"

"I shouldn't have asked about your private life, but this time..." Yan Ru paused for a moment, her sharp eyes fixed on Yan Jing, "Do you know the background of the young man who was with you? "

Yan Jing smiled, "You really went to investigate him?"

Yan Ru looked at him and didn't speak.

The awkward silence lasted for a long time, Yan Jing shrugged his shoulders, and said lightly: "Don't worry, such a young child, who will take seriously what you say on impulse." After a pause, he added with a chuckle, "I won't be like Made the same mistakes back then."

He spoke calmly, Yan Ru stared straight at him, still unable to see the slightest flaw from his smiling face.When he said these words, it seemed that he really was the romantic, unrestrained, heartless Yan Jing before.

Yan Ru breathed a sigh of relief, and said with a smile, "It's best if you can figure it out."

Yan Jing nodded, and changed the subject calmly: "By the way, is there anything wrong with Dad in recent years? I went to see him for surgery today, and found that his feet would shake every once in a while."

Yan Ru was silent for a while, "Since you found out, there is nothing to hide. Dad was diagnosed with PD at the beginning of this year."

Yan Jing's heart suddenly tightened.

Sure enough, it was Parkinson's disease, a very common disease among the elderly. The cause is still unknown. Damage to the nervous system can lead to uncontrollable trembling of the limbs. In this case, my father's feet should tremble first, and his hands are still fine. That's why he insisted on doing the surgery.

Yan Ru said in a flat tone: "He can apply for retirement early at his age, but he is still reluctant to leave the operating table. The diagnosis of PD hit him very hard. I persuaded him several times, but he still refused to retire early. Stay in the hospital until the end of this year. It is for this reason that my mother and I tried every means to call you back to China."

Yan Jing nodded.

"His condition is progressing faster and faster, and recently his fingers have started to tremble slightly, which can only be controlled with drugs. This operation for Yan Xu may be the last operation in his life."

Yan Jing looked at the coffee in his hand silently, his fingers holding the cup gradually became stiff.

No wonder his father wanted to perform surgery on Yan Xu himself, maybe he just wanted to save a blood-related person for the last time before bidding farewell to the operating table.

Yan Ru's expression was a bit painful, and she lowered her voice and said, "Ah Jing, in fact, Dad loves you very much. You don't know, the pocket money that has been secretly remitted to your account over the years was not remitted by me. He is afraid that you will find out. I deliberately went to the bank to exchange RMB into US dollars, remitted it to the account of a friend in the United States, and then asked the other party to transfer it to you, creating the illusion that I remitted it to you. I really admire the trouble I can do every time I remit pocket money. His stubbornness."

Yan Ru paused, "Also, he only found out about the time you had an accident in Australia by watching TV. He often watches your channel, and when he saw a fire breaking out in your place, he immediately called and ordered me to rush to it. Look at you in Australia, because you have a rare blood type, and if something happens to you, you really can’t be saved. The person who gave you the blood transfusion was contacted by his friend in Australia in advance. Dad has always had great powers. Can I find this kind of person with a rare blood type of one in a million within a few hours?"

Yan Jing listened to her narration expressionlessly, but his fingertips trembled slightly.

The stubborn and stubborn father never wanted to say these words.

It turned out that his father didn't dislike him.Perhaps, he was just angry at his failure to live up to expectations. The "don't mention it" just now in the operating room was just because he was afraid that he would get hurt again if he didn't give up on Rong Yuming.That son who knelt down with him for Rong Yuming back then must have made him...very disappointed, right?

"Since you left, Dad has been in a bad mood and his physical condition is getting worse and worse. I don't know how long he can last like this. He has always had high blood pressure and can't be too stimulated. Now, he is 65 years old. I'm not in the mood to take care of other things, I just hope he can spend his old age in peace." Yan Ru looked at him calmly, and finally said, "How to deal with your affairs, I think, you have your own discretion."

Yan Jing was silent for a long time, then said softly: "I understand."

In fact, it is very simple, there are only two choices, one is the father who loves me deeply but refuses to express it awkwardly, and the other is the lover who also loves me deeply.When he was young, he chose the latter, and was sent abroad with a leather whip by his sad father.Now, his elderly father no longer has the strength to pick up a whip, and he is no longer as impulsive as he was when he was young, so he chose the latter.

Father may not have had a good life for a few years, and he doesn't want to be so angry at this old man that he has a cerebral hemorrhage.

He couldn't afford to lose such a gamble.

When I came out of my sister's company, it was already dark.Yan Jing was walking on the street alone, the night wind was blowing a bit cold, so he put his hands in his pockets.Thinking of walking side by side with Rong Zi on the street that day, the young man obediently followed him without talking, but held his hand stubbornly, as if that would bring their hearts closer together.

If the young people are impulsive, who will take it seriously?Who would be stupid enough to make the exact same mistake back then?

When I said this to my sister, although I kept a smile on my face, I didn't feel happy at all in my heart.Perhaps, only an idiot like Yan Jing would trip over the same rock twice.

It was only when he was about to separate that he realized that he was so reluctant to part with Rong Zi.

It's as if I'm reluctant to strip something from my life.

In fact, I have already taken it seriously without knowing it, and I am tempted.Even, fell in love with that person.

People say that eating for a while and gaining wisdom, but I am getting more and more regressed. Why is it more sad than before?

Yan Jing smiled self-deprecatingly, and stretched out his hand to hail a taxi.

When I got home, I saw a familiar figure in the corridor at the door.

The slender young man was quietly waiting for someone by the door. Perhaps he was bored after waiting too long, so he lowered his head and played with his mobile phone. The light from the mobile phone screen was projected on his face, reflecting his sharp and handsome outline.

He seemed to be playing some kind of game, his fingers were sliding quickly on the phone screen, and he was having a good time, with a faint smile on his lips.

Sure enough, he is a young man, so energetic even when playing a game.

Yan Jing bent the corners of his lips, stepped forward and looked beside him, he was playing a strange fighting game, the little people in the screen were holding machine guns and shooting the monsters that kept popping up, he was so absorbed in the game that he even Yan Jing didn't notice Yan Jing's approach until the words "Congratulation" appeared on the screen, Yan Jing couldn't help but smiled and said, "Have you cleared the level?"

Rong Zi let out an "uh", quickly put away her phone, scratched her head in embarrassment, and said, "Are you back?"

"Yeah." Yan Jing stretched out his hand and gently smoothed the hair on his forehead, "Have you been waiting for a long time?"

Rong Zi nodded, "I thought you got off work at 05:30, bought a lot of vegetables, and wanted to cook dinner with you." He looked down at his watch, "It's already 07:30. Are you busy in the hospital? Why did you get off work so late?"

Yan Jing said casually, "There are several emergency departments."

"Oh." Rong Zi didn't ask much, and said with a smile, "Then you must be exhausted. Are you hungry? Open the door quickly, and I will cook for you. I promised to cook for you last time. Today I learned how to stir-fry several dishes, and I will make them for you later."

Only then did Yan Jing see two big plastic bags by his feet, which were filled with fresh vegetables.He smiled, took out the key to open the door, and asked casually, "Why are you waiting at the door? Didn't I give you the key?"

The young man said honestly: "I was too anxious to come out and forgot to bring it."

Yan Jing joked, "So impatient to see me?"

Rong Zi didn't hide it at all, she smiled and said, "Well, I miss you very much."

Yan Jing was silent for a while, avoided his serious gaze, turned around and opened the door to enter the room.

Rong Zi put on her slippers, ran to the kitchen familiarly, put on an apron, washed and cut vegetables, and was extremely busy.Yan Jing stood outside the kitchen, looking at his serious side face, and didn't know what it was like.

He knew that such a warm moment would soon be far away from the two of them.

Then let him delay for a few more minutes.Let's enjoy it for the last time... the tenderness only given to him by young people.

When she came out of the shower, Rong Zi had already prepared dinner.

Four dishes and one soup, it looks extremely rich on the table, each dish is full of color, flavor and taste, it can be seen that he has indeed put in a lot of hard work to prepare the dishes.Looking at his warm smiling face, Yan Jing couldn't help but feel sad when he thought that he learned cooking for himself.

"Are you hungry? Come over for dinner." Rong Zi greeted him like a family man, Yan Jing walked over and sat down opposite him, and soon handed a night of rice and soup in front of him, and then chopsticks Handed over to hand.Diandian was also carried onto the stool by him, and a bowl of cat food was mixed in the small bowl next to it.

He was so thoughtful and thoughtful.

Yan Jing touched the kitten's head, took the chopsticks, and said softly, "Thank you for your hard work."

Rong Zi smiled and said: "I am very happy to be able to cook for you, and I don't feel hard at all." Then he took a piece of meat from the plate and put it in his bowl, "I just made this sauce beef Learned, try it."

Yan Jing nodded, picked up the piece of beef and stuffed it into his mouth, enduring the soreness in his eyes, and said vaguely: "You made it delicious."

After being praised, Rong Zi laughed happily, "If you like to eat, I will make it for you every day from now on."

Yan Jing didn't answer, just lowered his head to eat.Rong Zi saw that he didn't want to talk much, so she didn't say much, and thoughtfully put a lot of dishes for him into the bowl.

After eating a meal for nearly an hour, the two of them ate the dishes one by one and picked up the other dishes. They actually ate all four dishes. Rong Zi finished cleaning the table and went to the kitchen to put the dishes and chopsticks into the dishwasher before washing He took his hand and went back to the living room.

Yan Jing was turning on the TV to watch a program, holding a little bit in his arms to tease, when he saw Rong Zi walking over, he said, "I have something to tell you."

"Another day, it's getting late and I should go back." Rong Zi smiled slightly, turned around and walked towards the door.

"Rong Zi." Yan Jing stopped him.

He was so smart, perhaps he had already expected what he was going to say, so he left in a hurry.However, this matter can no longer be avoided.

Yan Jing gently closed his eyes, "It's better for us to formally break up."

Rong Zi stopped, turned around, and said calmly: "I said, I will not give up on you."

"So, now I give up on you." Yan Jing said word by word.

The atmosphere of silence lasted for a long time, and even the cat in his arms shrank its head uneasily.

Rong Zi looked at Yan Jing, clenched her fingers tightly by her side, and asked in a low voice: "Is it because of your family members? We can explain to them slowly, and they will understand one day. When my parents first found out I was also very angry, but I insisted on being with you, and they relented in the end. For me... don't you even try hard once?"

Yan Jing's heart trembled, and he didn't answer his question directly, but said softly: "Don't wait for me anymore. Just like you couldn't wait for me to come back to the orphanage to see you, now, you can't wait for me to fall in love with you. Your day. Really...don't wait."

Rong Zi frowned slightly, "Don't be so stubborn."

"It's because you are too stubborn." Yan Jing interrupted him expressionlessly, "I can't fall in love with you. Because all my feelings were exhausted that year. In my life, the most beloved, the only love Only Rong Yuming is alone."

Rong Zi fell silent, a look of hurt and pain flashed across his bright black eyes.

Yan Jing smiled slightly and said, "Rong Zi, you are still young, don't waste your time on me. Don't you know? You will only cause me pressure and trouble if you pursue me so stubbornly."

The air seemed to be condensed by something, and even breathing became difficult.

Rong Zi has been looking at him, looking at his calm and serious expression, looking at his flat eyes, watching him sitting there, his posture and tone like an elder talking to a younger generation...

Finally, the clenched fist was slowly released, and Rong Zi smiled self-deprecatingly, "I know, you never took me to heart."

"But, in my life, the one I love the most, the only one I've ever loved, is you, Yan Jing."

The back of the young man leaving was stiff as if something had been pulled out of his bone marrow, and the sound of the door slamming was so violent that it seemed to burst the eardrums.

After he left for a long time, the suffocating atmosphere still seemed to remain in the room. Yan Jing loosened the collar of his pajamas, took a deep breath to adjust his breathing, hugged the restless cat in his arms, and leaned gently on the couch.

On the TV cabinet not far away, there was still a bouquet of red roses. Because the water hadn't been changed for several days, some petals had begun to wither.

The bright smile on Rong Zi's face when he gave him roses was still as real as yesterday, but the love that was as strong as the color of roses could not last as long as he wished.

Yan Jing finally stood up, picked up the bouquet of roses, wrapped them in newspaper, and threw them into the trash can.

Always withered.

Keeping this bouquet of flowers for one more day is a kind of torture for him now.

It's just that the little bit that Rong Zi gave him can't be thrown away. Perhaps, only it can accompany him, and he will live alone forever.