purple double bed

Sitting in the coffee shop, Yan Jing felt that his hands and feet had become cold.

When Rong Yucheng and his sister were abnormal before marriage, and the quarrel when they drove out that night, he intuitively felt that the Rong family was not that simple.It's just that the Rong family quickly moved away, and I was sent abroad by my father, so I was in no mood and had no time to pay attention to the internal affairs of their Rong family.

But just now, Rong Zi suddenly said that he planned to separate Yan Xu and Rong Yuming, obviously to fight against Rong Yuming. his opponent.

Yan Jing was suddenly worried.

After much deliberation, I still can't let go of my mind.If the Rong family knew that Rong Zi was that child back then, they would definitely try every means to frame him. Yan Jing didn't want Rong Zi to have any involvement with the Rong family or even suffer any harm because of it.

Suddenly thinking of the phrase on QQ, "I'm ruined and have nothing", and I feel even more uneasy.

In the end, I couldn't help but sent a text message to Rong Zi: "Did you use hacking technology to steal their business secrets? Rong Zi, you are committing a crime. You are still young, so don't make fun of your life!"

There was no reply, Yan Jing called again: "Why do you have to get involved in the Rong family's business disputes? Put aside those grievances and concentrate on working in your company. Listen to my advice and don't be impulsive."

After a while, the phone screen suddenly lit up, displaying a text message from him.

"It's too late to stop now, sorry."

Yan Jing didn't understand what he meant.I don't know what he is sorry for, but I always feel that since the reunion, the two of them are talking like chickens and ducks.It's not good to just say cheekily: I'm worried that you will be framed by them!

I couldn't help typing another one: "It's been so many years, why do you suddenly want to take revenge now? Hack into their company computer to steal information? Don't be naive, it's impossible to bring down the Rong family with those alone."

A reply was quickly received: "Then let us wait and see."

This kid is so damn stubborn!After a few years, this bullish temper has not changed.

Yan Jing is worried here that Rong Zi will be framed by Mr. Rong and Rong Yuming. After all, the old and cunning people of the Rong family are not as easy to deal with as he imagined. Thinking of Rong Zi fighting against those people alone, he feels distressed and anxious. A layer of cold sweat broke out in the palm of the hand.

But Rong Zi thought that Yan Jing was nervous for Rong Yuming and angry that he had dealt with Rong Yuming, and felt sad when he saw his text message.

After the text message was sent here, both sides fell silent.

Both of them love each other too much, but after so many things, they don't know that the other still loves them.

Fans of the authorities.Misunderstanding communication is completely a chicken talking to a duck.

Yan Jing returned home with a complicated mood, and sat in the bedroom for a while, still upset.Although he didn't know anything about business, he knew that fighting the Rong family with Rong Zi's strength alone was like hitting a stone with an egg.

It was pitiful enough for Rong Zi to be abandoned by the Rong family when she was a child, but she was finally adopted by Liu Zhigang, grew up safely, and now has a stable career. He didn't want to see Rong Zi suffer any grievances because of the Rong family at this time.

Back then, Mr. Rong was in poor health, so he still went to the doctor introduced by his father to see a doctor. Later, Yan Ru and Rong Yucheng got married and became in-laws. His father had always had a good relationship with Mr. Rong who lived next door.

Thinking of the letter his father left with his will before he died, saying that he would read it on his 35th birthday, Yan Jing thought to himself, today is just his 34th birthday, anyway, it’s only a year away, why not take it out and see if he can find out what clues.

I hurriedly found the letter from the drawer, opened it, and saw my father's familiar handwriting, which filled a whole page.

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Ah Jing:

Dad once did an irreparable wrong.

Back then, the elders of the Rong family and I knew about you and Yu Ming being together.You think you are hiding your family well, but you don’t know that Mr. Rong has always been very concerned about his son’s life, and Rong Yuming’s every move cannot escape his eyes.As early as a month after you confirmed your relationship, Mr. Rong notified me of this matter.What he meant was that he wanted me to come forward to stop you.

Looking at those photos of you and Yuming, I am really disappointed and angry. I never thought my son would fall in love with a boy.I wanted to interfere with you, to make you change your mind, but when I got home that day, I saw you sitting in the yard with books memorizing words together, and I saw seriousness on your face that I had never seen before.

I gradually discovered that you are very attentive to Yuming, and you are willing to slowly change yourself for him.In order to be admitted to the same school as him, you restrained your stubbornness, obediently listened to the class and studied, your grades improved by leaps and bounds, and you even entered the top ten in your grade unexpectedly. I was very surprised when I saw your report card.

From the time you were born until you were 15 years old, I have never seen you be so serious about anything.

I suddenly thought, if you have grown up and become sensible because of this, maybe it is not a bad thing. Since you are willing to plan your future for Rong Yuming, then you should wait until you are mature, stable and successful in your career before discussing you. emotional matters.

I talked about this idea with Mr. Rong, and he agreed with me, wait for you to grow up.

However, he made a bet with me. He said that no matter now or in the future, as long as he says a word, his son will give up on you without hesitation.I didn't believe it at the time, you were together all day long, you looked so good, you depended so much on each other, how could you give up the relationship of childhood sweethearts for more than ten years.

However, I lost the bet.

You didn't expect, nor did I, that Rong Yuming was not as innocent as he appeared on the surface.He grew up in the environment of the Rong family, and there are many things in his heart that are more important than you.

In the third year of high school, because of Yucheng's car accident, Mr. Rong interfered in your relationship in advance. What he said to Yuming was: If you are with Ah Jing, you will completely break away from the Rong family and give up Rongxin Group right of inheritance.

Yuming chose the right of inheritance without hesitation.

When I found out, I was actually very sad, and I felt sorry for us Ah Jing.I let you kneel in front of the door and beat you hard. I want you to see clearly what kind of person Rong Yuming is. He didn't even think about it for more than 10 minutes. He is not worthy of your serious efforts.

But I made a very serious mistake on impulse.

At that time, I just wanted to beat you as hard as before, and let you fall the hardest on this hurdle.Because only when the fall hurts the most, can you remember the most clearly, and you can be more careful in the future, so that you will no longer be deceived and injured because of your feelings.

It’s just that I forgot that you have grown up and are no longer the ignorant child you were when you were young. You have your pride and self-esteem. I ignored your mood and let you fall too badly in front of so many people. After recovering from the injury, I can't go back to the past, and even completely lost confidence in love.

Sending you abroad is even more wrong.At that time, you had just experienced such a serious setback, and your family should be by your side to care for you and give you more warmth.However, I sent you abroad to the extreme, wanting you to quickly forget this past, but I ignored how difficult it would be for you to live alone in a completely unfamiliar environment.

I didn't expect that such an approach would create an irreparable gap in your psyche.

You are finally used to living alone, however, no one can walk into your heart anymore.You have no expectations for relationships at all, and you are even willing to be single for a lifetime.

Over the years, I have been regretting my original decision.It's just that I can't personally say sorry to you.

After you get your doctorate and finish your studies, I asked your mother and sister to find a way to persuade you to return to China. I just hope that you can get out of the shadow of the past when you come back. If you still can’t get out, Dad will go to see a psychiatrist with you. .

I was really, really, really happy when you brought Zhusha home to visit me.My son was finally able to take that step and find a new relationship.

I hope that when you open this letter at the age of 35, you have truly found your own happiness.

It doesn't matter whether that person is Zhu Sha or not, no matter what identity or gender that person is.Dad only hopes that you can cherish each other well, and let the other party cherish you well.

In the past 35 years, 15 years, you were cynical and ignorant; In the next five or six years, you returned to China to work as a psychiatrist in a hospital, gradually stabilizing your career.

In these 35 years, you have experienced too many storms, most of which were caused by Dad himself.Dad owes you too much.The purpose of this letter is not for your forgiveness, but just to write down the truth of the year and the guilt in my father's heart before he dies.

Son, you have a long time ahead, another brand new 35 years.

Dad sincerely hopes that in the next 35 years or more, every day of your life can be relaxed and happy.

Dad will be in heaven and give you the best wishes.

Yan Shu pen.

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Clutching the paper tightly in the palm of his hand, Yan Jing's vision had already become blurred.

It was only at this moment that Yan Jing finally understood that his father, who had long since passed away, loved his son so deeply.It's just that he is too clumsy and serious to express; and his son is too proud and stubborn to admit defeat.So like wounded beasts biting each other, the longer the time, the deeper the wound.

Over the years, there has always been a knot in my heart that is difficult to untie. It has been entangled too much and suppressed for too long.

It's not that I'm not strong enough, nor that I have completely lost confidence in love. The most difficult thing to let go of over the years is actually the harm to my family.When a good child becomes gay, the relatives cannot accept it and feel heartbroken. After such a crushing break, they no longer dare to challenge their bottom line.

I remember my tutor once said in graduate school that people who study psychology and psychiatry will have some psychological problems more or less after studying for a long time.Because we are used to heal others, we are used to thinking about problems from the standpoint of others, on the contrary, we cannot heal ourselves.

Perhaps it was time to see a psychiatrist, but I still couldn't bear it.At this time, the knot in my heart was torn apart by my father, and uprooted together with many rotten flesh and blood. Suddenly, I felt extremely relaxed.

Yan Jing put the letter into a blank envelope, slightly raised the corners of his mouth.

——Awkward dad, in fact, I have forgiven you a long time ago.What I have never forgiven is myself who made you miserable and disappointed.

——Thank you for freeing me from this nightmare.