happy life?strange

No one is looking forward to his words, no one is waiting for his return home, no one is longing for his embrace.In the dilapidated house in the empty Spider's End, Severus felt the surrounding air turned into a heavy boulder and pressed down, making him unable to breathe and just wanting to vomit, making his heart ache inexplicably and just want to forget , so heavy that his mind couldn't help echoing Mr. Zabini's words and repeating the back view of Vidi's last heartless departure.Sure enough, after all, he is still not expected. Sure enough, Viddy still wants to leave him, a Muggle who can become a stain.

As if he wanted to escape from some horrible monster, as if he wanted to escape from the unstoppable thought that was becoming more and more cold to him, he escaped from the empty house where there was no one else but him. Looking at all the memories of him and Viddy, too many, too many to overflow the entire house, so many to spill out of the courtyard, so many to permeate and fill the entire air, it is unbearable for him now.

Severus walked aimlessly under the scorching rays of the summer sun. It seemed that the sunlight that could melt everything and distort the air could not warm his cold and empty heart. Obscuration, he is just a mark of shame in someone's life, a light existence that is eager to forget, he has completely lost Viddy, Severus can't help but feel a little at a loss. Into the most illusory dream bubble.When he first came to this world, it was Vidi's appearance that gave him the courage to live hard, because he knew that there was someone who depended on him wholeheartedly.When he knew that this was just a fictional world, it was Vidi who made him firm in his goal, because he knew that Vidi was standing in front of him, smiling at a place within his reach, as long as he knew this in his heart, even It is a fictional world, and for Severus, it also has the meaning of existence.

The girl selling ice cream by the street smiled as cool and beautiful as the desserts she sold. Severus thought blankly, Viddy likes chocolate-flavored cones the most. Viddy has sunstroke.After he bought the chocolate cone and the cheapest lemon popsicle habitually, he realized that Vidi had completely left him. The chocolate ice cream melted under the hot sun and stuck to his hands. He got up, dirty, the popsicle turned into water, leaving only a single short wooden stick in his hand.

Thinking of Viddy's changes and his resistance some time ago, Severus couldn't help wondering if he had recovered his memory at that time, whether that resistance was an aversion to his Muggle-born origin, whether, when he left, Viddy Di was laughing at everything about him with a disdainful attitude.

But now, he didn't know where to go, because in this world, it seemed that no one would wait with a smile and look forward to him wholeheartedly.He is alone again, like a stick that has lost its popsicle and can be discarded in the cold.At that moment, he seemed to be the kid who just came to this world again, the one who was wearing patched pants that didn't fit well, and the worn-out shoes with black and black toes on his feet, which were washed white and full of holes The hem of the lady's coat looked at the lonely child in the darkness, the desperate child who realized that the world was different.

As he walked, he found that he was in front of the solemn church surrounded by green ivy, and the breeze blew through, setting off green ripples.It's been a long time, it's been a long time since I came to the church. Since entering Hogwarts, Severus has never talked about the church. Wizards have a hostile, contemptuous and mocking attitude towards the church. In the world of wizards , only Merlin, no God.

Severus suddenly discovered that when he was in that magic school, he had subconsciously forgotten the enthusiastic believers of the church, their help, and their happy and contented smiling faces.Severus silently walked into this quaint and familiar church.

Today is not a weekend, and no one is practicing songs. The church is quiet. Even the organ seems to be frozen in a certain time and space and become an unshakable solid. The sunlight through the stained glass windows spreads a rose red light on the ground Woven carpet.

Severus walked to the bench in front of the altar and sat down, staring at the statue of the Virgin Mary holding the Holy Child on the altar in a daze.The face of the Virgin Mary is so loving and sad, as if she foresaw the future fate of the child in her arms.Severus just looked at it like that, he lowered his head, not knowing what to think, but the solemn and peaceful atmosphere in the church comforted his mind to some extent.

"Severus, why are you here? Today is not the weekend, are you on vacation?" Not long after, the familiar Father Cliff asked with concern.

Looking up, Father Cliff was wearing a simple black priest robe, with a simple gold-plated cross hanging on his chest, and was standing beside him holding a gold-plated Bible, with an ever gentle and tolerant smile on his face, his eyes Exuding pure joy at seeing Severus.

"Me, school just ended. I just came over to see." Severus said gruffly.

"Son, you seem unhappy? Is there anything you can tell me?" Seeing the unspeakable sadness hidden on Severus' face, Father Cliff asked with concern.

"I...it's nothing, it's just that I'm feeling more depressed all of a sudden." Opening his mouth, Severus suddenly found that he had no way to express the fact that Viddy had completely left his life.It seemed that, if he did say it, he would no longer be able to deny that he was just a blemish on Viddy, a poor wizarding poor to avoid.

"Son, depression is an emotion that often occurs in human beings. But the important thing is not to be controlled by depression. You must know that under the guidance of the Lord, you will definitely find a path that suits you."

Lord's guidance?Severus smiled wryly to himself, he is a little wizard now, how could God favor him, let alone guide him?

Seeing Severus' expression, Father Cliff considerately stopped asking further questions, and began to ask about Severus' study, school and classmates with concern.Unfortunately, this is also something that Severus can't tell the truth. Severus feels very annoyed, in front of Father Cliff, who has always cared for him, in this holy church, he can only weave meaningless lies To deceive this well-meaning man.

"By the way, Severus, I may have to change parish?" Father Cliff suddenly remembered this.

"Change parish? Where?"

"I'm not sure yet, but I should leave the UK. You know, I'm not British, but I'm definitely following the call of the Lord. I will go wherever the Lord calls me to go." Father Cliff said with a smile Answer, his infinite firmness in faith makes him look particularly noble.

"Then... when will you leave?" Severus tasted the unbearable bitterness in his mouth again, which directly made his heart tighten.Another person, someone who cared about him was leaving.

"It might be next year, probably after the new year, and the official order hasn't come down yet." Father Cliff looked at Severus, "Severus, you should not be in London at that time, and there should be no way to send you off." send me."

Father Cliff seemed a little embarrassed and said, "I also know that asking you to send me off is not in line with the teachings of the Lord to me, but I still long to see you at the last parting. Lord, repent my greedy heart."

Father Cliff looked at Severus seriously, "But, Severus, you probably won't be able to come over then."

"I, I, I shouldn't be able to send you off, Father Cliff. You also know that our school is not very convenient to get in and out of other places"

"It's okay, good boy, as long as you have the Lord and me in your heart, that's fine. I will always pray for you, and the Lord will definitely take care of you, Severus."

"Father Cliff, I, I suddenly remembered something, I'm leaving first." Afraid to continue speaking and unable to control the weak trembling in his words, Severus interrupted Father Cliff slightly rudely, Standing up at once, he fled the church in a hurry.

Father Cliff is leaving, Father Cliff will leave the UK, and Father Cliff will leave next year. Sentences with the same meaning kept revolving around in Severus's mind, turning faster and faster , it was almost as if he was going to confine his thoughts in this endless game like a merry-go-round.The leaves seemed to turn into water under the sunlight, Severus thought, Viddy was gone, and Father Cliff was going too, so who else would leave him?

Afraid to return to that home full of memories, Severus wandered outside until the sun went down, the weary birds returned to their nests, and the street lights first came on.In the twilight of the surroundings, realizing that he had nowhere to go, no way to escape, Severus still walked home, he subconsciously looked at the mailbox, there was a lonely mail in a white envelope in a dark yellow An ominous white shimmer was reflected in the street lamps.

He picked up the letter, opened the door and turned on the light, and said habitually, "Viddy, why..."

There was no one in the house, and everything remained the same as when Viddy left.Severus seemed to have exhausted all the strength in his body, he walked into the living room, lay down on the sofa, covered his eyes with his hands, he didn't want to cry, he didn't want to show himself a little weak.

Lying on the sofa, he couldn't remember that he hadn't eaten all day.

After a long while, he finally packed up his mood and found some bread to fill his stomach.Then, he opened the email casually. At first, he just scanned it roughly, but after that, he opened his eyes wide and read every word carefully. He read it over and over until the letters appeared in his eyes. Fuzzy, the sentence above became the last straw that overwhelmed him. The sadness and helplessness that had been suppressed all the time burst out under the trigger of this letter and completely swallowed him.Looking at the terrible news told by the hideous letters on the letter, maybe he was used to being strong, maybe he was too sad to make a sound, Severus' big tears began to roll silently, but he couldn't cry any the sound of.

"No. It's not true, I don't believe..."

Jie Jie Jie Jie, the devil in hell is laughing wildly, how mellow the emotions that flow out of the painful, desperate and troubled heart are.It’s not enough, but a little more is needed. When all hope, all sustenance, and all belief are all destroyed, when all ideals are taken away, will you completely fall into the hell of boundless karma? ?Jie Jie Jie Jie, how much I look forward to the arrival of that day.