happy night

In the days to come, Chen Fei was very well-behaved, and he was extremely cooperative in whatever Nian Ting asked him to do.Although the process of detoxification was difficult, Chen Fei seemed to have made up his mind. No matter how hard it was, he never cried out. As far as the matter itself was concerned, Nian Ting admired him very much.

It can be said that Revive started as a drug dealer, so Nian Ting is very aware of how difficult it is to completely quit drugs. What Chen Fei is doing now requires willpower that cannot be measured with a scale, but it is undeniable that it is indeed very difficult. easy.

In a blink of an eye, Chen Fei has lived in Rong's house for two months, and now his drug addiction is almost over. Nian Ting specially found him a doctor who has worked in a drug rehabilitation center for many years. The doctor diagnosed him in many ways. Later, he also said that as long as Chen Fei doesn't relapse, the situation will be under control. This news made Chen Fei and Nian Ting very happy.

To celebrate that night, Nian Ting asked the cook to prepare a table of delicious food, and then arranged the restaurant in an extremely romantic way, and shared a candlelight dinner with Chen Fei.

The two were talking and laughing at the dinner table, if outsiders saw that scene, they would definitely think that they were a happy and loving same-sex couple, even Nian Ting thought so.

However, there is always a knot in Chen Fei's heart, that is, the many entanglements between him and Nian Ting. In his opinion, some things can be forgotten by choice, but some things must be remembered for a lifetime.Maybe he is really too rigid, he can't be free and easy, and he can't even choose to let go of family feuds with a smile like Nian Ting. He is not generous enough, even a little paranoid, so he thinks that others owe him It should be paid back, and what he owes to others is the same.

That night, Nian Ting took him to the balcony to watch the stars together, during which they chatted a lot, Nian Ting asked him: "Are we together now?" Chen Fei thought about this question for a long time, he didn't He knew how to answer properly, but in the end he changed the topic uselessly.

He asked Nian Ting, "Tell me, will I be punished by heaven in the future?" Chen Fei's tone was actually relatively relaxed, but this topic was too heavy, and once these words came out, the atmosphere immediately dropped to freezing point.

The smile on Nian Ting's face gradually receded, and then he replied firmly in a relatively low voice: "No."

Chen Fei glanced at Nian Ting, then smiled, and then turned his gaze to the night sky, there are many stars in the sky tonight, Chen Fei stared at it obsessively, as if each star had a memory engraved on it.

After watching for a long time, he finally spoke again, "I heard that people will become stars after death. I thought: Your father, mother and sister should all be watching us from the sky right now?" , He paused for a long time, suppressing the sadness welling up in his heart, then sighed softly, and laughed again, "They...will be sad?"

"Chen Fei..." Nian Ting called out, and wanted to say something, but was stopped by Chen Fei, "I understand what you want to say, but what you can do may not be what I can do too .”

"So you mean, it's impossible for us?" Nian Ting met Chen Fei's eyes. Chen Fei's eyes were very beautiful, as if they could speak, but at this moment, he felt that the eyes in front of him were cry.

The corner of Chen Fei's mouth was still slightly raised, he was very honest, "Well, it's impossible." How to continue?He couldn't convince himself, even if he knew that he might really have that kind of feeling for Nianting, that kind of thing that maybe should be called "love".

"But I let it go, what do you still care about?" Nian Ting didn't give up, always wanting to keep something.

But it was his words that made Chen Fei agitated, "Then have you ever thought that you are not the only one who was injured? Yes, I caused your Rong family to be ruined, but you You have also done many things that hurt me, Rong Nianting, you have to understand that it is very difficult for us to settle." After saying this, he suddenly felt relaxed, like a big stone that has been weighing on his heart It was finally taken away.

When he said this, Nian Ting didn't understand even more, "But you have given up your drug addiction, and those things are in the past, why don't you take a step forward, why don't we start over?"

"Not good." Stepping on the end of Nian Ting, Chen Fei slowly uttered these two words in an indifferent tone without any emotion, staring at Nian Ting calmly for a moment, he suddenly pointed at the night and said: "Look at these Stars, maybe three of them are your relatives." After speaking, he folded his hands and leaned on the railing, his eyes became deeper and deeper, "Leaving aside the matter of drug use, even if you can let go of the hatred between our two families , I won't be with you either, because I'm afraid."

Frowning slightly, Nian Ting asked in puzzlement, "What are you afraid of?"

Chen Fei didn't look at him, but replied self-consciously, "I'm afraid of being stared at by three pairs of eyes from far away in the sky all the time!" His words sounded like he was joking, with a smile on his lips, But there seemed to be a touch of indelible sadness in the smile.

"Are you... regretting it?" Nian Ting's sudden words made Chen Fei really stunned, thinking for a long time before realizing what it meant.

"What do I regret?" Accompanied by Chen Fei's question, Nian Ting's voice sounded again, "Actually, I have wanted to ask this question for a long time, Chen Fei, do you regret everything you have done?" He waited After a while, when there was no response from the other party, he followed up with another sentence, "If so many things hadn't happened between us, maybe we are still together now."

For some reason, listening to Nian Ting's words, Chen Fei always felt very sore in his heart. He shook his head and said calmly, "There is nothing to regret. I don't want to think about such hypothetical questions. On the contrary, I can Let me tell you clearly, even if so many things hadn’t happened between us, it’s impossible for you and me to be together now.” He curled his lips, smiling a bit ruffianly, “It’s been almost three years since we first dated. Now, when did you hear that Yin Ershao was with someone for so long? Three months is about the same?"

"I wish I was that No.1." Almost subconsciously, this sentence just blurted out.

Chen Fei stood in front of Nian Ting in silence for a long time, then he laughed loudly, and when he had laughed enough, he turned cold again, his voice was low and cold, "You are not!"

Nian Ting realized that Chen Fei's emotions had gone up and down a lot. He didn't know which word in his words stimulated the other party, and he was a little confused for a while, "What's the matter?" He softened his voice, carefully He asked eagerly, "I...did I say something wrong?"

After he asked such a question, Chen Fei just realized that he had lost his composure. He sighed softly, and he was no longer in the mood to look at the stars, so he turned around and walked into the room, "It's nothing, I just thought of something." He deliberately An understatement, but was unexpectedly misunderstood by Nian Ting.

At that moment, Nian Ting looked at the sadness that flashed in Chen Fei's eyes, and suddenly thought of that person like a conditioned reflex, and the next second, his intuition made him ask: "Is it related to Rong Ce?" ?”

Chen Fei was startled, and turned his head quickly, but it was the look in his eyes that completely betrayed his thoughts.

Nian Ting was still standing at the entrance of the balcony, the moonlight came from behind him, making this figure extremely sad.Pulling the corner of his lower lip bitterly, he said, "I thought he had put him down a long time ago."

Chen Fei didn't speak, in fact, he had really put it down, but Nian Ting's "No.1" made him feel a little bit emotional.

The night before he started dating Ah Ce, Chen Fei brought him to the hotel, and at that time he said something to Rong Ce who was drunk and unconscious, "You really broke a lot of my feelings. The first time, let me carry a drunkard all over the street for the first time, the first time I personally serve a drunkard to take off his clothes, pants and shoes, the first time I lure a guy who is not interested in me to open a room in a hotel, the first time ...kiss you."

So just now, when Nian Ting said that he wanted to be his No.1, he really thought of Rong Ce, but only for a moment. He didn't want to recall or mourn too much, but it was Nian Ting's words that made him feel more hurtful.

Before, when Nian Ting made the assumption of "if so many things hadn't happened between us", he actually didn't say a word, that is: "If so many things hadn't happened between us, so what Such a deep relationship?" But when this thought flashed through his mind, he himself was frightened, "such a deep relationship" seems to be too much to describe him and Rong Nianting, but he couldn't find anything else more appropriate word.

Nian Ting saw that Chen Fei didn't speak, he just thought he guessed it right, he thought for a while, and finally made a decision, "The winter solstice will be in two days, shall I accompany you to burn incense sticks for him?"

"Don't bother." Chen Fei walked to the edge of the bed, sat on the edge of the bed with his back facing Nian Ting, with his head lowered and he didn't know what he was thinking.

Nian Ting followed him, sat down beside him, and held one of his hands, "No trouble, as long as you are happy."

Facts have proved that Young Master Rong really just wants to make Chen Fei happy.

The winter solstice will be two days later, and Nian Ting personally drove him to the cemetery to worship. Chen Fei sat in the passenger seat, looking at the familiar road, feeling uneasy.

He is still deeply impressed by the events on the day of A Ce's death. Aunt Rong's words on that day were like sharp knives, cutting open his heart inch by inch, so that until today, the wound has not healed, and when he entered the cemetery, But a little flinched.

Nian Ting probably sensed Chen Fei's retreat, so he took his hand and strode up the stairs, "With me by your side, what are you afraid of?" Having said that, Chen Fei was still afraid, he was extremely afraid. I will meet Uncle Rong and Aunt Rong again in front of Ah Ce's grave. After all, the winter solstice is a special day anyway.

Chen Fei followed Nian Ting carefully, his eyes always looking around, as if he had made a plan to run away as soon as he saw the elders of the Rong family, Nian Ting looked at him like that, and could only smile helplessly.

After finally reaching the top floor, Chen Fei first looked around in front of the tomb, but he was a little relieved when he didn't see a familiar figure.

Walking to Ah Ce's grave, he placed the bouquet he bought in front of the tombstone, and then he lit a stick of incense and put it in the sandalwood burner, and then he stood in front of the monument and bowed deeply three times.

Chen Fei had a lot of things in his mind that he wanted to say to Ah Ce. He lay on the bed last night and thought about it for a long time, but when he came here today, he couldn't say a word.

After a while, he squatted down, stretched out his hand and gently stroked Ah Ce's head on the tombstone, and then asked in a low voice, "Are... are you okay?" After speaking, the tip of his nose was sore, and he almost cried again .

Although I have said ten thousand times to let go, it is not so easy to actually do it.

But at that moment, Chen Fei suddenly felt footsteps coming from his side, and he was stunned when he raised his head.The two standing beside him at the moment are Uncle Rong and Aunt Rong who treated him coldly a few months ago.

Chen Fei got up slowly, his gaze remained on the two of them all the time, after a long time, he bowed deeply, and said apologetically, "I'm sorry, I'm leaving now." After speaking, he had already turned around.

However, before he could take a step, someone grabbed his wrist first.His body trembled slightly, Chen Fei's eyes slowly moved up along the hand holding him, and finally called: "Aunt Rong."

Aunt Rong nodded at him, then raised her other hand, and patted his shoulder heavily, "You child, why don't you say anything when you've been wronged?"

"Injustice?" Chen Fei tilted his head in confusion, then glanced at Nian Ting, and suddenly understood, "Auntie, in fact, Ah Ce's death..."

"I know you're not to blame for Ah Ce's death." While speaking, Aunt Rong's slightly rough hand touched Chen Fei's face, "Silly boy, that slap must have hurt so much?"

Chen Fei sneaked a glance at Nian Ting who was standing at the side, and seeing the smile on that person's face, he guessed what was going on.He didn't want to hurt the old man's heart anymore, so Chen Fei just followed Aunt Rong's words and said: "It doesn't hurt, Aunt Rong doesn't need to take it to heart."

After the worship that day, Nian Ting invited the two elderly people to have a meal together. Uncle Rong didn't talk much, but he occasionally said a few words, which still made Chen Fei feel the love of the elders for the younger generation. This Chen Fei felt a little embarrassed.

After the meal, Nian Ting drove the two elders of the Rong family back. When they parted, Aunt Rong held Chen Fei's hand again and said earnestly, "Good boy, don't blame me. Aunt Rong is getting old. It's not very pleasant, so don't worry about what you said that day."

Hearing what she said, Chen Fei felt a little guilty again, "Auntie, don't say that, Ah Ce..." Before he finished speaking, Aunt Rong followed up his words and said, "Ah Ce, he Having you as a friend is the best gift from God."

On the way back, Chen Fei's mind was full of the last sentence that Aunt Rong said, and after thinking about it, he figured it out.It turned out that the hurdle that he couldn't pass for so many years was finally passed with the help of Rong Nianting.

After returning home, Chen Fei's mood obviously improved a lot, but he didn't ask any more questions, but Nian Ting couldn't help asking him first, "Aren't you curious about what I said to the second elder?"

Chen Fei smiled, as if he was really not curious, "Thank you for your kind words for me, I am very happy in today's business." With this, he thought he could really let go.

"Just be happy." Nian Ting felt that he hadn't seen Chen Fei's smile for a long time, and thought that the hard work was worth it.

"I'm going to bother you." Chen Fei picked up his pajamas, walked to Nian Ting, kissed her lips proactively, then turned and walked to the bathroom, "I'll take a shower first." When he reached the bathroom door, he again Looking back at Xiang Nianting, he found that the guy was blushing. He suddenly laughed and added fuel to the fire, "How about we have a round tonight?"

The author has something to say: Notice: Recently busy with birthdays, 918 will stop first. On the night of the 18th, I will celebrate my birthday with the girls in the group, so I will come back on the 19th to continue updating, (づ￣3￣)づ