Stockholm syndrome

Maybe it was because I was tired from crying, but I slept inexplicably peacefully this time.When I woke up, Li Weiran was sitting beside my bed. I was startled and shivered violently.

"You can really sleep, you finally woke up." Li Weiran seemed to be looking at something, he turned his face sideways.

"It's only 8 o'clock." I rubbed my eyes and looked at the wall clock on the wall.He buried himself in the quilt again.

"Get up, don't stay in bed." Li Weiran pulled up the quilt abruptly, and I immediately woke up when I was blown by the cold wind.When I saw him again, I suddenly felt very embarrassed.Yesterday's mood was really bad, so bad that I lost my sanity. I always thought that I was a very restrained person, and I didn't know why I said those words to him.It's probably like the feeling after a hangover, thinking about those embarrassing words and actions you made yesterday after drinking.

"Why are you in a daze, get dressed!" Li Weiran slapped me on the head.Turning around and looking at me, I realized that he was holding our family's photo album.If I remember correctly, the photo album was in the cabinet.He never sees outside, rummaging around in other people's houses.I don’t know if he has found our passbook. My mother has always been in charge of the money at home, and she also hid the passbook. My dad and I have been looking for it for many years, but we can’t find it.

After waking up, looking at Li Weiran, I felt inexplicably nervous and panicked.I put on a sweater and wool pants indiscriminately and ran to the toilet to wash up.There is still a toothbrush that has just been unpacked in my tooth bowl, which should be used by Li Weiran.I don't know where he picked it up, and what's even more incredible is that I didn't notice it at all.

Many years later, when I think of what happened when I was young, probably since then, Li Weiran has already existed in my heart, but I have never dared to admit it.For example, if you sleep at home and your mother packs up things in the living room, you can still sleep soundly, but if you are someone else, you will wake up quickly.Probably for relatives, people will always have an irreplaceable sense of security.

"Are you hungry? I'll make you something to eat." I rubbed my hands and stood at the door of the big house. Li Weiran was engrossed in staring at the photo album, completely oblivious to my existence.

"Li Weiran." I walked to his side and gently pushed Li Weiran's shoulder.He responded with an ah.

"This is your mother?" Li Weiran pointed to an old black and white photo.

"Hmm. It's pretty. This is a photo of my mother when she was young. She was about 20 or 21 years old. She just worked for two years." I leaned over, and that photo was my mother's favorite photo. She was wearing She was wearing a nurse's uniform, holding a tray full of medicines in her hand, looking sideways at the camera, smiling slightly, revealing the dimple on her right cheek.Behind him were several young men in hospital gowns.It is amazing at first glance. My mother always told me how beautiful she was when she was young.She is really beautiful, my vocabulary is poor, I don't know how to describe it, if you see this picture, you will know that I am not lying.To put it simply, 20 years ago, she walked on the street without makeup, and she was a star at a glance.

"Oh." Li Weiran responded, still looking at the photo. "Your mother is not the same as when she was young."

"The life of ordinary people is far from being as simple as you imagine. If you have to worry about daily necessities, you will grow old soon. My mother is still well-maintained. Those aunts in their yard have long since died. The face is wrinkled."

"I didn't think you and your mother were much alike before, but now you really look alike." Li Weiran looked at the photo and turned his head to look at me again.

"People say that we look alike, but you have bad eyesight..." Before I finished speaking, Li Weiran gave me a look.Immediately I was honest.

"What do you want to eat. I'll cook for you."

"can you cook?"

"I can do more or less housework. Unlike you rich and powerful, we can't afford a nanny."

"Our family doesn't hire a nanny. My dad doesn't like outsiders entering our house." Li Weiran gave me an innocent look. "They're all hourly workers."

I glanced at Li Weiran, who has been at the same table with me for so long, his IQ is still pitifully astonishing.Li Weiran's IQ is not high, he can't learn physics well, and he can't learn mathematics well.But his emotional intelligence is very high, he can always guess my thoughts.

"Let me deep-fry steamed buns for you." I opened the refrigerator.I haven't eaten the steamed buns my mother bought yesterday.

"Okay." I didn't expect Li Weiran to agree so simply, I thought he would make all kinds of excessive demands, and after I was unable to complete them, I would say in a nutshell, what the hell.

I rolled up my sleeves and scoured some millet first. The yellow rice grains were floating in the water.The water is really cold, and I covered the heat all night under the quilt.All were scattered.Hands quickly become cold.I grabbed the rice and rubbed it. The rice had to be washed three times before it could be put into the pot.

"Let me help you." Li Weiran stretched out his hand.I shrug him off with a shoulder lift.

"Don't touch it, the water is too cold." I filtered out the water and washed it again. "Half an hour at most. Go watch TV. The rice will be ready later." The rice was washed and put into the aluminum pot just below the bottom of the pot.Enough for the two of us.Li Weiran stood there looking at me for a while, probably feeling bored, so he went to the living room to watch TV.The sound of the ball game came from the living room. I always felt that the host of the sports station had always been one person, and the voice had never been changed. In fact, several announcers had been changed.

I have been cooking for my family since junior high school.When I was young, I followed my mother to the cafeteria of M College to eat, but when I grew up, I started to learn how to make it myself.My dad can't cook, and sometimes my mom's shift collided with it.He was always hungry when he came back from overtime work. He had a bad stomach and couldn't stand the hunger.It is obvious that he has enough food and clothing by himself.My dad pointed it all at me.When I was in junior high school, he often came back from get off work and was so hungry that he would shake me out of my sleep and cook for him.

Later, when I was in high school, I was busy with schoolwork. My dad would not wake me up no matter how hungry I was, because he was afraid of delaying my studies.I simply make fried rice or noodles half-cooked and put them directly in the pot.When he comes back, he turns on the gas, flips the pot with a fork, and eats.But even so, things that mess up the rice still happen from time to time.Talent is indeed a very important thing.

The steamed bun slices have been fried, and I took out the half-eaten ham sausage from the freezer.Cut six slices and threw them in the pot.Although they are all cooked food, I always feel that they have to be oiled to taste.He casually cut some pickles and put them on the plate.It's almost ready to eat, Li Weiran should have never eaten such a poor breakfast, I don't know if he will put the bowl on my head.Maybe it was the Kung Pao Chicken Rice Bowl that he gave me that left a serious psychological shadow on me.I've always had inexplicable panics about food.The porridge has just been cooked and is still very hot. In order to avoid being attacked by such dangerous objects, I first called Li Weiran over to see his reaction before deciding whether to serve it or not.

"Li Weiran, it's time to eat." After shouting this sentence, I was suddenly taken aback.It's like my mother shouting "Achen, it's time to eat." In this small room, we are a family.I always feel that inviting people to eat is a very intimate thing, like family.I also fantasized about calling Zhong Han to eat, but fantasies are fantasies.Forget it, don't think about him, as soon as you think about him, you will feel that even your breathing becomes heavy.

Li Weiran came over, pulled the stool and sat down, picked up the chopsticks and ate.He must be really hungry, the scorched steamed buns were bitten by him and made crackling noises.The young master should be very satisfied with this meal, so I served the porridge with confidence.The bowls we eat in our family are very small, basically the smallest bowls.My mother is a southerner who is not used to eating in big bowls.I deliberately found a big bowl to serve Li Weiran with porridge. This bowl is used for eating noodles at my house.

"Well... what is that? You can't eat chili." Li Weiran's mouth was full of food.I reached out to block the chopsticks I stretched out.Of course I know that eating chili can cause allergies, but this is fermented bean curd...

"fermented bean curd."

"What's that?" Li Weiran picked up the bottle, leaned over to smell it, and turned his head away with a frown. "Can this be eaten? What does it taste like?"

"This taste is much better than leek dumplings." I grabbed the bottle, put a small piece on the steamed buns, crushed them with chopsticks, and spread them out.Li Weiran should eat it often when he was at home, but they should touch salad dressing, caviar or something on the toast, instead of spreading fermented bean curd on the steamed buns like me.

Li Weiran also followed my example and wanted to pinch fermented bean curd, but unfortunately his chopsticks were still not easy to use, and the fermented bean curd was broken when he used too much force.Along the chopsticks and fell into the bottle.I sighed, took it out for him, and put it on a slice of steamed buns.

"Ye Shen." Li Weiran suddenly called my name. "My mother hasn't even cooked for me. Your cooking is so delicious." He held the slices of steamed buns in one hand, and two chopsticks in the other hand. There was bean curd red sauce on the corner of his mouth, and steamed buns Slices of crema.Just looking at me and smiling, his soft eyes are different from the domineering young master I know.For the first time, I clearly felt that the relationship between us was different from before.