Stockholm syndrome

Medical school classes are boring and disgusting.There are 6 people in a dormitory. I usually like to be with Hu Yidao. Hu Yidao doesn't talk much, but he uses his brain very well.The Northeast old man in him is really attractive to me.During the anatomy class, we helped each other to throw up outside.Every medical student has to go through such a period, but Hu Yidao is more tragic.

After taking the anatomy class for half a month, Hu Yidao's face was pale, and his stomach problem was caused by that episode.Because we are all consecutive students, clinical medicine is divided into departments in the fourth year.Hu Yidao resolutely chose thoracic surgery, and we were all surprised in the dormitory.I thought he would go to internal medicine, but Hu Yidao's tolerance to meat is far worse than ours.

In his senior year, one night, he had a terrible stomachache and rolled on the bed.I was stunned but I endured it and didn't say a word.In the end, I couldn't bear it anymore, and I got down with my clothes on and carried him to the school hospital.Hu Yidao was much heavier than Li Weiran. When I carried him to the school hospital, my hands were too trembling to hold the medicine.I almost had a stomach perforation. If I hadn't delivered it in time, my life would be in danger.Doctors like to say that.In fact, it's okay to be late, I don't believe that he can bear it without calling for help, just hurt himself to death like this.

After this incident, the relationship between Hu Yidao and I has obviously improved a lot.When he came back from the holiday, he brought me a large pack of black fungus, a specialty of Jilin, which was different from the ones sold in the store after soaking it in the water.I dragged Hu Yidao to my house a few times, and he was not polite.The work is fast, and Tadun's pork stewed vermicelli is delicious.My dad likes to hear Hu Yidao call him uncle with a Jilin accent.Hu Yidao is a bit bored by outsiders, if you are familiar with him, he talks a lot.But it took me four years to get him and me acquainted.

I finally knew why Hu Yidao was obsessed with thoracic surgery. He had a crush on a senior who had a doctorate in thoracic surgery and stayed in school after graduation.The senior sister helped Hu Yidao carry a small bag when she welcomed the new year. Hu Yidao fell in love with her at first sight at the time, and the love has been deeply rooted ever since.Sure enough, there is a deep feeling hidden behind every silent person.If Hu Yidao didn't study medicine, he could be a writer or poet. He wrote a lot of poems and essays for his seniors, and put them in a leather notebook stroke by stroke.I was moved when I saw it, and I persuaded him to confess his love several times. The senior will be 29 after the Chinese New Year, and I can't delay any longer.Hu Yidao shook his head calmly, no, I am not good enough for her now, I have to stand at the same height as her to give her happiness.When he stands at the same height as the senior, it is estimated that the son of the senior will be in elementary school.

Whether it is long or short, five years seems to pass in the blink of an eye.I grew my hair a little longer, and I added a pair of glasses on the bridge of my nose. My gentle appearance was quite bluffing, and I welcomed the first confession in my life.It was Jiang Zhe's younger sister who confessed to me, and I found that I was far more attractive to little girls than my peers.Wu Qingfeng and Jiang Zhe didn't know each other at all, and that's how their relationship started.I don't know when, there was another boy following me, Jiang Zhe was very handsome, Li Weiran's kind of flamboyantly handsome.I always feel that if they put together together, they can really make an 18-year-old Li Weiran.Maybe this is God's compensation for me.Jiang Zhe is very tall. He is only 18 and can grow a bit longer. He is already half a head taller than me. Wu Qingfeng is very stable, and he will not grow much when he reaches 1 meters.Seeing that he should not be able to catch up with me, I was relieved.I always feel that as an elder, it is very embarrassing to be overtaken by a child who is shorter than myself.

Jiang Zhe's single-parent life was much more tragic than Wu Qingfeng's. His parents divorced just after he was weaned, and he followed his father.Now this younger sister was born to his father's daughter-in-law.To be honest, his stepmother treated him pretty well, but after all, he wasn't his own, so he couldn't do his best. Jiang Zhe was a rebellious child since he was a child, and his relationship with his family has always been a little stiff.I accompanied Wu Qingfeng to Jiang Zhe's house to look for him, and was seen several times by his sister.I don't know what to think, but next time his brother is going out, he will go with him desperately.We probably met four times, and I bought her 3 bottles of milk tea.This little girl confessed to me when she shyly said, brother, I like you.At one point I looked back several times to make sure she wasn't talking to someone behind me.Wu Qingfeng is 18 this year, Jiang Zhe is the same age as him, and Jiang Zhe's sister is 3 years younger than him, so he should be 15 this year.I'm almost ten years older than her.

Just as I was trying to express my rejection in a tactful way, Wu Qingfeng rushed over.Jiang Zhe was threatened by his sister just now, so he didn't dare to come over, so he could only watch from a distance. He looked at us with his hips on his hips and his neck stretched out, and he was quite anxious.Jiang Zhe still cares about his younger sister.Wu Qingfeng rushed up and said, brother, if you want to refuse, just say so.The little girl's eye circles were red at that time, and she asked me if it was true with a trembling voice. I nodded and didn't dare to talk nonsense.She covered her face and ran away, Jiang Zhe threw the basketball and chased after her.Then, there is no more.

Later, I asked Jiang Zhe if he hated me for rejecting his sister.The bear child pondered for a while and said, if you don't refuse her, I will definitely beat you.This brat, who usually calls my brother so dear, isn't he just a white-eyed wolf.I can't beat him now.

Five years have passed since the catastrophe of SARS, and the media seems to be particularly fond of numbers like 5 and 5.The TV station suddenly made a program, interviewing some doctors and nurses during the SARS period, and the orphans that would be left behind.I don't know what happened to the TV station recently, they keep doing this kind of stuff that makes people feel aggrieved.I suddenly missed my mother.She skipped class for a day, and searched for her favorite bayberry in the supermarket near the school for a long time. Could it be the season, but in the end, she had no choice but to buy a pack of pickled bayberry in rock sugar.After reversing several times, I finally arrived at Babaoshan.

It's not a festival, and there are very few people in the cemetery, so I registered at the gate.Holding the red bayberry, I went in.After making several turns, I finally arrived at my mother’s row. From a long distance, I saw a man in a windbreaker standing near my mother’s monument. I couldn’t see his face, and I couldn’t guess his age. , but judging from his elegant clothes, he should not be an ordinary person.My mother's neighbors were all nurses and doctors who died at that time. I had never heard of anyone with such a grand style. I walked a few steps and suddenly realized that he was visiting my mother.In front of my mother's stele, there is a handful of bright red bayberry.

I really don't know this person, just when I was hesitating whether to walk over.He suddenly turned his head, and the moment he turned his face away, my heart suddenly went numb.I often take out photos of Li Weiran and touch his cheeks with my fingers through the photo frame, but the photos are never as shocking as real people.Soon I realized that this is not Li Weiran, it just looks alike, no matter how tired Li Weiran is studying abroad, he can't grow old like this.

The man was stunned when he saw me.The degree of shock was no less than mine.We looked at each other for a long time before he spoke.

"Are you Xiaomei's son?"

The name Xiaomei can only be called by my dad.Hearing a stranger call my mom so affectionately made me feel uncomfortable.But I also remembered who he was. I had a fight with his son in X 7 years ago, and he was called the parent.

"Ah."

"You have grown so big." The man sighed with emotion.

"Hello, uncle." I said hello to him, walked to my mother's monument, put the rock candy bayberry on it, and pushed the bayberry he bought to the side calmly.

"Your name is Ye Shen." He asked.

I nodded noncommittally, knelt down in front of my mother's stele, and told her some things, my father got a raise, I joined the party, all kinds of trivial things, she used to like to hear me talk about these things.After talking for almost an hour, my legs were a little numb. They stood up with their arms propped up, patted their knees, and turned around to find that Li Weiran's father was still standing there.

"Uncle, what's the matter?"

"It's okay, it's okay. I just came to see Shumei." Li Weiran's father is an elder, and he helped my family during SARS.I should treat him politely, but he came to see my mother alone, and he would stop there for a few hours, and I always felt uncomfortable.

"Thank you. It's rare that you still remember her. Let's go, I'll take you back." I stood up, walked up to him, and stretched out my hand as a gesture of invitation.Li Weiran's father seemed a little reluctant, but out of face he still followed me and left.

"You and Li Weiran are good friends." It was still a long way to the entrance of the cemetery, his father seemed to feel a little embarrassed, and started to talk about it, but I became even more embarrassed.

"We used to have a good relationship, but now we don't have much contact." As soon as Li Weiran was mentioned, my heart beat faster and my adrenaline was secreted.

"He came back during the Chinese New Year. Didn't you go to the class reunion organized by the class?"

I shook my head, feeling very disappointed in my heart, as if in such an instant I became the boy who lowered his head and didn't like to talk.During the college entrance examination, I never went to school except for volunteering.Later, when I moved, the landline also changed.I lost contact with my high school classmates.Unexpectedly, an opportunity to reunite with Li Weiran was lost in this way.Now our lives really don't intersect at all.

At the gate, an Audi drove over and parked beside him. Audi is one of the few license plates I know.

"Let's go, uncle will take you home." Li Weiran's father opened the car door and looked at me. His father has always been very polite to me.

"No need, Uncle, go back first. Leave me alone, I'll take the bus from here to get there directly, and I don't need to back up." From here to my house, I have to back up twice. Although he looks like Li Weiran, even if you look at him His face also makes my heart beat faster.But I don't want to be with him, they have very different temperaments.The overwhelming presence of his dad frightened me a little.

Li Weiran's father didn't say much, and left first.I stood at the gate of Babao Mountain with my head down, and I was stunned for a while, and suddenly felt very tired.Did not go back to school and went straight home.

When my dad came back from get off work, he could smell the aroma of fried kidney beans as soon as he opened the door.He yelled, changed his shoes and ran over. "Chen'er, it's not the weekend, why are you back?"

"I said I miss you, do you believe me?" I set the table and chopsticks, looked up at my dad with a face full of rashes.

"Believe it. My son misses me, so why don't you believe it?" My dad took off his coat and hung it on the hanger, went to the bathroom to wash his hands, and came humming a tune.It’s been a long time since I made fried kidney beans for him, no wonder he’s so happy.

I ate with my head down and didn't make a sound. When my dad asked me, I just responded with a hmm.Half a plate of dry-stir-fried kidney beans, my dad finally couldn't bear it. "What's wrong with you, did you have a conflict with someone at school?"

"No."

"What's the matter?"

"I missed my mother today, so I went to see her." I picked up some potatoes and put them in a bowl.

"What's the matter, go and whisper to your mother, don't take me with you."

"I'm going to see someone today, and I'm going to see my mother too." After I finished speaking, my father looked at me with a questioning expression on his face. "An old man."

My dad lowered his head and continued to pick and pull, the chopsticks didn't stop. I didn't expect him to be so calm. "Do you think that person is Li Zeshen?"

"Who is Li Zeshen?" I heard this name for the first time.

"Just Li Weiran's father, the father of that kid who played very well with you in high school."