Stockholm syndrome

When I returned to the department, my whole body, including my underwear, was wet.I printed one after another muddy footprints on the floor tiles.The director and I took a leave of absence and went home early.After digging through the glove cabinet for a long time, I found my umbrella with rusty spots on the bracket.

After autumn, the weather turns cooler, and it is easy to catch a cold when exposed to rain.By the time I got home, I was already shivering from the cold.Fortunately, the house Li Weiran was looking for didn't need to back up the car to go to the T courtyard. The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and it was estimated that when it was time to get off work, the traffic would be paralyzed for a while.

I was still worried about whether Li Weiran would be stuck outside and couldn't come back. His car was quite comfortable to sit in, but the chassis was not high.It is estimated that the bus can be trapped under such heavy rain.When I got home, my clothes were all stuck together, and it was useless to hold an umbrella, but one of the umbrella ribs was broken.Unexpectedly, Li Weiran came home before me. When I opened the door, I saw his shoes on the shoe cabinet, and there was a rustling sound from the kitchen.I took off my shoes and walked in barefoot.Li Weiran squatted in front of the refrigerator, took out buckets of drinks from two convenience bags and stuffed them into them.His movements were clumsy, but he was very attentive. I remembered that many years ago, every time he sneaked into my house, he always bought a lot of things I liked, and stuffed them all under my bed.Such a big person, lying on the ground with his back bent down, looks very funny, but it can make my whole heart soften.Li Weiran didn't notice my presence, he picked up the last bottle of Sprite and wanted to stuff it into the refrigerator.I suddenly became playful and jumped on his back to scare him.

I obviously overestimated my sensitivity and underestimated Li Weiran's ability to respond.The next moment I was already pinned to the floor by his grappling.Fortunately, I intentionally patted him with my left hand, and it was also my left hand that was pinned behind him.If I switch to my right hand, I'm not guaranteed to go back to the hospital to get the steel plate again.

"Ah Shen?" Li Weiran quickly reacted, he immediately let go of his hand, helped me up from the ground, stretched out his hand and gently kneaded my left shoulder. "Why did you come back so early? Are you all right?"

"The young man is very skilled." I pulled up Li Weiran's shirt and wiped off the water stains on his glasses, but he was not angry at all.

"Why didn't you make a sound when you came back? Are you hurt? Why is the clothes wet?" Li Weiran took off my white coat and looked back and forth while holding my arm.

"I'm fine at all, I was just shocked. When did you have this skill? You have really grown up in the past few years abroad." I leaned on Li Weiran's arm and let him push me to the toilet.

"After lunch at noon today, before I could go back to the department, the rain fell, just a few steps away. When I got back to the room, I was completely wet. There was nothing to do in the afternoon. The director and I asked for leave and came back. "

"Hurry up and wash off. Don't catch a cold anymore, I don't have time to serve you." Li Weiran took me into the bathroom and slammed the door behind me.

This is the first time I have asked for leave since my internship, and the last time I was hospitalized was considered a work-related injury.As a reward, the courtyard also sent me a few shopping coupons, and asked me to replace them with rice and peanut oil and move them home.Enough to eat until the Chinese New Year.I dragged down the clothes and threw them all into the clothes basket.Warm water poured out of the shower head, warming my paralyzed nerves, and my cold fingers gradually regained consciousness.

I'm a little tired. Is it really old? People say what happens after 25 years old. I used to think it was nonsense.Now I found that this is indeed the case. When I saw Wu Qingfeng and Jiang Zhe today, I really felt different from them.Time is such a thing, if one is not paying attention, it will disappear.I want to have a home, safe and secure, my own home, with the people I love.Living with my dad, although not alone, but lonely.I always feel empty in my heart, people are really wonderful creatures.Whoever loses someone can't live a good life, but I want to be with you.Every day with Li Weiran makes me excited and nervous, and no one knows when this joy will die.

"Ah Shen, I'll hang up your clothes here." Li Weiran's voice disturbed my thoughts. He is actually a very careless person, but he has been doing his best to take care of me.Suddenly I remembered an ancient poem, once the sea was too difficult for water, except Wushan is not a cloud.Apart from him, I really won't feel this way about another person in my life.I don't know if it's the same in his heart, there are too many people in this world who want to treat him well, and I'm considered a relatively useless one.But even so, I still hope that I am the most special one. No matter who he is with in the future, he will remember me for the rest of his life, just like me.In this way, we can be regarded as entangled for a lifetime.

Coming out of the bathroom, Li Weiran took the towel from my hand and helped me dry my hair.The strength of his hand is not light or heavy, but I am used to it, just like I am used to his snoring and the smell of boiled water on his body.Everything about him fascinates me irresistibly.

"Ah Shen, did you go to the hospital to take a film today?"

"En." I responded, and reached for the remote control on the coffee table, but Li Weiran grabbed it.

"I'll ask you again, did you go or not?" Li Weiran hugged me from behind, and gently blew on my neck, which made me shiver because of the itching.

"I was wrong, I was wrong. I really thought it was all right, so I didn't go." I supported Li Weiran's arm and wanted to escape. "I didn't say anything, how did you know?"

"I can't figure out your little thoughts." Li Weiran put his chin on my shoulder and rubbed it lightly.He loves holding me like this.My back was pressed against his chest, and our two heartbeats seemed to resonate, overlapping one after another.

"You really know me better than my dad." I reached out and pressed my chest, as if Li Weiran's heartbeat could also be heard. "We are such a match made in heaven."

Li Weiran didn't speak any more, he chuckled, rubbing his chin on my shoulder, his broken hair brushing my ear a little itchy.

"Hey, if you are gone one day, where can I find a similar one." I put my hands on Li Weiran's hands around my waist, and gently rubbed them.

"Then let's live forever."

"Okay." I turned my head to look at Li Weiran, his cheek was very close to mine, and his eyes were bright.I was still the same as before, unable to figure out whether his words were true or not.When people are rich in life, they will inevitably worry about gains and losses.Come to think of it, I'm really asking for trouble, and I have to be happy in life to be happy.I hugged Li Weiran's neck and pressed my whole body down.

After the long kiss, Li Weiran's breathing became thicker a little bit. The sofa is not too narrow, but it's a bit reluctant to lie two men on it.He hugged my back to prevent me from falling, and sat up with his arms propped up.

"Ah Shen, I'm going out to do some errands. I'll definitely be back in five days."

"What?" The smile on the corner of my mouth didn't have time to fade away, "Five days? So long." After being separated and reunited with Li Weiran for so many years, I always have an inexplicable panic about parting.

"Up to three days." Li Weiran gently rubbed my hair. "I'm going out to make money. I'll buy you delicious food when I come back. We'll buy whatever you like, and we'll buy expensive ones."

"Get out." I punched Li Weiran in the stomach, "You said it as if you were taking care of me. I am self-reliant, and I cook all the meals."

"I don't mean that. I like you." Li Weiran grinned stupidly. He is 25 this year, not 18. It's really stupid to smile like that.

"Okay, let's go early and come back early. When are you leaving?"

"The plane tonight. It happened so suddenly that I didn't have time to tell you in detail."

"I said why did you come back so early. If I come back later, you will run away." I stretched out my hand to pinch Li Weiran's face, his beard grew so fast, it was a little prickly after he hadn't shaved for a day. "I've never been on a plane before."

"I'm waiting for you. I don't see you. How can I leave with peace of mind." Li Weiran put his head in my arms, like a big dog acting like a baby. In fact, he also has the attribute of being cute, but most people don't like it. opportunity to see. "take care of yourself."

"Yeah. You're fine too." I stroked Li Weiran's hair lightly, and he leaned into my arms, falling in love with his eyes.We chatted casually for a while. At 7 o'clock, Li Weiran answered a phone call and went out with a small suitcase.The rain has stopped.He didn't drive himself, someone came to pick him up.The momentum is quite sufficient.A very long commercial vehicle came, and I recognized the license plate this time, it seemed to be Lincoln.Originally, I wanted to send him all the way to the car.When I got out of the elevator, I shrunk again when I saw such a flamboyant car, so I should keep a low profile.Li Weiran turned his back to block everyone's sight, kissed me on the forehead, turned and left.I hid in the elevator door, and when I saw him walk out of the building, I also dodged into the elevator.

Before I opened the door, I heard my cell phone ringing non-stop.I don't know who is looking for me in such a hurry.I opened the door and went in hastily to find my cell phone. It was an unfamiliar number.The original mobile phone was broken, and Li Weiran replaced it with a new one for me.I haven't practiced it yet, and I accidentally hung up.After a while, the phone rang again, I picked it up, and an anxious female voice came from inside.

"Excuse me, is it Ye Chen?"

"Yes, I am. Is that you?"

"I'm Jiang Yuanyuan."

"..." I was stunned for a moment, who is Jiang Yuanyuan, I don't seem to know such a girl, but I still bite the bullet and continued. "What's up?"

"Hu Yidao is injured. He is in the T courtyard. Come quickly!"

"What!?" As soon as I heard that something happened to Hu Yidao, I immediately became nervous, picked up the key that was thrown on the table, and ran outside. "You wait for me to come right away!"

When I ran to the gate of the community, a bus came just in time, and I rushed up, holding on to the handrail for a long time before I recovered.I finally remembered who Jiang Yuanyuan was. This person is very familiar, but we usually don’t call her by her name. Jiang Yuanyuan is the senior sister.

I rushed to the T courtyard in a hurry, and my senior was waiting for me at the door.Seeing me coming, she immediately came up to me.

"Ye Chen, right? I'm Jiang Yuanyuan." She grabbed my arm and carried me inside.

"Sister, what happened to Hu Yidao?"

"I got him in trouble." As she spoke, the senior sister's voice began to choke, and she kept wiping away her tears with her other hand.I don't know how to comfort people, seeing her like this makes me panic even more.Nothing really happened to Hu Yidao.

The senior sister dragged me forward. After walking for a while, I found out that it was our department. This is a fucking neurosurgery department. Did Hu Yidao hurt his brain?

I panicked all of a sudden, and ran away from my senior sister.Only one operating room was lit.Just as I was about to rush in, I remembered that I was not the doctor who performed the operation, and I couldn't go in without disinfection.I hurried back to the department again, the little nurse on duty saw me coming, stood up and greeted me. "Doctor Ye, why are you back? You're not on duty tonight, are you?"

"What's the matter with that person sent here just now?!" I jumped in front of the table, startling her. "Is it called Hu Yidao, is it serious?!"

"Ah?!" The little nurse was stunned for a moment and quickly realized, "Don't worry. I don't know exactly what's going on. He was sent to the emergency room. It shouldn't be a big deal. I think he has a head injury."

"It's not a big deal if you hurt your head." I buttoned my white coat and ran to the operating room.Senior sister sat alone on the chair by the door, shaking all over.

"Sister." I called her and sat beside her.The one lying inside is my brother, and I am more anxious than her. "What's going on with Hu Yidao, you tell me first. I'm in neurosurgery."

"He was hit by a brick." The senior sister buried her face in her hands, weeping softly, shrugging her shoulders.

"It's okay, don't think too much about it. Being hit by a brick means a concussion. Really, I have practiced in the courtyard for so long, and I have never heard of anyone getting hit by a brick. Don't be afraid." Even though I said that, I also feel very guilty. The problem is where did he hit this brick. If his brain is dry, he will really be hopeless.If it wasn't for the senior sister being here, I would have scolded me a long time ago, but I can't panic if she is here.If I panic, she will definitely break down.

I turned my head to look at my senior, she had stopped crying and her hands were hanging on her knees.The frequency of breathing was so chaotic, I really didn't know how to comfort her.I reached out and touched her nails, and the senior sister immediately held my hand back.Her palms were as cold as mine, and I tried to calm myself down and kept telling her it was okay, it was okay.

I don't know how long it took, but my brother was lying in the operating room, and every minute and every second was so difficult.When the doctor came out, my legs were so weak that I could hardly stand up.Senior sister's condition is not much better than mine, if I hadn't helped her, she would have fallen to her knees.

"Teacher, is the patient okay?!" Hu Yidao was pushed out of the operating room, followed by seniors in the department.

"Xiaoye, why are you here? This is your relative?"

"Well, yes, my brother. Are you all right?"

"It's okay, just a little blood, a concussion. It's nothing serious. If you take a good rest, there will be no sequelae." The senior patted me on the shoulder and walked to the locker room.My hanging heart finally fell, and I had no strength in my body. The senior sister fell to her knees without my support, and it took us a long time to recover.All terrified.

Finally, the senior took my arm and stood up.We went to Hu Yidao's ward together.Because we are students in the hospital, the nurse accommodated us and let us in, but we couldn't stay for too long.He was lying there quietly, with a thick layer of bandage wrapped around his head. I would hardly have recognized him if I hadn't seen his cheeks that were wrapped so tightly.I used to joke that he has a big face, but now that he is wrapped up in such a small ball, he is really not handsome at all. He still looks the best when he is healthy.

After staying for about a quarter of an hour, we were kicked out by the nurse.Senior sister's mood has stabilized a lot.It was very late, and I was worried that she would go back alone as a girl, so I said I would send her off.But the senior sister insisted on staying here, and she would not go back until Hu Yidao woke up.

I went to the department to get two paper cups, poured some hot water, gave a cup to the senior sister, and held a cup to warm my hands.Obviously the summer heat has not faded away, but the coldness in the palms still cannot be relieved.

"Sister, can you tell me what's going on?" We sat together on the bench outside Hu Yidao's ward, and it took a long time before I spoke.The senior sister groped for the cup with her hands for a long time, without saying anything, just when I thought she would not tell me, she suddenly spoke.

"It was my father who beat him." After the senior sister finished speaking, I opened my eyes wide in surprise, and for a moment I didn't know how to respond.She didn't seem to expect a response from me, more like a confession.

"Don't blame him, it's because I'm not good enough for him, I'm the one who hurt him." The senior sister's voice is very low, this is probably the first time I've talked to a girl for a long time, and those girls with sharp voices in my consciousness Unlike the child, her voice was as understated and earthy as her person.

"That man, although he is my father, has never done his duty for a day. As long as I can remember, he has been beating my mother. Going out to drink every day, playing drunk, and then sleeping for another day. This is the cycle, I I have hardly seen him sober for a day. The land in our house is tended by my mother alone. I went to the land with her when I was very young. Later, once he was drunk and wanted to beat me, but my mother stopped him He hit my mother on the back with a broom, so hard. I don't understand why we are his relatives. He beat and scolded, and I finally knew why. Because of me, he wanted I’m a boy, but my mother got sick after giving birth to me and couldn’t reproduce. It’s all because of me.” When the senior sister spoke, her face was calm and frightening, without any trace of sorrow, as if she was telling someone else’s story, and she felt the pain in her heart. It's downright hopeless.

"Tell me, if someone gets involved with me, I can't get any good. I swear to study hard. My mother is not in good health, so I went to medical school. After I went to college, I didn't ask my family for a penny. , I held several jobs. The medical school course was very tiring. I was tired and lost a lot of hair during that time, but I was happy in my heart. I can finally support myself and save some money. You can pick up my mother. My mother can do some small crafts. We, mother and daughter, rent a small house and can barely support ourselves. That year I was a sophomore, and I finally saved enough money to rent a house. I took my mother from home I ran out and didn’t see her for half a year. She was so thin that she was almost out of shape. I took her to Beijing and rented a small private room. We cooked a table full of dishes and had a happy reunion dinner The next morning, when I woke her up and touched her, my mother was already cold. Before I could treat her well, she died. Is it because I was a heinous person in my previous life, so God wants to do this Tortured me. I haven't had time to treat her well. I found out later that she has liver cancer, which is in the terminal stage. Those men knew about it a long time ago, and he didn't say anything, and he still disliked my mother for dragging him down." The senior sister said this When talking, the nails almost dug into the flesh of the palm.There was deep mockery in her eyes, mocking the injustice of fate and her own powerlessness.

"I never went home again, and my mother didn't. This kind of thing doesn't exist for me. Unexpectedly, after so many years, he found me, and he married a woman from another village. That woman gave him I gave birth to a son. He heard from my relatives that I worked in Beijing and made money, so he asked me for money. He asked back and forth in T doctor, and finally found me after searching for a long time. I was stuck downstairs in my dormitory. How could I Give him money, I hate him but I can't hate him. Sometimes, I really feel that what my mother said is right, this is my life, my life, this is my life. He comes to pester me, I don't give it to him, he Just hit me with a brick, Hu Yidao blocked me, and I caused him to lie here. Do you think it’s true that I’m the fate of a ghost, and no one will be well if I stand next to me.” Senior sister’s voice She was shaking so badly that I couldn't get in a word, and I didn't know how to comfort her.If I say how Hu Yidao loves him, then seeing Hu Yidao's appearance will definitely make her feel even more uncomfortable.

My senior sister and I stayed outside the ward for a day, but Hu Yidao never woke up.But we have been allowed to enter the ward.Hu Yidao was still lying so quietly, he has always been so energetic, such a vigorous person, I am not used to becoming so quiet.My senior sister and I moved the chairs and leaned against Hu Yidao's bed. We stayed up all night, and no one could support us.My senior and I took a break alternately.When she woke up again, it was already evening, the senior sister reached out her hand to touch Hu Yidao's cheek, but when she touched it, she retracted it like an electric shock.I remembered that she said that no one who gets in touch with her will get any good money.I felt a severe pain in my heart.

"Sister, do you live in the faculty dormitory building? Do you live in Building No. [-] or Building No. [-]?"

"Building No. [-]. What's the matter?" The senior looked at me in surprise, wondering why I would ask such a question when I just got up.

"I'm going to do something for my brother, and you are here to guard the old Hu. I will come back to find you after finishing the work. What do you want to eat?"

"You can do whatever you want, I'm not hungry. What are you going to do?" The senior sister asked again. I stood up and slumped on my numb legs a few times. I waved my hand and walked away without answering her question.

I took the bus back to Doctor T and bought a bottle of Yanjing Beer in the school supermarket.Please ask the boss to help me open the lid and empty the wine inside. It's quite easy to hold.I walked to Building 1. With the dim light, I saw a man standing downstairs about 1 meters tall. His back was a little hunchback and he was probably in his 7s.

"Excuse me, are you Jiang Yuanyuan's father?" I walked over and asked politely.

He was speaking in a dialect, which I could barely understand, as if he were swearing. "Do you know where that bitch hid?" I finally understood this sentence, and at the same time I raised the wine bottle in my hand and smashed it down without hesitation.I've heard people say that what men who beat their wives fear most is violence.I know where I can hit and where I can't hit. I don't want to hurt anyone, I just want to teach this bastard who is worthy of being a husband and father a lesson.Violence is really easy to use, Li Weiran told me early on.

I put the man under me and put my knees on his back.He panicked and begged for mercy desperately, promising that he would never come to see his senior again.I put the broken wine bottle on his neck, and if I do it again, I will kill him.In the end, I gave him all the money I had on me, and asked him to find a clinic to bandage the wound, and then go home, and never appear in the life of my senior sister, and I will never owe him anything.

I just caught the last bus, and I only have the card on me. If I miss the last bus, I really don’t know what to do.I finally arrived at the T hospital. I was delayed outside for almost 3 hours. I don’t know if Hu Yidao has woken up. The doctor meant that he didn’t hurt his vitals.When I opened the door, I heard Hu Yidao's voice, and he really woke up.

"Yuanyuan." Hu Yidao called out. "I'm fine."

The senior sister looked at him stupidly, and it took a long time to react, and the tears flowed down uncontrollably.He wanted to say something, but he opened and closed his mouth, but no sound came out.

"Yuanyuan, come home with me. I will treat you well for the rest of my life." Hu Yidao hoarse.He looked at the senior sister, his eyes were full of her reflection.Even though I'm such a big living person standing here, he didn't react at all, this bastard who values ​​sex and despises friends!