Stockholm syndrome

On the fifteenth day of the first lunar month, I was on duty in the hospital.In time for the festival, I was afraid that my dad would be lonely at home, so I asked Uncle Wu to play cards. Fortunately, Uncle Wu didn't have to go back to Wu Qingfeng's grandfather's place during the Lantern Festival.This year's Lantern Festival is rare and clean.In the past, there would always be various injuries from time to time.

I lay on the table in a daze, with two large glass bottles of glucose in hand.Most solvents are now in bags, and glass bottles are rare.This was given to me by the head nurse in the department, it can be regarded as a benefit of the unit.The glass bottle is very useful, you can take home sesame sauce.The phone rang, and I picked it up to say hello.The other party didn't speak, so I yelled again.Still no sound.

Suddenly there was a long-lost feeling, I stopped talking, and held the phone quietly, my heart was beating so hard that it almost hit my ribs.There was a slight breathing sound from the opposite side, and I knew he was listening. "Happy New Year." This was the first time I spoke to a silent phone, almost an instinctive reaction, and I didn't know why I said it, maybe it was because I was a little uncomfortable being alone in such a joyous atmosphere.He didn't even have this concentration.

This is the phone number in the department. It is wrong for me to occupy the line during working hours, and I don't know who is on the other side. What about Li Weiran is just my subjective imagination.I shook my head, and just as I was about to put down the phone, a voice suddenly came from the other side.

"Happy New Year."

"Happy New Year." That familiar voice struck my heart one after another, penetrating through 10 years of time, and brought my numb heart back to life in an instant.It's such a simple 4 words, but it made me cry uncontrollably.I bit the back of my hand, not daring to make a sound.

I heard the breathing on the opposite side was a bit messy, and after a long time, his voice came again. "It's Chinese New Year, I just made a phone call, I didn't expect you to answer it." Li Weiran's voice was a little hoarse, "I...I...have nothing to do. It's just...I just want to talk to you, what I want to say. Look at me Just remember it and forget it."

"I'll be graduating soon. I'll be assigned to the Affiliated Hospital of T Hospital, and you can come to me for medical treatment in the future." I raised my hand to wipe away the tears on my face, trying to make my voice sound as normal as possible.I originally wanted to ask him, how are you? This is probably the most clichéd line after all kinds of separation, but I can’t say it no matter what. If he is not doing well, I will feel bad. I can't help but want to get close to him.

"Well, good." Li Weiran replied, I even forgot that a family like his should have a private doctor, so I don't need it. "You're busy."

"Okay, that's it." I held the phone and refused to put it down, and the other side was still silent.Just like when we used to talk on the phone, we were always stubborn and refused to call first, and I was often the one who gave in in the end.But this time, I really don't want to let it go, it's a New Year's gift for me, let me listen to his voice more, even for a second. "You buckle it."

"Okay...I...Ah Shen." Li Weiran's voice trembled, he called my name, his voice was crying, and I heard him gasping for breath on the phone. "Ah Shen, I miss you."

"What are you thinking about? Don't you have a lot of business in your company. If you have time, go and think about your family." My clothes tightly clutched my chest to relieve the pain from the bottom of my heart, but it was always useless.

"Ah Shen, you are my family. I always feel that a place with you is my home. Ah Shen, please save me. I really can't take it anymore." Li Weiran cried out, removing all the disguise and Cover up, vulnerable like a child. "I have been restraining myself, not thinking, not thinking, but people's hearts can't be closed. In the past few months, I listened to my family's words and went on a blind date, but I couldn't find the feeling. Suddenly, I felt that nothing mattered. , I don’t care whoever I marry. No one will come into my heart. Without you, I’m a walking corpse, and my heart is empty. Ah Shen, I can’t control myself. I’m having a bad time, especially bad, You save me."

"Li Weiran." I bit my lower lip tightly, and the bloody taste gradually spread in my mouth. "You're a fucking bitch! Where are you now?!"

Li Weiran was dumbfounded by my scolding, and didn't react for a while.I repeated, "Where the fuck are you?"

"I'm at my villa at home."

"Where are your parents?"

"Here too."

"Tell your sister to carry the child upstairs, don't scare him." I took a deep breath and held the glucose that was put aside. "You wait for you!"

I didn't even bother to change my clothes, so I ran to the next office and shouted to the nurse on duty, "Xiao Liu, ask Dr. Zhang to come and see for me. There is something urgent at home." After I finished speaking, I ran away without looking back. Yes, there were a lot of taxis waiting at the entrance of the hospital, so I opened the door and jumped in.

In this life, people will always do some impulsive things that cannot be turned back.When I was young, I was always honest and responsible, and I didn't dare to resist or fight for it.Always holding the mentality of sitting on the sidelines, expecting happiness to fall like a pie, it is really stupid, I am a fucking idiot.This time I will not be submissive, the person I love is waiting for me.

When the car arrived at Li Weiran's community, I gave the driver 100 yuan and jumped out of the car without asking for change.I have always been a road idiot, but this time I found the villa of Li Weiran's family with no accuracy.Maybe it's because of the cumbersome things during the Chinese New Year. The family invited servants, and they retreated after they introduced me into the house.When Li Weiran's parents saw me, they were suddenly stunned, and they looked at each other for a while and sat there.The Lantern Festival is a day for reunion, but I came to disrupt the situation for them. I hated myself in my heart, but I couldn't control my actions.I think the way I look now, I look like a vengeful villain with a big bottle of glucose in my hand and bloodshot eyes.

"Ah Shen." I heard Li Weiran's voice, raised my head, he was walking down from the second floor, Li Suran firmly held his arm to prevent him from coming, but was thrown away by Li Weiran.I haven't seen him in a few months. Although he is still clean and tidy, he is so thin that even his eye sockets are sunken.In the past, I always said that Li Weiran is a clothes hanger, he looks good in anything, but now he is thinner, with clothes hanging on his body, he looks empty.

I took a step closer to Li Weiran's parents, raised my hand violently, and threw the glucose on the ground forcefully. The bottle was broken into pieces, and the glucose solution spilled out and splashed all over the floor.

"Ye Shen, you..." Li Zeshen stood up, just about to say something.I suddenly knelt on the broken glass, and the whole room fell silent.I don't know what to say to express my apology, maybe this way is the best way to express it.

"Ah Shen, what are you doing, get up." Li Weiran ran over, trying to pull me, but I pushed him away.Human potential is unlimited. I am a medical worker, so I shouldn't have such idealistic thoughts, but at this moment, I really feel that I have infinite power and can open up a path for me and my loved ones .

"Auntie, Uncle, I'm sorry." I bent down, and Li Weiran's parents stood up, probably none of them thought that a cowardly and useless person like me would have an outburst one day. "I can't leave Li Weiran alone. I love him more than anyone else in the world. I love him, so I can give him up. I think he can live a happy life, marry a wife and have children, and be happy But I was wrong. People are not machines after all. How can we live happily without feelings. Li Weiran and I have known each other for 10 years. At the beginning, I really hated him, and he often bullied me. But with As time goes by, I still fall in love with him. I know his preferences and habits. We have been separated for 6 years, and we haven’t had any contact in these 6 years, but we just can’t forget each other. That kind of feeling has gone deep Bone marrow, no matter how much you can give up, you can't give up. I feel sorry for him if he is not doing well. Please, please help us. I don't want him to be sad, I don't want him to have no confidant in his life. I know you feel sorry for Li Weiran and want him Live a good life, but live a good life, not only have good material, the most important thing is to feel comfortable, people are not plants. I will treat him well for the rest of my life, give him good food, and make him happy every day. I swear, I swear." I looked up at Li Weiran's parents, Li Zeshen walked towards me, and Li Weiran also rushed over, he was probably worried about what Li Zeshen would do to me, so he stood in front of me. "It's okay, you get out of the way first." I pushed Li Weiran to the side, exposing half of my body to face Li Zeshen.

Li Zeshen looked into my eyes, and for some reason, his sharp eyes suddenly became soft.He slowly stretched out his hand to me, but when he touched my tear mole, he took it back like an electric shock.He covered his face, took a deep breath, turned and walked away.Only Li Weiran's mother was left in the hall.

"Mom." Li Weiran hugged me and knelt close to me. "I have never begged you for anything in my life. Please let me live. I love Ye Chen to the bottom of my heart. Without him, I really can't live. Nothing is meaningful. Even if I have a wife and children, I can't love them either. My heart is just so big, it's all Ah Shen. No one can hold it. You let me be with him, please. If you want grandchildren, you can test-tube babies. If you I feel that I am ashamed of falling in love with a man, so I will hide my relationship with Ah Shen, so as not to let outsiders find out. I agree to whatever you want, and I am willing to do whatever you ask me to dare. I just ask you to let me and Ah Shen is together. I have no greater wish."

Li Weiran's mother looks at us, no matter how powerful she is, she is still a mother.She looked at Li Weiran and spoke for a long time. "Weiran, as a mother, I owe you in the end. I'm old and I don't care about anything. The only thing I worry about is you two. I don't care about fame and wealth. It's you, my son. You Do you understand. You have been sensible since you were a child, and you will not embarrass me. In the past few months, you have become so thin, and my mother is distressed. I know you really love him. As long as you don't regret it, my mother will help you." She said, Tears slid down.Love for children is a virtue that exists in every mother, poor or rich.

I looked at her stupidly and didn't react for a long time.Such a difficult hurdle has been crossed in this way, and people's hearts are really elusive.In fact, if you think about it carefully, it is so simple and powerful, it is nothing more than three words.I love you.I love you, so I want you to be happy.

"What are you still in a daze for? Get up quickly. His knees are bleeding. Li Weiran, why are you still in a daze? Take him to the hospital." Li Weiran's mother yelled.Only then did I realize the pain. The broken glass on the ground pierced through my pants and stuck into my knees. The knees of my pants were already stained red with blood. The pain came one after another along with the beating of my pulse.

Li Weiran picked me up horizontally, ran out quickly, opened the car door and squeezed in, and went straight to the nearest hospital.I was lying in the co-pilot's seat, watching the flying scenery around me, and I had never felt happier than before.

"Li Weiran, I'm so happy." I raised my head and laughed loudly.

"Stupid, it doesn't hurt anymore, shut up." Li Weiran resumed his domineering look, this is the man I love, no matter his arrogance or weakness, I love him so much that I can't help myself.

I arrived at the nearest hospital in less than 20 minutes, and I was taken to the emergency room by Li Weiran.The hospital is not big, but there are many people.I'm ashamed to react now.Wearing a doctor's white coat, I was carried by a man and ran through the halls of the hospital.All the embarrassing things in this life are inseparable from Li Weiran.

The glass texture of the hanging bottle is not as brittle as that of a wine bottle. There are not many broken glass, most of which are scratches. The doctor on duty is very young and seems to have just graduated. He is not as skilled in picking broken glass as I am. .The wound was healed quickly, and stitches are generally not needed for knee injuries.Fortunately, the ligaments and joints were not injured. Now I am afraid that if I accidentally injure the ligaments, there will be sequelae.When people become crazy, they really have no taboos.

The scratches on the joints should pay attention to infection. I hung up two bottles of anti-inflammatory drugs in the hospital before I was released.Li Weiran carried me out.When the knee was bent, the wound was pulled away and the pain was so severe that I gasped.Li Weiran wanted to hug me, but I strangled his neck and refused to let go.Being carried in is already embarrassing enough, I will never let him carry me out again.

Li Weiran and I returned home, opened the door, and my dad was there.He probably had just entered the house with a bag of apples in his hand.

"What's going on with you?!" My dad was shocked when he saw the blood on my pants, and the apple fell to the ground as soon as his hand trembled.

"It's okay, I accidentally fell on the glass."

"Uncle, I'm sorry. I didn't like him." Li Weiran helped me to sit down on the sofa, and picked up the apple and packed it.

"It's none of your business. He must have done it himself. Xiao Wei, sit down first." My dad came over.Li Weiran sat obediently next to me.His hands hung obediently on his knees, it turned out that he would also be nervous. "Chen'er, take off your pants and let me see."

"It's all right, I can still hide it from you. Let me take a break, I'm tired just after I came back." I looked at the coffee table, reached out to pick up the fruit knife on it, put it in the handle and put it under the sofa.

"Dad, let me tell you something. Don't worry."

"What's the matter?" My dad sat down on the other side of me.

"I love him."

"Oh." My dad responded, unexpectedly calm, and didn't say anything superfluous, which made me uneasy instead.There was a long silence after that, I lowered my head not daring to look my dad in the eyes.He stood up suddenly, and a shadow shrouded in front of me.

"Uncle, don't hit him." Li Weiran also stood up and blocked me behind him.

"Get out of the way, I won't hit him. Xiaomei and I made an oath that we wouldn't touch him." My dad sighed, and he waved his hand, motioning for Li Weiran to leave.The emotions in his eyes were very complicated, and he couldn't tell whether it was disappointment or distress.From childhood to adulthood, I have always been very sensible and obedient.I never imagined that one day I would do such an absurd thing.Li Weiran hesitated for a moment, retreated behind the sofa, and rested his hand on my shoulder uneasy.

"Dad, do you still remember? During SARS, our family was almost doomed." When I said this, my nose was sour and my voice became hoarse. "At that time, I really felt that the sky was falling. Li Weiran came back from England. I was lying in the intensive care unit at that time, and I saw him standing in front of the tempered glass in a chemical protective suit. I thought at that time, in my life, I will never love someone like this again. No one will be by my side in times of crisis like him, and will give me a hand when I can’t go on. This time I went to the disaster area and encountered mudslides. I didn’t tell you, So you don’t know. We were buried in the car for more than 30 hours, and he was the first person to come to me. For 10 years, I love him and never stop. You always say that a person must have a companion, Just let Li Weiran accompany me. I have no ambitions or ideals since I was a child. You let me study medicine and I will learn. But this time, I have only one thought in my life. Would you let Li Weiran be with me? .”

"Uncle. I never thought that I would fall in love with a man before. But Ye Chen appeared just like that. No one has ever been in my heart like him. I don't care if he is a man or a woman, an animal or a man. Machine, I just love him. I will never like anyone or anything more than him in this life. I am in good health. When Ye Chen gets old, I will take care of him.