Stockholm syndrome

In the afterglow of the setting sun, a golden parabola appeared on the young boy who was flying into the air.It's just that this time the protagonist has been replaced by a sprinter.

Li Weiran stood in front of me, his back still had a lot of wet sweat stains.After many years, I can't forget this scene.On the tree-lined path of the campus, the leaves of the poplar trees next to it were almost gone, and the setting sun shone through the bare branches, and Li Weiran's shoulders trembled slightly with his breathing.

When I was bullied, only Zhong Han blocked me, and he was the second.Different from Zhong Han's good words and persuasion, his method is more violent and direct.The sprinter knew Li Weiran, he was much more knowledgeable than me, and he ran away immediately when he realized that the opponent had changed to something he couldn't deal with.From turning over to starting in one go, the speed is astonishingly fast, without any pause at all. I am deeply gratified for the sports cause of the motherland.

Li Weiran yelled at the back of the sprinter running away, I suddenly couldn't hear what he was saying, and my ears started to ring.Clinically, there have been fatal cases in which someone punched the head and injured the brainstem.I felt very dizzy, and the nosebleed choked into my throat, making me cough uncontrollably.

"Ye Shen?!" Li Weiran came back to me, trying to pull me up, but I was lying on the ground as if I had no bones.Maybe I was frightened by my own thoughts, and I suddenly lost my strength.I'm afraid of death, I'm afraid.I opened my eyes and looked at Li Weiran. He stretched out his hand and patted my cheek lightly, and kept shouting "Ye Shen, Ye Shen." It hurts, I finally can't see his face clearly.

It was already night when I woke up again, the clock on the wall was ticking, I looked at the watch at 8:[-], I was not stupid, at least I recognized the watch.My mother was changing my medicine. She was holding two hanging bottles in her hand, and skillfully pulled out the plug and poked it into the new bottle.

The nearest hospital to our school is the X Hospital, and I was not surprised to see my mother.But seeing Li Weiran, I was very surprised.Li Weiran was sitting by my bed, his clothes were not changed, and my nosebleed was still rubbing against them.Seeing that I was awake, I quickly grabbed my mother's arm. "Auntie, Ye Shen is awake. Look at him, look at him!"

My mother took the bottle and looked back at me.I also looked at her, there was no expression on my face, one side of my face was swollen, no matter what expression I made, it hurt badly.

"Auntie, is he stupid?!" Li Weiran looked nervously at my mother, then at me, and stretched out his hand to shake in front of my eyes.

My mother was not nervous, she suddenly raised her hand towards my uninjured right cheek.I instinctively raised my hand to the gear, because the sports bottle was shaking so much, Li Weiran hurriedly supported the bottle bracket. "He's fine." My mother glanced at me, "He's fine."

"Achen, let me ask you." My mother is from Suzhou, and Shen and Chen almost have the same tone when they pronounce it.

"Oh." I replied, and the wound on my face was painful.

"What's the matter with you?"

"Our class played football against other classes. Because of me, our class won, and the other class practiced sprinting, so they blocked me." I whispered what happened this afternoon, trying to avoid involving my face muscles.I turned my head and found that Li Weiran was looking at me expectantly, like a puppy waiting to be fed by its owner.I added one more sentence. "Later Li Weiran came and beat the sprinter away, and then I didn't know."

"Is that so?" My mother turned to Li Weiran again.

"Yes." Li Weiran kept nodding. "Auntie, can I go?"

"Let's go. Thank you this time. Auntie is thinking too much. Come and play at home more often when you have free time." My mother's attitude immediately turned around, and her voice was as gentle as if she had switched her personality.

"I'm leaving, Auntie. Goodbye, Auntie." With my mother's consent, Li Weiran jumped up immediately.When he ran to the door, he was stunned for a moment, and looked at me while holding the door frame, and then ran away again for just a moment.

There were only the two of us left in the ward. My mother sat next to my hand that didn't get the injection, and gently touched my cheek, her eyes suddenly turned red.My mother is usually very tough, and I can't bear to see her like this.I wish she would scold me for being ignorant and pinch my arm as usual.She made me feel like a piece of trash. I usually do nothing at school no matter how useless I am. I just don’t want to cause trouble for them. I can’t see my mother worrying about me.

"I'm sorry, Mom. I was wrong." I reached out and grabbed the corner of my mother's clothes.

"It's okay." My mother raised the back of her hand and rubbed the corners of her eyes, returning to her usual appearance. "It's not your fault. Mom, will you go to your dean?"

"No need. Really no need." If my mother really went to find the teaching director, there's no guarantee that the sprinter would retaliate against me. This group of people has some connection with the gangsters. Next time, find a group of people to stop me. I really can't live. "Li Weiran has already joined him." I quickly pulled Li Weiran out to save the scene.

"That boy is a good boy. I misunderstood him." My mother pulled the quilt away and looked at the needles in my hands for stink. "You have a good relationship, right? He carried you here by himself. The school is four stops away from here. It's really hard for other children to carry you here. It seems that we really don't know each other. Your nosebleeds rubbed on someone's back. , I don’t know if the clothes can be washed out, and I will buy a new one for them later. Thank you very much.”

"Understood. Don't worry, he can definitely come here by taxi." I don't believe that Li Weiran would be so stupid as to carry a 130-jin man to four stops. I can even imagine his stinky face threatening the driver to drive away quickly. look.

"You didn't think he beat me like this just now, did you?" Although she didn't agree with my mother when she said that we have a good relationship, she misunderstood that Li Weiran beat me like this. I really don't know what she thinks.If Li Weiran did it, he wouldn't deal with the aftermath.

My mother turned her head in embarrassment, parted her hair, and changed the topic. "You rest first, I'm on duty today, ring the bell if I have something to do." She pointed to the red electric bell on the bedside, put her hands in her pockets, turned and walked away.

"Hey, wait."

"What are you doing again?" My mother stopped and turned to look at me.

"Am I serious? Do I have a concussion?" I touched my side face carefully and asked worriedly.

"You're fine. After exercising, you exhausted yourself a lot. You just passed out when you were caught by someone. It's all right. It's been checked, and you don't need to be hospitalized. I just happen to be on duty today, so you can just lie down and rest overnight." My mom gave me the quilt horn. "In the future, if someone bullies you at school, let Li Weiran beat you back."

"Huh?" I opened my mouth wide in surprise, the wound on my face was so painful that I couldn't help gasping.

"He promised me just now that he will protect you in school in the future. You are so useless, it's not easy to have a friend with a bit of backbone, and it's rare that people don't dislike you."

This time I was completely speechless, what did she and Li Weiran do during the time I was in a coma.Seeing her full of confidence in my future campus life, I couldn't bear to tell him that the only person who bullies me in school is that spineless boy you just asked for.

My mother gave a few more instructions and stopped staying.This is a double ward, and I am the only one lying in the ward. It is very quiet in the ward, except for the imperceptible hum of work from the fluorescent lamp.I lay there looking at the ceiling. The left side of my face was so swollen that it hurt even to blink.The ward is filled with the smell of disinfectant, perhaps because my parents are both medical workers. I don't dislike this smell, on the contrary it makes me feel inexplicably comforted.

Li Weiran rescued me from the sprinter, and Li Weiran carried me to the hospital.This guy threw the homework book on my face 10 hours ago, threatening to kill me if I couldn't finish it.My current situation is definitely beyond writing, and it is almost dead.

I don't know why, from the moment Li Weiran stood in front of me, my feeling towards him suddenly changed, an inexplicable feeling emerged spontaneously, as if sodium sulfate was poured into the barium chloride solution, and instantly A white precipitate appeared, falling to the bottom of the test tube piece by piece like snowflakes.It is normal for a person to feel admiration for someone who has helped him, but if this person is the culprit who often bullies him, he just happened to give a little favor, which is abnormal.

It's a mental illness called Stockholm Syndrome.Systematically speaking, the hostages will have a sense of psychological dependence on the hijackers.Their life and death are in the hands of their captors, and they are grateful to the captors for letting them live.Li Weiran has been bullying me in various ways, and suddenly he helped me out once, and I am grateful.

I don't want to admit it, but I was really touched.Especially when I woke up, I saw him sitting by my bed, rubbing the bottom of his shorts with his hands.His anxious appearance really shocked me, like being hit by a drumstick on the heart, and there was even a slight echo.

I always thought I was a normal person.Strong nerves, optimistic, never world-weary tendencies.Unexpectedly, there is a tendency towards neurosis.According to research by psychologists, people who are emotionally dependent on others and are easily moved can easily develop Stockholm Syndrome if they encounter similar situations.I thought about it carefully, as if I really was this type.The late stage of Stockholm Syndrome is that the hostage will inevitably fall in love with the criminal.I really don't want to fall in love with Li Weiran, this is so nonsense.

But sometimes, psychological hints often have the opposite effect. The more I tell myself not to think about it, the more inevitably I will lead myself into that vicious circle.It's like getting lost in the forest, and I can't get out no matter what, but I didn't know at the time that I would be trapped in this forest for 10 years, from 17 to 27 years old, and I couldn't find the exit or return retreat.