Bliss

coming.

After calming down a little, Chu Yi still picked up the phone.

The author has something to say: the state is not very good these days... try to adjust

Sorry for the long wait...

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"Why did it take so long to answer?" He Yuan's deep voice came through the phone, as gentle as ever.

"I didn't hear the bell just now." Chu Yi replied casually.

"No problem?" He Yuan suddenly asked.

"Eh? No...why do you ask that?" Chu Yi's heart beat faster.

"I always feel that something is wrong with you, and I can't say why, I just feel that way." He Yuan smiled lightly as if mocking himself.

"No, you always worry about it. I've been taking you as my mother for the past few years." Chu Yi pretended to be relaxed, but he was surprised by He Yuan's sensitivity in his heart, "By the way, is there something wrong with you calling me so late? "

"It's nothing, I just want to talk to you." He Yuan's voice sounded a little different from usual, "Chu Yi, have we known each other for more than six years?" He suddenly said that.

"Well, that's right." It has been six years since the freshman year, and the older I get, the faster time seems to pass.

He Yuan was silent for a moment, and then said: "Then what kind of existence do you think I am to you?"

"What kind..." Chu Yi was stunned for a moment, not understanding why He Yuan suddenly asked, "Of course you are my best friend, but in fact, I already treat you as a family member."

"Dear one..." There was a shallow sigh from the other side.

"What's the matter? You asked this out of nowhere, so you didn't have any problems, right?" Chu Yi became worried instead, and He Yuan's state was not right.

"Chu Yi, in fact, you will live well without me, right?" The voice through the receiver was a bit lonely.

"……What did you say?"

"I always feel..." He Yuan paused, a little hesitant, but still said it out, "I always feel that you are getting farther and farther away from me."

"..." Chu Yi was silent, thinking about the meaning of He Yuan's words, but he couldn't find the result after all.

"Chu Yi..." He Yuan continued, his voice a little dry, as if he was wondering about something, choosing his words, "There are some things I wanted to tell you a long time ago, but I was always afraid that saying them would change your opinion of me .”

"... Whatever you say, you can just say it. He Yuan is He Yuan, and I will not change my opinion of you." Although Chu Yi said that, he still became a little nervous, and his hand holding the phone was sweating.

There was silence on the other side, only a slight breathing sound.

After a while, as if he had made up his mind, He Yuan said, "Chu Yi, I like you for a long time."

"..." Chu Yi didn't realize the meaning of the words, and didn't answer the words for a while.

"The liking I'm talking about is the kind of liking I want to associate with you." He Yuan added.

"What did you say..." Chu Yi tried to smile, trying to take He Yuan's words as a joke, "This joke is too cold..."

"I'm serious, I know it's difficult for you, but I really want to say it. I fell in love with you when I was still in college and I was afraid to tell you. But if I don't say it, I will regret it , so no matter what the result is, at least let you know."

"He Yuan..." Countless images related to He Yuan flashed through Chu Yi's mind.

We met for the first time, got acquainted with each other, discussed rock music together, formed a band, wrote songs together, performed underground LIVE, stayed by his side even after the band disbanded and even graduated... No matter how many twists and turns and hardships he experienced, the man who always smiled gently, Always give him full support.

So gradually, he seemed to take it for granted, but ignored the mood and feelings of the other party.

It turned out that He Yuan stayed by his side with that kind of mood, and it turned out that all the maintenance of himself was not based on friendship alone.

He began to understand why He Yuan behaved like that when facing Shen Xuanyu.

"I……"

"You don't need to answer, I know." The other party suddenly interrupted, "I just want to tell you, I just want to tell you..."

He knows, what does he know.

Chu Yi stood silently, his thoughts confused.

The Eternal poster on the wall invaded his brain, and everything about Shen Xuanyu emerged.

I like you - that man has said this to him more than once.The tension and heartbeat at that time are still impressive, and even thinking about it now makes my cheeks feel hot.However, He Yuan's confession just now had nothing but shock, embarrassment and uneasiness to him.

"You like Shen Xuanyu, right?" The silence was broken, and those words hit his heart suddenly, making Chu Yi breathless.

"No, I didn't..." He hurriedly tried to defend himself.

A soft laugh came from the opposite side: "It's really a fan of the authorities. You can't show your liking for him very clearly, but you have always been unwilling to admit it."

"..." Chu Yi became embarrassed, as if someone had seen through him from the inside out.The part that has been deliberately ignored has been pointed out mercilessly, and it is completely irrefutable.

"So I know that you wouldn't like me in the past, and you won't now." With a sigh, He Yuan came to a conclusion.

Chu Yi still didn't know what to say, comfort or understanding?I'm afraid it will only become harm.

"So what do you think of me now? After knowing this." He Yuan asked again.

"What you saw in the past is how you see it now." Chu Yi didn't hesitate this time.He Yuan is He Yuan and will not change because of what he said.

"Really? Then it's great for me to say these words. I was worried at first." He Yuan breathed a sigh of relief.

"We have been friends for so many years, and I have always regarded you as a relative, and I will not change anything because of this."

"Thank you." As always, the deep and gentle voice, just hearing that voice can make people feel at ease, and He Yuan has such an appealing power.

"But Chu Yi, although it's strange for me to say these words...but I think you should admit your feelings earlier, otherwise you might regret it in the future. In fact, seeing you with Shen Xuanyu and seeing you caring about him so much, To be honest, I'm really upset and unwilling. But since you like him, don't run away anymore, it's really not easy to meet a person who loves him."

"But I'm not gay." Chu Yi blurted out and hastily argued.

"Because you firmly believe that you are not gay, so you refuse to admit that you are in love with the same sex?" He Yuan asked, "Then you seem to have gotten into a dead end."

Chu Yi was stunned, and once again hit the nail on the head, the psychological fortress he had built before began to loosen and collapse.

"Although I hope you can be with me, but the person you like is not me... Then if you can be happy with that person, I will definitely smile and bless you." The relaxed tone is mixed with not easy Feeling sad, Chu Yi didn't know how uncomfortable He Yuan felt when he said these words.

"Maybe you're right..." Chu Yi murmured as if giving up, "Maybe I really should re-examine myself."

"I just don't want to see you regret it in the future. I know this feeling is very uncomfortable." Just like the pain suppressed in the chest at this moment.

"He Yuan... Thank you." Chu Yi didn't know whether he should thank or apologize at this time.

There was a soft laughter from the other end of the phone, followed by an almost inaudible sigh, I have heard it countless times tonight.

"Thank me for nothing. I should thank you for not changing your opinion of me because of this. Thanks to this phone call to you, the words I have been holding back in my heart have been spoken out, and the whole person is much lighter." He Yuan said with a smile, "No Knowing your expression now, I really want to touch your head like usual."

"Please, I'm not a child anymore, the behavior of touching my head should have stopped long ago." Chu Yi protested.

The atmosphere of the conversation was finally no longer so rigid, as usual, he joked a few words lightly, and He Yuan said good night.Before hanging up the phone, he did not forget to tell Chu Yi to take a good rest and work hard for the goals agreed upon by each other.

However, the turmoil in Chu Yi's heart was far from calming down.

The matter of being threatened by someone taking a sneak photo just now has not been resolved, and now I suddenly learned that my friend has hidden feelings for me for a long time... But the worst thing is that I gradually have to face up to my own heart.

Chu Yi rummaged through the address book and found Shen Xuanyu's phone card. It seemed that just looking at that number would cause a small ripple in his heart.

The author has something to say: this part is very difficult to write, and I am not good at writing such delicate parts

So everyone understands that He Yuan is such a person who silently guards a person, and when he learns that the other person will not like him, he silently gives up... Hard work means he orz.But he will change, when he meets someone who will make him change XD

Chu Yi, this stupefied young man, is finally about to open up, his face is full of cows... In fact, he is surprisingly conservative...

It will be fun for a while later, but the progress is really slow, and I feel uncomfortable, but just write a chapter for any plot...I have to study the improvement method on this.

Thank you to the girls who have persisted here. This is the first time I wrote such a long article. Everything is in the process of groping, bumping into bumps, and I can still read the text. The speed is very slow. It’s really hard for you TT

layer39 love each other

Pressing the call button made Chu Yi's heart beat wildly.

The phone was connected quickly, and there was Shen Xuanyu's unexpected and excited voice: "Honey, call me so late, miss me?"

It seems that just by hearing this voice, one can imagine the expression of expectation on Shen Xuanyu's face.