Overwhelm the gangster

Fang Qian probably didn't expect that I would punch him in the face, and he couldn't help but stand there, looking at me stupidly, while I looked at him angrily, the sound of each other's heavy breathing in the small space could be heard can hear.

Seeing his cheeks were red and swollen, I couldn't help but secretly sighed that I was too hard just now, reached out and stroked his cheeks, then hugged him in my arms, and whispered in his ear: "Next time, don't be so desperate!" gone."

Fang Qian froze when he heard this, and suddenly pushed me onto the co-pilot, and growled in a low voice, "Why did you say that to me, what did you do?" Before I could react, he drove across the city Racing in the center, running countless red lights along the way...

I was pushed against the car door by him, I sat up straight and didn't speak, only the sound of Fang Qian's heavy breathing was heard in the small space, there seemed to be something wrong with him, his expression was resolutely calm.

He stared straight at the road ahead, and turned the steering wheel quickly. After driving for an unknown amount of time, he slammed on the brakes, and the car came to a screeching stop.And he panted and looked at the quiet alley at the corner ahead, I blinked and looked at him and looked at that alley again, I am familiar with the alley because I have stayed here for five years, watching Fang Qian lose his mind, I suddenly thought, maybe Fang Qian has never been here before, he has been here, but he has never walked in.

Fang Qian held the steering wheel tightly and looked at the quiet alley. Few people passed by at this moment. Fang Qian took a breath and squinted her beautiful phoenix eyes and whispered: "Tell me, why should I Alive, why can’t I die, I’m the only one in this world, why should I still be alive. I despise myself, he doesn’t know, I don’t want to live, he says let me live, when I have to face death, I have to find The doctor healed himself, do you think there is anyone in this world who lives in more pain than me?"

I stared blankly at Fang Qian, who lost his composure. His expression was anger and sadness that I had never seen before. He pointed to the road ahead: "If you all ask me why I want to commit suicide, who can tell me? Why live. Do you know, he died beside me, right there, telling me to keep me alive when he died, when many people were chasing us, I didn’t even have time to hide him I can leave alone. Do you know what happens to us gangsters after death? There is no bones left. Even if I avenge him in the future, so what, I can't even find his body... The people in Dongcheng told I said, when they came after him, he was already dead. To vent their anger, they used his body to vent their anger. The whole person was hacked to shame, and I don’t know where the body was thrown in the end... I also looked for less than..."

As Fang Qian spoke, a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth. He didn't cry, and his tone was normal, but the dullness pervaded the carriage, and I was suddenly speechless.

I also remember everything back then, but at that time, I didn’t feel like I was dead... I was a gangster, I was betrayed by others, and I ended up dead, and no one else could say anything.

"Now I have avenged him and done everything, but I searched all over Beijing and couldn't find his body. What am I doing alive? Just because of what he said to keep me alive, I am alone Alive...I don't know when I can't hold on?" Fang Qian looked at me and shouted, his face was ferocious, and the circles of his eyes were slightly red.

In my memory, this person has always been handsome, with a cold face and extremely beautiful.But it's me who is so ferocious now.

Thinking of this, I took a breath, opened my mouth and said, "Qian, in fact, I just..."

"Do you know why I agreed to your condition?" Fang Qian interrupted me word by word, "Because your eyes are so similar to his, but because of the resemblance, sometimes I wish I could destroy you, you It's not him, why do you look at me with such eyes, do you know that he is the one I hate the most in my life."

Seeing Fang Qian gritted his teeth so ferociously, my heavy heart couldn't help but feel heavier. In fact, this person is very fragile, and I never thought of forcing him to such an extent. I slowly reached out to him Holding her arms in her arms, she said in a low voice: "I don't know what to say, I just feel... If the time comes again, he will still do that."

Fang Qian leaned on my shoulder and didn't say a word. I felt the warmth on my shoulder. I knew he was really tired. He was never a person who leaked emotions. He probably wouldn't say these words in these years. Find someone to tell, even if it’s sad, it’s just a person drinking in a bar in the dark. The reason why I lost control today is probably because I looked at him with my own eyes and asked him why he didn’t cherish himself so much. I drove him out of control .In fact, this is also good, if you say it, your heart will be a little more empty, you will be able to hold other things, and you will be able to see me.

Fang Qian leaned on my shoulder and didn't say a word. Time passed slowly, and I don't know how long we hugged like this.Then I took a deep breath, my eyes were a little hot, I slightly tightened my arms around his waist, and then whispered in his ear what I hadn't finished just now: "Qian, if I tell you that I am Fang Tong, you Do you believe it? If I tell you every detail of our relationship, will you believe that I am Fang Tong, or will you think that I am an undercover agent sent by someone else to plant beside you or something else. "

Originally, I planned to save this sentence until after he fell in love with me again, but looking at his current appearance, I think it’s okay to tell him earlier, if he doesn’t believe it, then I will slowly let him believe it , one day he will believe it...

After I finished speaking, I held my breath and waited for Fang Qian's answer, but he kept lying on my shoulder without moving. Sleeping peacefully, with crystal teardrops hanging on the long eyelashes, I watched him blink and blink, and finally cursed in a low voice, damn it, my confession...

But even though I thought so, I still didn't dare to wake him up, and carefully put him on the co-pilot, and finally kissed his forehead with some reluctance, and then drove away.

To be honest along the way, I was still in a bit of a depressed mood. I originally imagined that Fang Qian would hear my confession, hug each other after five years, and then go back and lie on the bed and imagine the future and each other's life, and finally happy. Roll the sheets together.

What's going on now?He fell asleep, who knows if there will be a chance to say those words tomorrow, who knows if I can say them so easily, thinking of these things makes me feel even more depressed, I can't help but sigh...

Fang Qian fell asleep, so I drove him back to Ouyang's old house.When I went back, Ouyang’s house was brightly lit, Mama Zhang and the others were still awake, and my eyes widened in surprise when I saw a man in my arms. Yet?Why are you so free tonight?

"Young master, you are back." As expected of the old man of Ouyang's family, Zhang Ma just froze for a moment and said quickly when she saw me, I nodded and said, "Why didn't I sleep."

A bitter smile appeared on Mama Zhang's face, she looked at the second floor and said nothing, then I heard music playing in Yang Feng's room on the second floor, a very sad song.

I squinted my eyes and nodded to her, then carried Fang Qian back to my room, turned on the air conditioner, covered him with a thin quilt, and walked gently to the door of Yang Feng's room.

It's not because she cares about him, but because she is afraid that Fang Qian's rest will be disturbed if he plays music in the middle of the night.

When I went there, Yang Feng’s door was open, and I didn’t move as soon as I got to the door. I saw Yang Feng sitting on the ground, surrounded by wine bottles, including beer and liquor, and he was holding a cigarette butt in his hand. , staring blankly at the cigarette, the cigarette was half-smoked, and it seemed to be a long time ago, but Yang Feng looked at it as if he was looking at a baby... And the song flowing in the room: this After the cigarette is extinguished

don't keep

I'll go first this time

Youth is really like a glass of wine

you smiled and held out your hand

you say precious

tears streaming down my face

You said you can no longer guess about love

You said if we meet again

no greetings

gently shake hands

We just smile like lost friends

when you said go

Do not look back

i watch you go

You say baby I wish it was just a dream

You said the smoke was about to go out

the smoke is almost gone

I don't want you to go

You said hold me tighter and make me feel the pain

when you said go

Do not look back

i watch you go

You say honey I watch you go watch you go

In the future, I will always remember the lyrics of this song, and I also remember the way Yang Feng looked at the cigarette butts in a daze...

Later I quietly left Yang Feng's room... After returning to the room, Fang Qian was still sleeping peacefully there, I leaned over and kissed his lips.

Everyone has their own sadness, so do we, but now Fang Qian and I are happy after all...

Gently stroking Fang Qian's delicate eyebrows with my hands, I said softly in my heart, honey, this time I will not let you watch me leave again.