Pheromone Deficiency Report

If time could really be turned back, six years ago, Xie Huaizhou would still not take Gu Jinyi with him.

Because that would just be two people sliding into the abyss together.

But he absolutely would not, without leaving a single word to Gu Jinyi, he just left like this.

Xie Huaizhou paused, and then said to Gu Jinyi again: "The person I contacted was not the Xie family, but my own subordinates. Because I suspect that the person who tampered with my aircraft is my father."

"I originally wanted to have someone pick you up and keep you in my villa after I settled down. I'll make plans after I've dealt with Xie's family."

When he boarded the aircraft and left, he didn't think that he loved Gu Jinyi much.

This omega is just a mistake in his life, he is not Fu Chen who was born in an unknown star, but the product of the marriage between Xie family and merchant, Xie Huaizhou.

No one taught him what love is like, and his grandparents were happy all their lives, but that was more like an accident to him.

He didn't think he would have such happiness.

The wedding that Gu Jin also wanted, going to a remote star to settle down, and opening a flower shop are all like ridiculous dreams, which he will never be able to give.

So it's better to let everything stop at this moment.

He can compensate Gu Jinyi.

He will not accompany Gu Jinyi to settle in a remote star, nor will he marry Gu Jinyi, but he will give Gu Jinyi a small planet.

Back then, he was too young and conceited to know how to love others, so he easily denied everything about Gu Jinyi.

So he paid an irreparable price.

Today's Xie Huaizhou recalled his thoughts six years ago, and only felt stupid and frivolous.

Gu Jinyi also chuckled lightly, and said, "Then I'm really touched, you're not going to break up with me directly, but think about it."

And his whole meaning to Xie Huaizhou is just this insignificant "think about it".

But he didn't want to bother with these anymore, he just murmured to Xie Huaizhou: "Then why didn't you come?"

When he asked this, there was a thunder outside the window. The rain in early summer should not have been so long, but it has not stopped from last night to today, falling from the eaves in a continuous line.

Gu Jin also said in the thunder: "If you had come earlier, maybe I wouldn't have waited for you."

Xie Huaizhou looked at him silently.

Gu Jin also stopped crying, but his eyes were still red, his eyelashes were wet and stuck together, and the tears on his face were not dry.

He thought that when Gu Jinyi was waiting for him in that nursing home, he should also cry often.

At that time, Gu Jinyi was still very young, only 20 years old. He had no relatives and was in poor health. It was really bad luck to meet such an asshole relative like him when he first fell in love.

God has never favored Gu Jinyi, instead it made him suffer a lot.

"Because when I stepped off the aircraft, it was not my grandfather's people who greeted me, but my biological father." Xie Huaizhou talked about this old incident again, and he was already very calm.

"Xie Yuncheng didn't want to give me the right of inheritance. His lover was already pregnant, and he no longer needed me. So he manipulated my flying machine, hoping that I would die by accident. But who would have thought that my fate would be fatal, not only did I not die, I also met you."

"At that time, the Xie family was almost all in his hands. When I contacted the people under him, he also found me, so when my aircraft entered the port to replenish, he led someone to catch me."

"I was imprisoned for six months. Xie Yuncheng always wanted me to give up my mother's inheritance rights. I was not free until my grandfather rescued me."

Xie Huaizhou stopped here.

He didn't mean to sell his experience miserable, so he briefly mentioned it.

But he had thought countless times, if he had been rescued earlier, if he hadn't been caught by Xie Yuncheng, would his ending with Gu Jinyi be different?

He obviously realized that he couldn't let go of Gu Jinyi not long after being imprisoned by Xie Yuncheng. If there hadn't been this accident, he and Gu Jinyi might have been married long ago.

But where are the ifs in life?

There is only a mess all over the place, and mistakes.

He endured and endured, but he still couldn't hold back, and gently touched Gu Jinyi's hand.

Gu Jinyi's hands are beautiful, but they are too slender, and there is only a small ball wrapped in his palm.

When he was in the nursing home, he felt that Gu Jinyi was too thin.

Gu Jin also lied to him that he was just weak and he just needed to take care of him.

He actually believed it.

But after he was rescued by his grandfather, he lay on the hospital bed for two months before he realized that the lover he abandoned in the nursing home had been waiting for him when he was imprisoned.

It was also at that time that he knew that Gu Jinyi was already in the late stage of the genetic disease, because when he missed the surgery, he fell seriously ill and was sent to the hospital by his friends for emergency treatment, he almost died.

Unbeknownst to him, Gu Jinyi almost died.

Xie Huaizhou closed his eyes and seemed to have no expression on his face, but tears still fell from the gap between his eyelashes and hit the back of Gu Jinyi's hand.

"Sorry for not being able to pick you up," he said, "for making you sick and for delaying your operation...I'm sorry."

"I lied to you, sorry."

Gu Jinyi did not withdraw his hand this time.

He stared blankly at the tear on the back of his hand.

He didn't hear so many "I'm sorry" six years later.

But what he was thinking in his heart was how much torture Xie Huaizhou had to endure when he was imprisoned by his biological father for six months.

He was still hopeless.

I have died once, but I am still so hopeless.

Gu Jin also tilted his neck back, almost speechless due to exhaustion.

"Then what happened next?" He asked softly.

Later, it was like every dog-blood novel that was written and full of misunderstandings.

After Xie Huaizhou got off the hospital bed, he fought endlessly with his biological father.

With the backing of a businessman, after killing his unborn illegitimate brother, he found several criminal evidences that Xie Yuncheng had been hiding, including the poisoning of his mother, and successfully sent Xie Yuncheng to a secret prison.

But during this period, he has not contacted Gu Jinyi.

It's too late, if you go to bring Gu Jinyi to your side at this time, it will only add more risks to Gu Jinyi.

When he and Xie Yuncheng were in the most dangerous fight, he gave Gu Jinyi a priceless "breakup gift".

The person from his grandfather personally sent it to Gu Jinyi's side.

It was not a parting gift, but the last guarantee he left for Gu Jinyi.

Maybe he will die, maybe he will never be able to meet Gu Jinyi again in this life.

At least after he is gone, Gu Jin also has this property, so Gu Jin can leave that "Gu family" and spend the rest of his life on a picturesque small planet.

Xie Huaizhou held Gu Jinyi's hand, feeling that he was really stupid back then.

He said: "I clearly thought about it. If I lose and I die, you can forget about me and start a new life."

"If I win, I will naturally go to you to explain. Whether you hate me or don't want me, I will pester you."

"But why... I won, but you got engaged to Chu Miyun?"

Xie Huaizhou asked this last sentence very lightly.

But it pierced through the two people present like a bullet.

Because now they all know that the engagement between Gu Jinyi and Chu Miyun is just a mutual help.

But Xie Huaizhou back then didn't know.

Xie Huaizhou, who was standing outside the hospital and watching Gu Jinyi accompany Chu Miyun for the prenatal checkup, didn't know.

He watched Gu Jinyi hold an umbrella for Chu Miyun with his own eyes, caring for him carefully, being the most gentle and caring husband.

He didn't know that what Chu Miyun was carrying was not Gu Jinyi's child at all.

He thought of ten thousand ways in his mind to make Chu Miyun die quietly. He is someone who can send his own father to prison, so how could he care about an ordinary female beta?

From the bottom of his heart, he felt that Chu Miyun deserved to die.

She stole his lover away, so she should die without a place to bury her.

"I've thought of many ways to break you up, but what qualifications do I have to fight her?" Xie Huaizhou seemed to be asking Gu Jinyi, but also asking himself, "When you are dying, she is the one who will accompany you." not me."

"I watched you hold an umbrella for her and chat with her, just like you did to me at that time. You are finally going to have a family, a child, and everything you have longed for since you were a child. If I go Ruin all of this, will you never forgive me in this life?"

No one knows better than Xie Huaizhou how much Gu Jin also wants a home.

So he did nothing.

He didn't go to the engagement banquet between Gu Jinyi and Chu Miyun, but he attended their wedding ceremony.

No one knew that the omega, who was wearing a gown and was as gentle as a magnolia, was once his lover sleeping soundly in his arms.

Gu Jinyi finally got married, but not with him.

He followed all the guests to witness the two vows to never leave, but his heart felt like falling into hell.

He thought he could be a saint and let his loved one live.

But he really overestimated himself.

A year later, he suffered from pheromone deficiency disorder, alias, matelessness.

This is the whole story of the six years between him and Gu Jinyi.

Love but not, gain and lose.

Now they are finally legally married and have done all the most intimate things, but even hugging seems a luxury.

The only thing he can do is to expose his crimes in this continuous rain.

After Xie Huaizhou finished speaking, Gu Jin did not respond.

He has always maintained the posture of leaning on the pillow, like a sculpture that looks intact but is riddled with holes inside.

In the past six years, he has never let go of it for a moment. He has always remembered Fu Chen's appearance. In the dead of night, he thought about it over and over again, fearing that one day he would forget this face.

He is the most duplicity in the world.

She said she didn't love him, but she was heartbroken for him all the time.

Now he finally has the answer and knows why he was left behind.

His former lover, like a bird pleading guilty to a thorn, stopped in front of him and let him do it.

But he didn't feel any joy or relief in his heart.

He only felt that people were impermanent and that something was wrong.

He closed his eyes, and tears welled up from the dry eye sockets.

He heard Xie Huaizhou ask him: "Why can't you wait for me?"

He opened his eyes, first looked at the ceiling, then at Xie Huaizhou.

It was raining outside the window, so the light in the room was very dark, and Xie Huaizhou's face was even gloomy.

For so many years, he was not the only one suffering from torture, Xie Huaizhou was the same.

Xie Huaizhou leaned over and pressed against his forehead, his voice was very soft, but every word seemed to have been soaked in blood.

"Yeah, I'm such a selfish and despicable person, I was the one who abandoned you first, I was the one who abandoned you first, but it was also me, why did you marry someone else."

"Why don't you continue to love me..."

When he was looking at Chu Miyun and Gu Jinyi outside the hospital, he had an engagement ring in his pocket.

If he had walked over at that time, had been more ruthless, and snatched Gu Jinyi away, wouldn't they have been separated for so long?

Gu Jin also did not answer this question.

The relationship between him and Xie Huaizhou is already riddled with holes, and there is no need to step on it again.

Because he only accepted Chu Miyun's marriage proposal after he received Xie Huaizhou's "breakup gift".

But what's the point of saying that?

He didn't want to use this to punish Xie Huaizhou.

It's just that what should he use to heal his six years of suffering?

The author says:

The confession made me very tired. I didn’t send it late on purpose, but I really wrote it for a long time.

Pheromone Deficiency Report