brightest star in the sky

Originally, Lu Chenxing was going to empty his mind, expecting to wake up tomorrow morning and then read WeChat notifications. It was too much torment to wait like this, but he didn't expect that he couldn't fall asleep after tossing and turning.

In the end, my body didn't want to move anymore, but my mind still didn't want to rest.

What if I find out tomorrow morning that he still hasn't passed the verification?

Then send another request yourself!

But what would you say if you passed it?

By coincidence, he clicked on Gu Ran's original WeChat avatar again, and the picture was still the first birthday gift he had given him before, the lucky star bottle with lights on.

Gu Ran has used this avatar for many years, from the first year of high school to university, and has never changed it.Later, I lost him, and he lost everything with himself.

"Gu Ran."

With deep yearning and a desire to vent his emotions, Lu Chenxing tapped this unforgettable name and sent it out.

After a while, there was another one.

"Why didn't you add me?"

After sending out, I covered my head lying on the bed with a pillow, and fell into deep regret.But he didn't know that someone actually received these two messages.

With his heart pounding, Gu Ran stared at the phone screen, and his whole body went blank.

LCX, it's him.

How could he send this WeChat? Although he never deleted him from the friend list, he had already cleared the chat history and never opened it again.

Lu Chenxing's original WeChat name was Burning, that was his own name, Burning.Because he changed it to LCX, Gu Ran didn't recognize it all at once, but it was his WeChat avatar that changed his memory.

Suddenly feeling that the phone has become a hot potato, Gu Ran put it on the other side of the sofa as if he was afraid of receiving any news from him again, feeling at a loss for a moment.

Meeting Lu Chenxing again and knowing that he worked under Ma Jikang, he was not without joy.This city is so big, and I moved again, I really didn't expect that they would meet again one day.

But the joy was only for a moment. When he remembered the past, he found that he didn't let go.

still love him?

I don't love anymore, I dare not love anymore.

Can you let go of everything in the past and get to know him again?I can't do it myself.

So Zou Yue laughed at himself as a coward, so be cowardly!Hasn't he himself failed to deal with people for so many years?The one surnamed Ma was the same, if he couldn't accept it, he quickly found someone to date and marry. If he didn't look for it, Zou Yue would still pester him endlessly.So, what did Ma Jikang think?From this point of view, Lu Chenxing was kind to him, he let him give up early, so as not to torture himself, he is not Zou Yue, so he must not be able to bear this back and forth for so many years.

Gu Ran didn't bother to think about the grievances between Zou Yue and Ma Jikang.Or continue to think about what to do with Lu Chenxing?

Half an hour passed, and the message did not come back.Gu Ran just felt very tired, like an idiot, disgusted with the expectations he still vaguely had, angrily picked up his work phone and went to sleep in his room.

When I woke up the next morning, I just got up to go to wash up, when another request to apply for a friend came on WeChat, I picked up the phone and saw that it was still Lu Chenxing.

what happened?Now that you know how to send your original WeChat account, why are you desperately asking him to add this account?Aren't there workgroups?

In the end, after struggling for a long time, Gu Ran still passed his application, otherwise he would not be able to work well if he was thinking wildly all day long.Who knows if he will send a request every day in the future.

Just add it and see what he wants to do!Gu Qi hurriedly dropped the phone and went to the bathroom to brush his teeth and wash his face. After cleaning up, he came out and looked again, but there was no news.After I put on my clothes, finished the toast made by the bread machine, and drank the milk, I still didn't receive the message.

So why is he rushing to join me early in the morning? ?

Gu Ran glanced at the other mobile phone that he had thrown on the sofa last night, walked over and turned it on, there were a bunch of Chen Feiyue's messages on it.

"Go online, pig head!"

"Kill the monster!"

"Damn, where are you?"

Well, I forgot to make an appointment with him to open the dungeon online at twelve o'clock in the evening.

In addition, there are all kinds of news in the group, which I have read one by one.

Then I had to look at the top one. In fact, I saw it as soon as I opened WeChat, but I just wanted to look at other people's first.

Gu Ran clicked on the message with apprehension.

LCX: You added me, happy!

. . .Neuropathy!

If you have something to say, you have to post it here, what a ghost!

It's bad in the morning.However, he later realized that this was just the first bad day.

The next night, it was him again.

LCX: The boss said that there is no problem with the project, and he will go to sign the agreement on Friday, and make an appointment to have dinner together in the evening.Can see you now.

Day three.

LCX: It's been three days, and I still haven't sent you a message, so I don't know how to start.

Now Gu Ranquan understood that Lu Chenxing didn't know that he could see these, he probably thought that this WeChat account was no longer used.

Fortunately, I haven't replied to the first few messages. Of course, it is impossible to reply. What can I say?

Now it's all right, we have to have dinner together on Friday night, he doesn't know anything and it's not embarrassing, what should I do? ?

(ー_ー)

"Gu Ran, Kangkang treats you to dinner tomorrow night?"

Zou Yue put his hands in his trouser pockets and leaned against the kitchen door to ask.

Gu Ran was making coffee and raised his eyes.

"It's asking me and my team not to do your business, don't join in the fun, and give him some face."

"I didn't want to join in the fun, just to make sure, and I'll go find him after you guys are over."

"When are you guys like this? Can you be quicker?"

Zou Yue clicked his tongue, "No, you are alone, you can't see us wanting us to break up, right? Xiao Ran, your mentality is not desirable!"

"Bah! I just don't think he should hang you like this for so many years."

"Oh, the person you like has left you, so he still has your heart? Otherwise, why are you still alone?"

Zou Yue's words are quite touching, but they are not without reason.

And really no one can judge another's feelings.

"I would rather go on like this with him forever. At least I know that he has me in his heart. If one day he doesn't hate me anymore, it means that he really wants to leave me."

Zou Yue, who has always been cynical, looks a lot like Gu Ran when he gets serious, since they are cousins ​​after all.

Zou Yue's words kept Gu Ran silent for a long time, seeing that he stopped talking, he went to tease him again.

"Don't think too much about it, just let it be! Besides, I think your little boyfriend still looks like he has no more love for you, why don't you help me!"

"No, I thank you! Don't be a monster! He is different from Ma Jikang. Ma Jikang has you in his heart but dare not face the eyes of the world. And he, he told me himself that he doesn't like men."

Gu Ran's expression was lonely and sad, every time he thought of Lu Chenxing's words, it was like holding an unripe grape in his mouth, the bitterness was unbearable.

"Cut, it's alright, it's all right. He said it was right, but can't you break him up? Besides, hasn't he been on good terms with you for a while? Not completely bent over Just work harder! You shrink back when you meet a rival in love? Are you still my cousin Gu Ran? Why don’t I know you anymore? My brother is not the kind of person who gives up easily!"

"No, when I met him, I gave up and didn't want to force him."

Zou Yue was also speechless, this cousin sometimes got stuck in his head and couldn't figure it out, even if he hit a wall, he was unwilling to be pulled back.

"I think you are emotionally clean, right? You can't stand him having a good time with others."

"You know shit!"

Gu Ran is on fire, talking to this person is really going to explode at any time.

"Then let me ask you, if he comes back to you, will you accept him?"

"I don't accept it not because of emotional cleanliness."

"What's that for?"

"First of all, it's impossible for him to find me, and I don't dare to try any more feelings. Anyway, it's impossible to have anything with him. Don't mess around, just mess with yourself and Ma Jikang, and leave me alone."

Gu Ran said almost giving up on himself, Zou Yue had nothing to do with him, shook his head, left the kitchen and walked to the living room.

Gu Ran glanced at his back and then lowered his head. In fact, there were still some words that he couldn't say, because he didn't want anyone to know that his love was humble and terrible.

If he really loves me, no matter how many years he asks me to wait, I am willing, even if I use ten or twenty years of my life in exchange.

Feeling unacceptable, going deeper.

For myself, the unforgettable love once is enough.

Even if only in memory.