brightest star in the sky

Lu Chenxing hasn't dreamed of his family for a long time, maybe meeting Gu Ran again reminded him of many things from the past.

I was also a child of an ordinary family.His father is a project manager of a municipal construction company, and his mother is a preschool teacher.

However, Lu Chenxing has never really felt a mother's love. From the beginning of his memory, if he wanted to see his mother, he was always taken to the hospital to see her. After growing up, he realized that it was called Jingwei Center, a mental health center.

When he was a child, he was still very afraid to see his mother, because most of the time his mother didn't know him, and sometimes his mother was in the sick period, so he couldn't see him even when he went.But once she can see her mother and she wakes up again, Xiao Chenxing is very happy. It turns out that this is what it feels like to be hugged by her mother. When her mother kisses her face, she is so happy!

When the mothers of the kindergarten children came to pick them up, they would kiss them on the face. I also have a mother kiss!It would be great if my mother could pick me up from the kindergarten. I also want the children to see my mother.

But this wish is doomed not to come true. My mother has never been able to pick me up in kindergarten. Gradually, after elementary school, I no longer have such expectations.

At that time, he didn't understand that the eyes cast on him by those teachers, aunts, kindergarten children and mothers of school classmates were called sympathy.

How Mom got there, Dad and Grandma never mentioned, but Morningstar knew the general idea early on from the gossip of the neighbors.

After the mother gave birth to herself, the whole person was not normal, she became very irritable, and lost her temper at every turn. She was annoyed by the crying of the baby Chen Xing, so she was slapped on her face, and what was even more extreme was that she directly slapped the baby. Chen Xing threw it on the bed until the grandma who went to the hospital to take care of grandpa came back, and heard that the little grandson was already crying and his throat was hoarse, and his body was even red and blue.

At first, the family thought that Chen Xing's mother was too tired to take care of the children, and they often enlightened her. Chen Xing's mother's mood was also ups and downs.

Four months later, Chenxing's mother returned to work in the kindergarten, and soon she was complained by her parents for scolding and beating her child in class.As a result, she was ordered to suspend the investigation by the school.

After the suspension, Chenxing's mother's situation at home became worse and worse. Once her grandma found out that she was going to poke the five-month-old Chenxing with scissors, and she was so scared that she almost called the police.

Grandma ran out of the house with little Chenxing in her arms, and called Chenxing's father who was still at work at the gate of the community.Fortunately, my father came back in time, and my mother had already rushed out of the house with scissors. The neighbors were terrified, and she had already bruised herself all over.

At this time, everyone suspected that Chenxing's mother was suffering from postpartum depression, but the result of going to the hospital for an examination was a more serious mental illness.

This mental illness may be genetic or acquired.However, violent tendencies like morning star mothers are mostly hereditary, and may also be an inducing factor for postpartum depression.

However, there is no way to know whether there is a real family history, because Chen Xing's grandparents died in a fire in his early years, and it was his own house that caught fire.At that time, my mother was still in college and escaped a catastrophe. The cause of the fire was judged to be man-made, but the arsonist was never found.Now it seems that it is very doubtful whether someone else set the fire.

Considering the seriousness of Chenxing's mother's condition and her tendency to violence, it is impossible to let her live at home anymore, so she has been sent to the Jingwei Center since that day, and has been up to now.

Chen Xing remembered that at first it was his father who took him to see his mother, but later when his father had an accident, his grandma took him there.

Because of my mother's affairs, my father has been very depressed and depressed, and the work at the unit is also very busy. Once there is a project, he will work overtime day and night.

When Chen Xing was two years old, her grandfather, who had been ill in bed, passed away.Only grandma took him at home.

But life did not let Chen Xing's family go. When I was five years old, it was a weekend. My father took Chen Xing to see her mother. That day, her mother was not in good condition. They only saw her hysterical from a distance, and her father didn't want to see it anymore. He left with Morningstar.

On the way home while driving, Dad answered a phone call. It was about a unit project, so he drove Chenxing home and rushed to the construction site.

The incident happened on his way home from overtime work. It was more than [-] o'clock in the morning. Due to absent-mindedness and fatigue driving, he got into a car accident and hit a sanitation worker who was working. He died before the ambulance arrived.

Chen Xing's father was responsible for causing death in a traffic accident and was sentenced to three years in prison.All the savings of the family were compensated to the relatives of the innocent deceased.

When his father was in prison, Chenxing was only in the top class of the kindergarten. Grandma supported Xiaochenxing with her meager monthly salary, and shed tears all day long.

The residents in the community are all old neighbors. In the beginning, everyone helped and took care of the old and the young.But adults are sensible, children are ignorant, and lack of correct guidance, every word heard from an adult's mouth becomes a knife that kills without blood in the mouth of a child.

Thus, there was the saying that Lu Chenxing's father was a murderer and his mother was a psychopath.

When I was in kindergarten, a child saw Xiao Chenxing and shouted: "The murderer's son is coming, everyone run away!"

At that time, I was angry with the kindergarten teacher, so I immediately called the child's parents and suggested correct education and guidance at home. This would affect other children's attitudes towards Little Chenxing, and it would also cause psychological harm to Lu Chenxing himself.

From kindergarten to elementary school, and even junior high school, all the students enrolled in the household registration match. Poor little Chenxing was excluded by his classmates since he was a child. After entering elementary school, no such ignorant classmates said such things to him directly. Whispering behind their backs.

This kind of malice that seems to be filled in every pore can make people feel even more disgusted.

Dad came back when Chen Xing was in the second grade. At first he thought that when Dad came back, life would be better, but Chen Xing was wrong. Dad came back, but the person also changed, became depressed, silent, and the house was still as silent as a pool of stagnant water .

This was Lu Chenxing's childhood.

No sense of security, no laughter, no family fun.

Everything is cold.

Fortunately, Dad still knows that there is a son and a mother to support, and the mother in the hospital also needs to pay various expenses.The original career establishment was gone, and my father changed his job to become a taxi driver, which was also arranged by the difficulties of Chenxing's family in the street.

Taxi drivers are very hard. If you want to earn more, you have to pay more. So my father started working day and night again. When he was at home, he just fell asleep on the bed.

The days when no one cares about me except grandma still continue, and the gossip, prejudice and discrimination behind me still continue.

Lu Chenxing has long been used to it, he doesn't care about it, doesn't think too much, and concentrates on his studies.Because of this, the teachers from elementary school to middle school were very kind to him and cared about him.

No matter how good the teacher is, it is not worth the love of my parents and family, or having a close friend.And Lu Chenxing lacked these, so he became more and more paranoid, introverted, and awkward.

Grandma is getting older, and she is getting more and more powerless. Chenxing takes care of her and undertakes a lot of housework, washing clothes, grocery shopping, and sometimes cooking. Time Dad's car.

Everything is so calm, so calm that it has become numb.until that person shows up.

Gu Ran.

Lu Chenxing didn't know why he wanted to be friends with him. He couldn't believe that the other party really had no prejudice or discrimination against him.

Before the final exam of the first semester of the third year of junior high school, Gu Ran fought for him and was almost punished by the school.The object of the fight was Chen Feiyue, who usually had a good relationship with him.

Chen Xing felt that he might have really met someone who treats him sincerely. This person is not a family member, not a teacher, but a friend!