A Piece of Li Song Changting Twilight

When Qin Xiaolou came back from Pingcheng, because of the haste of the decision, he left as soon as he said it, and did not send a letter to the people in the house to report beforehand.So when he stood at the gate of the Qin Mansion, the guards guarding the gate only regarded him as a passer-by and didn't take a second look at him.When he stood for a long time, the guard couldn't help noticing him, cast his gaze at him unkindly for a few times, and was shocked at once——"Master, sir?!"

Qin Xiaolou couldn't help raising his hand to touch his face, wondering if his appearance had changed in the past three or four years since he left home, and his temperament had changed, so that the servants almost couldn't recognize him.

Because Qin Xiaolou had been away from home for so long, the guards almost forgot that there was such a master—he did not forget, but he was used to being free and loose, but his identity was forgotten, and he didn't know what to do for a while.They were not informed in advance, and they didn't know what Qin Xiaolou was doing when he came back, and whether he wanted to enter the door, so a few pairs of eyes stared at Qin Xiaolou stupidly for a long time, until Qin Xiaolou couldn't help but said: "Look at what I'm doing!" ?” They suddenly realized that they opened the door of the mansion.

When Qin Xiaolou entered the mansion, he found that everything in the yard was the same as when he left, except that the saplings of the peach blossom trees had grown taller and there were a few more acacia trees.His steps were menacing, as if he wished to come to Qin Chengxue's side immediately, but he actually walked very slowly, as if he had walked a corridor for as long as a year, and it seemed that it was only the blink of an eye.

According to Qin Xiaolou's thinking, if Qin Chengxue is not in the study, he should be in the bedroom—although he likes sunlight, he only wants to sit in the house or under the eaves to enjoy the sunshine of an inch square, and then look at the flowers, birds and trees in the yard as a place for painting. theme.And he hates wind and rain. When the sky is cloudy, he likes to be bored in the house even in autumn.If it was the rainy season, he would wish he had to get out of bed.

The study room and the bedroom are in two different directions, Qin Xiaolou hesitated for a moment, thinking that Qin Chengxue was ill now, so he walked towards the bedroom.On the way, I met servants from the mansion, and they all looked at him as if they had seen a ghost when they saw him.Qin Xiaolou was too lazy to talk to them, so he really regarded himself as a bold ghost under the blue sky and white sun, and would pass by everyone he saw without squinting.

He arrived at the door of Qin Chengxue's bedroom, opened the door, and saw that the layout of the room was the same as when he left. The bed was covered with the same royal blue unicorn and precious silk brocade sheet that matched him, but it had been washed. Old, not as soft and shiny as it was a few years ago.Qin Xiaolou walked up and sat down by the bed, touching the silk scarf sheet, feeling a strange yet familiar feeling in his heart.Before he left, he and Qin Chengxue hugged each other on the bed sheet, rolled and messed around, brushed the tentacles of the unicorn with his fingertips, and that taboo scene seemed to flash before his eyes.

There is a porcelain bowl beside the bed, which is also a second-hand product that has been used for many years.There was a layer of brown medicine stains on the bottom of the bowl. Qin Xiaolou tapped it with his fingertips and found that it was not completely cold, which meant that the owner had not left long after drinking the medicine.The medicine bowl undoubtedly indicated Qin Chengxue's illness. Qin Xiaolou felt his heart tighten, and subconsciously clenched his fists. Suddenly, the bedroom was filled with the smell of hard medicine, which made people feel uncomfortable.

He left the bedroom and walked towards the study.

"Bang!" A porcelain bowl fell to the ground, and several round candied fruit rolled to Qin Xiaolou's feet, making him stop involuntarily, lowered his head to look at the few candied fruit, and followed the candied fruit again Looking in the direction, he finally fixed on a man in a wheelchair under the shade of a tree—it was Qin Chengxue!

Qin Chengxue stared at him without blinking, not in ecstasy or lamentation, but calmly surprised: "...Brother?"

Qin Xiaolou stood in the sun, exposed in front of him helplessly, almost in fear, but forced himself to smile and walked towards him: "It's me, Cheng Xue, I'm back." Qin Chengxue sat in the shadow Next, the expression is not very clear, but it is indeed not excited.The more he was like this, the more scared Qin Xiaolou became - he was not afraid of Zhao Pingzhen, Wan Yanzhao, or those who died under his hands, but he was only afraid of this helpless younger brother.He was afraid because he was shrouded in a huge sense of guilt. This guilt was not only for Qin Chengxue, but also for himself. I swore secretly in my heart that there are two things I must do in this life, one is to avenge my father, and the other is to take good care of my younger brother.If things can't be both, then even if he gives up revenge, he will let Qin Chengxue live a happy life.However, it was himself who harmed Qin Chengxue right now.

Qin Chengxue unhurriedly turned the wheel to turn the wheelchair out of the shade of the tree, only then did Qin Xiaolou realize that his complexion was not as bright and white as snow, but darker and yellower, which was an extremely unhealthy color.Qin Chengxue was thin enough in the past, so he hasn't lost a lot of flesh in the past three years, but he looks rounder than before, but Qin Xiaolou couldn't tell whether he was fat or swollen due to illness.

Qin Chengxue said: "You're back." Qin Xiaolou stepped forward, knelt down in front of his wheelchair, looked up at him: "Yes." Qin Chengxue looked at him for a while, then said softly: "Come back to visit relatives or not? When are you going to leave again?" Qin Xiaolou's hand gripping the handle of his wheelchair suddenly tightened, and he shook his head with a smile: "I'm not leaving, stay in Lin'an, the emperor will assign me a job if he's happy, if he's not happy... forget it." Qin Chengxue was slightly surprised, a complex look flashed in his eyes, and he murmured: "Really?"

Qin Xiaolou raised his hand to touch his cheek, and asked with a sad smile: "Aren't you happy?" Qin Chengxue responded very quickly this time: "I'm happy." Qin Xiaolou leaned over and posted a note with him Uh, the intimate gesture, as if there had never been more than three years of separation: "Why are you sitting here alone?" Qin Chengxue said: "The room is too stuffy, come out to enjoy the air." Qin Xiaolou couldn't help being surprised: In the past, he I have said Qin Chengxue many times, whenever Qin Chengxue is bored in the room reading and painting, Qin Xiaolou always wants to pull him out for a walk, but Qin Chengxue hates the outside world and is only willing to hide in a small room inside.Why did you change your temper now?Qin Xiaolou didn't know, Qin Chengxue hated the unpopular house very much, in the past, there was the smell of Qin Xiaolou everywhere, but then the smell dissipated, and he gradually became so stuffy that he couldn't breathe, so he would rather let the wind blow outside rain hit.

Qin Xiaolou personally cooked a meal for Qin Chengxue.

The dishes he knows are not many and not exquisite, the most common ones are salted chrysanthemum, sweet and sour eggplant, bacon and vegetable rice, and winter melon and radish soup, but he is very good at all of them, and he is used to it many years ago.The side dishes were not too meaty, and there was little oil and water. I had asked the doctor beforehand and made sure that it would not hinder Qin Chengxue's illness before serving them.

Before eating, Qin Chengxue poured a bowl of soup to drink. The moment he took a spoonful of hot soup, two teardrops fell into the bowl. Fortunately, the white mist of the hot soup covered his ugliness from Qin Xiaolou's eyes.He wiped his eyes very quickly, and seriously drank the soup bowl to the bottom before stopping.

Neither of the two brothers mentioned the more than three years of separation, and they looked like brothers and sisters, as if they had been like this since a long time ago.Qin Xiaolou didn't even ask about Qin Chengxue's condition, not because he didn't care, but because he didn't want to break the rare warm atmosphere between brothers, so he bypassed Qin Chengxue and asked Zhu Liming—from Zhu Liming he learned that Well, Qin Chengxue's worst state was in the first year after he left, and he also suffered from tuberculosis in that year.At that time, Qin Chengxue even wanted to die, but later she gradually calmed down and became active in cooperation. He obeyed all the doctor's orders prescribed by Zhu Liming, so his condition temporarily stabilized.It's just that although tuberculosis is not fatal, it is extremely difficult to cure the disease, so we can only hang on with a bunch of tonics.What's more, Qin Chengxue's body has been dragged down by himself for a long time, and his recovery is tantamount to a dream. Although his current attitude is very cooperative, the best state is only like this.But Zhu Liming didn't tell Qin Xiaolou the last sentence——Qin Chengxue's life, but in the past few years.

Qin Chengxue was halfway through eating, and suddenly coughed violently, coughing so faintly that he almost used up all his strength.Qin Xiaolou didn't take it seriously at first, but gradually saw that he was coughing up and down, and rushed to help him, but saw a pool of gray-red blood on his palm, and his body froze instantly.Qin Chengxue took out a silk scarf from her arms and wiped her hands as usual, then said in a low voice, "Brother, I'm fine."

Qin Xiaolou forced a smile, grabbed his wrist and pretended to be relaxed and said, "Why are you wearing a string of Buddhist beads? You seem to have believed in Taoism before." Qin Chengxue said, "Worship the Bodhisattva, listen to Buddhist scriptures, and pass the time." Then he said : "I have already made an itinerary, and I will go to the Bodhi Temple to worship the Buddha tomorrow. Brother, will you accompany me?" Qin Xiaolou said: "That's fine."

After eating, Qin Xiaolou pushed Qin Chengxue into the courtyard to enjoy the moon. The two sat side by side in the corridor, peaceful and peaceful.

Qin Chengxue suddenly said in a low voice: "Brother..." Qin Xiaolou hugged his shoulders, and put his forehead against his forehead: "What?" Qin Chengxue said: "Are you really not leaving?" Qin Xiaolou couldn't help but remain silent. In an instant, he quickly replied: "Not going."

Qin Chengxue said: "Brother, have you ever thought about getting married..." Qin Xiaolou was taken aback: "What?" After a moment's pause, he guessed what Qin Chengxue was thinking, smiled and rubbed his shoulders: "Don't marry .I said earlier that you are the only relative in my life..." Qin Chengxue interrupted: "Brother, can you...marry a sister-in-law for me?" Qin Xiaolou was stunned, completely Confused.

Qin Chengxue said in a low voice: "I'm a dead person. Brother, if you marry a sister-in-law, your family will be more popular, so you can carry on the Qin family's family." Qin Xiaolou stared at him blankly.Seeing that he didn't answer, Qin Chengxue lowered her voice a little, almost falling into the ground: "Brother...give me a nephew..." Qin Xiaolou was stunned for a moment, and then he understood a little bit.

He turned Qin Chengxue's face, forced him to look into his eyes, and said seriously: "I won't leave. Even if I want to leave, I will take you wherever I go in the future." Qin Chengxue looked at his face With a firm gaze, he smiled slightly, and immediately lowered his head, as if he was no longer so obsessed with this sentence.

However, at night, when he was lying on the bed, his heart, which had been calm all day, finally began to beat violently, almost bursting out of his chest.That night, he couldn't sleep.