brotherly innocence

Qin Pei threw himself into his father's arms, he choked and said, "Father, you are back, Pei'er is afraid, Pei'er was forced by them, Pei'er was afraid that Ah Rong would kill me, that's why Pei'er..."

Boss Qin touched Qin Pei's face and said, "You really look like your mother, you really look like her, carved out of a mold. You are born better than Rong'er, um, literary and bookish, not wild like him."

Qin Pei had a ghost in his heart, his eyes were panicked, and he peeked at his father, but he didn't feel his anger.He lowered his head, let his rough palms with guns and sticks caress his cheeks, then pinched his cheeks, patted them lightly, and said lovingly, "I'm getting fatter."

"Sit, sit." Boss Qin pulled him to sit next to him, his eyes lingered greedily on his cheeks, lowered his head and swallowed deeply, smiled self-deprecatingly, shook his head, picked up a piece of scrambled egg with chopsticks and put it in Qin Pei's hands. The bowl said: "Come, eat a few more bites, if you go over there, you won't be able to eat the food at home."

Qin Pei looked at him in bewilderment, and then avoided that gaze in panic, his heart was pounding, and he glanced around stealthily, but he couldn't see half of the servants, and his heart was even more flustered.

"This dish, you have to go now. Dad will fry it for you and practice it for you. Tomato scrambled eggs, your mother's favorite food. Back then, when your father was in trouble, your mother was still a student, and your father was a man on the pier. A poor boy with a long life, if he has no money, he can afford your mother's tomato scrambled eggs."

Boss Qin had a smile on his cheeks after he finished speaking, he shook his head and said with a smile: "Father is cooking for the first time in these years, I'm happy, cooking for my son, I'm happy."

The tip of the nose was sore, tears flowed down my cheeks, and I wiped my tears away.

Seeing that the situation was not good, Qin Pei looked around in a panic and shouted: "Come here, come here."

"Stop shouting, Daddy sent them away, only you and my father and son have a good meal."

This was clearly the last meal for the prisoner who was about to go to the execution ground. Qin Pei was so frightened that he fell to his knees, crying in panic, "Daddy, Daddy, I was wrong. I was wrong. I won't take Japan in the future." People’s money, I’m afraid of them, they want to kill me, and they say they want to make my life worse than death, Daddy, you will have no grandson.”

Qin Pei was the only one left crying in tears. He crawled to Boss Qin, hugged his father's leg tightly, and cried loudly: "Daddy, I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I don't want to..."

A long sigh, cruising on the roof, floating in the dull and suffocating air.

"Daddy knows, daddy understands you, daddy knows." Boss Qin pointed to the coffee table next to him, and placed a kraft paper envelope neatly.

"Go, open it yourself."

Qin Pei moved to the coffee table, but kept looking at his father's face, full of fear and anxiety.

He poured out the contents of the heavy brown paper envelope, with a bang, two copies of the pass, the ticket, the US dollar, and the bank note.

Qin Pei's eyes lit up, as if he had guessed something, just as he opened his mouth, Boss Qin waved his hand to stop him and said, "Stop talking, daddy has prepared everything for you, and everything you bring with you is ready, you go over there, You need to know how to behave, what to do and what not to do, remember that you are Chinese, you are your father’s son, because your surname is Qin, you are not weak.”

"Daddy, Daddy, Pei'er was wrong, Pei'er will never dare again, Pei'er is wrong." Qin Pei cried bitterly, begging his father for forgiveness.

Boss Qin was sitting in the rattan armchair, the dim light of the hanging lamp on the dining table was shaking.The red wine, which was as bright as the setting sun reflecting blood, was so fiercely illuminated, and there was a cold light in the wine, he just handed Qin Pei a wine glass and told him to sit down: "My dear boy, come, drink this glass of wine, and accompany daddy." Drink again."

He looked at Qin Pei, Qin Pei held up the glass of wine carefully, his hands trembling, looking at his encouraging gaze, he slowly brought the crystal clear glass to his lips.

He remembered five years ago, the ecstatic days when he recognized his son, and he was also in this room. Qin Pei held up the glass of red wine with both hands in such a frightened way, peeked at him, frowned and raised his head, and drank the glass of wine in one gulp. After that, he no longer cared about his so-called Western gentlemanly demeanor, sticking out his tongue and grinning with a sad expression...

A sourness surged from my heart to my nose, the sourness was unspeakable, and it brought endless bitterness.The corners of his lips twitched, and the sad words finally squeezed out from between his teeth. If he didn't say it again, the son in front of him might never be able to hear it.

"Son, dad is not good, he didn't teach you well. There are some mistakes, you can't make them!" He raised his voice resolutely.

"You can't do it. If you do, you'll never have a chance. 'Betrayal' is the most terrifying thing. It's not just a family, it's a country. You're wrong, you understand...it's too late."

Qin Pei's eyes were full of fear, and that fear turned into despair. He looked at his father with trembling lips, but before he could speak, his father was already crying.

"You... you go there, learn well, remember that you are Chinese, reincarnated in the next life, Daddy is still waiting for you, don't miss the door."

Qin Pei suddenly clutched his lower abdomen, his face contorted due to cramps, and he asked in panic, "Daddy, Daddy...in the wine, there is..."

"The wine is poisonous, very poisonous. Daddy will send it to you with his own hands. Go, go."

"Daddy, don't, Pei'er don't want to die." Qin Pei screamed, and immediately fell to the ground, pulling down the tablecloth, the dishes were scattered all over the place, and the cups and plates were messed up.

"Daddy, Daddy, it hurts, it hurts..." Qin Pei curled up like a prawn falling into boiling water, stretched his legs from time to time and kicked aimlessly on the floor.

"You, bear with it, it's over, it's here, Daddy is already looking for...the most swift..."

Qin Pei stared blankly, looking up at the ceiling, the wine was highly poisonous.

Boss Qin couldn't bear the regret and pain in his heart anymore, knelt beside him, slowly looked at his son's painful and ferocious cheeks, slowly stroked those eyelids with trembling palms, and closed those charming eyes.He muttered in his mouth: "You really look like your mother, you really do. Daddy has been looking for you for 18 years, and finally found you."

The light in the room was quite dark, Qin Rong looked around when he came in, only to find that his father was sitting on a sofa by the window, and he stared out the French window with dazed eyes.The window is not closed, the concubine-colored curtains are like the curtain of a theater, and the low-hanging rose-red tassels are swaying in the night wind, and the night is in the eyes, quiet and cool.

This made Qin Rong couldn't help remembering the night when he recognized his father five years ago, it was also in this room, he was tied up on the imperial concubine's couch by the wall, and his father did the same with his chin on his back, smoking a cigar, drinking and eating chicken ass , guarded him all night.Only tonight, he didn't smoke a cigar.

I always feel a little strange, the feeling comes from the bottom of my heart, but I can't describe it.

"Father, why are you sitting here?" He asked, and went to close the window.

"Open it, your brother is asleep." The whispered words did not seem to open, and the voice escaped from the cracks in his lips.

Only then did Qin Rong pay attention to look at the milky white gold-painted western imperial concubine couch against the wall, where Qin Pei slept.

The spherical wall lamp held by the little Western angel overflowed with light golden brilliance, evenly sprinkled on Qin Pei's cheeks, a layer of warm color covered the bloodless cheeks, Qin Pei frowned, with a painful and distorted expression , just a snow-white oriental silk shirt, straight snow-white suspenders, as usual, delicate and shiny hair, meticulously groomed.

"Why does he sleep here?" As soon as Qin Rong said that, he felt a little strange. The air suddenly became thin, and an inexplicable coldness gradually rose from the soles of his feet, freezing his whole body. Going under Qin Pei's nose, he immediately pulled his hand like a fire, only to see the unwiped blood on the corner of Qin Pei's lips.Turning around suddenly, he looked at his father again. Boss Qin was sitting opposite the window. He didn't look back. He just stretched out his hand tremblingly to touch the red wine on the coffee table next to him. With a shake of his hand, the glass cup spilled upside down and rolled on the floor. The wine spilled all over his hands, his hands trembling, his eyes widened, and then he raised his head and closed them.

"Father, Qin Pei, he..." Qin Rong's lips trembled, and he stayed where he was.

"He's your brother, what Qin Pei, Qin Pei, there are no rules!" The hoarse voice still taught the lesson in a calm and unhurried manner.

It's just that Qin Rong's mind was in a mess. Looking at the wine glasses on the table and the chairs lying aside in the dark, the table was full of messy glasses and dishes, and he understood something in his mind.

Even though he gritted his teeth in hatred for the despicable behavior of the people in front of him who surrendered to the enemy, treason the country and willingly be a traitor, the anger in the artillery fire of the Japanese invaders for the tragic death of more than 30 innocent brothers in the Canglan River long ago wanted to pull Qin Pei out of his bones, and I really saw him day and night The brother who has been with him for 23 years has become a zombie, and when Gui Yongge lays straight in front of him, his vision gradually blurs.

He remembered that when he was young, his mother always hugged the white and thin Qin Pei in his arms, while he stretched out his hand to hold his mother's back tightly, and ran aimlessly following his mother's hurried footsteps in the wind and snow.When he fell down, he cried loudly, always shouting: "Mother, Rong'er wants to be hugged by mother, why doesn't Bao Gege refuse to hug Rong'er?"

"Dangdang..." The alarm clock rang midnight.

"You, kneel down for your elder brother, kowtow, and send him... away." Finally, the word "go" was squeezed out between the teeth with difficulty, and the voice was choked up, which soon turned into a burst of sobs.

Qin Rong knelt down slowly, and instead of facing Qin Pei who was lying on the couch, he faced his father's back and kowtowed deeply three times.She squirmed her lips and called out with difficulty: "Dad...Dad."

The big hand waved towards him behind him, sighed and restrained his grief: "It's destined, I Qin Alang is destined to be like this, if I find it, I won't be able to keep it."

My heart feels like being stabbed by a knife, watching the person in front of the window slowly spread his five fingers, the fingertips are the color of red wine, like blood, dripping from the fingers.He refused to look back, trying to hide the bleeding from his heart.

"Father, daddy, Rong'er promise daddy, promise daddy..." Only sobbing remained.

"Ok?"

"For the Qin family, give birth to sons, pass on cigarettes, give birth to a dozen sons, and call them 'grandfather'."

Tears turned into laughter, and the hypocritical questioning was like a child's stubbornness: "A dozen? Not enough, without your brother, Dad needs a platoon, no, a company, a bunch of grandchildren. Everyone grows up to be a man and can shoot Kill the enemy. Every grandson has many great-grandchildren. If you don’t believe that ten of my Qin family’s descendants beat him to one of the Japanese pirates, I won’t drive him out of the house! Drive out..."

After saying that, weeping loudly, hugging his head and burying himself in his knees, Qin Rong saw Qin Pei's handsome appearance when he was young, smiling at their father and son proudly looking up at the window.

He leaned over to his father, Boss Qin embraced him, hugged his shoulders like a child and burst into tears, the cry was like a tiger trapped in the plain, howling to shake the deep mountains, but wandering swiftly and uselessly.

"No, don't... tell, your mother, just say... him, he has gone abroad. "

Qin Rong nodded and saw the pass, bank deposit slip, US dollars, gold bars, and boat tickets neatly placed on the kraft paper envelope on the table.The tears that burst the embankment fell down, and the father's back was wet.

"Good boy, are you going to cry? I knew you would cry, but I beat you so hard that day in Xiangtang, why didn't you cry a little, if you cry a few times, Dad will have a ladder to step down, so I can beat you less often. Stupid boy."

Another whimper filled the room.

"When I was young, I knew that the world was difficult, and the Central Plains looked north like a mountain.

The night of the building boat night Xueguazhou crossing, Tiema Qiufeng cleared.

The Great Wall is empty, and the temple has been spotted in the mirror.

Out of the teacher's list of real names, a thousand years who can be compared.

"Your aunt was a talented woman when she was young. Your grandfather was a follower of Mr. Liang Rengong. Your mother always laughed at me for being a vulgar person who couldn't read a basket. She always liked to recite poems at that time. Dad memorized a few poems and read them later. I don't know what it means. These days, I don't know why I always think of your aunt. When I think of your aunt, I remember this poem. Look..."

Boss Qin pointed to the wall, and the banner on the wall was full of vigorous cursive and white, and wrote this poem with his pen.Qin Rong didn't read much, but he heard his elder brother recite poems when he was young, and he only remembered something like "Moonlight in front of the bed", and it was the first time he read this poem.My heart surged, and my father murmured: "I understand, I finally understand."