Heartburn

The moment his shoulder was touched, Chi Zhao subconsciously wanted to escape, but the palm was gentle and powerful, wrapping him tightly like a net, and he couldn't break free at all.

"Don't...touch..."

"Don't be afraid." A deep voice rang in his ears, "Don't be afraid, no one will hurt you."

Can no one hurt him...?

The gentle but firm voice told him: "You have grown up, you are protecting others, aren't you?"

Yes, he has grown up, those are in the past, no one can hurt him anymore.

Chi Zhao gasped for breath, the embrace was powerful and he couldn't escape, but it no longer made him feel breathless, as if the boat in the storm finally went ashore with all his strength, it was his safe haven.Chi Zhao's face was dripping with sweat, and his breathing gradually calmed down.

"Sorry..." The chaos in front of him was no longer chaos. Chi Zhao opened his eyes, and everyone in front of him looked at him worriedly. Chi Zhao moved his lips and said softly, "I'm fine."

His voice was a little hoarse, and his body slipped off the stool at some point. Fu Nan'an supported him and let him sit down again. His gentle and strong hands were still on his shoulders, giving him solid strength: " It's okay, take a rest."

Chen Kaiji, who was standing next to him, asked him worriedly: "What's wrong with you, Brother Chi? Your face is so pale."

Chi Zhao lowered his eyes, shook his head, and did not answer.

He didn't know how to answer, and it was difficult for him to tell others about the pain of the past.

He has been treated differently too much, he hopes that he is a strong and uplifting image in the hearts of others, he does not want others to sympathize with him, but at this moment he suddenly lost control of his emotions, he really doesn't know what to do He couldn't face the colleagues and friends he still wanted to get along with.

"It's okay," Fu Nan'an said, "You've already acted bravely."

The faint scent of sandalwood lingered in his nostrils, and Fu Nan'an said with a half smile: "Our doctor Chi was very heroic just now, and he is no longer afraid of being beaten, and he is still thinking about protecting Yuanliang, right?"

His voice is very gentle, but very powerful, the distance between the two is very close, he is standing behind Chi Zhao, so close that Chi Zhao can hear his heartbeat, one after another, very steady, Chi Zhao He listened silently, and suddenly remembered something: "Yuanliang... is Yuanliang okay?"

Yuan Liang was so frightened that he was dumbfounded. He has been shaking non-stop since just now, and his voice is hoarse from crying. He is squatting on the ground, and no one can help him, but maybe someone stood beside him when he was beaten for the first time. Come on, when he heard Chi Zhao's voice again, he actually yelled in a voice that had been crying for a long time: "Brother..."

Fu Nan'an smiled, and told Chi Zhao seriously: "It was you who protected him."

Yes, he has grown up, he no longer fears those beatings.

Not only is he not afraid, he is still able to use his body to protect other children.

Chi Zhao smiled with relief, the wound on his body was burning hot, but it didn't seem so hard to bear. It takes one to two weeks for the recovery of flesh and blood wounds. The human body is indeed very tenacious, and no matter how deep the wound is, it will Fades the blur.

After such a fuss, no one dared to stay here anymore, and they were not interested in warming up to the fire. They took a basin of water to extinguish the fire and waited to leave at any time. A little more stable and less resistant, everyone took Yuan Liang to the car for the return journey.

Chi Zhao, who was relieved, returned to his usual smiling appearance. Chen Kaiji came to ask him how he was feeling, and Chi Zhao said with a smile, "It's okay. What can you do, brother Chi? Stay strong."

The car was driving smoothly, the wound was still burning and painful, and a large bruise had already appeared on the place where he was beaten. Chi Zhao took out the bottle of Huoluo Oil from the side of his school bag and applied the medicine to himself. He never dreamed of this bottle of oil. It can also be used for myself, and I laughed at myself: "I'm well prepared for this."

"Brother Chi, you..." Chen Kaiji was obviously still worried about him, he hesitated to speak, Chi Zhao smiled, knowing what he wanted to ask, so he simply asked, "Why, want to ask me what happened just now? What happened before ?”

"I..." Chen Kaiji paused for a moment, carefully looking at Chi Zhao's expression, for fear that he would be unhappy, "Brother Chi, don't tell me if you don't want to, I'll just ask."

Chi Zhao smiled casually: "I want to know it's normal, did I scare you just now?"

The cold medicine was rubbed on the skin to cool it down, and it quickly became hot again. Chi Zhao rubbed the injured area with the medicine on his palm, and slowly explained: "I just encountered similar things when I was young. I just saw Yuanliang When his father wanted to beat him, he remembered again."

In the past, this was the past that Chi Zhao didn't want to mention the most. He was afraid of others' sympathy, afraid of treating him differently, afraid that others would despise him and protect him as a fragile alien, but when Fu Nan'an told him that he was protecting When he met Yuanliang, he felt that it was okay to admit his past sufferings.

He did have a painful past and was beaten to a bloody mess, but that didn't mean he couldn't grow and become stronger. Wouldn't he be able to protect others now?

"My parents beat me all the time when I was young, even harder than Yuan Liang's father." Chi Zhao said this for the first time with a smile, and he said it very interestingly, vividly, "Then I They must not be allowed to fight, I was able to climb the wall, so I climbed on the top of the wall and made faces at them, who is afraid of whom."

It's the most uncomfortable when you hold it in your heart, but it's nothing if you really say it, Chi Zhao rubbed the active oil for himself while talking, and there was a "hiss" from the pain from time to time, but the smile on his face didn't change.

Chen Kaiji also chatted with him, and the two quickly changed the topic. Fu Nan'an sat in the front row and closed his eyes. When he heard the laughter coming from behind him from time to time, he also slightly raised the corners of his lips. .

Children are so lovable when they laugh, full of enthusiasm and vitality, and scratch the tip of their heart like a fluffy tail, making your heart tickle, feeling warm and comfortable.

On the first night after returning from the countryside, Chi Zhao had a dream.

After running around like this for a week, his whole body was sore, Chi Zhao fell into a dark and sweet dream within 2 minutes of lying on the bed in the dormitory.

Everything in the dream was psychedelic, only the pain between the skin and flesh reminded him that he had returned to those dark years.

Pulling the belt on the body can tear the skin, kicking the soles of the shoes on the face can taste the smell of earth, and then a pair of gentle hands took him into his arms, and everything in front of him brightened up.

The scene changed suddenly, he fell into a clear pool, but he didn't feel like falling, the gentle spring water touched every inch of his skin, and those big hands also touched him.

Shoulders, back, lower abdomen... His hands went all the way down, his fingertips scratched his skin, a weak electric current ran across his skin, itchy and numb, his breath was filled with the familiar aroma of sandalwood, Chi Zhao felt it I was pressed and pressed under a solid and powerful body by those hands, gentle and undeniable.

He stroked the base of his thigh, and then slowly probed inward...

……

Suddenly, Chi Zhao woke up.His skin was sweaty, and the heat between his legs was a reminder of what had just happened.

It was still dark outside, and several roommates were still asleep. Chi Zhao tiptoed up to go to the bathroom. The window was not closed tightly, and the cold wind swept over his legs, from head to toe.

...This is too shameful.

Anyway, he is in his 20s, so it's not like he hasn't had such a dream, but this is the first time he clearly knows who he dreamed of after waking up.

He didn't want to admit it, but he had to admit that only Professor Fu had given him that clinging feeling.

Even respecting him as a professor, just doing such a thing, is too insignificant.

Chi Zhao's face was scalded like something, and after washing his underwear, he hung them on the balcony, and hung them in the corner with a guilty conscience.He didn't want to admit it, but he had to admit it, until he put on clean underwear and went back to bed, he was still unconsciously reminiscing about that lingering and charming dream in his mind, and when he closed his eyes, those gentle big hands She wrapped around him lingeringly again, her heart was beating too fast.

The feeling of liking cannot be hidden, and the desire for a person cannot be hidden either. Chi Zhao has always felt that he is closer to a kind of worship and admiration for Professor Fu, but at this moment he has to admit that he is not satisfied. At this point, he is still fantasizing about more things - he likes him, he... wants him.

After returning from going to the countryside, the psychology department resumed its usual rhythm. During this time, a lot of work has been accumulated to do, and Chi Zhao’s favorite thing to do when he is busy is to stare at Fu Nan’an’s back, but he still feels that it is enough. ,time is too short.

Chi Zhao's internship in the psychology department is only one month, and three weeks have passed in a blink of an eye. After the last week, he will be transferred to other departments, and the chance to see Professor Fu will be less.

Of course, no matter how much Chi Zhao desires in his heart, there are very few opportunities to peek during actual work. The doctor's work is too busy, and any department is not easy.

The patients in the psychology department are more concerned about privacy. The interns have few opportunities to go to the outpatient clinic. Most of them help in the ward. Fu Nan'an has a lot of patients. Chi Zhao helps manage about seven or eight patients, and Yuan Liang is one of them. one.

Yuan Liang, who came to the fifth hospital, was not as thorny as he had just met, but he was not very gentle. After all, there were so many years of torture, it was not easy for him to open his heart, but Chi Zhao was not in a hurry, He knew that Yuanliang would get better, and Yuanliang's changes could be seen under Fu Nan'an's treatment. When Aunt Zhao came to visit him three days later, he even said "thank you" to Aunt Zhao in a low voice. It's never been done before.

Dawan Village is quite far from the provincial capital, and it was not easy for Aunt Zhao to come here. She cried when she heard Yuan Liang's thank you, and said "thank you" in a low voice without confidence, but it was a good start and a symbol of hope.

During the rounds in the afternoon, Aunt Zhao held Fu Nan'an's hand and refused to let it go: "Thank you Doctor Fu, I heard from Doctor Xiaochi that Yuan Liang was able to come to the Fifth Hospital thanks to your help, you are really a good person. "

Fu Nan'an smiled gently, often hearing these praises: "It's okay, this is what we should do."

Aunt Zhao shook her head, there were some things no one said but she didn't understand: "No, you must have put in a lot of effort to apply for this loan for Yuan Liang. It must be not an easy task with so much money!"

Aunt Zhao said anxiously: "Just tell me what you want. I'm just a farmer and I don't have any skills, but as long as I can do it, I will do it. You are my great benefactor!"

The country people are indeed very simple, and if they recognize you, they will treat you wholeheartedly. Aunt Zhao dragged Fu Nan'an so grateful that she was about to cry. She wished she could describe him as the reincarnation of the Buddha and Bodhisattva, but Fu Nan'an was silent. After a while, he smiled: "I'm not the one you should be thanking for this matter."

This is indeed not an easy task. Helping Yuanliang is a strenuous but not necessarily flattering task.When we first met, I forgave and punctured the tire of the medical car. The whole department had a bad impression of him, and his father made trouble. Although he was arrested, who knows if there will be another trouble? Then there is the money, will Yuan Liang pay it back in the future, can he pay it back? There are too many things mixed up, and there are too many uncertainties, but Fu Nan'an still helped.

In order to apply for those things for Yuan Liang, Fu Nan'an wrote a lot of materials in private and owed favors to the department. To do this is to take risks, except that Yuan Liang's father may come to find trouble, if Yuan Liang In the future, Liang would not be able to pay back the treatment expenses, so the final money would have to fall on the department, Fu Nan'an himself.

Aunt Zhao didn't understand what he meant: "Then who should I thank?"

Fu Nan'an didn't speak, but when he turned his head, he heard a faint sound coming from the corridor. It was time for ward rounds. Several interns came to the ward together, and Chi Zhao's voice could be heard clearly.

After working in the hospital for so many years, he is no longer an inexperienced young doctor. Fu Nan'an also swore to cure the suffering of the world when he was passionate, but there are too many patients and too many things he can do nothing about. He was never as kind as Chi Zhao, who handled the affairs of Uncle Liu's son back then.

The more he has done, the more he has experienced. He has encountered many people who have been helped and then disappeared, and once he got almost all his deposits because of it.I have helped and been hurt. After going through thousands of sails, I just want to be clear of my heart. It is rare that I want to help someone even at such a big risk.

If you have to ask him why, it's probably because——

The footsteps in the corridor were getting closer, and the hearty laughter echoed, lingering in his heart. Fu Nan'an was silent for a moment, and said, "You should thank Chi Zhao."

Probably because that optimistic and brilliant child had begged him hard.

He didn't want to make him sad.