Heartburn

Stable.

As soon as Fu Nan'an's words came out, Chi Zhao only had these two words in his mind, as if he had taken a reassurance.

Professor Fu's performance was too steady. From the beginning to the end, he spoke fluently, logically, and still had a gentle and calm attitude, but no one would question his aura.Even if a few judges later raised a slightly difficult question and mentioned his eyes, Fu Nan'an's answer was still neither humble nor overbearing.

"My eyes are indeed my scars. I still regret it even now. I don't evade or justify. If you say that it is impossible for a blind person to be exactly the same as an ordinary person, it is normal for you to doubt it. But the eyes cannot To say it all, my past achievements are the best proof, my project is also the proof, I have never questioned my ability."

This sentence is absolutely confident. Professor Fu also has the capital of self-confidence. In fact, what the teacher who asked this question wanted was an attitude. It is needless to say.

That's right, this is Fu Nan'an's strength. At the beginning of the defense, Chi Zhao was still a little nervous, but when Fu Nan'an began to explain, Chi Zhao quickly calmed down.In fact, Chi Zhao is already very familiar with the text materials. He participated in the whole process of this project. In the tense environment, Professor Fu was still able to remain calm and calm, so even Chi Zhao's uneasy heart stabilized.

Chi Zhao's heart is stable and their projects are also stable. After the defense results came out, Fu Nan'an's project was unsurprisingly ranked first. The other people who were defending at the same time were still a little unconvinced. After the application for the project, he couldn't say anything. He couldn't find any faults. He was really beautiful. Several people who had talked about Fu Nan'an came to him in private to apologize and asked if they could cooperate with him in the future.

Fu Nan'an's attitude is very gentle: "If you have the opportunity, you can."

Professor Fu's attitude has always been gentle, and he is always like this when facing any doubts. Those prejudices don't seem to have left any scars in his heart. Chi Zhao really admired his mentality. Later, several people in the laboratory Chatting, reminiscing about the time when we talked about Fu Nan'an University in the past, Chi Zhao realized that Professor Fu also had a time when he was lost and sunk.

A senior sister couldn't believe it and asked: "Have you ever had a time when you couldn't accept it? It feels so unbelievable."

"What's unbelievable," Fu Nan'an shook his head, and answered honestly, "At any rate, I was also a top student in ophthalmology at the time, and I was recommended for admission at that time. Who would accept such a disease?"

Fu Nan'an spoke in a half-joking tone, but Chi Zhao could hear the regret in it. It was impossible to say that there was no regret, it was too fake, it was not just a matter of dreams, it was enough to make people collapse if they couldn't see it. It is not an exaggeration to say that the proud son of heaven fell once. Many people can't see that the quality of life will plummet in the future, and they can't even maintain the most basic life.

This experience was really painful, Fu Nan'an didn't intend to mention it, and everyone didn't ask any more questions, but Chi Zhao's heart was still tugging, and he couldn't stop worrying.

In the evening, Chi Zhao sent Fu Nan'an home. During this period of time, they would always walk together, and they could walk a certain distance on the same road. When the evening wind blew on the road, when the two talked about Fu Nan'an's eyes again, Chi Zhao couldn't bear it. Immediately asked: "Professor, how did you adjust?"

As soon as he finished speaking, Chi Zhao regretted it. This question was really sharp. Afraid that Fu Nan'an would recall the unpleasant experience, Chi Zhao quickly explained: "Professor, I just asked casually, there is no other meaning, otherwise just pretend I didn't ask. "

Chi Zhao was afraid that Fu Nan'an would be unhappy, so he looked at Fu Nan'an nervously after he finished speaking, but Fu Nan'an was just slightly startled and then laughed: "It's nothing, there's nothing we can't say."

Fu Nan'an said: "It's impossible to really not care about it. The main thing is to learn to adjust yourself. Just like what our psychology says, inner healing is a very important process."

Fu Nan'an also experienced times of frustration and sinking. He has always been the pride of heaven, the most dazzling existence in the eyes of all his classmates and teachers.When he was first diagnosed with this disease, he couldn't accept it at all. At that time, he had already been sent to graduate school, and because of this disease, he was beaten back to his original form. became a cripple.

This really can't make people happy. When Fu Nan'an mentioned this passage, his tone was very heavy: "After I came back from school, I locked myself in the house all day. No one could call me out. It gets dark but there is no way, I want to see it so much, I read desperately, but the harder I work, the faster it gets dark."

This feeling is too deadly. Just listening to Fu Nan'an's description, Chi Zhao felt unacceptable. Chi Zhao's heart throbbed in pain. He scolded himself countless times in his heart for why he brought up this topic, why? To mention Professor Fu's sadness, Fu Nan'an's tone paused for a moment, and then relaxed again: "Don't feel bad."

He smiled as if relieved: "Actually, I'm not that unfortunate. I have a very healthy family, and my friends are supporting me and helping me."

Companionship is indeed a very important thing. It is the same for everyone. People cannot live independently without being separated from the group. Chi Zhao deeply realized this during his internship in the psychology department.The same vision loss, Zhizhi had psychological problems due to the neglect of his parents, and many other children slowly stood up because of the company of their families. Even Yuan Liang, who was in good health, lost his sense of life because of his father's beating and scolding. Confidence, not to mention that Fu Nan'an was acquired blindness. After more than ten years of hard work, he was about to achieve something, that kind of painful and desperate moment.

"The pain at that time was really hopeless, but I met a few good friends," Fu Nan'an was smiling when he mentioned this passage. After the darkness faded, there was light. This is actually the deepest memory in his memory. One paragraph, "One is Director Zou of your ophthalmology department, and you have actually met the other, a judge for this defense, Professor Jiang Mingyuan."

"Professor Jiang Mingyuan?" Chi Zhao was a little stunned when he heard this name. Fu Nan'an had never mentioned him before. Chi Zhao did see this person during his defense, but his attitude towards Fu Nan'an didn't seem too warm , or maybe his eyes were a little sharp, Chi Zhao thought that he had something to say about Fu Nan'an at the beginning.

"He was my senior brother in college, but it doesn't really count." Fu Nan'an thought about their relationship for a while before saying, "He was a graduate student under the teacher who was my graduate student at that time, and I was canceled at that time. The qualification is that he has been comforting me."

At that time, Zou An and Dawu went to practice. Jiang Mingyuan accompanied Fu Nan'an for a long time. Jiang Mingyuan's study pressure was quite high, but he still often went to Fu Nan'an to talk with him, and encouraged him not to After giving up, several of their friends jointly bought a puppy for Fu Nan'an. Although the dog died of illness within a short period of time, the soft feeling remained in Fu Nan'an's heart forever.

Changes are subtle. At the beginning, Fu Nan'an naturally couldn't accept other people's kindness. He felt that they were pitying him, and even lost his temper with many people. Later, with the encouragement of a few friends , Fu Nan'an chose psychology with the attitude of giving it a try, and only then did he come to the present step by step.

Fu Nan'an said with a smile, "It's my luck to meet them."

This is the end of the story of the past. As long as you stand up in your heart, you can endure no matter how much suffering you suffer. After Fu Nanan chose psychology, he still encountered countless obstacles. He was rejected by the teacher and denied by the patient, but because of his family and With the support of his friends, he was finally able to make it to the present step by step.

After listening to the story, there was a long silence, and the two of them just walked side by side, feeling uncomfortable in their hearts, and really couldn't feel better, even though the matter had passed, the feelings still existed.

After a long time, Chi Zhao plucked up the courage to touch Fu Nan'an's hand: "It's all over, Professor."

Fu Nan'an smiled, and held his hand in his palm: "Well, it's over."

The palms were warm when the evening wind blew, and when the fingertips intersected, the slight numbness spread to the body, so the pain was slowly drifted away in the wind.

Everyone has had misfortune more or less, but Fu Nan'an's misfortune is particularly shocking and destroying people's hearts. It is a pity that Chi Zhao did not get to know Fu Nan'an back then, but he is very fortunate that Professor Fu can have such a friend by his side Left and right, and finally walked out again.

Perhaps this part of the story left a deep impression on Chi Zhao. After returning, Chi Zhao rarely suffered from insomnia.

Lying on the bed, he kept thinking about Fu Nan'an's past stories in his mind, and when he finally fell asleep, he had a long dream.

In the dream, as the protagonist, he personally experienced the suffering of Professor Fu. He felt the hardship of that period. He was ridiculed, discriminated against, and even refused to take the bus when he went out. They told him that blind people should not come out. , Don't waste social resources.

When dreams and reality were chaotically intertwined, Chi Zhao even dreamed about their defense.

He dreamed that their project failed, and he dreamed that everyone was prejudiced against Fu Nan'an's eyes, saying that he was not good enough, that no matter how strong he was, he was not as good as others. When Zhao woke up suddenly, he was covered in sweat.

It was only five o'clock in the morning, and it was dark outside, and Chi Zhao was even more flustered. He fumbled and took out his mobile phone to send a message to Fu Nan'an. When the message was sent, the screen of the mobile phone was on, and Chi Zhao's heartbeat remained the same. Soon, he held the phone to his heart.

-[Professor Fu, is our project really okay? ]

In the early morning, when the first ray of sunlight shone in, Fu Nan'an's news came back, two simple things.

-[What are you afraid of. ]

-[trust me. ]

So Chi Zhao's restless heart settled down again.