Heartburn

As soon as Fu Nan'an's words came out of his mouth, Mike lost, completely.

He wanted to stir up Fu Nan'an's inferiority complex, he wanted to make Fu Nan'an doubt himself, he really hit Fu Nan'an's sore spot, this feeling of being doubted hurt his self-esteem too much, not just this time, because the eyes That's why Fu Nan'an has to bear the doubts from the outside world all the time. These all exist objectively, but he has no thought of shrinking back.

"So at that moment I decided to give up." Mike said to Chi Zhao, "It doesn't mean that I don't like you anymore, but I have to admit that I can't love you as much as he does."

Mike's tone is very calm, no matter how much he praises his rival, it will not make people feel happy, but when the opponent is someone like Fu Nan'an, he really has no chance of winning.

What love is afraid of is never the obstruction of the outside world, but whether they have the courage to continue to accompany each other. Difficulties will always exist, but they are just how much. No matter how difficult the day is, two people can always go through it hand in hand, but if one person hesitates If you hesitate, if you take your feelings as a burden, then once the cracks are formed, they will become bigger and bigger, and finally no matter how stable the relationship is, it will be turned into a mess without any trace.

And Fu Nan'an's feelings for Chi Zhao are absolutely firm, mature, gentle, not paranoid and not easy to shrink back.When children like something, they always like to hold it firmly in their hands for fear of losing it, even if it is torn apart, they are unwilling to let it go, but Fu Nan'an holds it with both hands and let Chi Zhao fly upwards. He is not afraid of Chi Zhao Fly away and fly away, he only hopes that he can be happy.

Such feelings cannot be destroyed by blows, and any doubts are small and ridiculous in front of it, so Mike can only say to Chi Zhao ashamedly: "I am sorry for my previous clown behavior."

"My sincere wishes to you all," he said, "I hope you will always be together."

Chi Zhao doesn't care what Mike says or thinks, he is just an irrelevant outsider, and he doesn't need his blessing, but those words that Fu Nan'an said are like fine silver needles piercing Chi Zhao's heart, making Chi Zhao's heart was full, astringent and sour.

When we first decided to be together, Chi Zhao never thought that Fu Nan'an would think so much. Professor Fu is not a person who talks about love. He was also unhappy because Fu Nan'an let him study abroad calmly. He felt that Fu Nan'an didn't care enough about him, but it was only now that Chi Zhao knew that Fu Nan'an's love for him was no less than his.

There is no emotion more touching than running in both directions.

Chi Zhao originally didn't want to go back to China for the New Year. The project was too busy and the time was too short. He had already discussed it with Fu Nan'an. There were too many objective reasons for not going back, but when he heard what Mike said, There is only one thought left in Chi Zhao's mind - he wants to see him.

Want to see him, want to tell him that he will not leave him, want to tell him love over and over again, in fact, Chi Zhao has never been stingy in saying love in the past, but at this moment he still wants to hug his Professor Fu, hug him again Kiss, tell him that he is the best, tell him that he never thought of being separated from him.

After sitting on the plane for more than ten hours, Chi Zhao didn't even have time to send a message to Fu Nan'an, until he stepped on the familiar land and hugged his familiar lover, until the two bodies were tightly fitted together until the burden With the distance, Chi Zhao felt the long-lost peace of mind.

"It's my fault that I came back without telling you in advance. I was too anxious to come back to see you." Nestled in Fu Nan'an's arms on the morning of the first day of the new year, the light outside the window was gentle, but Chi Zhao's heart remained still Sour, "It breaks my heart to hear what you said to Mike, I really don't know that you thought about this before, professor, you are the best, you will always be the best with me .”

When thinking of what Fu Nan'an and Mike said, Chi Zhao still feels distressed. Professor Fu is always the best to him, and he shouldn't bear those doubts and criticisms.

Chi Zhao tightly grabbed Fu Nan'an's clothes and kissed Fu Nan'an's eyes indiscriminately. Fu Nan'an's expression was still gentle, and he gently patted Chi Zhao's back, and said to him: "It's okay, just say what you said." It's over, I don't care about that."

Fu Nan'an didn't care but Chi Zhao did. Chi Zhao kissed Fu Nan'an's cheek and assured him seriously: "Professor, don't worry, what Mike said will never come true, we will definitely be together forever, and I am only happy when you are together, you are my best."

Fu Nan'an replied obediently: "Okay."

Chi Zhao paused and said, "Never separate."

Fu Nan'an smiled and said, "Okay."

After being so sticky all morning, Chi Zhao's accumulated emotions finally vented out. He told Fu Nan'an that he liked it countless times, and he went to kiss Fu Nan'an stickyly. The first day was too long. What else to do, but this kind of mutual intimacy is also intoxicating, and the two of them didn't get up until almost noon.

"What do you want to eat?" Fu Nan'an asked Chi Zhao after waking up, "Do you cook at home or order takeaway?"

In the past, Professor Fu was always self-disciplined and strict. He never stayed in bed and seldom ate outside food. After being with Chi Zhao, he gradually became more humane. Chi Zhao liked his changes very much. He squinted his eyes and said : "Cook it at home, I want to eat your cooking."

There are still things in the refrigerator that Fu Nan'an went to the supermarket to buy the day before. The two of them are preparing meals in the kitchen together. Chi Zhao is in charge of cutting and washing vegetables. Fu Nan'an is in charge of setting up various electrical appliances. Last night when he was emotional, he didn't pay much attention. That's all for today. Busy with his daily work, Chi Zhao suddenly noticed that Fu Nan'an's elbow seemed to be a little slanted.

"Professor, why do you seem to be swollen here?" Chi Zhao reached out to touch Fu Nan'an's elbow, but before touching it, Fu Nan'an turned subconsciously.

"It's nothing serious, I just knocked it down yesterday, and it will be fine in two days." Fu Nan'an obviously didn't want to talk about this topic, and he didn't want to bother about it after a meeting, but Chi Zhao couldn't help but care, and Chi Zhao held his hand Putting all the dishes aside, he held Fu Nan'an's wrist after washing his hands, "Don't say it's okay, let me have a look."

There is heating in the room, and the pajamas at home are not too thick. Chi Zhao lifted Fu Nan'an's clothes, and saw a large swelling on his elbow, a large red area that was swollen and shiny. Chi Zhao carefully used it After pinching his hand, Fu Nan'an frowned: "It's really fine, don't touch it."

"It's not a professor, so we can't just leave it alone." In the past, Chi Zhao rarely insisted on what Fu Nan'an was unwilling to do, but it was different when it came to Fu Nan'an's body. On his arm, he gently kneaded it, with a serious expression, "Let's go check it out, it will be troublesome if you hurt a bone."

Large fractures are easy to diagnose, but small fractures are often overlooked. Without a word, Chi Zhao took Fu Nan'an to the hospital to take an x-ray. Fu Nan'an's arm was too swollen. Chi Zhao was heartbroken. They were all hanging, and I didn't breathe a sigh of relief until the film came out-no bones were injured, only soft tissue bruises.

But this is enough to make Chi Zhao feel distressed.

"How did it hurt?" the doctor on duty asked the two of them after seeing the film.

Chi Zhao turned his head to look at Fu Nan'an: "Why are you hurting the professor?"

Fu Nan'an's eyelids drooped, and he admitted honestly: "I fell down while going down the stairs."

"Then why don't you come for an examination?" The doctor asked him holding the film, "You don't feel any pain when you're injured like this?"

"It hurts a little." Fu Nan'an smiled and said, "I don't think it's all right."

It was indeed a coincidence that Fu Nan'an was in a bad mood that night, so he didn't pay much attention to falling down the stairs, and it happened to be the day when Chi Zhao came back. Fu Nan'an didn't want Chi Zhao to worry, but he could only say that he was afraid of something What, Chi Zhao is obviously angry.

In fact, Fu Nan'an's injury is not too serious, thanks to his young age, although it looks like a big swelling, in fact, only the soft tissue was injured. After the filming, the doctor prescribed Fu Nan'an's medicine and let them go back, but again No matter how you put it, he was indeed injured. On the way back, Chi Zhao's face was always tense, and no matter how Fu Nan'an called him, he didn't say a word.

"What's the matter?" Fu Nan'an hung one arm and stopped using his blind stick. He held Chi Zhao's hand consciously, "Are you angry, Teacher Chi?"

This is the skill Fu Nan'an learned when chasing Chi Zhao before, he called "Teacher Chi" over and over again in a soft voice, and asked him "Why are you ignoring me?" Chi Zhao couldn't hold back anymore: "Stop shouting. "

Chi Zhao's tone was a bit stiff, and he paused before saying, "Ms. Chi is not here, what are you calling?"

"Why are you ignoring me here?" Fu Nan'an smiled and shook Chi Zhao's hand, interlocking his fingers, "Are you mad at me, Teacher Chi?"

Before Chi Zhao could speak, he took the initiative to admit his mistake. He was really afraid that Chi Zhao would get angry, and his elbow was uncomfortable, and his heart was even more uncomfortable. Chi Zhao could only stay in China for two days. It's not worth it if you're unhappy: "I know I was wrong, I didn't take care of my body, I really didn't expect it to be so serious, don't be angry with me because of this, okay?

Fu Nan'an fondled the back of Chi Zhao's hand with his thumb. His fingertips were very rough. They were calluses left by years of reading Braille books. There was a special feeling when the rough lines scratched the skin. Chi Zhao finally held Fu Nan'an with his backhand. hand, sighed softly: "I'm not angry, Professor."

Chi Zhao turned his head to look at Fu Nan'an's left hand, which had been casted because of the injury: "I just think it's really hard not to see."

Chi Zhao had felt this way countless times before, and this feeling became even stronger after the two were together.Fu Nan'an has too many regrets and too much unwillingness, all because he can't see this.

Because he can't see, there are countless people like Mike who can wantonly attack and slander him;

Because he can't see, he himself will continue to suffer psychological torture;

Because he can't see, he will always be injured in unexpected situations;

Because he couldn't see, he said the phrase "I don't know if I'm the best one, but he deserves the best."

But, he was supposed to be the best.

Fu Nan'an's love is a combination of low self-esteem and firmness. His physical defects make him have to endure all kinds of tests, his own suffering, and the suspicion of outsiders, but since he is determined to be with Chi Zhao, no matter how difficult it is, he will not When he was tired, he would face all the difficulties and doubts frankly. This kind of emotion was quiet but strong, but it also made Chi Zhao realize a fact that could not be ignored - as long as Fu Nan'an could not see for a day, then he would still With those doubts, and with all the inconveniences.

"I'm not angry, Professor." Chi Zhao repeated again, his eyes still falling on Fu Nan'an, looking at his left hand that had been put in plaster because of a fall, looking at the faint scar on his forehead caused by several bumps, and finally , Chi Zhao's eyes fell on his pair of light gray, dull eyes - these eyes are beautiful, but full of endless regret.

From birth to now, everyone has too many things they want. When I was a child, I cried and wanted milk. When I grow up, I have more things I want to hold in my hands. If you ask Chi Zhao what he wants most now What, then Chi Zhao will definitely say: "Professor, I want you to see again."

Chi Zhao paused for a moment, and said to Fu Nan'an seriously: "I didn't think about anything just now, I was just thinking, I want to heal your eyes."