Heartburn

Many people said that it was because of Chi Zhao that Fu Nan'an had the chance to see him again, saying that Chi Zhao was Fu Nan'an's benefactor, but Chi Zhao knew that was not the case. He knew that without Fu Nan'an, he would not be able to get to where he is now.

Love is originally achieved by each other, it is not about who redeems the other, they are the most suitable couple.Chi Zhaohui will struggle and work hard for Fu Nan'an's eyes, and Fu Nan'an will also extend a pair of gentle and firm hands for him when he hesitates and is afraid, not to guide him, but to accompany him.

With Professor Fu, Chi Zhao can always be a child. He can hesitate, be timid, and not strong enough. He can vent his negative emotions as much as he wants, and Professor Fu will tolerate all his bad emotions.

That night Chi Zhao hugged Fu Nan'an and kissed for a long time, just kissing quietly, the ward was very quiet, and the quiet moonlight outside the window was shining.After the kiss, they hugged quietly, with Fu Nan'an's arm on Chi Zhao's shoulder, and there was only each other in their world.

Chi Zhao had been tense for too long, he wanted Fu Nan'an to see it too much, this thought has been lingering in his mind, and he didn't know when it became an obsession.

He didn't dare to make mistakes, didn't dare to rest, and didn't dare to have the slightest hesitation. It was like a huge stone pressing on his heart, and it was also like a tight string tearing at the apex of his heart.This feeling of "must do it" pushes him forward all the time, like vines wrapping around him tightly, making him unable to breathe, and he feels guilty even when he stops to take a breath.

It's too sinful, and he wants Fu Nan'an to see it too much.

But it doesn't matter anymore, Fu Nan'an told him it's okay, told him that he could see him, Chi Zhao knew that this was just a way to comfort others, but at that moment, when Fu Nan'an's palm fell on his back , he still felt a long-lost relief, his heartbeat was steady, and his sinking heart returned to its original position.

He doesn't need to be afraid of anything, and he doesn't need to have any more burdens. He wants Fu Nan'an to see the original desire from his heart. He has done a good job. He has tried his best, regardless of the final result. , Professor Fu will always stand behind him.

Just hugging in silence, both of them were silent, Chi Zhao originally thought that this night was destined to be a sleepless night, but he soon felt sleepy after lying beside Fu Nan'an.

Professor Fu's side is so reassuring. He has Chi Zhao's favorite scent of sandalwood. After living together for a long time, his body's response to smell has become dull. Originally, Chi Zhao rarely smelled that familiar scent again. He knew that It has become a part of his body, and at this moment, when the two were lying side by side, Chi Zhao still clearly smelled the breath that reassured him, which was very heavy and stable.

His eyelids became heavier and heavier, and Chi Zhao slowly closed his eyes. Before falling asleep, his head leaned into Fu Nan'an's arms, and he muttered softly, "I'll see, Professor."

Fu Nan'an put his gentle hand on his head, stroking his fluffy stubble: "Well, I will see."

Chi Zhao's breathing gradually became even, "... definitely."

Fu Nan'an's breathing also slowly stabilized: "Well, definitely."

The next day was the operation at [-] o'clock in the morning, and Chi Zhao followed Fu Nan'an into the operating room.Local anesthesia is often used in eye surgery, but considering the need to cut the vitreous body, the doctor finally chose general anesthesia. The anesthesia needle was pushed into the body along the spinal cord. At the last second before falling asleep, Fu Nan'an glanced at Chi Zhaozhan It may not be a coincidence, just like what Fu Nan'an said, he can see it when Chi Zhao shines on him.

Naturally, Chi Zhao couldn't do this level of surgery himself, and as a relative, he wouldn't choose to perform the surgery on Fu Nan'an himself, because he was afraid that his emotions would get up and he wouldn't be able to calmly judge.However, as a participant in the research and development of artificial retina, Chi Zhao was fortunate to witness the whole operation in the operating room, and saw with his own eyes that the artificial retina he participated in was placed in Fu Nan'an's eye.

Chi Zhao couldn't describe what kind of feeling it was like,

Wearing a thick surgical gown, Chi Zhao stood in the last row of doctors and nurses.Anesthesia, marking, incision, every step of the operation was carried out in an orderly manner.All the most sophisticated experts in the industry were hired for the operation, and Chi Zhao really couldn't help, but when he saw the artificial retina with his own research results being put into Fu Nan'an's eye, he still couldn't help it. I felt a great sense of accomplishment.

He knew that Professor Fu was one step closer to seeing, and this included his efforts and expectations.

The subsequent suturing went smoothly, and Fu Nan'an woke up soon after the anesthetic passed.After the operation, the doctor wrapped gauze on the outside of Fu Nan'an's eyes, wrapped it up in circles and tied a knot on the forehead. At first glance, there was a subtle sense of joy.Every day when Chi Zhao came here, he had to touch and touch again, wishing that his hand would grow on this circle of gauze, which made Fu Nan'an feel helpless.

"Is it so funny?" Another time when Chi Zhao reached out to grab Fu Nan'an's gauze, Fu Nan'an pulled Chi Zhao's hand and pressed it, "You moved it eight hundred times today."

"How can it be so exaggerated?" Chi Zhao didn't obey Fu Nan'an's restraint, and continued to touch Fu Nan'an, "I just think it's very interesting, and it's the first time I've seen you like this."

Fu Nan'an was really helpless, and raised his hand to touch the edge of his eyes together: "Is it ugly?"

Chi Zhao rolled his eyes, looked at it carefully for a long time, and finally said four words: "...it's pretty ugly."

"Then what should we do?" Fu Nan'an smiled and sat on the hospital bed very relaxed.The corners of the lips curled up, "I'm already old, so no one wants me now?"

"Yeah, no one wants it now, and no one wants it in a few years," Chi Zhao also smiled, echoing his words with a serious tone, "I was abducted by you at a young age. Don't you want to hug my thigh more now?"

"Hold, I must. I can hug him as much as Teacher Chi asks me to do." Fu Nan'an naturally reached out to wrap his arms around his waist, and kissed him precisely on the lips.

It was interesting to talk and laugh, but neither of them really took it seriously. There is no such thing as ugly when covered with gauze. Over the years, there have never been fewer people who like Fu Nan'an, and Professor Fu likes all kinds of Chi Zhao.

I can't help touching Fu Nan'an's gauze all the time because Chi Zhao cares about Fu Nan'an's eyes under these layers of thin gauze. When Chi Zhao's fingers touch the gauze, he is touching Fu Nan'an's eyes. In his heart, both of them had waited for this day for too long, and Chi Zhao really wanted Fu Nan'an to see it.

It will take another week for the stitches to be removed after the operation. During this period, Fu Nan'an's eyes will always be wrapped with gauze.After the operation, the doctor told Chi Zhao that the operation was a success. Later, during the daily checkup, the doctor also said that the situation was developing for the better, but any operation must be risky, and everyone has individual differences. The final conclusion can only be drawn after the gauze is opened.

A week is neither too long nor too short. I have waited for so many years, but this week is particularly difficult.There was a girl in her teens who had the surgery with Fu Nan'an, who lived in the ward next door to Fu Nan'an. Before the operation, Chi Zhao stuffed her with a candy, and after the operation, the little girl stuck to Chi Zhao. Every day, her parents had to take her to play in Fu Nan'an's ward.

"Brother, brother, how long will it take me to remove this?" The little girl's eyes were also tied with the same gauze as Fu Nan'an, and she would drag Chi Zhao to ask almost every few minutes.

"Well...you have to wait." Chi Zhao shook his head, he has always been good at making children happy, "You see, the princesses in cartoons are always the last to appear, so people have to wait, baby, your eyes are so beautiful, So wait a little longer."

"Wow! Can I become a princess after taking it off? Then I can wait!" The little girl grinned at the corners of his mouth, and within 2 minutes she remembered this: "Is it okay for 1 minute? Then 5 minutes Woolen cloth!"

Chi Zhao pinched her face with a smile: "No way, my lord princess."

In the world of children, 1 minute is extremely long, and it takes a long time to break your fingers.The children were looking forward to Chi Zhao every second, and it seemed that only Fu Nan'an still had a calm expression, as if he didn't mind when the stitches would be removed.

The little girl soon got tired of playing, and was led back to her ward by her parents. Chi Zhao walked up to Fu Nan'an and touched his gauze again.

"Why are you not in a hurry?" Chi Zhao was really curious. When the little girl was here just now, Fu Nan'an was beside him. He followed Chi Zhao to coax the little girl, his tone was always gentle, as if he hadn't had any surgery at all. There is no gauze at all, he is just a bystander.

Chi Zhao pressed his fingers on the edge of Fu Nan'an's gauze, and muttered in a low voice: "I'm dying of anxiety."

"How can you tell that I'm not in a hurry?" Fu Nan'an smiled and touched his hand, feeling it with his fingertips, interlocking his fingers.

"I'm in a hurry." Fu Nan'an said, "You don't know how anxious I am."

Professor Fu has never been a person who reveals his emotions. He seldom expects anything urgently, except to see this.

Just now when the little girl was pestering Chi Zhao in the ward, her mother asked her what she wanted to see, and the little girl chattered a lot, wanting to see toys and cartoons.The child is still young, and she actually doesn't quite know the meaning of "seeing", but Fu Nan'an knows, Fu Nan'an understands it too well, "seeing" not only means the convenience of life, but also means that you can see more completely. Touch and feel the things and people you love.

Fu Nan'an wanted to see Chi Zhao for many years.

Looking at the dimple that everyone has praised countless times, looking at his fluffy stubble, Fu Nan'an tried to use all his senses to feel Chi Zhao but it was not enough. He wanted to see him and imprint his appearance in his eyes, so that Only then can it be considered complete and complete.

Two days before the operation, the eyes were still chaotic and blurry, not only because of the stretched gauze, Fu Nan'an's brain had not been stimulated by visual signals for too long, and it would take a long time to learn to "see" again. process.

day after day.

The gauze was still in front of his eyes, but Fu Nan'an could slowly feel someone's figure shaking. The gauze was wrapped in many layers but it was light-transmitting after all. Fu Nan'an opened his eyes wide through the gauze, wanting to let the light move faster. Come in.

A week passed in a flash, and finally came the day when Fu Nan'an had the stitches removed.Two days ago, the doctor took off the gauze briefly to help Fu Nan'an change the dressing, but the moment the gauze was actually removed, it felt different. It was a very dazzling light. Fu Nan'an hadn't felt it for a long time, even the condition The reflex generally narrowed his eyes.

Chi Zhao was standing beside him. Seeing this, he quickly grabbed his hand and looked at him nervously: "Professor, how do you feel?"

Chi Zhao wanted to reach out and shake Fu Nan'an in front of him, but he didn't even dare to move. There was nothing between him and Fu Nan'an, the distance between them was only tens of centimeters, so he just looked at Fu Nan'an in a daze. Looking at his eyes, he saw that there was a little halo in his originally gray eyes, and saw his own figure reflected in his eyes.

"Can... can you see me?" Chi Zhao's lips moved, and even his breathing slowed down.

His voice was trembling, he had never been so nervous before, he felt that his heart was about to stop beating, and then he saw Fu Nan'an stretched out his fingers in mid-air, and then slowly touched his cheek .

Fu Nan'an's fingers were a little cold and callused, his rough fingertips rubbed against his skin, and then tapped his eyelids.

"This is... the eye."

"This is...the nose."

"This is... the mouth."

Fu Nan'an's fingers stroked Chi Zhao's cheek inch by inch, and he opened his eyes greedily.This process was too long, and time seemed to stand still at this moment.

Fu Nan'an hadn't seen it for a long time, and it was difficult to form a complete picture in his mind. It took him a long time to react to what was in front of him.His fingers stroked Chi Zhao over and over again, recognizing while touching, his fingers were also trembling, and finally, the trembling hands landed on Chi Zhao's cheeks, and stopped three centimeters from the corner of Chi Zhao's mouth .

The expressions of both of them were tense, and neither of them made a sound. Fu Nan'an pressed and rubbed the corner of Chi Zhao's mouth repeatedly with his fingers. He seemed to be trying his best to identify what he was looking for, and he frowned slightly.

"Where's your dimple?" Fu Nan'an frowned and asked Chi Zhao, "Why can't I see it?"

Chi Zhao's tears welled up all of a sudden, he knew that Fu Nan'an had really seen it, his eyes were sour, and when the corners of his mouth opened, the dimple on the side of his lips finally emerged.

"It's here." Chi Zhao cried and pressed Fu Nan'an's hand, and took him to touch the dimple together, exerting force on his knuckles, "Professor, have you seen it? Can you see it? It's right here !"

Chi Zhao repeated over and over again, taking Fu Nan'an to touch the dimple, his skin turned red from the friction, and the stabbing pain spread across his skin, but he still didn't know it.

"...It's red." Fu Nan'an said softly, his fingers still resting on Chi Zhao's skin, pressing the small dimple with his fingertips, and he said, "I rubbed your place red, But still, it's beautiful."

——A hundred times more beautiful than in his dream.