Heartburn

Did he hear it?

Still haven't heard?

Chi Zhao was stunned in place, not knowing what to say for a while.

Must have heard it.

It looked like he had been standing there for a long time.

Fu Nan'an asked Chi Zhao with a normal expression: "Do you want to go shopping?"

"……Um."

Chi Zhao nodded dully, and Fu Nan'an said, "Let's go, I'll be with you."

Going downstairs in such silence, Chi Zhao tried his best to breathe steadily, and his heart was full of turmoil.

He didn't know how to react, because apart from Zhizhi, he never thought of taking the initiative to reveal his past to others.

It was recorded in the files when he was a child, so the teachers and students in the school regarded him as the focus of attention, and even the class teacher in junior high school even conducted a public fundraising for him in the class.They are kind, he knows, but sometimes excessive concern itself is a kind of harm, he doesn't like that strange look.

When he first arrived at the orphanage, volunteers often came to visit Chi Zhao. They stroked his head tenderly, and looked at him with pity in their eyes, as if they were treating some poor animal—but what he wanted It has never been pity, he does not need the sympathy of others, he just wants to be an ordinary person who will not be looked down upon.

"Well, Professor Fu," Chi Zhao pulled the corner of his mouth hard, "Did you just... hear that?"

Without waiting for Fu Nan'an to say anything, Chi Zhao answered by himself: "Actually, that was a long time ago. It's long gone. I'm living a very good life now. I get a scholarship every year. I, I..."

Chi Zhao paused for a moment, his mind was a little blank, Fu Nan'an hummed softly, indicating that he could continue talking, so Chi Zhao took a deep breath, and then slowly exhaled: "...I want to say, you don't have to be pitiful I."

I'm already working hard to live.

So don't take me for an anomaly.

I don't need pity, I don't need sympathy.

I just want to live upright and upright.

"Well," Fu Nan'an smiled gently, and said, "I know."

I know.

Fu Nan'an said, I know this feeling.

Of course, Professor Fu understands this, not only because he is a professor of psychology, but also because he has come here step by step.

At that time, when the proud son of heaven fell, everyone was sorry, but it was a pity that he became blind, and it was a pity that he had to give up the medical career he loved, but the past experience has become the past, and the established facts can no longer be changed. It is still possible to look forward.

They talked about a lot of topics that day, past, present, future, and many weird questions.

Zhizhi almost fell asleep when he returned to the ward, and when he saw them coming back, he struggled to sit up again, complaining: "Why did you come back?"

"My brother said a few words to Uncle Fu,"

Chi Zhao smiled embarrassedly, and hurriedly stuffed the cotton candy into his hand: "Try the cotton candy I bought for you?"

"It's definitely not a few sentences, there must be hundreds of sentences!"

Zhizhi snorted softly, but obediently took it and tore off a piece. Before stuffing it into his mouth, he asked Chi Zhao: "Is this candy sweet?"

"Sweet," said Chi Zhao, "very sweet."

Zhizhi's parents left anyway, without taking Zhizhi away.

They hired a senior nanny for Zhizhi, but Zhizhi didn't want it, Zhizhi said he wanted to go to school.

This wish is both simple and complicated. Zhizhi’s physical condition is placed there, but at Zhizhi’s strong request, his parents finally agreed to contact a special boarding school for Zhizhi. can go.

On the day before my parents left, I knew I didn’t go to see them off. I just looked up at the window, watching the birds chirping, and watching a plane pass through the clouds, leaving behind two long trails of white smoke.

Chi Zhao sat by the hospital bed to accompany him, stroked his head and asked him, "Why don't you send them off?"

"I'm going to leave anyway," Zhizhi's eyelids drooped, and his long eyelashes concealed his expression. "It's even more uncomfortable to watch them go."

At this time, Zhizhi has almost recovered, eyes, emotions, and all aspects.But family love is something that is difficult to let go, Chi Zhao sighed lowly, he thought, after all, he is still a distressed child——

"Don't sigh," Zhizhi suddenly raised his head and said seriously, "It's too ugly."

Chi Zhao: "..."

Well, don't feel bad anymore.

Having said that, Chi Zhao was still quite worried about Zhizhi. The child recovered very quickly, and the wound on Zhizhi's wrist healed quickly, leaving only a shallow scar, but the scar on his heart was visible. If not, the pain caused by the visual defect may accompany him far, far away.

So Chi Zhao sighed again, and brushed Zhizhi's soft hair with his fingers.

She curled her lips knowingly and dissatisfied: "I told you not to sigh."

Chi Zhao laughed at him: "Why, I'm leaving soon, so fierce to my brother?"

"That's not it," Zhizhi said angrily, "I just want to see that you are unhappy."

Chi Zhao smiled, and leaned closer to comfort him, but he didn't expect Zhizhi to stand up suddenly, imitating his movements, and put his small palm on his head.

"Okay, okay, brother, don't sigh,"

Zhizhi stroked his hair clumsily, and said with a look of disgust, "I just decided to be like you, can you not leave a bad impression on me?"

It is impossible not to be sad, it is the same for everyone, Zhizhi lived with her parents since she was a child, it is impossible to get used to their sudden departure.

But leaving is leaving, always looking forward, Zhizhi told Chi Zhao in his own way that he has already thought about it, and he will work hard to live.

Seeing the child's angry expression, Chi Zhao burst out laughing: "So brother has such a high status in your heart? Is he still your idol?"

"...Reluctantly."

Zhizhi tilted his head and looked him up and down, as if threatening, "Sighing again will make it worse!"

"Okay," Chi Zhao smiled, and took out a candy from his white coat and gave it to him, "Then we won't sigh in the future."

The toffee is small and can be easily held in the hand, and the wrapping paper with soft edges looks like small wings stretching out.

Without sighing, Chi Zhao told Zhizhi that after eating candy, he must continue to fly upwards.

On the day Zhizhi was discharged from the hospital, Chi Zhao was also successfully discharged from the ophthalmology department and transferred to the psychology department.

Unlike some hospitals that classify psychology as a department of neurology, the fifth hospital has a separate department of psychology. The rotation of clinical students in psychology was added this year, and it was not included in the previous internship plan.

Some people are happy about this move and some are worried. Chi Zhao is very interested in the psychology department, especially after experiencing what he knows, he wants to learn more and get in touch with him. On the way back after the conference, Zhong Yangqiu's face kept drooping He said, complaining: "Why do you have to go to the psychological..."

"Why," Chi Zhao asked him, "you don't want to go?"

"That's for sure. I will definitely not choose psychology in the future. Why am I going to do clinical psychology?" Zhong Yangqiu nodded hastily, a little dissatisfied, "With this time, I might as well memorize a few more real exams for the postgraduate entrance examination."

Chi Zhao really wanted to go: "You can also learn more things, such as Zhizhi. If it wasn't for Professor Fu's reminder, it would really be over."

"Hey, I can only comfort myself like this," Zhong Yangqiu nodded helplessly, and said, "Now my only hope is not to be assigned to Professor Fu's subordinates after I get mental."

"Why?" Chi Zhao didn't understand very much. He wished to be under Fu Nan'an's subordinates, and even had to admit that Fu Nan'an was responsible for his interest in psychology. "Didn't you always praise me about how awesome and powerful Professor Fu is before? What? Are you unwilling to follow him now?"

"Looking from a distance is certainly different from working under him!" Zhong Yangqiu gave him a helpless look, and whispered into his ear, "Professor Fu is really powerful, but he is also really strict. My classmates in the School of Psychology are all afraid of Professor Fu, and some of them have been scolded and cried by him!"

Fu Nan'an is such a person, he is gentle and kind, but he is also absolutely serious and responsible.Usually, he won't get angry no matter how he plays around, but he must be rigorous when it comes to work, and if he makes a mistake, he must be dealt with seriously and cannot be tolerated.

"Don't assign it to Professor Fu, don't, don't."

Zhong Yangqiu clasped his hands together and murmured in a low voice, the two WeChat notifications sounded at the same time, it was news from the internship group.

"The grouping table is out."

Chi Zhao glanced at the phone, and suddenly felt nervous when he turned on the watch, "Actually, I really want to follow Professor Fu, really——!"

He fell silent suddenly.

Zhong Yangqiu asked him: "What's wrong?"

"What a coincidence," Chi Zhao repeatedly looked at the list on the group, raised the corners of his mouth uncontrollably, Zhong Yangqiu opened the division list suspiciously, and couldn't help exclaiming, "—fuck, You were assigned to a ward where Professor Fu is???"

Chi Zhao sneered and breathed a sigh of relief: "I got what I wanted."

"Are you serious?" Zhong Yangqiu looked at him incredulously, "Do you really want to follow Professor Fu?"

"Really," Chi Zhao smiled and bumped his shoulder, "Go, I'll treat you to dinner tonight."

The Fifth Hospital is the largest hospital in the province. Each department is subdivided into several wards. It is definitely something to be happy to be assigned to Fu Nan'an's subordinates. Not one level yet.Chi Zhao did what he said, he really treated Zhong Yangqiu to dinner at night, on the way back to the dormitory, he met a marshmallow seller, and bought two more marshmallows to eat.

"Why do you still like to eat this kind of food?" Zhong Yangqiu tore off a piece of marshmallow and stuffed it into his mouth, feeling a little funny, "Aren't these things only eaten by children?"

"Anyway, I just like it," Chi Zhao didn't explain much, just said, "It's delicious and sweet."

The marshmallow was too sweet, so sweet that it reached Chi Zhao's heart. After returning to the dormitory, he washed the short bamboo sticks and put them in the drawer.

Several bamboo sticks had been accumulated in the small drawer, and they were neatly placed in the deepest part. Chi Zhao took them out one by one, wiped them, and rearranged them again, as if he was treating some kind of treasure seriously.

He didn't tell Zhong Yangqiu, and he didn't tell anyone. In fact, on the day he bought marshmallows for Zhizhi, Fu Nan'an also invited him to eat marshmallows.

"No need professor, really no need," when Fu Nan'an handed it over, Chi Zhao subconsciously refused, "I've grown up, I don't care about those things for a long time."

The child who shivered in the windy weather and hoped for a piece of candy has grown up. He may walk slowly and bumpy, but he does not need other people's handouts.

"I know," Fu Nan'an said with a smile, "that's why I want to give you this marshmallow."

This is not charity, but respect, and all understanding and tolerance.

It is a preference for endless life.

Fu Nan'an looked at Chi Zhao's direction quietly with his light gray eyes, and said to him, "Thanks for your hard work."

Thank you for working so hard to grow up.