Rebirth Night Talk

In the Spring Festival of [-], grandma owned a record player.Wanlin's local folk art did not record, so the old lady had to listen to Yue opera, Huangmei tune, and Peking opera day and night at home.Zhao Xuejun asked grandma if she understood?The old lady rolled his eyes immediately after hearing this: "I'm not a foreigner." In other words, foreigners can't understand it either!

Foreigner, foreign friend, is a new vocabulary that grandma knows.At the end of [-], a group of yellow-haired and green-haired foreigners who were different from the Chinese people entered Wanlin City for some reason on their way to visit Mount Wutai.The people of Wanlin City will never forget this day. People from half of the city flocked to the streets to look at those foreign devils like monkeys.At home, my mother went, my two brothers went, and finally my father and the leaders of the municipal party committee also went.Can I not go? Foreign friends were surrounded by people acting like monkeys, and they were too scared to get out of the car.

The foreign devils are gone, it's been a year.The three brothers of the Zhao family, who hadn't spoken for a long time, were still the same.Zhao Xuejun got up early every day. He said that he had the key of the whole class and was going to open the door for his classmates.Every day after school, he went straight to the museum, and sometimes stayed in the museum to eat with Lao Chang.He avoided his two older brothers. Sometimes, when he saw his eldest brother and second brother standing at the school gate from a distance, he turned around and left behind the school.It's not that he is cruel, he is afraid.He is afraid that subconsciously, he will still compete for favor, and subconsciously, he will do things that dominate other people's lives. He is afraid that he will give too much to others and be disappointed too much.He was afraid that one day he would like them more and more, rely on them, and when that secret was revealed, it would not be a matter of forgiveness.He can't bear some emotions, and in his bones, he thinks he is unworthy.Zhao Xuejun, who felt that he had woken up, shrank himself into a small room. He curled up without even noticing himself.

Zhao Xuewen, Zhao Xuebing originally planned to draw a line with his younger brother for the rest of his life.They talked and laughed loudly in front of the younger brother, took everything he did, and didn't give him a chance.Parents did not intervene in their childish behavior of competing for favor.Zhao Jianguo and Gao Juzi are just trying to be fair.They think that children's anger is just a matter of a few days, and it's over after they have vented it. Whose children are not like this?Even grandma thought so.

It has been several months, and Zhao Xuejun is no longer close to his family.He did what he had to do, went to school, after school, went out with Wang Xi to watch the pigeons, went out with Wang Rui, Wang Rui and Ni watched him.He no longer sells newspapers, collects junk, and just lives his life in silence.He tried his best to imitate, just like a child of this age, his butt would never stay at home.When he went out, the other children were playing, but he was holding a set of stationery and went to the museum every day to read the inscriptions and practice his mind.

Zhao Xuewen had already figured out that he was jealous of his younger brother.After he separated from his younger brother and went to the square alone to look at the air gun stand all afternoon, he wanted to reconcile with his younger brother.He rode his bicycle forty miles back and forth to listen to his grandma, so he wanted to reconcile with his younger brother.Seeing something delicious, he touched his pocket, and he wanted to reconcile with his brother.After a week, he didn't take a bath or wash his hair until it stinks, and he didn't hear his brother nagging, so he wanted to reconcile with his brother.He went to school and watched other brothers pick up his younger siblings after school.Go crazy every time I see someone jealous.What's the matter, why couldn't I say something fair for Xiao San'er that night?Why did I lose my brother's duty?Now every time Zhao Xuewen looks at Zhao Xuebing, that look is like a knife.Every time Zhao Xuebing was scared, his legs became weak.

Zhao Xuebing's life is the worst. Most of his thoughts are like his elder brother, wanting to reconcile with his younger brother.From the first day he wrote his homework, reached out to grab his younger brother's schoolbag, and his hands were empty, his heart was empty.He has a lot of time to play, and he was very happy at first.When eating poached eggs, the jaw is high.His parents gave him the same pocket money, but he unceremoniously kept it for himself.According to his ideas and the principle of fairness, the water tanks at home are one for the elder brother, one for him, and one for the junior.Every day, Xiaosan will pick up the water early by herself.He no longer took a bath with his family, and invited Wang Xi to the army bathhouse every day.His little pocket will no longer conjure unexpected delicious food for Zhao Xuebing.Every time he lost something, no one reminded him: "Brother, don't be careless, keep asking me to show you things..."

There is no laughter, coquettish, and shameless voices from Xiaosan'er at home.One winter, the temperature was not as cold as the Zhao family's popularity.Gao Juzi worked hard to tease his youngest son, and Zhao Xuejun also cooperated every time.It's just that his acting is too fake, and the fake one can tell that he is forcing himself.Now he is the first one to start school, and that bastard Wang Xi is also a frequent student.He no longer depends on everyone in the family, and sometimes he doesn't bother to talk.Occasionally, when his parents are not at home, he will prepare a meal early and heat it by the stove, but he will not stay at home, waiting for his brothers to enter the house, and then each of them will pass a can of hot water with a smile bottle for them to cover their hands.

Zhao Jianguo was puzzled, how could he be sentenced to death after being biased for a while, he talked with his son countless times.He also scolded severely in front of him, pretending to hit the boss and the second child hard.Force them to apologize to Xiaosan.But no one would have guessed that Zhao Xiaosan'er's temper was not at 01:30.He was like a different person, starting from the roof, he was like an adult, taking care of himself and managing himself.Do what you should do well, and never ask your parents.What should I do, what do I need, what can I do.He is silent, so silent that you can't speak, he reads books one by one, can you not ask him to read?On Sunday, he sits there and writes large characters, and he writes for a whole day. Can you not ask him to write?Force him to go out and play, and he turns around and goes to the library, or the museum.If it was really tight, he would go out with the neighbor's children, and when other people's children were having fun, he would lean against the wall and watch stupidly.In short, no matter how other people show their favor, Xiaosan will never go back, and she will no longer be the former Zhao Xiaosan.

On the second day of the new year, the firecrackers outside were still so loud.Zhao Jianguo bought a lot of firecrackers this year, and he hopes that through these children's favorite things, the bad luck of last year will be destroyed.It's a pity that Zhao Xuejun didn't touch a single firecracker this year. He took new clothes and lucky money after wearing them.He also thanked him with a sincere expression. He even bought a pair of gloves a year ago as a New Year gift for his working mother.It made Zhao Jianguo quite jealous, and he even felt that Xiao San'er did it on purpose.

After eating, he put down his chopsticks, Zhao Xuejun took out a big porcelain man, filled a bowl of dumplings and covered it, put on his overcoat, and said to his family, "Dad, I'm going to Uncle Chang's."

Zhao Jianguo put down the bowl, wanted to lose his temper, but held back: "Come back early, for the New Year's Eve, who doesn't stay together as a family!"

Zhao Xuejun nodded, buttoned the bowl, turned and went out the door.

Zhao Xuewen, Zhao Xuebing was a little anxious and wanted to follow, but he didn't have the guts.Xiao San'er, I don't even bother to talk to them now, no matter how they show their kindness, my younger brother treats them so politely and frighteningly.This kind of politeness is frightening, and the feeling of never going back made the two teenagers feel for the first time that you can keep making mistakes, and you can also lose your temper at will.However, some things cannot be hurt, such as feelings and affection.Although the body will not feel pain when these emotions are hurt, once there is an injury, everyone's ability to bear it is different. For example, Zhao Xuejun will shrink himself up and lock him up.I don't...don't believe you anymore.One of the best younger brothers in the world is gone, so I don't care about them anymore, Zhao Xuewen, Zhao Xuebing has really grown up this time.

"Dad, I'll take San'er there by bike, and I'll bring him back when I go." Zhao Xuewen put down the bowl and said to his parents.

Zhao Jianguo's anger immediately dissipated: "Be careful on the road, don't crash."

"I know!" After Zhao Xuewen finished speaking, he pushed the car and hurried out.After a while, he came back again, and said to his father with a bit of grievance, depressed: "He hides from me, I can't find him."

After Zhao Xuebing finished his dumpling soup, he stood up, helped his mother wash the dishes, fetched water for the house, and helped his father mix the coal slime to seal the fire.I cooked Chinese medicine for grandma, watched grandma drink it, and helped her turn on the record player and pick out the turntable.After doing all this well, Zhao Xuebing stood at the door of the house, waiting for his brother to come home.

In the room, Zhao Jianguo washed the apples, placed the candies, and placed two new poker cards in the middle of the round table.After finishing all this, he and Gao Juzi listened to the radio and waited silently.While waiting, gossip.

"tangerinr."

"what?"

"You said, can they reconcile?"

"Didn't you say you're reconciled soon?"

"Why are you being a mother to others? You didn't look at San'er, didn't you want to talk to them at all?"

"Then can I force him to deal with it? One time is enough. It's you. You told me to leave it alone. Okay, now, can you manage it? It's all a habit."

"This guy is cheap. The boss is sensible, the second child is good, the third child loves to study so much, and he is a good student this year. But me, I feel something is wrong."

"I think so too. It's better than before. Although it's a bit noisy, it's still a home with children. Think about it quickly, Junjun is only so old, just like a little old man."

A sound of two kicks in the night of the second day of junior high school shook the roof of the old Zhao's house. Zhao Xuebing waited left and right, and when he saw that his younger brother hadn't come back, he followed the path to pick him up. After walking about three miles, he saw a crowd of people surrounding him. Walking to the side of the road, his heart was trembling for a while, he squeezed over, pushed the crowd away, and was suddenly dumbfounded.On the snowy ground of the heavy snow on the [-]th day, a net bag was scattered, and the dumplings in the rough porcelain bowl rolled all over the ground... A small pool of blood stains was dazzlingly frozen there against the white background of the snow.

"Brother, where is my brother? Who saw... my brother... huh? Uncle, aunt? This is my brother's bowl, have you seen him? Ah?" Zhao Xuebing cried very sadly, holding the bowl and begging Ask passers-by.

Gao Juzi and Zhao Jianguo cried to the hospital. At that time, Zhao Xuejun had not yet entered the operating room.A young driver of the transportation company, after drinking a few drinks, quietly stole steel bars to his father-in-law at the construction site on the second day of the Lunar New Year. The snowy road was slippery, and he was afraid and anxious. Unlucky for Zhao Xuejun, who was walking well, he was pierced through his chest by a steel bar thick as a thumb.If it weren't for the slow speed of the car, Zhao Xuejun might have died on the spot.

Zhao Xuejun, who was half lying in the emergency room, also felt puzzled, is this the end of his journey of rebirth?Come here by yourself?What are you doing here?What did you change?I didn't take good care of my family. Did I have to trick my parents into crying before I left?He was exceptionally sober, and he was sober enough to see many people surrounding him. Then the fire brigade came, and someone found a saw, put him down from the rear of the car, and took him to the hospital together.Along the way, there were people who comforted him all the time, probably because they were afraid that he would be afraid, and someone put clothes on his head.After that, he just waited, waiting for someone to come, so that he could tell his family some last words.He is afraid that if he dies, he will have no chance when he dies. He has never been so afraid. He has not done many things, and he has some regrets...

I don't know, but after waiting for a long time, there seemed to be a strong wind blowing by his ears, and he felt cold.The person I love the most is not around.He regretted a little. He never thought that he would regret it in this life.Later, someone grabbed his hand and pulled his clothes away, revealing his father's face with snot and tears.She looked at him in horror, resisted to look at him, and looked at him not knowing what to do.

"Junjun, Jun, don't be afraid, Dad is here, don't be afraid, Dad is here."

Zhao Xuejun smiled, and stretched out his hand to touch his father's beard stubble: "Dad..."

"Hey...my son is not afraid, nothing happened. Think about Uncle Liberation Army...by the way...and Uncle Dong Cunrui..."

"Heh... Dad, come here..." Zhao Xuejun stretched out his hand, and without knowing where the strength came from, he tried his best to grab his father, and the Zhao family surrounded him in fright.

Outside the emergency department, the chief surgeon and anesthesiologist, who were celebrating the Chinese New Year, were called to the hospital urgently. The city leaders called, and even important leaders came to see him. Zhao Jianguo's popularity has been really good in recent years.

"Dad, my copper coins...don't sell them!" Zhao Xuejun ordered with difficulty.

Zhao Xuebing was so ashamed that he almost knelt down for his brother.

"Not for sale. If your brother dares to touch your things, I'll beat him to death!" Zhao Jianguo said viciously, and wanted to open his mouth to howl, but held back.

"Dad, you put my copper coins under my bed... don't sell them, you wait 20 years before selling them..." Zhao Xuejun struggled to break his father's fingers: "I sold the money and bought a house for my brother , marry a daughter-in-law...you are not allowed to take 3000 yuan from grandma's house...don't be angry with my orange mother."

Zhao Xuebing cried, not daring to speak loudly, and knelt on the ground pushing his brother's bed and crying.

The doctor made a plan and performed the operation.Before pushing into the operating room, Zhao Xuejun tried his best to tell the family members to take good care of my grandma, don't tell her where I went, and tell her that I went to school in other places.Mom, I will be your daughter in the next life, you can't make me wrong again.I am not allowed to sell any of my own things, and I will sell them in the future.After selling the money, father and mother go out to play, don't worry about what you want to eat... Later, the child started talking nonsense, saying that his mother was not allowed to close the door for him, and his elder brother was not allowed to die.The second elder brother is not allowed to marry a wife from South Street... The Zhao family was frightened.

When the lights in the operating room came on, Zhao Xuewen turned around and rushed out, Zhao Jianguo yelled: "If you pity me as an old man, and don't want me to lose my two sons at once, you go!"

Zhao Xuewen came back with a look of resentment, first slapped himself twice, then two more, Zhao Xuebing walked over and knelt down, and said to his elder brother: "Brother, hit me, don't hit yourself. I should hit... If it was me It's fine if something goes wrong." Zhao Xuewen slapped him twice, and beat his chest with his backhand.

That operation took nine hours, and the steel bar penetrated through the chest and exited through the back.Miraculously fortunately, no internal organs were injured. Unfortunately, the steel bar was old steel bar with rust on it. After Zhao Xuejun came out of the operating room, he was in a coma for seven days. Four of them had to be operated on due to infection. He was sent to the emergency room for emergency treatment, and four critical illness notices were issued.During this period, the Zhao family was supported by a 70-year-old grandmother. When encountering major events, the old man miraculously became resilient, delivering meals to and from the hospital and home every day.It's okay, the old lady will touch Zhao Xuejun's forehead and call his name. She doesn't allow others to speak loudly, saying that she is afraid of shocking Zhao Xuejun's soul.This child is timid, and he is afraid that he will disperse if he is scared.

Lao Chang rushed to the hospital feeling guilty.Isn't it just a bowl of dumplings? If Zhao Xuejun who was killed because of a bowl of dumplings is gone, he is ready to die and apologize.While waiting for the operation, he said to Zhao Jianguo, who was smoking and crying, "Jianguo, your son, send me off."

Of course Zhao Jianguo was unwilling, and even prepared to take his anger out on him and fight him.Lao Chang said unhurriedly: That child is the longest among people, and the life line of his palm is longer than the two of us combined.This kid is too smart and I'm afraid that he will cause many disasters. I don't know how many natural disasters and man-made disasters I have encountered in my life. It's a bitter life. If you recognize the child to me, I will use my dead life to suppress him. Maybe it will be auspicious in the future.

Grandma said, what Uncle Chang said was good.Gao Juzi also deeply agrees.In the past few days, Gao Juzi had a deep self-criticism.She only felt that she owed her third son, and in this life, she suffered from indecisiveness.Because of vanity, he told his old father about the money, and he borrowed money from his old father without saying a word.Now if the money comes back, it will hurt the family, and the harmed son will worry about it.She can't do big things well, and she can't do small things well. As a mother, she can't reconcile when the children have troubles, and she doesn't look like a mother in front of the children.Now something happened to my son, and the culprit was a young man, and the family was poor.The traffic police team didn't divide responsibilities during the New Year's Eve, and the city luck had a good attitude, but this matter didn't happen in the class, and the leaders over there were also embarrassed.The medical expenses became a big burden for the Zhao family, and they entrusted someone to go back to their hometown to ask for the money. The news was sent away for three days, but they didn't send a dime.

At this moment, Gao Juzi has grown up.She quietly made a poisonous oath that she would never cause any trouble to her child again in this life.She wants to earn the most money and put it in the bank for the children.She wants to give her son the happiest home in the world. If there is anything lacking, there will be no shortage of money!She can't go on like this, she has to be strong, she has to be reliable.Look, the mistress is about to die, and she should be worried about being a mother. Is it his business to marry his brother a wife?Is it his business to provide for his mother-in-law?It seems that I am not a good mother, I am probably the most unreliable mother in the world.

Zhao Xuejun woke up at ten o'clock in the evening on the ninth day of the Lunar New Year. When he opened his eyes, he didn't see his family members, but he saw Wang Xi.In the past few days, the family has been exhausted, and Gao Juzi developed a high fever due to exhaustion.When Wang Lu and his wife saw each other, they really couldn't bear it, so they forced their husband and wife to sleep on one side of the bed for a while.Zhao Xuewen took his brother's dirty clothes home to wash, and Zhao Xuebing went to the hospital's tiger stove to fetch water.Wang Xi was fine, so he found a nail clipper and cut Zhao Xuejun's toenails.

"Hey, are you awake?" Wang Xi put down the nail clippers in his hand, jumped up, and shook the exhausted Zhao Jianguo and his wife while snoring: "Uncle and auntie, Junjun is awake, Junjun is awake!"

Zhao Jianguo jumped up in a jerk, ran over without shoes, and looked down at his son.Gao Juzi also came over and called.Wang Xi looked left and right, and the adults were not doing their business to gather around there. He had no choice but to turn around and go out. He found the doctor on duty and said, "Doctor, my brother has woken up." With a loud voice, Zhao Xuebing dropped the things in his hand and ran towards the ward.

"Mom... I want to eat poached eggs, and I am only allowed to make them, not my brother." Zhao Xuejun's first words after he fully regained consciousness were this, completely heartless.