Rebirth Night Talk

Wang Xi sat on his leather chair, holding a small purple sand teapot, and listened to his subordinates' work reports while shaking the back of the leather chair.This guy's spirit has been nourished in the past few years, and he can be regarded as calm and relaxed, as if he has a successful career.But if you compare his current appearance with the appearance of seeing Zhao Xuejun, it is definitely not the same person, it may be twins.

Now he is like a Zhou Papi who is mean to the working people.The Wang Xi that Zhao Xuejun saw was a rubber figure, no matter how you pinch it, and a tumbler that won't get angry no matter how you toss it.

With a rude cough, Wang Xi stopped his subordinates from reporting: "Wait a minute, a production line with an annual output of 1000 tons of fruit juice has a planned land of 70 mu? Are you kidding me? You all know that I have taken up the idea, but that's not for you guys." Prepared, you are good, you count all the planned land as [-] mu, are you sure you have done market research? Let me tell you... the new factory site covers an area of ​​up to [-] mu, it is absolutely impossible More. This report of yours... how should I put it, it is a bit inappropriate... just like this... let's write it again."

The girl who read the report put away the analysis report, held back her tears, turned around and pulled the door to leave, but Wang Xi's voice came from behind him again: "It is said that you have studied abroad?! Which university did you go to? Hey... I wasted my parents' tuition fees, tsk tsk... What a pity."

The girl stared at her beautiful eyes, trying to hold back her tears, walked up to him in a few steps, and shook the document: "I quit!"

Wang Xi stood up in surprise: "Oh, oh! Look at you, I didn't say anything. Since you entered the factory for three months, I asked you to write a report? Why? Are you tired? It's okay, You go home to rest first, rest! Salary... as it is, um... you calm down, go back to play for a few days and continue writing, how about it?"

After swearing in a foreign language that Wang Xi couldn't understand, the girl threw the documents on the table everywhere and left angrily.

Wang Xi sat back in the chair apologetically and returned to a serious expression.This is not the first time, since the middle of this year, such things have been almost uninterrupted.In my hometown, my mother was tossing around with the clan relatives in the village. Fortunately, they couldn't catch him in Hainan. Fortunately, I have the attributes of Zhao Xuejun. I don't like to go back to my hometown to show off my wealth. What's the matter, my mother is a little afraid of him and feels a little guilty about him, so she is always careful.That cautiousness made Wang Xi at a loss, and he didn't go back to his hometown often. Since Wang Rui was admitted to a prestigious school, he was even more reluctant to go back.

Wang Xi is 23 years old this year. According to the eyes of the old people, he has reached the age, and it is time to find a woman and start a family.Grandpas and uncles who have returned from abroad also seem to want to push their grades up and down through marriage, after all, they have been in prison.It seems that there is only Zhao Xuejun in the whole world, and the Zhao family doesn't care about this matter anymore.The one who left just now is the daughter of a related household. She met her when she went abroad to discuss business last time. She fell in love with her as soon as she met.

Putting down the purple sand pot in his hand, Wang Xi picked up a silk handkerchief and began to work seriously, slowly wiping the photo frame on the table, which was a photo of him and Zhao Xuejun hugging each other at a tunnel intersection.Zhao Xuejun doesn't like cuddling with people very much, the face in the photo is very serious.

After wiping, Wang Xi raised his wrist, glanced at the old watch his father Wang Lu left for him, and guessed that it was time for Zi Junjun to dismiss his get out of class.He put down the photo frame, picked up the phone, called the paging station, and asked where Zhao Xuejun was.

After a while, the pager replied: "On the chair."

Wang Xi laughed loudly, feeling better for no reason. He flicked the photo in front of him with his fingers. He scratched his cheek with his fingers, despising Zhao Xuejun's pretentious appearance.Cursed in a low voice: "You can only hum like a pig."

He sent another message: "Pig Hee Hem, the family is making a match for me again."

The other side replied: They can't spoil the flower buds of the motherland like this, you are still young, it is immoral to pinch the buds.

Wang Xihui: Yes, it has been ruined many times. I said pig humming, can we not use the word ruin?

Over there: The little girl at the paging station forbids me to swear, "spoiling" is her bottom line.

Wang Xi: Why are you swearing at me?Because you are a matchmaker for me?I really don't understand why you are angry.

Over there: The weather has always been able to influence my emotions.Today is the fourth day of heavy snow.I hate snow, you know I get a cold when it snows.Actually, I've always wanted to ask, why didn't you choose a good girl, Virgo?You have reached your age too.

Wang Xi: Please ask for leave, Maodong!This question is what I can't figure out the most, and you know I'm not stingy.But every time I think about everywhere, I can't accept the thought of being begged for cheap from now on, someone sharing my life and my bed, and someone has to be taken care of by me... I can't accept it.

Continuing from the previous article: From the body to the wallet, I can't agree.You asked me last week, what kind of person would I like?I don't understand either, no one taught me this.My dad didn't make it in time, and my mom didn't notice...

Over there: I really want to know what kind of look you like.

Wang Xi: If you say, I have to use words to describe my likes.Well, if one day there is someone who can make me willingly let her take advantage of me, that is my favorite.At present, I keep a tight eye on my wallet and flesh, and I am not ready to share it with others.

Zhao Xuejun leaned on the coin-operated telephone in the corridor, smiled slightly after reading the last message, turned off the pager, slowly packed up his things, and walked out.

There are only one or two groups of people left in the class, and Zhao Xuejun thinks he is pretty good.Many students in the south have already suffered from frostbite, and their poor little hands stretch out like five carrots.

"Zhao Xuejun, let's go to the cafeteria together? Either you go back to our dormitory and wait for me to cook and come back. Aren't you going to participate in activities in the afternoon?" Zhu Chen looked shrewd like I knew everything.

Zhao Xuejun looked at the snow that had covered half of his knees, reason finally defeated his emotions, and he compromised: "Okay, thank you!" Zhao Xuejun handed over the meal ticket, and Zhu Chen happily took it, grinning grinningly. of.

The aisle leading to the student dormitory is paved with ashes and grass mats. When we wake up in the morning, the school also organizes snow removal activities.God takes great care of Tianzhou City, you shoveled it in the morning, and paved it for you in the afternoon.

Zhao Xuejun brought a pair of stone mirrors from the shopping mall. After the toad mirror, the most popular and most foreign style is this kind of brown stone mirror.On a snowy day, I can't keep my eyes open without a mirror.The people around were cursing and fighting.It doesn't matter whether it's snowing or a knife hitting you, the students still have to play when it's time to play.

Passing by a few snowmen with weird shapes, looking at the snowman's penis, Zhao Xuejun was really amused. He hated himself for not bringing a camera, so he decided to buy a fool's one to take with him next time.

Someone dropped a backside and caused a lot of laughter.Zhao Xuejun walked carefully on the snow, regretting that he didn't listen to his mother's words, "I can ask for leave."He has been hiding things from his mother about the matter at the school. There is no other way. Isn't this an embarrassment to his parents? The matter has been resolved.What's the point of saying it?Parents know that their children have been bullied, and when they get angry, the children may just feel wronged.But the behavior of the parents may become out of control without using the brain, and the parents are always very vengeful on this point, and they can't forget it for a long time, and they feel angry and uncomfortable when they think about it.

A hand stretched out from one side, supporting Zhao Xuejun who was about to slide.Zhao Xuejun's books and sundries fell all over the floor.

Bei Dongning squatted down with a smile, and helped Zhao Xuejun put them away one by one: "In fact, the people of Tianzhou were also very surprised. We have never seen such a heavy snowfall in history."

"Thank you, thank you. I've been feeling miserable for the past few days. I've been measuring foot by foot. I can't do it. I'm going to catch a cold and have a fever tomorrow. I'll take sick leave when I get back. Let's go... I Go to 405, hey, I paid the accommodation fee anyway." Zhao Xuejun quickly thanked, took the things and complained.

Bei Dongning nodded. Seeing Zhao Xuejun's cautious look was really clumsy, he lowered his head and smiled, and walked over to support him: "Hey, come on, I'll see you off."

Zhao Xuejun looked at Bei Dongning wonderingly: "Why don't you slip?"

Bei Dongning looked at the front and said expressionlessly: "The intentions are sinister, what good will it do for you if I fall down."

"I'll be happy! Although it's not good, I'm just curious about how you got up from the ground and still maintain your pretentious expression."

Bei Dongning smiled, raised his feet, er, this guy is actually wearing a pair of non-slip imported special military boots for snow, although Zhao Xuejun has never seen this kind of shoes sold in the market, but he has seen them in magazines in his previous life.

"Yo, this has overseas relations!"

"What are you talking about? It was made in the former Soviet Union. Didn't everyone go to exchange things for supplies in the past few years? A friend of mine often goes there to make trouble. Whispering, I collected a good Tokarev pistol. I'll play it for you when I'm free, but there's no bullets."

"I am against all murder weapons, even collections."

They walked for a while, Zhao Xuejun stopped at the door of the dormitory, and thanked Bei Dongning.After thanking him, Zhao Xuejun looked at Bei Dongning as if he wanted to say something, but had to swallow it.Zhao Xuejun thought for a while, and felt that he also needed to find someone to talk to.

These so-called inner thoughts are not suitable for telling parents, brothers, or even Wang Xi. Undoubtedly, Bei Dongning is the most suitable person.

Bei Dongning nodded happily after hearing this: "Success, I'll pick you up tonight. There is a scarecrow teahouse in Nancheng. Where should we go? It's quiet...and safe."

That night, Zhao Xuejun took many detours and inquired about many places before he found this scarecrow teahouse in the south of the city.This teahouse is built in a corner of a deep alley, which looks mysterious and hidden.

Pushing open the teahouse's mahogany-clad and iron-edged door that could not be seen inside, Zhao Xuejun hesitated for a moment, but walked in anyway.

"Hey! I've been waiting for you. I thought you wouldn't even come." Bei Dongning slowly turned out from a small bar, and he was actually wearing a waiter's uniform.

"Are you working?" Zhao Xuejun was surprised.

"No, I opened this place as a joint venture with my professor. It's a place to spend time. By the way, I'll take you to a place that you can't go anywhere."

"Are you not in business?"

"It's snowing, there are no guests."

Bei Dongning winked at Zhao Xuejun, took off his apron and led Zhao Xuejun around some rattan tea tables, walked to the corner, bypassed a huge wall used to insert records, and pushed open a wooden door.

Zhao Xuejun felt that it suddenly became clear to him that the room was actually pink and blue.Photos of dead and living stars were framed and hung on the walls, and movie posters were posted on the wall facing the curtain.This is a screening room.

"Go this way." Bei Dongning pushed open another small door, and they went up a spiral staircase inside the door, and walked for a few minutes before opening the cover of a staircase above their heads.

This is an unusually exquisite small dining bar, and there is a very lonely small stage in the dining bar.It is said to be lonely because perhaps Zhao Xuejun was the only customer who came here, and before that, Bei Dongning never dared to bring customers here.No matter who his father is, no matter how big his background is, he dare not.This place was like Bei Dongning's last secret. He was looking forward to it but was afraid. He spent a lot of money to decorate it elegantly and stylishly, but he didn't dare to open the small door under the spiral staircase at the bottom.

"Sit down, I'll treat you to a cup of tea, my professor's favorite."

Bei Dongning asked Zhao Xuejun to sit by the window and look through the curtains.From this position, you can actually see the back alley, the entrance of the most luxurious ballroom in that city, even on a snowy night, there are many young men and women.It seems that you can see all kinds of things in the world here, but you can't peep here.

With a trace of apprehension in receiving relatives and friends, Bei Dongning came out with tea and snacks, and asked him what kind of drink he would like to drink?Zhao Xuejun signaled casually, and then he sat opposite Zhao Xuejun, poured tea for him, and said with a smile: "You know, you are the first guest I receive. You are also the one I met in the whole city...the fourth one." People like me."

Zhao Xuejun was surprised: "So few? Eh? That day, was that the second or third one you knew? You are so fickle, and you are still in two boats..."

Bei Dongning chuckled: "You misunderstood, he is normal, maybe it's because I was by his side. That kid learned to dance, some mothers are true, I recognize him as a godbrother. But I didn't think it was right How about him. And, do you think I have the courage to uncover this?"

They were silent together, holding back their words and drinking slowly from their teacups.

"The first person I knew was my professor, and the second was his dead lover whom he talked about."

The room was silent, and the voice froze again.

"The first time I realized that I was different from others, I was less than ten years old. Hey, I'm very precocious, right?" Bei Dongning started the conversation.

"No, in fact, it's just because...you found out that what you like is abnormal. But at that age, you must be very scared." Zhao Xuejun answered very understandingly.

Bei Dongning nodded, looked at the window and smiled.This night, these two people have some enlightenment, as if they have accumulated many years, many years of secrets, disgust, and even grievances... and those words that have been buried deep in their hearts, the most incommunicable words They're both ready to speak out, though, and it's rude to use each other as trash cans in doing so.But they are all ready to vent, otherwise they will all be suffocated.

How amazing, they also know that the other person's personality and conduct are not the one they like. Even if they are gay, they still need to find someone who is compatible with them!

"When I first found out I liked guys...in middle school. The school football team was playing football and he was laughing in the sun, shirtless, his skin was purple from the sun. A lot of sweat dripping Only then did I know that I like men. I like healthy men who are as bright as the sun. Maybe it’s because I’m too dark, to be honest, I don’t think I can see... the light!"

Zhao Xuejun leaned on the back of the sofa, spoke clearly and without emotion about the things in his previous life.

Bei Dongning smiled and didn't answer his words. He continued to talk about himself: "I cried and made a fuss. I said I was sick and was going to die. My dad asked me what was wrong, and I pointed to my head Say: Dad! I'm sick...and dying!

My dad freaked out and took me around to doctors, I couldn't tell what was wrong with me, but I just thought I was sick.At first my dad thought I was pretending to be sick and skipping class, but later he found out that I would hide in the big water tank at home after school, curled up into a ball.

Everyone said I was crazy, because of me, my father spent all his savings, and my mother left that house.My current mother is a stepmother..."

Zhao Xuejun looked up at him with concern: "You... stepmother treats you well?"

"It's pretty good. Her greatest achievement is that she gave birth to my father's two sons, twins. I'm relieved. How many boys are there in your family?"

"Three, just like yours."

"That's great."

"Yes, that's great! But my mother nags about wanting a daughter every day, and I think she nags too much, which is why I was born wrong."

"Haha, maybe it really is!"

"later?"

"After I go crazy?"

"Hey, you're not crazy, okay?"

"Oh... yes, I'm not crazy. I met my benefactor, who is the professor who opened this teahouse with me now. That was when I was in junior high school. My father took me to see a psychiatrist. Psychology The doctor told me to study hard, read books that are good for the body and mind, and exercise regularly!

When we came out, the professor blocked our way, and he told my father that he wanted to talk to me.My dad is not at ease.Heh... The professor took out his work card and told my father that he is a university professor. Apart from teaching other subjects, he has a lot of research on psychology.Quietly speaking, our professors don’t know what psychology is until now. "

Zhao Xuejun smiled silently, one can imagine what it was like at that time.

"I came here with the professor that day. It was a dilapidated residential house at the time. The professor told me a story, the story of this house... His lover, who has been waiting here for him for many years... Well, that's another story, so I won't tell you. Later, I finally realized that I'm not sick, I'm not crazy, I'm not crazy, I'm smarter than ordinary people. I'm just gay... That's all... what about you?"

Zhao Xuejun stroked the straw mat saucer on the table with his fingers, and thought for a while: "I hide it very well, maybe you are the first to know in this world. In fact, I have always been curious. You should know that I live on the opposite floor of my house. Personally, I grew up with me. So did he... But he didn't see me, how did you see it?"

"Some... small tricks, my professor said, um... he is considered a senior homosexual. Also, the two of us have been researching..."

"What are you studying? Homosexuality? What's there to study?" Zhao Xuejun didn't think there was anything worth studying.

"Then you are from Shanxi, can you tell me why you are from Shanxi, why Shanxi people like to eat sour, and why Shanxi people don't like to go out?"

Zhao Xuejun was stunned for a while... with a hint of bewilderment, he said: "You are not the first person to ask this question, I think I'm going to study it carefully. Well, I apologize, all research is meaningful."

He stood up, stretched, and sat down again. This time he was really relaxed: "Do you have someone you like?" Zhao Xuejun asked Bei Dongning.

"Yes, I'm waiting for him, waiting for him to forget the dead one."

"Don't pretend to be a lover like me, you loved that brother so much that day, that's a lie!"

"Hey, everyone has a love of beauty, I like it, I appreciate it, and it's normal to recognize a younger brother who is good-looking. Besides, that child... Forget it. What about you? Do you like it?"

Zhao Xuejun smiled wryly: "The most painful thing in life is...a homosexual fell in love with a heterosexual. I like one, but he is currently actively dating..."

Bei Dongning looked sad, and helped him fill up the water: "Don't worry, the world is big, and one day you will meet the right one."

Zhao Xuejun hurriedly shook his head and rescued Bei Dongning from the heavy emotions he had woven: "Hey, don't make me so miserable...Actually, I'm not so...as clean as you think..."

Bei Dongning laughed: "Clean? Who is clean in this world?"

Zhao Xuejun pulled up the curtains, cut off the group of red, blue and green girls in the back alley, placed himself in a darker corner, and slowly spoke in the most peaceful tone: "We have known each other since we were very young. Xia Tian... I suddenly found that I like him who is sitting by the brook and having a willful sex. You don't believe me, sometimes I can't believe it myself...I unconsciously wove a big net for him... "

"Net? I don't understand what you mean."

"I wove a web, and I spread my thread to every corner of his whole world. I like him, I'm used to him, I follow him. I always appear when he needs me most, he needs me When helping, his relatives will never appear in his mind. His first reaction is to find me. He relies on me, trusts me, gets close to me, and loves me like... loving the most important relatives in his life... ...are loved ones.

I don't know if I'm doing the right thing or not, but when I found out, it was too late.I am so despicable, sometimes I also spurn myself, this kind of spurning makes me like to hide in the corner, and makes me often examine the color of my soul.Do I understand love?Maybe I didn't understand in my previous life, but I still don't understand in this life, you don't know, he is a good man, I really can't bear to hurt him. "

Bei Dongning didn't speak, and after a long time, he said slowly: "Everyone...in fact, everyone expresses love in a different...different way. You surprised me Zhao Xuejun, at least you are better than me... ...Hey, it's not at the same level. But I envy you, really, there is someone who deserves what you do, not everyone is so lucky."

Zhao Xuejun let out a long breath and smiled: "Yeah, even if I know, he will get married sooner or later, and he will have a child sooner or later. You know, I am not afraid at all... He is an extremely insecure person. Man, he has a hard shell and gets hurt easily. I want him to be happy, even if...he will leave me, but I think if he is happy, it's okay...that's not bad.

But do you know, his current... current situation...his whole person is hidden under the all-metal shell, and it is getting deeper and deeper, and it is getting harder to find love. I am very worried, and I am secretly happy, okay Well... that's what I thought. "

Bei Dongning stood up, walked to the edge of the counter, bent down and took out a wine set, poured out two glasses of wine and brought them over, "I understand what you mean, are you waiting, waiting for him to get hurt?"

Zhao Xuejun clinked glasses with him lightly: "You misunderstood! No one wants him to be happy more than me! I hope he is happy, I hope he is healthy, I hope he smiles often, I hope that all difficulties will be far away from him, and I hope that his wishes come true .But he has climbed to the top now...So...it's a pity! His love path will become more and more difficult in the future...In the world, he can only be happy if he is with me, and no one can give him happiness except me Yes. Even if he's not gay!

I won't worry about his money, I won't worry about his status, I won't worry about demanding his full energy to pay attention to me, I won't bother him during his busiest time, I know what he likes to eat and drink What.I can read his deepest emotions and emotions from his eyes... Besides me, who else can he love? "

"So for your net... a toast?"

"Heh!" Zhao Xuejun smiled wryly: "Net? What's so good about it! When I weaved the net, I was already deeply involved in it. We all know that when you go to the right, the world will go to the left. So I thought it over, I have to Find something to do, love is not the only one, me, I have a heart and two hands ready!"

Bei Dongning had a toast with him, and smiled: "Then let's start being friends from today on, shall we? Be the kind of basic friends who don't cause trouble for each other, don't disturb each other's private life, and don't interfere with each other's private life. Now we Share secrets and give each other a space. I hope that when we are hurt, we can find a place to stay without being disturbed or inquired about. Well, the above is my understanding of basic friends. If possible, please cheers."

Zhao Xuejun toasted with him.