Rebirth Night Talk

In the early morning, the faint sound of firecrackers came from the foot of the mountain, and Zhao Xuejun slowly opened his eyes.He felt as if he had a sexual dream, he in the dream was jerky, and Wang Xi in the dream was also jerky.The hurdle of the physical body is not easy to overcome. From the very beginning to the end, it is so fast and so unreal.After finishing the work, they cleaned themselves up briefly, staggered their bodies not daring to look into each other's eyes, and just fell asleep like that, dreamless until dawn.In the past few years, I have been extremely tired from body to soul.

Zhao Xuejun moved, and found...he was wrapped in Wang Xi's arms again, just like when he was a child...Wang Xi hugged him, and his chin was pointed on the top of his hair.The unique smell that belonged to Wang Xi hit him one after another, and he couldn't help but feel his heart fluctuate and jump around without moral integrity.

Turning slightly sideways, Zhao Xuejun looked at his face with his mouth slightly open.I haven't seen him for such a long time, but he is still the same, still so... handsome.His eyebrows are still willful, his eyelashes are still willful, his high nose is stubborn, and his slightly raised chin is full of green stubble, which is actually stubborn.He's lost weight, a lot.Zhao Xuejun sighed with some distress.To come to this step is what he wishes and what he asks for.But when they were together, he began to fear again. He was about to face two families, and even the whole society.There is still a long way for them to go, although this life is considered to be a life without worrying about food and clothing, it is finally a thousand times stronger than before.But what about Wang Xi?Wang Xi is not like himself, he is at the top, how could he be content with mediocrity?The road still stretches infinitely ahead, just like the previous life, with no end in sight.

After self-pity, self-ridicule, self-criticism and self-comfort for a while, Zhao Xuejun gave himself an answer: Although he still couldn't see the end, he refused to walk alone in this life.Otherwise, this life will be in vain!After thinking about it, he sat up abruptly, a feeling of discomfort spread from his body, and his face suddenly turned red with embarrassment!Finally, from brothers to lovers.Hey, it's not easy.

Holding his waist in embarrassment, Zhao Xuejun slowly entered the bathroom with trembling legs.With the sound of hot water in the bathroom, Wang Xi opened his eyes, his expression was very clear.He had already woken up, but he didn't dare to move.He turned sideways and smelled the smell on the pillow beside him. The smell made him feel stable and peaceful. At this moment, he was comfortable, and he felt a sense of exuberance from his soul to his body.

Grabbing the towel bathrobe beside him and putting it on, Wang Xi went straight to the door of the bathroom. After hesitating for a while, he pushed open the door, and a pair of surprised eyes met him in the bathroom.

"I... um, um, can I rub your back for you?"

"...Okay, you finish rubbing for me, and I'll rub it for you!"

"Ok!"

Throwing a dry towel, Wang Xi scrubbed Zhao Xuejun's back one by one.He rubbed his waist carefully, avoiding some bruises.Zhao Xuejun narrowed his eyes, carefully enjoying and testing, but did not dare to speak proactively.

"This hand strength...does it work?"

"Um……"

Zhao Xuejun lowered his head in panic, and began to squeeze the bar of soap continuously, turning the pool of clear water into milky white.He was awkwardly silent for a while, and finally asked, "What have you been doing these past few years?"

Wang Xi stopped his hand for a moment, hesitated for a moment, finally mustered up the courage, and slowly talked about the illusory life he had lived in the past few years.

In the past few years, he has been drifting around like a leaf of duckweed.At first, he worked hard and filled up all the time he could think of Zhao Xuejun.My career is getting bigger and bigger, but my heart is getting more and more empty.He seldom went back to the Nanfang family. It wasn't that he didn't want to go back, but that the family was getting farther and farther away from him, and he couldn't give him a sense of belonging at all.He thought that was Wang Rui's home and his mother was Wang Rui's mother.

Since the return of the Wang family's overseas relations, Wang Rui has found his roots and lived an extremely happy life.I have to say that Wang Rui is promising.He is smart and thorough, without any confusion of his peers.He knows how to use all favorable conditions to arm himself.In life, he chose a high-enjoyment and high-stimulation lifestyle.He loves challenges, especially business battles!His relationship with his grandfather was very close, and he also changed his way of life with his cousins ​​there.A lot of consumption, high-risk investment... These are just part of his life, with a high degree of education and a good family background.After having money, his girlfriends changed one after another.The relationship between the two brothers is getting farther and farther...

Wang Xi always wanted to find someone to talk about his suffering and bitterness, but unfortunately, every time he saw his mother and younger brother, they always had a lot of words waiting for him.Most of those words were arrangements for his future, ordering him to follow the path he had planned for the future.Mother always agrees and never opposes Wang Rui's suggestions, but how could Wang Xi agree?So the contradiction is getting deeper and deeper.

Wang Xi, who is at the cutting edge of the times, has never told his mother and Wang Rui about his achievements.He really wanted to say it, but... Whenever he came back to his hometown and saw his mother, he would have a long conversation without staying for a while. Time...how did Wang Rui take on that family, how uplifting Wang Rui was...what kind of hardships did Wang Rui go through to get to where he is today...and also, how sorry he was for that family, Sorry for his little brother.It seems that Wang Rui is where all the glory of the Wang family lies.It's not just my mother who thinks that way.The whole town is thinking that way, even the uncles, grandpas, cousins ​​and sisters who are overseas are thinking that way.The Wang family has two sons, one runs a township enterprise and the other is a top social elite.That's how they measure a person.

In the early years, Wang Xi's popularity in starting a business in his hometown was simply not comparable to that of Wang Rui, who set up a company overseas.Wang Rui didn't even bother to ask his brother, who later moved to Hainan, how big his business is now, and whether he needs help?He always dismissed Wang Xi's advice to him.All his experiences are used to race against time and fight against all the illusory enemies who look down on the Wang family.Wang Xi knew that during the time when he was locked up, Wang Rui had been greatly stimulated and suffered too much. On this point, he could not reverse Wang Rui's attitude towards life.He could only wait silently for the day when his younger brother needed him. As an older brother, he could help him stand up again in the way that least hurt his self-esteem.

A detour, I owe my mother the gray temples that will never end in this life.Wang Xi flinched, he didn't dare to brag about how big my career is and how capable I am.He dare not compare with Wang Rui, to compete!He thought... If his mother is proud of Wang Rui, then let's continue as long as his mother is happy.Now, my mother has her own circle of life, and she has a good friend who works as a township cadre in a nearby town.Wang Xi has no objection to his mother having a second life, but he hates that his mother bypasses him to discuss everything with Wang Rui.As the family's scale tilted, the distance between him and that side grew wider and wider.

After parting with Zhao Xuejun, Wang Xi had the idea of ​​escaping, and he even took the initiative to talk to a woman.It's a pity that that nice woman can't always give him the feeling of love he wants.She is not like Zhao Xuejun, not like Zhao Xuejun there.

She is sensitive, cute, delicate, and vulnerable.She needs to rely on, pamper, love with all her heart, and a filial son who is on call 24 hours a day.She looked forward to being fully supported by Wang Xi's arms.She would not introduce Wang Xi like this in front of relatives and friends: "This is my boyfriend, Wang Xi." She would always put Wang Xi's assets and titles at the forefront, and then boasted with a coquettish smile inadvertently: If he doesn't leave me, if he leaves me, he can't live... Everything that woman did is understandable and correct.That period of very ordinary, extremely normal love between a man and a woman lasted for about three months.

Wang Xi is very sorry for leaving that good woman.Although the other party cried and said: Will change, no more vanity.But Wang Xi really couldn't love her.At that moment he had a kind of enlightenment!All his life, he got into a net that Zhao Xuejun had already woven, no matter whether it was painful or not, none of them could struggle to get out anyway.

After listening to Wang Xi's nagging, Zhao Xuejun didn't express much opinion.He stared blankly at the water, thinking about something.In this life, why didn't he have the same idea, find a woman and live like that for the rest of his life!But he can't!No matter how he broke free, he couldn't fight with fate.

Seeing Zhao Xuejun not moving, Wang Xi patted him on the back timidly: "Are you... angry?"

Zhao Xuejun stood up abruptly from the water, startling Wang Xi.

"No! Your previous emotional life has nothing to do with me, but from now on...I mean...your future emotional life...in!"

Wang Xi took off his bathrobe and sat in the bathtub. Zhao Xuejun began to wipe his back. While wiping, he continued: "We are different from others. I don't think there is any need to break it down and talk about it in detail. It's too boring. Feelings are such a thing. , the more you want, the less you get. Why don't you just let nature take its course. After we are together...I hope you can respect me, of course...I will respect you too..." Zhao Xuejun's voice, As the steam slowly spread into Wang Xi's ears, Wang Xi suddenly found that they were talking homely words like an old couple who had lived together for a lifetime.He kept catering to Zhao Xuejun's words, feeling a sense of inadvertent happiness spreading all over his body.

"Well, that's the reason."

"Wang Xi?"

"Have you thought about it?" Zhao Xuejun stopped his vigorous hand and patted him on the back.

Wang Xi wiped his face and turned to look at him: "What have you thought about?"

"If one day, we are old and unable to move. One of them is hospitalized and needs surgery due to a serious illness. But in the household registration booklet, even if we live our entire lives, we are not relatives, and we cannot sign that letter on behalf of each other... ...Even...do you not regret it?"

Wang Xi smiled indifferently, sat back and sighed comfortably: "It's quiet on this mountain, I've been thinking about it for many days. There is always a way to live for a lifetime."

Outside, a mobile phone rang, and Zhao Xuejun put down the towel and walked out... After a while, the sound of ping-pong-pong from the kitchen slowly came out, just like it was a long, long time ago, as if the years of wandering had never happened, it was as strange and wonderful return to standard.

After taking a shower, Wang Xi got dressed and went to the small living room. A couplet that had just been written and the ink was waiting to dry was placed on the round table: From the north and the south, Ruixue sent an old friend Sanchunhuafa, magpie begonia to sing spring songs .

Touching his chin, Wang Xi let out a burst of joy, and yelled to the kitchen, "San'er!"

Zhao Xuejun wore a Doraemon apron, held a spoon and went outside the kitchen to look at him: "What?"

"Look at this spring song... Your couplet is realistic, right?!" Wang Xi teased holding up the couplet.

Touching his chin, Zhao Xuejun didn't hide his happiness. He smiled and nodded shamelessly, "That's what it means."

Wang Xi happily turned around and took the Spring Festival couplets, took the batter that Zhao Xuejun had prepared and went out, Zhao Xuejun followed with a chair.

This year is a prosperous year, Zhao Xuejun bought a share, and Wang Xi also bought a share, they are all people who are reluctant to be wronged by themselves.Large prawns and imported hairtail are bought in boxes.Leaving aside these seafood, the two boxes of imported red wine alone are worth a lot.

"The refrigerator is full, just the two of us, how can you eat this?" Zhao Xuejun complained while handing the couplets.

Wang Xi stepped on the bench with a cigarette in his mouth and said nonchalantly, "Eat it slowly, maybe it's not enough! I can accompany you until the end of March, and recently...it's nothing to do. How much money is enough? Enough Just get the flowers!"

Zhao Xuejun pursed his lips happily: "Well, then...then I don't go to work, and I've been tired in the past few years."

The snow in the sky is getting bigger and bigger, the urban streets under the mountain are lonely because of the Spring Festival, and the firecrackers are faintly coming from the lights of thousands of houses.They babbled about this family's short story, and the hearty laughter unique to men kept coming out.After posting the Spring Festival couplets, they returned to the house with the bench.After breakfast, the two of them put all future issues on the table and started talking seriously.Perhaps, this is where the emotional difference between men and men is different from men and women.They are more realistic and live a more real life.

A few days passed after that, the Spring Festival for the two of them was happy, but the happy days always passed quickly. On February 1997, 2, Zhao Xuejun, who was full of sleep, turned on the TV with the remote control, and an article on the TV The obituary appeared without warning, and Comrade Xiaoping went there.

The people lying on the bed were stunned for a while, feeling sad for a while.Zhao Xuejun wanted to express his opinion, but he opened his mouth but couldn't judge the old man.They were silent for a long time, until the ringtone of Zhao Xuejun's mobile phone suddenly rang, which shocked them both!