But please be me

Zou Momo went home and read the book his father left him carefully. There was nothing special in it, except for the title page which said "May my son live a healthy life, be ordinary and happy, father Liujiang", and there was a collection of handwritten poems inside. , and all of them are love poems, from "My Fair Lady, A Gentleman Loves You" in the Book of Songs, to Li Bai's "Enter My Lovesickness Gate, and Know My Lovesickness Is Bitter", and then Xu Zaisi's "If you don't love lovesickness in your life, you will love it. lovesickness"...

From what Zou Momo saw, these love poems were copied by his father himself, and most likely they were written to his mother. When he turned to the end, suddenly a few lines of small pen characters came into his eyes, and it read: My son Xiao Momo, Dad Mom wants to love you and watch you grow up healthy and happy, but we can't keep our promises. We are sorry for you, so I hope you can be strong and choose your favorite way of life when you grow up. You have to remember that mom and dad love you.

Zou Momo looked at this line of words in silence for a long time, a little expressionless.

After a pause, he flipped through the book again to read the poems in it, but he couldn't actually read it.

The words in it were all written by his biological father.

Zou Momo really has no memory of his biological father, and even less of his mother.

When he was young, at Liu's house, he only saw a picture of his father. It was a young, handsome and gentle man sitting on a chair, like a modest gentleman who came out of an ancient poem, although he thought this man was very good-looking , and very attractive, but, thinking that this person is his father, there is always a feeling of awkwardness in my heart.

It's not that he doesn't recognize him as his father, but when he thinks that he has left forever, he feels an unacceptable sadness. After all, the characters in the photos are so vivid, how can he accept that he has left forever, and he will never will appear in front of him.At that time, how he wished he was still alive.

As for his mother, after he came to Zou Sheng's side, he didn't know where Zou Sheng found his mother's photo. It was the first time he saw his mother's appearance. In fact, there was nothing to see. It was a woman who looked quite similar to him. In the photo, she seemed to be irritated by someone, with a look of embarrassment, annoyance and helplessness on her face. She could not be called a great beauty, but just delicate.

Zou Momo had grown up to a certain level at that time, so when he saw the picture of his mother, he was a little excited and very kind, but after all, his feelings were not particularly deep.

He gave Zou Sheng his deepest feelings.

However, now, he is holding the book his father left him. There is obviously nothing written in it, but he suddenly has a heavy feeling that he is about to shed tears. This book doesn't know what to do, so I have to cover up all the emotions and try to be plain.

When he was reading, Zou Sheng didn't stay by his side in order to avoid suspicion and respect his privacy. Seeing that he had been sitting in the study for too long and remained silent, Zou Sheng was worried that something would happen to him. Then he knocked on the door and opened it.

Zou Momo was sitting by the French window, the window was opened, a breeze came in, blowing the white gauze curtain, the wind gently brushed his hair, and he turned his head when he heard the sound of the door being knocked and opened behind him , looking towards the door.

Zou Sheng walked up to Zou Momo, knelt down in front of him, and looked at him.

Zou Momo opened his mouth lightly. He wanted to say something, but he didn't know what to say. His eyes were calm, but there was deep sadness in the depth of the silence.

Zou Sheng looked at him and said, "What's wrong? Are you sad?"

Zou Momo stroked the cover of the book with her fingers, opened her mouth again, and then made a little sound, but with some astringent taste, "I don't know, I feel tight in my chest."

Zou Sheng got up, picked him up from the wheelchair, put him on the couch, sat beside him, hugged his body, and said, "Then lean on me for a while, I will accompany you with you."

Zou Momo put her arms around his waist, rested her head on his lap, and closed her eyes.

He couldn't express the pain in his heart, because he didn't know what the pain was, but he felt that he really couldn't do without Zou Sheng at this moment, and he thanked him for being with him at this time.

Zou Sheng gently stroked his hair, didn't speak, just accompanied him quietly.

The sun went down, the sunset glow also receded, the sky gradually darkened, and the room gradually darkened.

On the way, a maid came upstairs to ask about dinner time, Zou Sheng told her to go downstairs, saying there was no rush.

Zou Momo lay motionless on Zou Sheng's lap, as if she had fallen asleep, but Zou Sheng knew he hadn't.

Until the room was completely dark, without turning on the lights, everything in the room was in darkness, quiet, and seemed to be able to hear the other person's breathing, as well as his own breathing.

In the room, Zou Momo's voice suddenly sounded, the voice was small but clear.

"I didn't want to think about my parents before. I would feel relaxed if I didn't think about them. When I think about them, I always feel uncomfortable. Why did they leave so early and leave me in this world, looking at other people's children I can be hugged by my parents, but I can only stand and watch from a distance. I actually miss them very much, and I have asked myself many times, if my parents were still there, then I would definitely not be like this now, I won't be. Why did they leave me and leave, and they won't come back..."

Zou Sheng's legs were already numb by Zou Momo, but he didn't say anything. He was still stroking his hair gently to comfort him, and said, "It's not because of their volition that they will leave. They I love you in my heart. Although they left and will not come back again, I will love you and take care of you instead of them..."

Zou Momo got up from Zou Sheng's body and looked up at him. The light in the room was extremely dark, but he could still see Zou Sheng's face and his gentle eyes clearly. He put his arms around his shoulders and said, , "Thank you, Uncle Sheng."

Zou Sheng also hugged him, and then he moved his leg. It was indeed so numb that it was difficult to move. Zou Momo found that his leg was numb from the pillow, so he stretched out his hand to gently stroke and rub his leg, and said, "I You shouldn't feel uncomfortable, just like this made your legs numb."

Zou Sheng smiled and said, "Little fool. It's not just sleeping on my lap, you look like this. If you don't pillow on my lap, I will feel uncomfortable."

Zou Momo rubbed his legs for a while and asked, "Is it better now?"

"Well, it was nothing at first, but it's fine now." Zou Sheng replied, looking down at him, and Zou Momo just raised his head. In the dark space, two pairs of eyes looked at each other quietly, and there was warmth flowing inside. Warm sun, leisurely love like a song from afar.

Zou Momo suddenly propped up her body with her hands, put the weight of her body on her legs, knelt up, and kissed Zou Sheng's lips.

He could only immediately reach out and grab Zou Sheng's shoulders tightly to support his body. His legs were so painful that he couldn't bear the weight of his body.

Zou Sheng was stunned for a moment, then reached out and quickly hugged Zou Momo's body, and responded to him gently.

After a while, Zou Momo left his lips, leaned his head on his shoulder, and said, "Uncle Sheng, I read the book my father left me, and I know that he must love my mother very much, and he also loves my mother." Me. He is my father, just like his words give me the feeling, the gentleness and delicacy actually imply strength and sharpness, I used to not want to think about him, nor my mother, I think, I As long as I have you, it will be fine, but now I find that this is not acceptable..."

Zou Momo's words made Zou Sheng's heart tighten, and he hugged him even tighter, but he didn't interrupt him, just listened.

Zou Momo continued, "I always rely on you, that's not okay, I always get from you, but I can't give you help, that's not okay, I always say that I have grown up, but, I You know, I haven't grown up at all, I'm still like a child, when I encounter things, I always think, anyway, Uncle Sheng will help me solve it, I don't have to worry... I rely on you for everything, and I still take it for granted, and think To take this for granted all the time... is really despicable of me, isn't it?"

Zou Sheng gently stroked his back and said, "Fool, what are you talking about."

Zou Momo said, "I didn't talk nonsense, it's just like this. I feel that I am not enough at all, and I don't deserve to love you like that. I feel uncomfortable when you are with other women, I go crazy with jealousy, and I feel sulky. ;I always say that you should get married, you want to give me younger brothers and sisters, but in fact, I don't want you at all in my heart, I think you will always love me alone, don't have women, don't have brothers and sisters Take your love away; when you are not around, I always miss you and want to call you, but I am afraid that you are in a meeting, or there are important things that are inconvenient to answer, but if I don’t call you, I always feel missing. I can't survive without something, so I blame you for being so busy all the time, and you don't have any more time to accompany me..."

"You don't know, I'm ugly and despicable in my heart. I hate myself for being like this, but I'm conniving. I can't see any advantages in myself. Maybe it's good for Mom and Dad to leave early, otherwise, they It must be very disappointing to see me like this.”

Zou Sheng had complicated thoughts in his heart, and wanted to comfort Zou Momo, but was interrupted by his next words.

"Uncle Sheng, I can't love you like I only love my father. I don't respect you enough in my heart. If I don't satisfy you, I just touch my head and kiss my forehead like a child who is not sensible. I want to be like a man. I love you dearly, but I am not brave enough. I have never dared to tell you before. I am afraid that everything will deteriorate because of my words and become something I cannot bear. I am so bad, I don’t know if you will Will you still love me? If not, then, I think, I shouldn't live with you as before, I should really let you go and let you get married..."

The night covered up many things, Zou Momo buried his face on Zou Sheng's shoulder, he kept talking, but he didn't dare to open his eyes to look, he could hear Zou Sheng's breathing, but he didn't dare to confirm Zou Sheng's Meaning, in fact, he is still timid, he is still afraid, afraid that he will not be able to bear it.

At this time, Zou Sheng stopped his next words, hugged Zou Momo in his arms, met Zou Momo's eyes, and said, "Fool, you have said so much on your own, why don't you ask?" Ask me what you mean?"